~*~*~ Gundam 07: Cosmic Darkness ~*~*~
By: Rage Barton
Original Idea: Zenbu Hotaru Megumi
Hey, welcome to the fic. I don't own Gundam, bye!
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Hotaru felt like killing something. Dinner that night had gone... worse than expected. Duo had dissed Wufei... again and Wufei started to chase Duo with his katana... again.
Hotaru was staring up at the ceiling as the silence covered the room like a thick fog. It was about 5 in the morning and Hotaru had been up most of the night. Her mind kept flipping back to the conversations she had had with Heero, Setsuna, and Milliardo. Sighing in defeat, she got up and grabbed her black robe. Tying it tightly around her frail looking body, she walked onto the balcony.
The sun was rising slowly in the east and Hotaru took in a deep breath of the crisp morning air. The birds chirped in the distance as Hotaru relaxed. It's been a while since the last time she could let her shields fall and just relax. She smiled as she saw a family of rabbits racing across the grass. She shivered, not knowing whether it was from the chilly morning air or the fact that the rabbits reminded her of her sister, Serenity.
'How are you doing Sere? Although you betrayed me, you're still my little sister. Oh, why did things have to turn out the way they did?!'
"You shouldn't yell so loud when you confess something Ru."
Hotaru's eyes widened as she heard the voice. Then to her complete out of her mind shock, she felt a pair of strong, muscular arms wrap themselves around her thin waist. She stiffened, but against her wishes found her body relaxing. Slowly melting into him, she relaxed and a smile of content appeared on her usually blank face. Her body felt warm as she leaned against his strong chest. Emotions filled her, happiness, peace and joy.
Heero felt himself grin like an idiot. He loved the way she smelled, like lavender and a bright spring morning. Her smile brightened the darkness that he carried in him each day. She melted into him, their bodies fitting perfectly together, like it was meant to be.
"Get your dirty hands off of me Heero Yuy."
Heero's grin disappeared as he opened his eyes. Hotaru was staring at him, anger and darkness consumed her eyes. He only blinked as Hotaru pushed him away from her.
Hotaru forced herself to glare at him as she saw the look of pain and confusion flash through his beautiful blue eyes.
"What's wrong Ru?"
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Heero looked at her as emotions flashed through her eyes. They were now a black fire that burned from the confusion that held them.
"But I thought..."
"Whatever you thought was wrong Heero Yuy! And if you ever dare put your dirty hands on me again, I'll kill you!!!!!!!!!!!"
Hotaru stalked away, leaving Heero on the balcony, alone and confused. He felt the evil in him rise as the darkness consumed again. Again he was alone, alone to face his demons, alone to keep that tiny shred of hope alive in himself. His eyes blazed with anger and confusion as his mind played the scene over again. What had gone wrong? What the hell did he do to deserve such punishment? He was happy, content, but then it only lasted for seconds. But then he knew the truth. He was falling in love with her damn it. But then she probably didn't feel the same. He felt his heart shatter at the thought. But then at least he was with her for one second.
"Better to hold something you treasure for seconds than to live eternity without it."
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Hotaru ran as fast as he could. Her slender legs carried her through the house, and into Setsuna's room. She froze when she opened the door. Setsuna was sitting on Milliardo's lap, and they were in the middle of a heated make out session.
Setsuna looked up and stared at Hotaru. She saw the wild, savage and confused look her princess's eyes. She got up and ran over to engulf Hotaru into a hug. Milliardo stood up and ran off, looking to find Heero.
"If he hurt her, I will rip out his throat!"
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"Hotaru what's the matter?"
Hotaru let the tears run down her face as she explained what had happened. Setsuna's expression went from joy and happiness, to anger, to pain, to shock, to pain and then back to shock.
"SO YOU LEFT HIM?!?!"
Hotaru numbly shook her head. That was a good word to use right then. Numb. She had no feeling, she was empty, like a shell, except this time, it was worse than when the Scouts had betrayed her. She shook her head as the last of her tears fell. There will be no more tears. She had brought everything on by herself. She was the cause of this mess and now she was chasing her own tail. She was going around, and around, and around. And every time ending back at Heartbreak City.
She flipped the bed over and Setsuna jumped up. Hotaru's eyes were black and emotionless. All of the old Hotaru had disappeared tossed out the window.
"Hotaru?"
"No, the name is Tenshi, Gundam pilot 07, designed to kill and destroy."
Setsuna's eyes widened when she heard Hotaru's cold and emotionless voice. Her princess had disappeared, leaving behind a shell of what she once was. She watched as her princess walked out the room. She entered as the heart broken, kind and peaceful princess of the Moon Kingdom, she left the as the Perfect Soldier, emotionless, monotonous, and perfect.
Milliardo ran into Heero and Hotaru's room. His eyes filled with anger and murder. He kicked the door open, and could not believe what he saw. The room was completely destroyed. The bed was on the other side of the room. The desks were all overturned. Broken pieced of furniture laid scattered across the room. The Perfect Soldier standing in the middle of the wreckage that was once the beautiful room of the Peacecraft mansion. Milliardo winced as he saw the blood running down his hands, arms and chest. He just stood there as Milliardo stared at him. His eyes blank, with a darkness in it that had never been there before. The haunted look in his eyes was maddening, and Milliardo thought he had finally lost it.
"What happened Heero?"
Heero looked at him, eyes still blank.
"DAMN IT WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?!?!"
Unmoving and as unfeeling as a mountain, Heero Yuy stared into the ice blue eyes of Milliardo Peacecraft. Milliardo crossed the room in a few long strides and punched Heero. Blood trickled down his busted lip but he didn't move. He didn't as much as blink. Milliardo shut his eyes as he tried his best to control himself. This was too weird. Hotaru was crying and on the brink of a nervous break down. Heero was now beyond description the Perfect Soldier, he wasn't even moving for god's sake! The two of them were giving him white hairs and he was only 26!
"What happened Heero?
Milliardo's voice was soft and desperate. He looked up as a desperate and confused look came into Heero's eyes.
"I hugged her."
It was so soft that Milliardo thought he didn't hear it. But then once he processed the words, it was as if Heero was shouting it at the top of his lungs. Milliardo was struck as his eyes widened.
"You're kidding right?"
"No, I hugged her. But she didn't want to be hugged. But...but I thought it was okay since...since she was happy with it at first."
Heero looked at Milliardo, his eyes confused, and Heero searched Milliardo's eyes for an answer. But all he saw was what was reflecting in his eyes. Confusion, pain, and desperation. Heero's eyes went blank as the words of a song he that heard long ago floated through his mind.
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)
Pre chorus: (2x)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself
Chorus:
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
(by myself).
Pre chorus
Chorus
The Perfect Soldier was back, and better than ever.
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Do you guys like, totally hate me now? I mean, I'm evil but I think I might have gone a little too far. But hey! It's more exciting eh? Not all unpredicted, but I can say I guess it's a tiny twist. I'm planning on making his pretty long. About 20 chapters or so. I'm not too sure but I already have a lot of ideas and future things, and trust me, according to my friend, it's pretty wicked. For I am Rage!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Well I gotta go take a shower, and then work on the next chapter. Bye!
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PS: The song is by Linkin Park and it's called 'By Myself'. I'm kinda obsessed with Linkin Park, Staind, Backstreet Boys (Don't ask) Destiny's Child, Eminem, Britney Spears, Jewel, P.O.D.'s Alive, and every other band and song you can think of.
Well now I really gotta go. I can't believe how much homework they give in the eighth grade!!!!!!
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