Calvin woke in the middle of the night. He was on his side facing where
Mandy should have been laying on his arm, instead he just saw his arm
stretched out as he slowly opened his eyes. His eyes started to adjust to
the dark and that's when he realized that Mandy wasn't gone, she was just
sitting up. He was a little disturbed by her position. She was leaning
forward with her arms crossed and on top of her propped up knees. She was
just staring out into the darkness silently.
Calvin reached his hand onto her back and started rubbing it as he said,
"Mandy? What's wrong? Why are you awake?"
"I.." Mandy started to speak, but seemed choked up. "I couldn't sleep."
"Why not? Is there something wrong? Do you want me to get you something?"
Calvin was wide wake now and sitting up next to her, still with his hand
on her back.
"No, I don't need anything. I just have a lot on my mind. Go back to
sleep," she tried to turn him away.
"What is it? It hurts to see you like this. I'll never be able to sleep
knowing you're like this."
"I'm fine, just go to sleep," She interrupted him.
"Mandy, please, talk to me. I just want to help you, I love you, I
can't.."
She interrupted him again, "Do you?"
"Do I what?" He was caught off guard and became confused.
"Do you love me?" She finally looked at him with eyes that looked like
they were on the brink of tears. He was hurt, the thought that she would
even have to ask, especially after he just said it.
"Yes, yes I love you. I would tell you every second if I didn't think it
made you uncomfortable. Your the reason my heart beats. Everything I
have ever done, and everything that I ever will do, has been and will be,
for you. All the things that have happened in my life, I see all of them
as a step that I took, measures that I took, to get to you. I have never
felt things as when I'm with you. Not just love, but everything. I've
never experienced life the same way since I met you, it all seems so much
more important, and wonderful, just because your here."
Cal's eyes were red, he knew that even he might cry. The look on her face
was something he just couldn't understand. Half of it was telling him that
she believed him and loved him, even without the words. The other half
look like it was trying to fight everything that he said. Mandy turned to
him and started grabbing at him, pulling his muscle shirt, trying to hold
onto him for dear life. He put his hands on both of her arms and started
rubbing them to comfort her in some way. He didn't know what to do, or
what was going on.
Mandy went into his arms, wrapping herself tightly around his neck. He
squeezed her closer to him, as close as they could possible get. She
started crying, then he started crying. It was like she was letting
everything go and finally releasing so much pent up emotion and thought,
and he was there for her, just like he wanted to be.
"I'm scared," Mandy finally said, not showing any signs of letting go of
him. Maybe in some part it was all easier to say in his arms, not to his
face.
"What are you scared of? Me?" He asked. He wanted so much to understand,
to find a way to ease her pain, but he had to know more about it to fix it.
"No, not of you...but of losing you..you mean so much to me...so much...and I just can't bear the thought of being without you..of you leaving me." She had so much stress in her voice, it was enough to make him insane with concern, but he needed to think clearly. "Mandy I would never leave you. Never. What makes you think that I would? I love you, your all that matters to me." He pulled her back a little bit and cradled her face in his hands. She didn't want to look into his face, and he didn't make her. It had to be solved though. "I just keep thinking about the concert, your last show that you have to do for Britney. I know you asked me to be there, but..I guess the part of me that doesn't want to admit that I love you wants me to think that you have some other reason for wanting me to be there. Like if I wasn't there, you would go be with her, and it's killing me to think of that happening, not just because you would be with her, but more because you wouldn't be with me." Mandy was wringing his shirt with her hands, she was still crying, and she couldn't seem to look up into his face. Cal was breathing hard. He was so shocked that she would think that he would ever leave her, and for Britney of all things. He couldn't seem to comprehend it. They were quiet for sometime while he tried to understand. He realized that she needed the reassurance he didn't need, his love for her was enough. "Mandy, listen to me," his hands still cradled her face as he began. "Yes, there is a reason for my wanting you to be there, but that isn't it. I want you to be there, because I want you to be with me, because every minute that I'm not with you I'm aching inside, your all I can think about. I want you to be there, because I love you, and that's all the reason I need. If you would have me, I'd go anywhere you ask. This is my one last obligation, though I don't want to do it, it's my responsibility, but when it's over, my only responsibility is to you, and only you. Mandy, your my focus, without you, I'm crazy, I'm all over the place. But having you next to me, or even in the same room as me, I can feel you. You bring a calm over me like no other. My true peace, is being given the permission to hold you in my arms. "Your warmth revives me. I was just getting by before you, doing shows, no real purpose or plans. Now, I spend my days loving you. Before tonight, I would just dream of you. When you asked me to hold you while you slept earlier, it was a miracle to me, just to be with you any day is a miracle to me. I would never leave you, I love you.." Cal stopped for a minute. She looked up at him, he wiped her tear streaked face with his thumbs. His eyes were watery now, thinking back to what she'd said, "And if I heard you correctly a minute ago, I think you said you love me too?" Calvin didn't need an answer, he felt it everyday, she showed him everyday that she loves him. He'd wasted so much time waiting for her to tell him, to confirm what he felt, but the look in her eyes at that very moment was all the confirmation he needed. He started to bring her face to his, he felt her pull him in and whispered against her lips, "I love you." Cal closed his lips on hers and kissed her liked he'd waited so long to do. They became entwined together as they kissed over and over again, relieving any doubt or fear that hid in the corners of their minds. His hands left her face and went to her arms, willing her so be near him. She grabbed a hold of him and complied, each one pulling tighter and tighter on the other. He was taken away, he'd waited so long, but he knew now that it was worth it. All those times they might have kissed could never compare to this. The feeling of her lips against his, all the love they shared merging in that moment, in that kiss. Mandy pulled him towards her, he could feel their kiss coursing deeper into his soul. They laid back on the bed, never letting go of the kiss, or each other. He was leaning over her slightly, even their legs became entangled as they continued one kiss that seemed like a hundred. Calvin finally broke the kiss, but stayed right where he was, his face not even an inch from hers. He looked deep into her eyes, those startlingly green eyes that sent tingles across his body. They were breathing so hard, so fast. Their lips were red and moist from kissing. He moved a little closer to graze her lips across hers ever so gently. He felt her slide her arms across his arms and back, bring them up to his neck. Mandy threaded his hair through her left hand and held onto the back of his neck with her right. Her heart swelled and she had to say it, to really say it, not hiding it in a jumble of words. He couldn't make out her face, but then she smiled. It wasn't a big smile, it was a small sensual smile that made his heart quicken again. He gulped hard over all that was happening, over all that he felt. "I love you." Mandy finally said it to him, and meant it deep with all her heart and soul. She pulled him by the neck and brought his lips crushing down onto hers. Calvin was lost in her kiss, her touch was like silk. But silk wasn't on his mind right now, he couldn't even think for that matter. All he could do was feel, feel their love, their kiss, her arms wrapped around his neck. He held himself up from the bed by pushing on his forearms. Mandy moved her arms underneath his and began slowly rubbing his back. Their kiss grew deeper and deeper by the moment, neither one wanting it to end. They kissed with their whole self, every ounce of their being was shared in their kisses. She slid her hands under his muscle shirt and pulled him to her harder. She would run her fingers up and down his spine giving him chills. Cal could feel her hands on his back and relished in the feeling of her touch. He was lost to her, anything she wanted, anything she asked, he would do everything he could to make sure she got it. He pulled back to break off the kiss, but she wouldn't let him. The more he leaned away, the more she leaned into him, or the more she pulled him to her. He began whispering against her lips, he spoke softly, "Mandy..Mandy...I love you..Mandy.." He rolled over to his side and she came with him, pushing him to his back. She sat up a little to straddle him on the bed sitting on his abs. She ran her hands all across his chest. He knew she could feel his rapid heart beats and enormous breaths. He cupped her face again and pulled her up. "Ummm, I love you," he said it again. He said it a lot, he knew that, but he did it because each time he felt a wave of wonder wash over him, just for telling her what he felt so strong. She had that same smile on her face, it was a new smile to learn and add to his memory along with all her other smiles and looks that he had began to memorize. "I love you too." She leaned in again placing a delicate but passionate kiss on his lips. It lingered for a short while, nothing like the previous, but as more of a soothing way to end their night. She scooted down on him and laid her head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around her and they both went back to sleep as the happiest couple alive.
They slept in that same position until morning, they needed their rest after their little midnight tryst. Mandy woke first and scratched his chest to wake him up. "Hey," she said softly as he started to open his eyes. Cal groggily said, "Hey." He instantly had a smile as he saw her face, remembering last night. "I love you," she said and began to lean in and give him a kiss. "I love you," he said just in time before they did kiss. It was definitely not as intense as the many before, but it had its own meaning of beginning a new day with a love stronger then the day before. She pulled back, looked at him and laughed. His hair was all disheveled, while hers remained beautiful in his eyes. She smudged his hair around even more and sat up, but didn't get off of him. Calvin grabbed her hands and stuck his fingers between hers. "Ummm, Mum's making breakfast, hehe, my favorite." "Smells good," she said with a smile, "what is it?" "Ummm, waffles with scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, and cinnamon toast." He answered her playfully. "That's your favorite?" Mandy asked, she wanted to make sure and know what to make him in the morning sometime. She crossed her arms and laid them on his chest. "Well," he cupped her face and slowly pulled her to his lips, "my favorite would have to be this.." He kissed her sweetly once. "Are you sure it isn't this..." She leaned in and kissed him even sweeter, with a little more fever, and tongue then he expected. He settled right into it and then answered her as they pulled apart. "That's the one." They stayed that way lost in each others eyes for awhile. She held onto him not wanting to let go. He knew things would be different between them now, but he also knew that it was a good different. He knew along time ago that she loved him, in everything she did with him, but to hear her actually say the words was a God sent. He was so in love with her, he knew he could live every day of his life loving her. "I think we better go get some of that breakfast," Mandy was the first one to break their trance. "Yeah," Cal said, not showing any signs of moving. "Aren't you going to get up?" Mandy asked teasingly. Calvin laughed and said, "Well...I would..but you see I've got this beautiful, sexy woman sitting on me..I know it sounds good but that breakfast is really calling me." Mandy had this look like she'd been caught in a lie, and had a small blush come over her being called, 'sexy' She started to get off of him, but he grabbed her for a quick kiss and rolled her over onto her back with him just above her. Mandy started laughing hysterically. Calvin gave her another quick kiss and then jumped off the bed. He started to go to the door, but Mandy stopped him. "Where are you going?" "Well, I do have to go get dressed sweetness, I can't stay in my boxers all day." Cal joked. Mandy started to crawl towards the end of the bed, which was facing the door. He walked towards her and they met at they end of the bed. She was on her knees at the end of the bed and he was standing in front of her. "Well they are very cute boxers," Mandy joked as she slipped her arms around his waist. Calvin wrapped his arms around her neck and leaned down to kiss her exuberantly. Her hand started sliding back up his muscle shirt as they continued kissing. He ran his fingers through her hair, forgetting all about breakfast and changing. She grabbed the hem of his muscle shirt and pulled up, taking it completely off of him. "What are you doing?" Cal asked, a little confused. "Helping you change," Mandy said matter-of-factly and continued kissing him. "But my clothes.." He trailed off, being interrupted by her lips. "Well this is your room, I'm sure you have clothes.." She kissed him hard one last time and pulled away, getting off the bed and going to his closet. She started looking at all his clothes, "I think I'm going to dress you today." Calvin laughed, "Whatever you say beautiful." Mandy found some dark blue jeans she wanted him to wear and a dark red button-up. "Do you have anymore of those grey muscle shirt?" "Lots, there in the draw right behind me," he leaned against his little dresser and set a hand on either side. He smiled, then turned around and pulled a shirt out. He started to put it on, but she walked over and grabbed the shirt out of his hands. "Who said you could put that on?" Mandy said playfully. "I thought you wanted me to?" Cal said, confused. "I said I wanted to dress you. Besides, I kinda like you without the shirt for now." Mandy said flirtatiously. Calvin blushed and started to feel kind of naked. Mandy just laughed at him and handed him the clothes. "Here, you can go get dressed, I will too." Calvin laughed taking his clothes and going to the guest room to get dressed. He went to the bathroom and brushed his hair and teeth. He sprayed some cologne and made every attempt to look good for her. He walked back to the bedroom and waited for her to finish, eager for the new day.
"No, not of you...but of losing you..you mean so much to me...so much...and I just can't bear the thought of being without you..of you leaving me." She had so much stress in her voice, it was enough to make him insane with concern, but he needed to think clearly. "Mandy I would never leave you. Never. What makes you think that I would? I love you, your all that matters to me." He pulled her back a little bit and cradled her face in his hands. She didn't want to look into his face, and he didn't make her. It had to be solved though. "I just keep thinking about the concert, your last show that you have to do for Britney. I know you asked me to be there, but..I guess the part of me that doesn't want to admit that I love you wants me to think that you have some other reason for wanting me to be there. Like if I wasn't there, you would go be with her, and it's killing me to think of that happening, not just because you would be with her, but more because you wouldn't be with me." Mandy was wringing his shirt with her hands, she was still crying, and she couldn't seem to look up into his face. Cal was breathing hard. He was so shocked that she would think that he would ever leave her, and for Britney of all things. He couldn't seem to comprehend it. They were quiet for sometime while he tried to understand. He realized that she needed the reassurance he didn't need, his love for her was enough. "Mandy, listen to me," his hands still cradled her face as he began. "Yes, there is a reason for my wanting you to be there, but that isn't it. I want you to be there, because I want you to be with me, because every minute that I'm not with you I'm aching inside, your all I can think about. I want you to be there, because I love you, and that's all the reason I need. If you would have me, I'd go anywhere you ask. This is my one last obligation, though I don't want to do it, it's my responsibility, but when it's over, my only responsibility is to you, and only you. Mandy, your my focus, without you, I'm crazy, I'm all over the place. But having you next to me, or even in the same room as me, I can feel you. You bring a calm over me like no other. My true peace, is being given the permission to hold you in my arms. "Your warmth revives me. I was just getting by before you, doing shows, no real purpose or plans. Now, I spend my days loving you. Before tonight, I would just dream of you. When you asked me to hold you while you slept earlier, it was a miracle to me, just to be with you any day is a miracle to me. I would never leave you, I love you.." Cal stopped for a minute. She looked up at him, he wiped her tear streaked face with his thumbs. His eyes were watery now, thinking back to what she'd said, "And if I heard you correctly a minute ago, I think you said you love me too?" Calvin didn't need an answer, he felt it everyday, she showed him everyday that she loves him. He'd wasted so much time waiting for her to tell him, to confirm what he felt, but the look in her eyes at that very moment was all the confirmation he needed. He started to bring her face to his, he felt her pull him in and whispered against her lips, "I love you." Cal closed his lips on hers and kissed her liked he'd waited so long to do. They became entwined together as they kissed over and over again, relieving any doubt or fear that hid in the corners of their minds. His hands left her face and went to her arms, willing her so be near him. She grabbed a hold of him and complied, each one pulling tighter and tighter on the other. He was taken away, he'd waited so long, but he knew now that it was worth it. All those times they might have kissed could never compare to this. The feeling of her lips against his, all the love they shared merging in that moment, in that kiss. Mandy pulled him towards her, he could feel their kiss coursing deeper into his soul. They laid back on the bed, never letting go of the kiss, or each other. He was leaning over her slightly, even their legs became entangled as they continued one kiss that seemed like a hundred. Calvin finally broke the kiss, but stayed right where he was, his face not even an inch from hers. He looked deep into her eyes, those startlingly green eyes that sent tingles across his body. They were breathing so hard, so fast. Their lips were red and moist from kissing. He moved a little closer to graze her lips across hers ever so gently. He felt her slide her arms across his arms and back, bring them up to his neck. Mandy threaded his hair through her left hand and held onto the back of his neck with her right. Her heart swelled and she had to say it, to really say it, not hiding it in a jumble of words. He couldn't make out her face, but then she smiled. It wasn't a big smile, it was a small sensual smile that made his heart quicken again. He gulped hard over all that was happening, over all that he felt. "I love you." Mandy finally said it to him, and meant it deep with all her heart and soul. She pulled him by the neck and brought his lips crushing down onto hers. Calvin was lost in her kiss, her touch was like silk. But silk wasn't on his mind right now, he couldn't even think for that matter. All he could do was feel, feel their love, their kiss, her arms wrapped around his neck. He held himself up from the bed by pushing on his forearms. Mandy moved her arms underneath his and began slowly rubbing his back. Their kiss grew deeper and deeper by the moment, neither one wanting it to end. They kissed with their whole self, every ounce of their being was shared in their kisses. She slid her hands under his muscle shirt and pulled him to her harder. She would run her fingers up and down his spine giving him chills. Cal could feel her hands on his back and relished in the feeling of her touch. He was lost to her, anything she wanted, anything she asked, he would do everything he could to make sure she got it. He pulled back to break off the kiss, but she wouldn't let him. The more he leaned away, the more she leaned into him, or the more she pulled him to her. He began whispering against her lips, he spoke softly, "Mandy..Mandy...I love you..Mandy.." He rolled over to his side and she came with him, pushing him to his back. She sat up a little to straddle him on the bed sitting on his abs. She ran her hands all across his chest. He knew she could feel his rapid heart beats and enormous breaths. He cupped her face again and pulled her up. "Ummm, I love you," he said it again. He said it a lot, he knew that, but he did it because each time he felt a wave of wonder wash over him, just for telling her what he felt so strong. She had that same smile on her face, it was a new smile to learn and add to his memory along with all her other smiles and looks that he had began to memorize. "I love you too." She leaned in again placing a delicate but passionate kiss on his lips. It lingered for a short while, nothing like the previous, but as more of a soothing way to end their night. She scooted down on him and laid her head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around her and they both went back to sleep as the happiest couple alive.
They slept in that same position until morning, they needed their rest after their little midnight tryst. Mandy woke first and scratched his chest to wake him up. "Hey," she said softly as he started to open his eyes. Cal groggily said, "Hey." He instantly had a smile as he saw her face, remembering last night. "I love you," she said and began to lean in and give him a kiss. "I love you," he said just in time before they did kiss. It was definitely not as intense as the many before, but it had its own meaning of beginning a new day with a love stronger then the day before. She pulled back, looked at him and laughed. His hair was all disheveled, while hers remained beautiful in his eyes. She smudged his hair around even more and sat up, but didn't get off of him. Calvin grabbed her hands and stuck his fingers between hers. "Ummm, Mum's making breakfast, hehe, my favorite." "Smells good," she said with a smile, "what is it?" "Ummm, waffles with scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, and cinnamon toast." He answered her playfully. "That's your favorite?" Mandy asked, she wanted to make sure and know what to make him in the morning sometime. She crossed her arms and laid them on his chest. "Well," he cupped her face and slowly pulled her to his lips, "my favorite would have to be this.." He kissed her sweetly once. "Are you sure it isn't this..." She leaned in and kissed him even sweeter, with a little more fever, and tongue then he expected. He settled right into it and then answered her as they pulled apart. "That's the one." They stayed that way lost in each others eyes for awhile. She held onto him not wanting to let go. He knew things would be different between them now, but he also knew that it was a good different. He knew along time ago that she loved him, in everything she did with him, but to hear her actually say the words was a God sent. He was so in love with her, he knew he could live every day of his life loving her. "I think we better go get some of that breakfast," Mandy was the first one to break their trance. "Yeah," Cal said, not showing any signs of moving. "Aren't you going to get up?" Mandy asked teasingly. Calvin laughed and said, "Well...I would..but you see I've got this beautiful, sexy woman sitting on me..I know it sounds good but that breakfast is really calling me." Mandy had this look like she'd been caught in a lie, and had a small blush come over her being called, 'sexy' She started to get off of him, but he grabbed her for a quick kiss and rolled her over onto her back with him just above her. Mandy started laughing hysterically. Calvin gave her another quick kiss and then jumped off the bed. He started to go to the door, but Mandy stopped him. "Where are you going?" "Well, I do have to go get dressed sweetness, I can't stay in my boxers all day." Cal joked. Mandy started to crawl towards the end of the bed, which was facing the door. He walked towards her and they met at they end of the bed. She was on her knees at the end of the bed and he was standing in front of her. "Well they are very cute boxers," Mandy joked as she slipped her arms around his waist. Calvin wrapped his arms around her neck and leaned down to kiss her exuberantly. Her hand started sliding back up his muscle shirt as they continued kissing. He ran his fingers through her hair, forgetting all about breakfast and changing. She grabbed the hem of his muscle shirt and pulled up, taking it completely off of him. "What are you doing?" Cal asked, a little confused. "Helping you change," Mandy said matter-of-factly and continued kissing him. "But my clothes.." He trailed off, being interrupted by her lips. "Well this is your room, I'm sure you have clothes.." She kissed him hard one last time and pulled away, getting off the bed and going to his closet. She started looking at all his clothes, "I think I'm going to dress you today." Calvin laughed, "Whatever you say beautiful." Mandy found some dark blue jeans she wanted him to wear and a dark red button-up. "Do you have anymore of those grey muscle shirt?" "Lots, there in the draw right behind me," he leaned against his little dresser and set a hand on either side. He smiled, then turned around and pulled a shirt out. He started to put it on, but she walked over and grabbed the shirt out of his hands. "Who said you could put that on?" Mandy said playfully. "I thought you wanted me to?" Cal said, confused. "I said I wanted to dress you. Besides, I kinda like you without the shirt for now." Mandy said flirtatiously. Calvin blushed and started to feel kind of naked. Mandy just laughed at him and handed him the clothes. "Here, you can go get dressed, I will too." Calvin laughed taking his clothes and going to the guest room to get dressed. He went to the bathroom and brushed his hair and teeth. He sprayed some cologne and made every attempt to look good for her. He walked back to the bedroom and waited for her to finish, eager for the new day.