The past few days were to be very busy ones. Mandy had scene after scene
that needed to be shot within the limited ten hours they had to work with
her. Calvin didn't miss one. He woke up an hour before her first scene
every morning and walked to her trailer to wait for her.
As Mandy stepped out of the trailer today, she hadn't even noticed him
leaning against the other side of the door until he called her name.
"Mandy," Calvin called out, happy to see her.
"Hey!" She turned around and walked up to him.
He hugged her and then took her hand as they walked together to the first
scene. She had to go to wardrobe and make-up again first, but now, she
asked him to come with her. They didn't say much, she was just happy to
have him there for support. He was just glad he could be there with her.
He talked to Shane a lot too, he wasn't about to be one of those people who
comes to visit and ignores you the whole time. All of there scenes were
together anyway.
After every scene Calvin would give Mandy a big hug and tell her what a
wonderful job she'd done. He never left her side when he could help it.
She felt so overjoyed when he'd hold her hand and she would remember their
little music session. It always put a smile on her face, especially at the
thought that you could be so close to a person without saying a word.
They had one more scene left before anyone could go off to lunch and Mandy
had to go back into wardrobe and make-up again before they could start. As
they were headed to go take care of all of that, Cal had an idea. Still
holding her hand he stopped walking and stood there. Mandy took a couple
steps then turned around and said confused, "Hey, what's wrong? Aren't you
coming?"
"Ummm, actually, I gotta go take care of something right quick, do you
mind? I promise I'll be back before your scene starts, I wouldn't miss it.
Is that okay?" Cal asked, worried that she might be upset, but knowing it
would be worth it.
Mandy gave him the poutiest puppy dog face she could and said, "Do you have
to?"
"I promise I will be back, and trust me, it'll be worth it." Calvin pulled
her near him so he could take her in his arms before he left.
"Where are you going?" Mandy ran her hands up his chest and wrapped her
arms around his neck.
"If I tell you," he said slowly and tauntingly as he buried his face in her
hair at her neck, "then it wouldn't be a surprise."
"A surprise?" She pulled his head up quickly to look into his eyes.
Calvin sighed contently as he looked at her, wishing he could see her green
eyes that were covered by contacts. "You know, I think your eyes are much
more beautiful without these contacts you have to wear."
"Don't change the subject," Mandy teased.
"I'm serious, I can get lost in your eyes so easily," he moved his hand
from her back to cradle her face, "with these contacts sometimes I don't
feel like I'm looking into your eyes, I'm looking into Jamie's and well.."
He become silent gulping hard at the thought of what he wanted to say so bad, but wasn't sure if it was right. He felt it, and he knew it, but it was still so soon. But after their little music session, he felt so much closer to her then he'd ever been with anyone. To him it was like in that one event they had instantaneously travel from one date, to an extensive relationship. He knew he could tell her anything, even this. "Well what?" She interrupted his thoughts, she had a smile, but still had that teasing look on her face. "Well.I don't love Jamie, I love you Mandy." Calvin was dead serious, she was all that mattered to him anymore. Mandy couldn't breathe. She just stared at him in disbelief. The logical part of her kept saying, 'this is too soon, it shouldn't be like this, how can he say he loves you.' But the part of her that ached at night when he went was saying, 'yes, this is all so wonderful, yes, I love you too.' But still another part of her was so confused, all at once. He hadn't even kissed her yet, though she wanted him to so many times. He never had, then this. "Now don't say anything, please, not yet. I just..I just wanted you to know. I don't want you to say anything, I just want you to know. I don't want you saying something you don't feel, or trying to stop something you might eventually. I just want you to know, that I'd do anything for you, because I love you." With that, he gave her a light squeeze and left, so that he could hurry back to her. Mandy stood there and felt a rush of relief flow across her. He loved her, and he wasn't going to rush her. He wanted her to feel things in her own time, and didn't want her to be in the dark or ever confused as to what he might feel for her. He kept it simple and truthful, he said it because he meant it, and she wouldn't have it any other way.
Mandy was finished with preparation for the scene, but still no sign of Calvin. After he had told her he loved her, she had forgotten about the surprise. At least until she was half way through with her make-up. It was all she could think about now, besides the fact that he loved her. But that was easier to deal with, he'd made that simple, when she was ready, she should tell him, but no sooner. Mandy started walking over to the set for the scene, and she was unbelievably nervous. Not about the scene, but about Calvin. He still wasn't back yet, and she was a little worried. She started pacing about the set looking at her feet and fidgeting with her hands. She was so absorbed in bad thoughts about what could have happened to him, that she didn't even notice that she was going to run into someone until it was too late. "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't even see you there," she said before she looked up and saw who it was, "Calvin!" She screamed and jumped into his arms. "Hey, sorry I was gone for so long, I just had to go pick up some things. I missed you." Calvin said as he wrapped his arms around her tightly. "I was so worried." "Well I'm here now, it's okay, I'm just sorry I worried you." "It's okay, I'll forgive you just this once," she teased and pulled back from his embrace. Mandy gave him a small punch in the chest as she said, "but don't you ever do that to me again!" "I promise," he laughed. "Okay, well, now I have to go. But your staying right? No more disappearing on me?" Mandy said apprehensively. "I'm staying right here." He assured her. "Kay, well, I better go." "Okay, I'll go watch." He gave her another hug, and they went off to their proper positions. He would smile and wink at her whenever she looked in his direction. Mandy would go into fits of giggles sometimes when he'd look at her and wave. After they finished the scene, see went running up to him and hugged him again. After what he'd said she just couldn't seem to keep her hands off him. She just wanted him near here. Calvin pulled back a little so that his mouth was at her ear and said, "I hope you don't have any plans for you lunch break." "Mmm, well, the only one that I do have involves you," she said laying her head against his chest. "Are you ready to go?" Calvin asked. "Where are we going?" Mandy asked, hoping he'd hint at her surprise. "Just hold on, you'll see." He smiled and walked her out to a car just outside. "Is that a picnic basket on the seat?" She asked with a smile on her face. "Yes." "Are we going on a picnic for lunch?" "Do you want me to tell you everything?" "Always." She said, it felt like he already did tell her everything about him anyway, everything that meant anything to him. "Okay, well, yes we're going on a picnic," he succumb as they drove off. "Yea!" She squealed. She looped her arm through his and laid her head on his shoulder. "I can't keep any kind of secret from you." "You say that like it's a bad thing," Mandy gave him a look. "Never." They got in the car, Calvin drove them to the lake they had done a lot of the filming on, just at a different spot, he wanted Mandy all to himself. "Hey beautiful, why don't you go find us a spot, without bugs, since I know your scared of them, and I'll get everything out of the car." Calvin said as they pulled up. "Okay..oh Calvin, it's just so beautiful out here," Mandy said, walking out and looking at the lake. He watched her walking, he wasn't that far behind, he only had to grab a blanket and the basket. He watched her take in everything she saw, how happy her face got, and her eyes, those beautiful eyes, they were all he could think about. Finally he spoke, softly, but enough so she could hear, "yes, Mandy, very beautiful." Mandy stopped looking around and turned to him, he wasn't far away, only a few feet, but as soon as she turned to him she became very aware that he wasn't looking at their surroundings, but at her. She walked over to him, never breaking eye contact, and stopped right in front of him. They just kept staring at each other for a long while. She reached out to grab the blanket from under his arm, "here, let me get this." Before she could grab it he dropped it on the ground and grabbed her face gently. She brought her hands to his at her face and grabbed his arm. Calvin stared at her, a bit breath taken before he spoke, "You ..you took them off?" At first confused she asked, "What?" "Your contacts, you took them out." He had a look of complete joy, his eyes were watering and he gulped down hard, stroking her face with his thumb. "Yeah, well," she looked down a second at his hand, then met his eyes again and continued, "what you said earlier, about looking into Jamie's eyes instead of mine, and." Mandy quieted, not sure how to say the words he seemed to say so easily before. "And how I don't love Jamie, how I love you," He filled in her unspoken words. Mandy nodded and continued, "well, it made since, so I took them out after you left." "Thank you," he said and dropped his hand from her face, she still held onto it though, not wanting to let him go. "I'm gonna lay the blanket out and set us up, alright?" "Kay," she said letting go, but staying close by him. Calvin did as he said and they both settled down next to each other on the blanket. He opened up the basket and said, "I didn't really know what you'd like, so I got some of everything." "Well I'm sure it will be great, I still can't believe you did all this just for me," she said as she helped him pull the many fruits and sandwiches out of the basket. "Mandy, I'd do anything for you," he said without even skipping a beat. She knew then it was time she said what had been on her mind. No one really knew about this, especially not him, but it was important that he know. "Calvin?" "Yes." "Can I talk to you about something?" Mandy was nervous, but she knew it had to be said. "I would hope that you know you can talk to me about anything." "Okay, well, I a.was having a problem about us, and I was afraid to ask you, so I asked Shane and well, he told me about Britney." She got quiet again, she didn't know how he was going to react to her having talked to Shane. "Okay so, what else about it is on your mind?" That was all he asked, completely focused on her and what she needed to talk about. "Well, he told me that you had your little thing and that yes, it was over, long before us, but that it was so hard on you, he said you compared yourself to her own personal yo-yo. I was wondering really if that was why you haven't kissed me yet, because you still love her, and well, now with you saying that you love me, it's just all muddled in my head." Mandy was confused, she just looked at him. Calvin was being patient, he listened to everything that troubled her, but now, it was time for answers. "First off," Calvin started, reaching for Mandy's hand, taking it in his, "I hope that next time you'll feel comfortable enough to just talk with me, but I understand, this is all still new. Second issue, Britney. Yes, we did have a..thing. I would tell you what it was, but that I don't even know. I still think I was very right when I said I was her personal yo-yo, she could ignore me one minute, whistle the next and I'd come running without a qualm. But the truth, after this last show, I am, and made this decision awhile ago, going to leave at the end of the contract that I have with her and never look back." "This next bit may be hard for you to hear, but it all needs to be said. Our little 'thing' was never emotional, I was just something she could kill time with when she felt like it. I regret now letting her kiss me, knowing she didn't love me, and kissing her back, knowing that I didn't love her. You should also know, that I never let anything, drastic, happen between us, that is something I have always been thankful for." "Issue three, while my not kissing you yet may partly be related to Britney, it isn't because I love her, I've never loved her. From the moment I heard your voice outside Shane's trailer, I was lost to you. But I don't want what happened with Britney to in anyway happen with you, I love you. But I don't want to kiss you based on the fact that I know after such a short time, you may not know if you love me, and that's okay. But I don't want to kiss you until I know that you do. I would have waited to tell you at a more comfortable time, but I don't ever want you to be in doubt about how I feel for you." "I guess I've already failed you there, but I won't let that happen again. I love you and only you, nor have I ever loved anyone else before you." Calvin stopped, he pushed a piece of her hair behind her ear. He picked up her hand that he was holding and started brushing the back of it with his lips. "I know we've come close so many times, but I'd rather be certain. I don't want you to feel like I'm spouting out words of love, but not being affectionate with them so.." Calvin slowly kissed the back of her hand, lingering just a little as he pulled away. "I hope this can prove to you in some small measure that I am sincere in my words, and my love." Calvin head her hand against his face as he waited for some confirmation from her. Mandy swallowed hard and thought about all that he had said, she hadn't spoken since she'd first brought it all up. She could still fill his lips against her hand even though they weren't there. She was breathing heavily and she knew it. She couldn't take her eyes off him until finally she said, "Only if you promise that kiss won't be just this once?" Calvin smiled, "I promise, for now, and forever." Mandy smiled, she knew a part of her was madly in love with him, but the other part of her just wouldn't let her tell him. She just smiled and they talked while they are their picnic. They would have to go back soon but they still had an hour. Mandy had started to pack things back into the basket when she noticed Calvin had disappeared on her. She looked out to see him on the short dock just to the left. It wasn't like the one they used for the film, it was open ended, and there was a raft afloat in the water not far from the end. She walked out to meet him but as she got close she could see him taking off his shirt. Calvin undid his button up and set it aside. He kicked off his shoes and pulled off his socks. He reached over head and pulled his grey undershirt off also. Last he undid his pants and laid them aside with all his other clothes. Mandy was frozen in place, she could not believe she had just watched him strip to his forest green boxers like nothing. He turned around to her and said playfully, "Wanna go for a swim?" Before she could blink Mandy watched him take off at a sprint and jump in the lake. She ran down to the end dock and watched him tread water as he slowly made his way closer to the dock. "Aren't you coming in?" Calvin asked, he had the biggest grin on his face. "I don't think so Mister, I'm not getting in there." Mandy looked at him like he was crazy. "Why not?" She couldn't think of a good excuse until, "I'm not stripping down to nothing to swim with a guy that won't even kiss me." He had a mocked hurt look on his face and said, "Gee, that hurt. Come on Mandy, the water feels great, here, just put you feet in if your not gonna come swimming." She thought about it for a second, then decided, "Okay." Mandy sat down on the dock and slid her feet in up to her knees. The water was cool against here skin in the hot day. Calvin came up to her a slowly ran his hands up the back of her legs under water. His touch was so gentle, she closed her eyes. Suddenly Calvin grabbed Mandy, picked her up off the deck and brought her into the water in his arms. Mandy freaked out at first, "Calvin, what did you do, you're crazy." "Only about you," he cut her off, "come on, it's not that bad. Is it honestly as bad as you thought it'd be?" "No," she pouted, "but almost." He rolled his eyes, "You can't think of one good thing about being in the water?" "Well one thing," she said, calming done and looking right into his eyes, "I'm here in your arms."
He become silent gulping hard at the thought of what he wanted to say so bad, but wasn't sure if it was right. He felt it, and he knew it, but it was still so soon. But after their little music session, he felt so much closer to her then he'd ever been with anyone. To him it was like in that one event they had instantaneously travel from one date, to an extensive relationship. He knew he could tell her anything, even this. "Well what?" She interrupted his thoughts, she had a smile, but still had that teasing look on her face. "Well.I don't love Jamie, I love you Mandy." Calvin was dead serious, she was all that mattered to him anymore. Mandy couldn't breathe. She just stared at him in disbelief. The logical part of her kept saying, 'this is too soon, it shouldn't be like this, how can he say he loves you.' But the part of her that ached at night when he went was saying, 'yes, this is all so wonderful, yes, I love you too.' But still another part of her was so confused, all at once. He hadn't even kissed her yet, though she wanted him to so many times. He never had, then this. "Now don't say anything, please, not yet. I just..I just wanted you to know. I don't want you to say anything, I just want you to know. I don't want you saying something you don't feel, or trying to stop something you might eventually. I just want you to know, that I'd do anything for you, because I love you." With that, he gave her a light squeeze and left, so that he could hurry back to her. Mandy stood there and felt a rush of relief flow across her. He loved her, and he wasn't going to rush her. He wanted her to feel things in her own time, and didn't want her to be in the dark or ever confused as to what he might feel for her. He kept it simple and truthful, he said it because he meant it, and she wouldn't have it any other way.
Mandy was finished with preparation for the scene, but still no sign of Calvin. After he had told her he loved her, she had forgotten about the surprise. At least until she was half way through with her make-up. It was all she could think about now, besides the fact that he loved her. But that was easier to deal with, he'd made that simple, when she was ready, she should tell him, but no sooner. Mandy started walking over to the set for the scene, and she was unbelievably nervous. Not about the scene, but about Calvin. He still wasn't back yet, and she was a little worried. She started pacing about the set looking at her feet and fidgeting with her hands. She was so absorbed in bad thoughts about what could have happened to him, that she didn't even notice that she was going to run into someone until it was too late. "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't even see you there," she said before she looked up and saw who it was, "Calvin!" She screamed and jumped into his arms. "Hey, sorry I was gone for so long, I just had to go pick up some things. I missed you." Calvin said as he wrapped his arms around her tightly. "I was so worried." "Well I'm here now, it's okay, I'm just sorry I worried you." "It's okay, I'll forgive you just this once," she teased and pulled back from his embrace. Mandy gave him a small punch in the chest as she said, "but don't you ever do that to me again!" "I promise," he laughed. "Okay, well, now I have to go. But your staying right? No more disappearing on me?" Mandy said apprehensively. "I'm staying right here." He assured her. "Kay, well, I better go." "Okay, I'll go watch." He gave her another hug, and they went off to their proper positions. He would smile and wink at her whenever she looked in his direction. Mandy would go into fits of giggles sometimes when he'd look at her and wave. After they finished the scene, see went running up to him and hugged him again. After what he'd said she just couldn't seem to keep her hands off him. She just wanted him near here. Calvin pulled back a little so that his mouth was at her ear and said, "I hope you don't have any plans for you lunch break." "Mmm, well, the only one that I do have involves you," she said laying her head against his chest. "Are you ready to go?" Calvin asked. "Where are we going?" Mandy asked, hoping he'd hint at her surprise. "Just hold on, you'll see." He smiled and walked her out to a car just outside. "Is that a picnic basket on the seat?" She asked with a smile on her face. "Yes." "Are we going on a picnic for lunch?" "Do you want me to tell you everything?" "Always." She said, it felt like he already did tell her everything about him anyway, everything that meant anything to him. "Okay, well, yes we're going on a picnic," he succumb as they drove off. "Yea!" She squealed. She looped her arm through his and laid her head on his shoulder. "I can't keep any kind of secret from you." "You say that like it's a bad thing," Mandy gave him a look. "Never." They got in the car, Calvin drove them to the lake they had done a lot of the filming on, just at a different spot, he wanted Mandy all to himself. "Hey beautiful, why don't you go find us a spot, without bugs, since I know your scared of them, and I'll get everything out of the car." Calvin said as they pulled up. "Okay..oh Calvin, it's just so beautiful out here," Mandy said, walking out and looking at the lake. He watched her walking, he wasn't that far behind, he only had to grab a blanket and the basket. He watched her take in everything she saw, how happy her face got, and her eyes, those beautiful eyes, they were all he could think about. Finally he spoke, softly, but enough so she could hear, "yes, Mandy, very beautiful." Mandy stopped looking around and turned to him, he wasn't far away, only a few feet, but as soon as she turned to him she became very aware that he wasn't looking at their surroundings, but at her. She walked over to him, never breaking eye contact, and stopped right in front of him. They just kept staring at each other for a long while. She reached out to grab the blanket from under his arm, "here, let me get this." Before she could grab it he dropped it on the ground and grabbed her face gently. She brought her hands to his at her face and grabbed his arm. Calvin stared at her, a bit breath taken before he spoke, "You ..you took them off?" At first confused she asked, "What?" "Your contacts, you took them out." He had a look of complete joy, his eyes were watering and he gulped down hard, stroking her face with his thumb. "Yeah, well," she looked down a second at his hand, then met his eyes again and continued, "what you said earlier, about looking into Jamie's eyes instead of mine, and." Mandy quieted, not sure how to say the words he seemed to say so easily before. "And how I don't love Jamie, how I love you," He filled in her unspoken words. Mandy nodded and continued, "well, it made since, so I took them out after you left." "Thank you," he said and dropped his hand from her face, she still held onto it though, not wanting to let him go. "I'm gonna lay the blanket out and set us up, alright?" "Kay," she said letting go, but staying close by him. Calvin did as he said and they both settled down next to each other on the blanket. He opened up the basket and said, "I didn't really know what you'd like, so I got some of everything." "Well I'm sure it will be great, I still can't believe you did all this just for me," she said as she helped him pull the many fruits and sandwiches out of the basket. "Mandy, I'd do anything for you," he said without even skipping a beat. She knew then it was time she said what had been on her mind. No one really knew about this, especially not him, but it was important that he know. "Calvin?" "Yes." "Can I talk to you about something?" Mandy was nervous, but she knew it had to be said. "I would hope that you know you can talk to me about anything." "Okay, well, I a.was having a problem about us, and I was afraid to ask you, so I asked Shane and well, he told me about Britney." She got quiet again, she didn't know how he was going to react to her having talked to Shane. "Okay so, what else about it is on your mind?" That was all he asked, completely focused on her and what she needed to talk about. "Well, he told me that you had your little thing and that yes, it was over, long before us, but that it was so hard on you, he said you compared yourself to her own personal yo-yo. I was wondering really if that was why you haven't kissed me yet, because you still love her, and well, now with you saying that you love me, it's just all muddled in my head." Mandy was confused, she just looked at him. Calvin was being patient, he listened to everything that troubled her, but now, it was time for answers. "First off," Calvin started, reaching for Mandy's hand, taking it in his, "I hope that next time you'll feel comfortable enough to just talk with me, but I understand, this is all still new. Second issue, Britney. Yes, we did have a..thing. I would tell you what it was, but that I don't even know. I still think I was very right when I said I was her personal yo-yo, she could ignore me one minute, whistle the next and I'd come running without a qualm. But the truth, after this last show, I am, and made this decision awhile ago, going to leave at the end of the contract that I have with her and never look back." "This next bit may be hard for you to hear, but it all needs to be said. Our little 'thing' was never emotional, I was just something she could kill time with when she felt like it. I regret now letting her kiss me, knowing she didn't love me, and kissing her back, knowing that I didn't love her. You should also know, that I never let anything, drastic, happen between us, that is something I have always been thankful for." "Issue three, while my not kissing you yet may partly be related to Britney, it isn't because I love her, I've never loved her. From the moment I heard your voice outside Shane's trailer, I was lost to you. But I don't want what happened with Britney to in anyway happen with you, I love you. But I don't want to kiss you based on the fact that I know after such a short time, you may not know if you love me, and that's okay. But I don't want to kiss you until I know that you do. I would have waited to tell you at a more comfortable time, but I don't ever want you to be in doubt about how I feel for you." "I guess I've already failed you there, but I won't let that happen again. I love you and only you, nor have I ever loved anyone else before you." Calvin stopped, he pushed a piece of her hair behind her ear. He picked up her hand that he was holding and started brushing the back of it with his lips. "I know we've come close so many times, but I'd rather be certain. I don't want you to feel like I'm spouting out words of love, but not being affectionate with them so.." Calvin slowly kissed the back of her hand, lingering just a little as he pulled away. "I hope this can prove to you in some small measure that I am sincere in my words, and my love." Calvin head her hand against his face as he waited for some confirmation from her. Mandy swallowed hard and thought about all that he had said, she hadn't spoken since she'd first brought it all up. She could still fill his lips against her hand even though they weren't there. She was breathing heavily and she knew it. She couldn't take her eyes off him until finally she said, "Only if you promise that kiss won't be just this once?" Calvin smiled, "I promise, for now, and forever." Mandy smiled, she knew a part of her was madly in love with him, but the other part of her just wouldn't let her tell him. She just smiled and they talked while they are their picnic. They would have to go back soon but they still had an hour. Mandy had started to pack things back into the basket when she noticed Calvin had disappeared on her. She looked out to see him on the short dock just to the left. It wasn't like the one they used for the film, it was open ended, and there was a raft afloat in the water not far from the end. She walked out to meet him but as she got close she could see him taking off his shirt. Calvin undid his button up and set it aside. He kicked off his shoes and pulled off his socks. He reached over head and pulled his grey undershirt off also. Last he undid his pants and laid them aside with all his other clothes. Mandy was frozen in place, she could not believe she had just watched him strip to his forest green boxers like nothing. He turned around to her and said playfully, "Wanna go for a swim?" Before she could blink Mandy watched him take off at a sprint and jump in the lake. She ran down to the end dock and watched him tread water as he slowly made his way closer to the dock. "Aren't you coming in?" Calvin asked, he had the biggest grin on his face. "I don't think so Mister, I'm not getting in there." Mandy looked at him like he was crazy. "Why not?" She couldn't think of a good excuse until, "I'm not stripping down to nothing to swim with a guy that won't even kiss me." He had a mocked hurt look on his face and said, "Gee, that hurt. Come on Mandy, the water feels great, here, just put you feet in if your not gonna come swimming." She thought about it for a second, then decided, "Okay." Mandy sat down on the dock and slid her feet in up to her knees. The water was cool against here skin in the hot day. Calvin came up to her a slowly ran his hands up the back of her legs under water. His touch was so gentle, she closed her eyes. Suddenly Calvin grabbed Mandy, picked her up off the deck and brought her into the water in his arms. Mandy freaked out at first, "Calvin, what did you do, you're crazy." "Only about you," he cut her off, "come on, it's not that bad. Is it honestly as bad as you thought it'd be?" "No," she pouted, "but almost." He rolled his eyes, "You can't think of one good thing about being in the water?" "Well one thing," she said, calming done and looking right into his eyes, "I'm here in your arms."