Pen Name: Serena Crescent Dayton
E-mail: serenashields_serenity@yahoo.ca, Serenashields_serenity@hotmail.com
Book Title: What was, what is, what could: Book I - Lost and Found
Chapter: 7. A talk with Mamo-chan,
Category: Sailor Moon, Alternate season R Continue (Comedy/Drama/Action)
Spoilers: It's pretty obvious I think, it's as the title says, Usagi/Serena
have a talk with Mamo-chan. You could say it's a breakup chapter.
(Usagi/Serena)
Without really thinking, I head towards the secluded Rose Garden in
the park. Some times, just to get away from everything and everyone.
As I ran toward the RG (rose Garden) I think about the times I've
spend there with Mamo-chan. The RG was our spot. I thin for every
date; we've been there. It's kind like a tradition, almost. Many times,
we just sit on the bench that's facing the lake, simpy holding hands.
Not saying a word. There's no need to, Mamo-chan and I are soul bonded.
We are so close and so connected, that there's no need for words. And
other times, during our dates, I'd be taking a short nap while
Mamo-chan read a book. I don't really get why he love reading so much.
To me, reading, if not for school, then would be a waste of time. But
then again, even for school I don't read. Again, not because I don't
like it, but the truth was, there was no need. I think Miss Haruna knows
I pretend to be dumb and ditzy. But about Mamo-chan, when you think about,
it makes sense. Mamo-chan is such a closed up person, so sad some times.
Yes, I know. He's much more open up since we discover each other's
identity and out past and all that, but still, I could sense he's
closed. And I suppose that's due to the fact that his parents died
in the car accident when he was 5 or 6. Some times I wonder if we
really love each other.
Just as I was about to run into the park, I collided with a wall of
body. Without having to look up, I new it was HIM. It's never anyone
else. In fact, we collide like this everyday on my way to school and
even on days when I don't have school. I suppose you could say it's like
fate or something. "Gomen ne, Mamo-chan" I said, looking up. He cuckles,
"It's ok Usa. I', very used to it.""Um... Mamo-chan, we need to talk."
He nodded and followed me silently as we walk to our spot.
"As you know, I had a conversation with Ryan. My father." I said as
we sit down. "After thinking about it yesterday, I made a decision.
I'm going to move to the USA. I'm assuming that Miko and Mako are coming
as well, as they said they would. The thing it, I'm very confused. I
don't know anything anymore. I don't know who I am and what I am. I mean,
how can a person be three different person at the same time? Even if you
disregard Sailor Moon, there's still the
confusion between a girl and a princess. I'm not sure I'm any of the two
anymore. Because of the memories I've been getting back since yesterday,
I'm even more confused. I don't feel like I'm Usagi, yet at the same
time, I'm not Serena nor Serenity. Then if I'm not any of them, who am I??
I think there are too many memories in Japan and the best way to discover
myself is to leave, if only for the summer. Although I think this will
be a permanent move, at least for now. And even if I move back
to Japan, I won't be living with the Tsukino anymore. In a way,
they will always be my parents, after all, they raised me. But, at the
same time, as of yesterday, they are simply strangers to me. And
until I can figure out who I am. I guess I really am just a little lost
usagi(literally speaking)."
"That's pretty intense."
"As of yesterday morning, my life's been ever more intense. Even more
so than when I first became Sailor Moon."
"This must be pretty hard on you."
"You can't even think. But that wasn't all I wanted to talk to you
about. There's also the issue between us."
"Yeah, about that... um..."
"I think it's best for now if we break up. My feelings for everything
and everyone are simply all so cloudy for now. It wouldn't be fair for
us to be tied down to each other when we are half a world apart. And I
guess when I say that I need to figure out who I am, I'm also talking
about my feelings about our relationship.
"If that's how you feel."
"I think you have to agree, we really don't know each other that well
I this life. We could hardly stand each other from day one, ever since
that test paper I thrown at you, all we have done id bickering. We
didn't start to date until after the discovering of our identities as
princess Serenity and prince Endymion. And that's what I'd feel like,
if we go on another date. I'd feel like I'm serenity. Not Usagi, and
definitely not Serena, But then again, who is Serena? I haven't been
Serena since I was one. That was 13 years ago. (AN: for those who
haven't catch on, in my fic, Usagi started to fight at the age of 13.
And yes, I did do it because 13 isconsider a bad luck...) so that's
why we should break up, also... isn't that why you have been
ignoring me lately?"
"NO." Mamo-chan said. "It's because of these dream I've been having."
"Dreams?? What are you talking about? Do you mean memories of our past?"
"No, dreams, or nightmares, rather of the future, of our wedding."
"Because of that, you've been breaking our dates and ignoring me?"
"Yeah, pretty much." There was a silence then I asked, "Why what was
so horrible about it? What was it about?"
"It was horrible..." So Mamo-chan told me about the dreams, about our
wedding and how every time when we were about to kiss, I was pulled
away and a voice warn him about me been killed if we were to be together.
"Why didn't you come and talk to me about?"
"I thought I'd put you into danger."
"You know what I think, it might be out enemy's doing."
"But Usako, you have to understand, dreams have always been a bid deal
in my life. As you know, it was our dreams that lead me to find those
crystals and it was you in our dreams that kept asked me to find them
and to rescue you. As those dreams have always been true. And how do
we know this isn't true."
"You know, if a dream can keep us apart, then how are we suppose to be
together? So maybe those dreams might be right, we might never get
marries and if we do, I could die. But then again, you are suppose
to take risks in life. If you don't, you might never get anywhere.
I mean, I could right out and refused to become Sailor Moon, but I
didn't. Because of my curiosity, I took it. It was almost instinct.
And after, when I asked for my memories to be erased, before Luna
give me back my memories back when those Cardians showed up, I had
the instinct to fight. To become Sailor Moon. So, if your instincts
keep tell you to listen to those dreams, then we have no reason to
be together anymore. It's simply over between US. So. As of this very
moment, Usagi and Mamoru is over as a couple."
"Maybe it is. But you have to know something, Usako. You will always
be my Usako, it doesn't matter if we are together or not. Even if
in the future, we are not married, if we are with other people, you
will always be my one and only. My one true love. My first love."
"I'd like to believe you, but I can't. That's why I think we need to
be apart. Have time to think this over. I don't think, you, as
Mamoru Chiba love me. How can you love me when I don't know who I am?
You can't lover a person, if she doesn't exist. However, I know
and believe you love Serenity as Endymion. However, I don't think
you are Endymion. The two of you are two different people. Just as
I'm not sure I'm Serenity. So, for now. Let's just stay friends.
Mothing more, nothing less. However, I do belive you when you say
I'll be your first love, as you are my first. And of course, no
matter what the future have to hold for us, what destiny have
planned out for us, you will always be Mamo-chan to me. And I'm honored
that you will always think of me as Usako. I'm very glad." I then
hugged him. Immediately he put his arms around me and pulled me closer.
When we separate, we look at each other for a second before go
forward for a kiss, a last kiss. Finally I stepped back and said,
"If you will excuse me, I need to get back to Miko's place. Ryan
will be here soon." Mamo-chan nodded as I turned away. I stopped
for a second, and then I walked away without look back. With no regret.
&&&End Note&&&
For you readers out there, who are very worried or mad, don't be.
Although I prefer Reviews, even if it's FLAMES, I well come them
all. The more the merrier!!^^ The more REVIEW, the faster the
updates... GODNESS!!!! I'm becoming another greedy fanfic writer,
a freakwho luvs REVIEWS!!! HEHE!!! Anyway, I promise you,
with all my heart, that the two will get back together, but
as far as I know, not until the third book. The second book
will not have any appearance as far as I know, except for the
occasional mention of prince Endymion or Mamoru. But no
actual appearance where he talk in present time (20 CENTURY).
E-mail: serenashields_serenity@yahoo.ca, Serenashields_serenity@hotmail.com
Book Title: What was, what is, what could: Book I - Lost and Found
Chapter: 7. A talk with Mamo-chan,
Category: Sailor Moon, Alternate season R Continue (Comedy/Drama/Action)
Spoilers: It's pretty obvious I think, it's as the title says, Usagi/Serena
have a talk with Mamo-chan. You could say it's a breakup chapter.
(Usagi/Serena)
Without really thinking, I head towards the secluded Rose Garden in
the park. Some times, just to get away from everything and everyone.
As I ran toward the RG (rose Garden) I think about the times I've
spend there with Mamo-chan. The RG was our spot. I thin for every
date; we've been there. It's kind like a tradition, almost. Many times,
we just sit on the bench that's facing the lake, simpy holding hands.
Not saying a word. There's no need to, Mamo-chan and I are soul bonded.
We are so close and so connected, that there's no need for words. And
other times, during our dates, I'd be taking a short nap while
Mamo-chan read a book. I don't really get why he love reading so much.
To me, reading, if not for school, then would be a waste of time. But
then again, even for school I don't read. Again, not because I don't
like it, but the truth was, there was no need. I think Miss Haruna knows
I pretend to be dumb and ditzy. But about Mamo-chan, when you think about,
it makes sense. Mamo-chan is such a closed up person, so sad some times.
Yes, I know. He's much more open up since we discover each other's
identity and out past and all that, but still, I could sense he's
closed. And I suppose that's due to the fact that his parents died
in the car accident when he was 5 or 6. Some times I wonder if we
really love each other.
Just as I was about to run into the park, I collided with a wall of
body. Without having to look up, I new it was HIM. It's never anyone
else. In fact, we collide like this everyday on my way to school and
even on days when I don't have school. I suppose you could say it's like
fate or something. "Gomen ne, Mamo-chan" I said, looking up. He cuckles,
"It's ok Usa. I', very used to it.""Um... Mamo-chan, we need to talk."
He nodded and followed me silently as we walk to our spot.
"As you know, I had a conversation with Ryan. My father." I said as
we sit down. "After thinking about it yesterday, I made a decision.
I'm going to move to the USA. I'm assuming that Miko and Mako are coming
as well, as they said they would. The thing it, I'm very confused. I
don't know anything anymore. I don't know who I am and what I am. I mean,
how can a person be three different person at the same time? Even if you
disregard Sailor Moon, there's still the
confusion between a girl and a princess. I'm not sure I'm any of the two
anymore. Because of the memories I've been getting back since yesterday,
I'm even more confused. I don't feel like I'm Usagi, yet at the same
time, I'm not Serena nor Serenity. Then if I'm not any of them, who am I??
I think there are too many memories in Japan and the best way to discover
myself is to leave, if only for the summer. Although I think this will
be a permanent move, at least for now. And even if I move back
to Japan, I won't be living with the Tsukino anymore. In a way,
they will always be my parents, after all, they raised me. But, at the
same time, as of yesterday, they are simply strangers to me. And
until I can figure out who I am. I guess I really am just a little lost
usagi(literally speaking)."
"That's pretty intense."
"As of yesterday morning, my life's been ever more intense. Even more
so than when I first became Sailor Moon."
"This must be pretty hard on you."
"You can't even think. But that wasn't all I wanted to talk to you
about. There's also the issue between us."
"Yeah, about that... um..."
"I think it's best for now if we break up. My feelings for everything
and everyone are simply all so cloudy for now. It wouldn't be fair for
us to be tied down to each other when we are half a world apart. And I
guess when I say that I need to figure out who I am, I'm also talking
about my feelings about our relationship.
"If that's how you feel."
"I think you have to agree, we really don't know each other that well
I this life. We could hardly stand each other from day one, ever since
that test paper I thrown at you, all we have done id bickering. We
didn't start to date until after the discovering of our identities as
princess Serenity and prince Endymion. And that's what I'd feel like,
if we go on another date. I'd feel like I'm serenity. Not Usagi, and
definitely not Serena, But then again, who is Serena? I haven't been
Serena since I was one. That was 13 years ago. (AN: for those who
haven't catch on, in my fic, Usagi started to fight at the age of 13.
And yes, I did do it because 13 isconsider a bad luck...) so that's
why we should break up, also... isn't that why you have been
ignoring me lately?"
"NO." Mamo-chan said. "It's because of these dream I've been having."
"Dreams?? What are you talking about? Do you mean memories of our past?"
"No, dreams, or nightmares, rather of the future, of our wedding."
"Because of that, you've been breaking our dates and ignoring me?"
"Yeah, pretty much." There was a silence then I asked, "Why what was
so horrible about it? What was it about?"
"It was horrible..." So Mamo-chan told me about the dreams, about our
wedding and how every time when we were about to kiss, I was pulled
away and a voice warn him about me been killed if we were to be together.
"Why didn't you come and talk to me about?"
"I thought I'd put you into danger."
"You know what I think, it might be out enemy's doing."
"But Usako, you have to understand, dreams have always been a bid deal
in my life. As you know, it was our dreams that lead me to find those
crystals and it was you in our dreams that kept asked me to find them
and to rescue you. As those dreams have always been true. And how do
we know this isn't true."
"You know, if a dream can keep us apart, then how are we suppose to be
together? So maybe those dreams might be right, we might never get
marries and if we do, I could die. But then again, you are suppose
to take risks in life. If you don't, you might never get anywhere.
I mean, I could right out and refused to become Sailor Moon, but I
didn't. Because of my curiosity, I took it. It was almost instinct.
And after, when I asked for my memories to be erased, before Luna
give me back my memories back when those Cardians showed up, I had
the instinct to fight. To become Sailor Moon. So, if your instincts
keep tell you to listen to those dreams, then we have no reason to
be together anymore. It's simply over between US. So. As of this very
moment, Usagi and Mamoru is over as a couple."
"Maybe it is. But you have to know something, Usako. You will always
be my Usako, it doesn't matter if we are together or not. Even if
in the future, we are not married, if we are with other people, you
will always be my one and only. My one true love. My first love."
"I'd like to believe you, but I can't. That's why I think we need to
be apart. Have time to think this over. I don't think, you, as
Mamoru Chiba love me. How can you love me when I don't know who I am?
You can't lover a person, if she doesn't exist. However, I know
and believe you love Serenity as Endymion. However, I don't think
you are Endymion. The two of you are two different people. Just as
I'm not sure I'm Serenity. So, for now. Let's just stay friends.
Mothing more, nothing less. However, I do belive you when you say
I'll be your first love, as you are my first. And of course, no
matter what the future have to hold for us, what destiny have
planned out for us, you will always be Mamo-chan to me. And I'm honored
that you will always think of me as Usako. I'm very glad." I then
hugged him. Immediately he put his arms around me and pulled me closer.
When we separate, we look at each other for a second before go
forward for a kiss, a last kiss. Finally I stepped back and said,
"If you will excuse me, I need to get back to Miko's place. Ryan
will be here soon." Mamo-chan nodded as I turned away. I stopped
for a second, and then I walked away without look back. With no regret.
&&&End Note&&&
For you readers out there, who are very worried or mad, don't be.
Although I prefer Reviews, even if it's FLAMES, I well come them
all. The more the merrier!!^^ The more REVIEW, the faster the
updates... GODNESS!!!! I'm becoming another greedy fanfic writer,
a freakwho luvs REVIEWS!!! HEHE!!! Anyway, I promise you,
with all my heart, that the two will get back together, but
as far as I know, not until the third book. The second book
will not have any appearance as far as I know, except for the
occasional mention of prince Endymion or Mamoru. But no
actual appearance where he talk in present time (20 CENTURY).