Truths
Chapter 6
Disclaimer: Don't own them
IMPORTANT: This story is completely AU, I doubt it will ever happen on the show. I'm just writing this for fun.
AN:
I want to thank the people who reviewed the first time. Scuzmoll, buzzy, Melissa, RK9, LissaMarie, MissyJane, Krisnina77, SaxophoneForensicsChic05, Bex3, oOoOo, Lilybelle80538, Annie Lune, Jhfortier ang Megan. I also want to thank anyone else who reviews. Thank you.
One final thing, I know that in One Hit Wonder Sara mentions that she has a brother. I don't recall if she said older or younger, but for the sake of this story, he's younger. Just wanted to let y'all know.
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"Mom, dad, why did you lie to me?"
Her parents exchanged glances before her father answered, "lie to you about what sweetie"
"About being adopted?"
The air seemed to drain from the room. Her parents became pale and silent. Nick could tell from their faces that they never expected Sara to ever find out she wasn't their biological child. He saw surprise and even fear in their faces.
"I'm waiting for an answer" Sara spoke up
Her parents looked at her, Nick and then back at each other. Not quite sure on how they should handle the question in front of them.
"I WANT AN ANSWER NOW!!!!" Sara screamed "I DESERVE AN ANSWER"
Nick took Sara's hand into his own and squeezed it, hoping to somehow transfer strength and calmness into her.
"Sara there is no need to scream" her father stated
"Then answer the damn question. WHY. DID. YOU. LIE. TO. ME?" Sara said, enunciating her question.
Alice took a deep breath, "how did you find out?" she asked Sara.
"It really doesn't matter how I found out right now, what matters is why you lied to me? I'm thirty two. I deserved to know this." Sara stated somewhat cruelly to her parents. "I understand not telling me as a child. But you two most certainly should have told me when I was at an age to understand. When I was a teenager, before I left for college. There were many times you could have told me, yet you didn't. And I want and deserve to know why?"
"You're right Sara, we should have told you." Her father stated
"You know that I love you, but I want answers. Right now." Sara stated starting to lose her patience again.
"Okay, your mother and I had been married for some time when." William started and then was interrupted by Alice.
"William, I'd like to tell Sara if that's okay?"
William nodded and she began, "We had been married for about two years when we tried to conceive. We weren't able too. The doctors couldn't give a definitive reason to why we couldn't conceive, we just couldn't. We finally decided to adopt. We went to a private agency her in San Francisco. They told us of a young teenage mother who was due to give birth in about a five months time. The girls parents decided to put the baby up for adoption. They also wanted it to be a closed adoption. Which meant we didn't find out anything about your biological parents. We just knew they were teenagers. That was it. We expressed an interest and the agency sent the girls parents our information and after a couple of months we were selected to adopt you. When the young woman went into labor the agency called us and told us where to go. We went to the hospital, picked you up and brought you home. Never once seeing your birth parents."
"I get this, I do, but it doesn't explain why you never told me I was adopted?" Sara stated
"We didn't want you to feel any different" her father stated
"Different about what?"
"Your brother"
Suddenly it sank in. Josh was their biological child. Josh was only a year younger than her, so she never thought anything of it. It also explained why she always felt like she was somehow out of the loop, like she was a fourth wheel. It all made perfect sense now and she hated it. Hated that because of her feelings on inadequacy as a child led to her zen social life. Sara's face dropped as she became haunted by memories of her childhood, memories that she had tried to repress. She then did something she had never done before in front of her parents, she began crying. Nick immediately took her into his arms and pulled her quivering body close to his.
Her mother immediately jumped up to comfort her daughter but she halted her movements when Nick gave her a death look. A look that said, 'she is in enough pain, I'll take care of her'.
During the intervening time, William got up and went to his study. He had kept all the paperwork given to them on Sara's adoption. He grabbed everything they had and went back to the living room. He handed the manila envelope to Nick.
"This is everything we ever received for her adoption. Maybe it will help" William said and exited the room. Leaving his daughter to cry in the arms of her boyfriend.
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William found Alice upstairs in the attic, which was Sara's old bedroom. She was sitting on Sara's old bed, holding a stuffed animal.
"Alice. What are you doing up here?"
"You were right, all those years ago. You were right." Alice said through her tears.
William moved to the bed and took Alice in his arms, "Shh. Yes, we should have told Sara sooner, but we can't change the past. All we can do is give her the answers and the space she needs"
William continued to hold his wife until her tears began to subside. All the while worried about his daughter.
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After awhile Sara pulled away from Nick. Her eyes red from crying and tear stains down her beautiful cheeks.
"Thank you Nick" she whispered
"You are more than welcome. Anything I can do to help you Sara, I will"
"I know" she paused "I feel so.so.alone"
He pulled her body back to his for a hug, "Sara you're not alone, you never will be. You will always have me. Always" "I believe you Nick. I just feel like I don't have a family. My parents lied to me. About being adopted about Josh being their biological child. When I was younger I always felt so left out, now I realize why I felt left out. I just felt that my parents didn't love me the same way they loved Josh"
"Sara don't think that way. I may have just met your parents, but I can see that they love you. Remember you are the oldest, oldest children tend to get treated differently whether the parents intend to or not. My oldest sister got blamed for so much and got in trouble for so much, but I didn't because I was the baby"
Sara smiled at his confession
"I know my parents love me. I do. It just is so confusing. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. Part of me feels like their not my parents, but another part of me does because they raised me"
"Sara, they will always be your parents, because they did raise you. You are their daughter."
"But what about Grissom and Elizabeth?"
"Sara, you don't know any more than I do about Grissom and Elizabeth's situation. But just by doing the math, they were babies themselves. Grissom was only fifteen when you were born. What kind of parents could fifteen year olds really have been to you? Again, I don't if they chose to put up for adoption or if their parents forced them, but they did what they thought was best for you. For you to have the life you deserved. Yes, you want answers and god knows you deserve those answers." Nick stated and paused "You don't have to choose between your parents and Grissom and Elizabeth. You can have them all"
They sat there, holding each other in silence. It was broken though about twenty minutes later when her parents reentered the room. When Sara saw her parents come in, she pulled away from Nick and stood, he quickly followed suit.
"How is everything in here?" her father asked tentavely
"Look, I love you guys. But this is going to take me some time. I hope you can understand that"
"We do sweetie, we do" her mother stated
"I'm glad" Sara paused "I think we should leave. I just want to leave right now. We'll be in town for a couple days. Um.how bout we meet for dinner tomorrow night?"
"Okay, that will be fine" Her father stated
Sara walked over and gave her parents hugs, she then quickly left the house, deciding to wait for Nick at the car.
"She'll be okay. I just want you both to know that" Nick stated
"I know she will. I'm just glad she has you. I can tell you care about her a great deal" Alice stated and gave Nick a hug, which surprised him. "Have a safe drive back to your hotel" She said and left the room.
"Sara didn't bring her cell phone, so let me leave you mine, so you can get a hold of us" Nick stated.
"Thank you"
Nick quickly wrote down his cell phone number. He then shook Mr. Sidles hand and told him he would see him tomorrow. He then left the house. He quickly unlocked the car and they both got in. He slowly pulled away from the bed and breakfast and drove them back to their hotel.
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AN: Sorry this chapter is so short. I just wanted it to be completely devoted to Sara and her parents.
Chapter 6
Disclaimer: Don't own them
IMPORTANT: This story is completely AU, I doubt it will ever happen on the show. I'm just writing this for fun.
AN:
I want to thank the people who reviewed the first time. Scuzmoll, buzzy, Melissa, RK9, LissaMarie, MissyJane, Krisnina77, SaxophoneForensicsChic05, Bex3, oOoOo, Lilybelle80538, Annie Lune, Jhfortier ang Megan. I also want to thank anyone else who reviews. Thank you.
One final thing, I know that in One Hit Wonder Sara mentions that she has a brother. I don't recall if she said older or younger, but for the sake of this story, he's younger. Just wanted to let y'all know.
*~*~*
"Mom, dad, why did you lie to me?"
Her parents exchanged glances before her father answered, "lie to you about what sweetie"
"About being adopted?"
The air seemed to drain from the room. Her parents became pale and silent. Nick could tell from their faces that they never expected Sara to ever find out she wasn't their biological child. He saw surprise and even fear in their faces.
"I'm waiting for an answer" Sara spoke up
Her parents looked at her, Nick and then back at each other. Not quite sure on how they should handle the question in front of them.
"I WANT AN ANSWER NOW!!!!" Sara screamed "I DESERVE AN ANSWER"
Nick took Sara's hand into his own and squeezed it, hoping to somehow transfer strength and calmness into her.
"Sara there is no need to scream" her father stated
"Then answer the damn question. WHY. DID. YOU. LIE. TO. ME?" Sara said, enunciating her question.
Alice took a deep breath, "how did you find out?" she asked Sara.
"It really doesn't matter how I found out right now, what matters is why you lied to me? I'm thirty two. I deserved to know this." Sara stated somewhat cruelly to her parents. "I understand not telling me as a child. But you two most certainly should have told me when I was at an age to understand. When I was a teenager, before I left for college. There were many times you could have told me, yet you didn't. And I want and deserve to know why?"
"You're right Sara, we should have told you." Her father stated
"You know that I love you, but I want answers. Right now." Sara stated starting to lose her patience again.
"Okay, your mother and I had been married for some time when." William started and then was interrupted by Alice.
"William, I'd like to tell Sara if that's okay?"
William nodded and she began, "We had been married for about two years when we tried to conceive. We weren't able too. The doctors couldn't give a definitive reason to why we couldn't conceive, we just couldn't. We finally decided to adopt. We went to a private agency her in San Francisco. They told us of a young teenage mother who was due to give birth in about a five months time. The girls parents decided to put the baby up for adoption. They also wanted it to be a closed adoption. Which meant we didn't find out anything about your biological parents. We just knew they were teenagers. That was it. We expressed an interest and the agency sent the girls parents our information and after a couple of months we were selected to adopt you. When the young woman went into labor the agency called us and told us where to go. We went to the hospital, picked you up and brought you home. Never once seeing your birth parents."
"I get this, I do, but it doesn't explain why you never told me I was adopted?" Sara stated
"We didn't want you to feel any different" her father stated
"Different about what?"
"Your brother"
Suddenly it sank in. Josh was their biological child. Josh was only a year younger than her, so she never thought anything of it. It also explained why she always felt like she was somehow out of the loop, like she was a fourth wheel. It all made perfect sense now and she hated it. Hated that because of her feelings on inadequacy as a child led to her zen social life. Sara's face dropped as she became haunted by memories of her childhood, memories that she had tried to repress. She then did something she had never done before in front of her parents, she began crying. Nick immediately took her into his arms and pulled her quivering body close to his.
Her mother immediately jumped up to comfort her daughter but she halted her movements when Nick gave her a death look. A look that said, 'she is in enough pain, I'll take care of her'.
During the intervening time, William got up and went to his study. He had kept all the paperwork given to them on Sara's adoption. He grabbed everything they had and went back to the living room. He handed the manila envelope to Nick.
"This is everything we ever received for her adoption. Maybe it will help" William said and exited the room. Leaving his daughter to cry in the arms of her boyfriend.
*~*~*
William found Alice upstairs in the attic, which was Sara's old bedroom. She was sitting on Sara's old bed, holding a stuffed animal.
"Alice. What are you doing up here?"
"You were right, all those years ago. You were right." Alice said through her tears.
William moved to the bed and took Alice in his arms, "Shh. Yes, we should have told Sara sooner, but we can't change the past. All we can do is give her the answers and the space she needs"
William continued to hold his wife until her tears began to subside. All the while worried about his daughter.
*~*~*
After awhile Sara pulled away from Nick. Her eyes red from crying and tear stains down her beautiful cheeks.
"Thank you Nick" she whispered
"You are more than welcome. Anything I can do to help you Sara, I will"
"I know" she paused "I feel so.so.alone"
He pulled her body back to his for a hug, "Sara you're not alone, you never will be. You will always have me. Always" "I believe you Nick. I just feel like I don't have a family. My parents lied to me. About being adopted about Josh being their biological child. When I was younger I always felt so left out, now I realize why I felt left out. I just felt that my parents didn't love me the same way they loved Josh"
"Sara don't think that way. I may have just met your parents, but I can see that they love you. Remember you are the oldest, oldest children tend to get treated differently whether the parents intend to or not. My oldest sister got blamed for so much and got in trouble for so much, but I didn't because I was the baby"
Sara smiled at his confession
"I know my parents love me. I do. It just is so confusing. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. Part of me feels like their not my parents, but another part of me does because they raised me"
"Sara, they will always be your parents, because they did raise you. You are their daughter."
"But what about Grissom and Elizabeth?"
"Sara, you don't know any more than I do about Grissom and Elizabeth's situation. But just by doing the math, they were babies themselves. Grissom was only fifteen when you were born. What kind of parents could fifteen year olds really have been to you? Again, I don't if they chose to put up for adoption or if their parents forced them, but they did what they thought was best for you. For you to have the life you deserved. Yes, you want answers and god knows you deserve those answers." Nick stated and paused "You don't have to choose between your parents and Grissom and Elizabeth. You can have them all"
They sat there, holding each other in silence. It was broken though about twenty minutes later when her parents reentered the room. When Sara saw her parents come in, she pulled away from Nick and stood, he quickly followed suit.
"How is everything in here?" her father asked tentavely
"Look, I love you guys. But this is going to take me some time. I hope you can understand that"
"We do sweetie, we do" her mother stated
"I'm glad" Sara paused "I think we should leave. I just want to leave right now. We'll be in town for a couple days. Um.how bout we meet for dinner tomorrow night?"
"Okay, that will be fine" Her father stated
Sara walked over and gave her parents hugs, she then quickly left the house, deciding to wait for Nick at the car.
"She'll be okay. I just want you both to know that" Nick stated
"I know she will. I'm just glad she has you. I can tell you care about her a great deal" Alice stated and gave Nick a hug, which surprised him. "Have a safe drive back to your hotel" She said and left the room.
"Sara didn't bring her cell phone, so let me leave you mine, so you can get a hold of us" Nick stated.
"Thank you"
Nick quickly wrote down his cell phone number. He then shook Mr. Sidles hand and told him he would see him tomorrow. He then left the house. He quickly unlocked the car and they both got in. He slowly pulled away from the bed and breakfast and drove them back to their hotel.
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AN: Sorry this chapter is so short. I just wanted it to be completely devoted to Sara and her parents.