Remy awoke first in the morning, she walked silently across the room, so
as not to wake severus.
She crossed to his wardrobe and pulled on one of his black shirts, the
houseelves had taken her robes to be washed.
She looked at the clock.
12:45!!!
Severus had missed his Friday morning classes!!!
Someone was knocking loudly on the door,
As though they'd been knocking awhile,
In her best impression of severus she called, "just a minute!"
She'd have to pull on a pair of his pants as well. Both shirt and pants
where black.
She woke severus, who grabbed on a robe, pointed underneath his bed and
went to open the door, remy hid under severus's bed, it was proffesor
umbridge.
"prof. Snape! Where have you been?" she demanded "three classes you've
missed!!!"
"I'm sorry, professor, I took too strong a sleeping draft last night."
She scanned the room , obviously looking for remy. "very well!" she
snapped "you are on probation until further notice! Now get dressed, your
fifth years are waiting!" she strode out closing the door behind her,
remy scuttled out from under severus's bed. "sorry." she said
apologetically, "I shouldn't have come and jeopardized your job." severus
shook his head, crossing to her, "it's not your fault, besides, it was
worth it." he kissed her gently, her hand was at the tie on his robe.
He shook his head, she had the look of a child being denied candy. He
laughed,
"come on, I've got students to teach!"
She nodded and smiled slyly, "and the weekends coming up."
He was about to reply when it hit him,
"damn these quarters!" he cursed,
"what?" remy asked.
" don't you remember the only way out of my chambers is through the
potions class room?"
"oh no." remy muttered. Shaking her head. Smiling.
"and there's a whole room full of fifth years out there." he pulled her
over to the door, and checked through the peep hole, "at least umbridge
is gone,"
Remy fixed her hair with her wand , severus kissed her, "go on"
There was dead silence as she walked out, blushing, and in severus's
clothes.
"oh." it was draco malfoy "now we know why prof.snape's been missing."
She crossed through the room of whispering kids and out the door,
actually she stayed outside the door awhile, and watched severus come in
to a room full of giggling fifth years.
The story spread throughout the school like crazy,
But severus & remy insisted it was only gossip.
To prof. Umbridge.
Remy had asked to keep the particular outfit of severus's she had worn,
and he had agreed, whispering in her ear that she was at her best in his
clothes, just as she was in his bed. she hit him repetedly with her fork,
while laughing, as he tried to pull the fork away from her, muttering
something about students watching them.
And they did, The students watched this, some with interest, others, like
harry and ron, with repulsion.
"you know, lupin's sister's fine an all, " ron said " but personally any
pairing with snape has my stomache turning."
Hermione rolled her eyes, "oh, ron, prof. Snape's not half bad."
Harry and ron stared at her in disgust and amazment.
Hermione pretended not to notice,
Morgan laughed at them all.
_____
________
He came to the astronomy tower as her class was leaving, they stared at
him, and whisperd and giggled.
As soon as they where all gone, they moved into each others arms,
Remy glanced at the sky. "mars is bright tonight."
"as are your eyes," he put his hand under her chin and turned her face
toward his.
"we have to be more careful," he continued "we can only make love on
weekends. I mean Friday and Saturday nights, I cant afford to miss
anymore classes."
She nodded, then got an evil grin, "what about lunch?"
He smiled "any day"
She kissed him, an innocent kiss, followed by naughty words.
"tonights Friday night."
He pulled her closer, and said, with a devilish look, "your place or
mine?"
"yours." remy decided. "I love how it's so.you." she said. "perfectly,
wonderfully, severus."
She looked around at the astronomy tower. "look where we are." she said
with a grin, "remember?" how could he ever forget? They'd first made love
here, in the exact spot they where standing. "do you think I'd ever
forget?"
He ran his hands through her hair, "alright this weekend my chambers,
next weekend yours, and so on."
Remy was still wearing severus's clothes.
He pulled out something from the folds of his robes.
It was a black silk "robe" that cut at the hips, and tied with a matching
tie-rope thingy, "remy" was embroiderd on the left. In silver.
She smiled at him taking it in her arms.
" I had the house elves do the embroidery."
Remy lay her head on severus's shoulder and muttered so quietly that had
she not been so close he could not have heard her.. "I love you severus."
He wrapped his arms around her.
He knew that she understood that the gift was his way of saying all the
words he couldn't.
He placed his arm around her waist and marched defiantly though the
passing students, and down to the dungeons.
The entire weekend was like that,
They couldn't keep their hands off each other, they hadn't left severus's
rooms, since Friday night, house elves had been leaving their meals in
the living room, but they weren't touching a lot more than each other and
the wine. If anything, remy was wearing the robe severus had given her,
she had said that the next time she managed to find away out of his arms
and into hogsmeade, she would buy him something he had replied by
grabbing her tightly in his arms and saying,
"never then, I wont let you go." she'd laughed and kissed him.
But they did, at some point Sunday, make it into hogsmeade together.
"you've been happier then usual lately, sev." remy noted as they walked.
"there is no way I could get you to eat icecream, albeit, in a dish.
Before."
Severus raised an eyebrow, "cheerful? Somehow I don't think so." he said
dipping his spoon into his small dish of vanilla ice cream, remy had
tried to make him get sprinkles and/or a cone. He refused.
"well.okay, not cheerful, but you are eating icecream, in the sunlight."
He looked up at the sky and then at his icecream,
"so I am," he looked at her "congratulations, you've charmed me into
coming out into the light, sadly, now I must turn to ash."
Remy smiled and rolled her eyes, elbowing him in the ribs, "shut up
gorgeous. You turn to ash and I'll (pause) put you in a urn!"
"uhuh.yeah, that's right."
She tossed her ice cream into a trashcan, and turned to severus, wrapping
her arms around severus's neck.
"it was wonderful coming out here severus, but I think I'm ready to go
back and use the rest of my time this weekend as best I can."
He smiled and pulled her close.
"of course."
She reached into her pocket, and pulled out a silver pendant,
The border of the medium sized pendant was a snake wraping around itself
in the middle was his name "severus" engraved and filled in with green
glass.
"a friend did it for me." she explained.
Severus flipped it over, the back read, "with love from remy yours
forever"
Was written.
He fastened it around his neck. 'yours forever' playing in his
mind.'yours'
He kissed her, a heat rising between them, "lets go."
______
He sat her on the bed.
She took down her hair,
And he unbuttoned her shirt slowly,
He slid it off her shoulders,
He paused for a moment, taking in her bueaty.
He ran his hands over her breasts, he hadn't taken off her bra yet, he
stretched his arm around to her back, unsnapping the bra with ease and
dropping it to the floor. They were so perfect, soft, milky, round and
ivory, he stroked them, and cuped them in his hands, he moved his
fingers and his thumb, gently squeezing and massaging her nipples. She
moaned, grabbing his belt and pulling him towards her. He smiled,
"I'm not done with you yet." he said lifting her hands from his belt.
He moved his hands to her belt, and unbuckled it, she reached again for
his, but he caught her hand in mid air, smile. "bad girl, you must
restrain yourself., discipline."
She smiled a gremlin smile in return. He pulled off her belt and set it
aside.
He unbuttoned her blue jeans, and slide them to her knees, taking in the
site of her ivory skin against her black satin panties,.he slid them off
all the way, they fell to the floor with her boots, he pressed her
backwards, onto the bed,
And began to slip off her panties,
The mark on his shoulder burned with a white-hot intensity,
He fell onto the floor, clutching his shoulder, remy sat up, shocked,
"severus!" she had knelt down beside him, gently placing her hand on his
other shoulder . "are you alright?."
'wonderful timing he has, the dark lord.' severus thought.
"get dressed remy, all black, you'll need to put on some dark make up and
pale powder, make yourself more dark. and start emptying your head off
memorys, it's time, I have to go tell dumbledore, meet me by the
entrance doors."
remy nodded, she threw on her clothes and rushed off to her chambers.
Black robes.she dressed quickly , and did her make-up, she looked
disturbingly like bellatrix lestrange with brown hair. She practiced
making her voice cold, and distant. She pulled out her pensieve, and
emptied all important memorys that could be harmful to the order of the
phoenix, ect. into it.
Severus was waiting, he looked startled at her transformation, but nodded
his approval, he took her hand, and dragged her quickly through the
doors, a carriage waited to take them into hogsmeade where they could
disaperate to the dark lord's side. remy's heart beat quickly and she was
sure it was quite audible in the silence of the carriage, it wasn't, but
severus could still tell how unnerved she was, 'what if I mess up?' she
thought ' what will happen then?'
They reached hogsmead, as severus helped her from the carriage she felt
his pain surge through her, every minute they took, he hurt worse. "it'll
be okay remy," he muttered in her ear, but it was him she was worried
about. "just remember, you hate muggleborns, muggles, muggle-lovers, and
dumbledore and harry. On that basis you should be okay."
She took a moment to fill her head with a (albeit, guilty) hatred of all
severus had listed, he tapped his foot impatiently, and grabbed her to
him, there was a crack, and they had dissaperated .
------
The "basement" (remy assumed that's what it was,) was dark and cold. She
moved instinctively closer to severus,
Torches, flickered on along the walls, a gathering of masked cloaked,
people, (death eaters, obviously,) where gathered around a throne.
I swear. A throne.
Remy couldn't help but think this was cheesy.
But the one sitting on it, was anything but. Remy bowed, ( she figured
that was proper right?) she even did it before severus, which mad her
look good, she guessed. severus followed her in formalities, "so..."
said a high ,cold, voice.
She looked up, and into the scarlet eyes of lord. Voldemort. "you are
remy lupin." he finished.
She stood quietly, unmoving her gaze,
She felt the power of unwand-made legilumens , braking into her mind,
most people couldn't sense this, so she stayed still as though nothing
was happening,
"what , remy, do you think of my plans?"
She forced up a cruel smile, and conjured up a fantasie of her happily
torturing muggles.
"very favorable, my lord." she spoke with the air of one, who couldn't
wait until after dinner to eat dessert.
This act seemed to satisfy voldemort, because he moved to the next
question,
"how did you come to that conclusion when you where raised by such an
unsatisfactory family?"
"when I came to hogwarts, and met severus he taught me about the dark
arts.."
"really?" she could feel voldemort delving deeper into her mind, for
memorys, she forced in an image of a younger version of severus and
herself practicing crucio on spiders.
She tried to make a pleased reminiscing look appear on her face.
"are you looking to enter my service?"
Voldemort asked cooly.
Remy considered, if she said yes, she was screwed , if she said no.it
would make all her other successes a fail, she decided to say.
"if it would please you, my lord."
He nodded,
"I may or may not have use for you."
He snapped his fingers, "bellatrix! Fetch me the boy!"
Bellatrix lestrange smiled evily, "with pleasure."
Remy didn't dare glance at severus. His vibes weren't good.
Bellatrix returned with a tortured looking 9yr old muggle boy.
Remy was horrified! But she couldn't let that show.she forced it down, in
favor of a look of false casual interest.
"demonstrate your skills with the cruciatis curse." voldemort commanded.
Remy gulped, she couldn't balk. She visualized that the boy was prof.
Umbridge, no not good enough.peter pettigrew! Someone she truly wished to
hurt! "CRUCIO!!!" she cried with delight, imagining peter writhing with
pain. After a few minutes voldemort said,
"you may stop!"
She lifted the spell and was horrified to see a crying nine year old, and
a room full of death eaters with nothing but surprise and acceptance in
their eyes.
She glanced at severus, he would not meet her gaze.
"she was enjoying it!" bellatrix exclaimed, "she would do well my lord!"
The other death eaters where murmuring their agreement ,
'shit' remy thought, 'what have I done?'
"very well.": voldemort looked thoughtful. "you both may go, I will
summon you when I am ready to initiate her, if I do decide to do so."
Severus, grabbed her arm, a little too sharply, and they disaperated,
He did not speak to her , just dragged her into the carriage. He sat
across from her, cold and silent.
Remy couldn't keep it in any longer,
She burst in to tears.smearing her dark make-up.
Severus looked up at her , startled.
"what?!" he demanded
"I---I tortured a nine year old!!!! Severus, a child!!! I inflicted pain
on a child!!! *she sobbed* and now, I might have to receive the d-dark m-
mark.and I don't want it!!! And your *sob* acting like it all my
fault!!!"
How thick could he have been? It was all just an act afterall, even one
so well done.
It was just an act. She was still remy, the sleeve of her black robe was
torn, revealing her shoulder, her hair had fallen down, and now that her
tears had removed the make-up, he wondered how stupid he must have been
to think it was real.
He moved to sit next to her, he took her in his arms, she cried against
his chest.
"I don't think it's your fault at all remy, it's mine, I should never
have gotten you into this."
she sobbed "t-the m-mark!!!!!"
She gasped and cried harder. "forever!!!! I'll have it forever.a reminder
of.that!!! This!!! Them, him.*sob* and you.you'll never look at me the
same way again, once I have it!!! It will never be the same again."
It was true , remy was the only pure thing he had, the only innocent
being in his life.
He had taken her virginity, and she had only ever loved him. well, as far
as he knew. But this.the dark mark, on her.a black burning tatoo , a
devil-brand on an angel.
He'd have to deny that this would change anything to put her mind at
rest.
"nonsense! I'll look at you no differently!" he kissed her gently,
"you'll always be my remy. Always mine."
She whiped, her tears away, trying to be stronger. "I'm.s-sorry severus,
I'm so weak, sometimes I just cant control m-my emotions."
He shook his head, "would I be with someone who was weak? You controlled
your emotions very well with lord voldemort, better even, then me. Its
okay, to cry on my shoulder remy, I never mind." he hated It when she
tried to be like him, let him affect her like that, she didn't often act
like she should be stronger, or any different for him, and he hated it
when she did.
Remy smiled slightly, "there must have been something I could have done
differently."
He could think of 1,000 excuses she could have given lord voldemort for
not joining the death eaters, but , whats done is done.
Remy continued, " severus.will you still love me after.the mark.?"
He was startled. " of course!" he would , wouldn't he? Yes he would,
remy still
embodied everything he ever wanted in a woman.
He kissed her softly,
They had reached hogwarts.
"severus." she said , nervously, "would you mind if I stayed with you
tonight?"
He wished! "remy, if I miss anymore classes."
"no sex!" she explained, "I, I just don't want to be alone tonight."
"of course you can stay with me."
He never minded remy in his bed, clothes on or off, and besides that, she
looked like her world had just come crashing down around her, he
understood, it was bad for remy, because she hadn't even wanted it in
the first place, atleast he hadn't felt as bad from the very
beginning.but her pain was nothing to his, his years of service.
He walked to his chambers, remy held close.she could hear the rain
beating on the walls of the castle as she snuggled in next to severus, in
his shirt, she cuddled to him, he wrapped his arm around her, and she
welcomed sleep, severus lay awake, ' if I never wake up tomorrow, would
remy know how much I really cared?'
_________
"I need to take a week off, headmaster."
Dumbledore looked over severus, casually interested, severus had never
asked for time off.
"does this concern."
"the dark lord? No, it's a personal matter, I would return as soon as
possible of course."
Dumbledore understood what severus meant by 'a personal matter' he
smiled and shook severus's hand, "It's about time! A very gentlemanly
way of going about it as well! Does she know?"
Severus shook his head, "it seemed proper to ask him first."
Dumbledore nodded, smiling, "I'll warn you severus, remy was raised
mostly by her fathers side of the family, and if it's proper your looking
for, you wont find much in her father."
Severus raised an eyebrow, "meaning?."
Dumbledore sat down, "very interesting man, remy's father. But I'll let
you find the rest out for yourself."
Severus nodded, and left.
____
Remy woke up. where was severus ???
She glanced at the wall, it was during his morning classes! But.
She glanced through the door to see.proffessor umbridge addressing the
class.
She listened through the door.
"all potions classes are canceled for today!" she sounded very miffed.
"because the potions master was called away on personal business!"
She stormed out, leaving the
Confused fifth years behind,
Ron weasly yet out a yelp of joy.
Remy heard Hermione mutter, "do you think he's doing work for the order?"
Remy opened the door,
The fifth years stared at her, she walked towards the door,
Draco malfoy asked, "prof. Lupin, wheres prof. Snape?"
Remy turned to face the class, " I have no idea."
Draco looked as though he thought she where lying , "but you're his
girlfriend! Of course you'd know!"
"well I don't." she said leaving.
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Severus reached hogsmeade and disaperate to grimmauld place.
He knocked on the door,
Sirius opened the door, and raised his eyebrows at severus.
"what the hell do you want??" he asked.
"I'm looking for remus lupin." severus said irritably.
"he's not here!" Sirius started to shut the door, severus caught it.
"where is he??"
"I don't know- traveling."
"where?"
"I told you! I don't know! He's looking for work, why do you want to
know?"
Severus glared at him, "that's not your business."
"I think it is! Remus is my best friend, and if your going to go messing
with him.."
Severus shut the door in Sirius's face, and walked away.
So.he'd merely disaperate, and be wherever remus was, why hadn't he done
that in te first place?
He did, he was outside a two-story , blue house, he walked up and rang
the doorbell,
A plump, elderly woman answered the door,
Severus shifted his feet uncomfortably.
"I'm looking for remus lupin." he said.
The old lady smiled, she was obviously a muggle, and therefore disturbed
by his robes.
"of course , come in!"
She led him into a Victorian style parlor room, and motioned for him to
sit, every wall severus could see was lined with books.
The lady left , seconds later she returned with remus, who was wearing a
light blue muggle t-shirt and blue jeans. "this fellow wanted to see
you," the old lady said, leaving.
Remus looked shocked to see severus.
"is something wrong with remy?" he asked immediately.
"no" severus snapped "of course not!" severus seemed to take it as an
insult that remus thought anything bad could possible have happened to
remy while he was with her.
"I came to ask you where I could find your father, and how to identify
him?" severus finished.
Remus sat down. Suspicious.
"why couldn't remy tell you?"
Severus raised an eyebrow, "because I felt it was proper to first declare
my intentions to your father, before asking your sister."
Remus's mouth dropped open. "well no one asked me! Are you talking about
marrying my sister?"
"I was with her for quite awhile, before she went to america, and now
were together again, it seemed appropriate."
Remus shook his head, " appropriate and proper be damned! Do you love my
sister?"
Severus looked shaken, "did anyone ever doubt?"
Remus nodded forcefully, "only about every other day!"
Severus ignored this.
"are you going to tell me about your father, or not?"
Remus laughed.
"do you really want to meet my dad??"
"yes- of course."
"very gentlemanly! Tell me, what kind of wedding where you thinking of?"
Severus thought for a moment, "something small, simple, traditional."
Remus laughed again, coldly, annoying severus.
"if you go to my dad.he will either attempt to kill you, or, if he likes
you, only bruise you up a bit, then he will demand that you have a gypsy
wedding, and you will be surrounded by my fathers side of the family, and
my step family, and everyone else they travel with, who are some how
relatives, noone bothers to remember how, and, " he surveyed severus.
"trust me it wouldn't be your scene, dancing, singing, clapping.death
threats."
Severus looked at remus, in uncertainty, "a gypsy wedding? Death
threats?"
"my father is a gypsy, and the death threats would be from all of remys
half brothers, who trust me, are quite unlike me. They will first welcome
you into the family, a lot of hugging, and drinking and partying.and then
, threaten to murder you in several different ways, usual concerning
knives, if you mis-treat remy, in any way, "
Remus paused then continued. "but of course.you already know that I would
be the one to kill you if you hurt remy."
Severus snorted at him. "yes, yes, I'm certain you would." on other
occasions , severus would have laughed loudly, but he was trying to be
nice to remus, so sarcasm would have to do.
"anyways." remus continued, "you know that he kidnapped remy off to his
caravan, don't you? Taught her all sorts of things, didn't you ever
notice how.different remy was? Her accent, they way she acted? Anyway
most likely he'll try and do the same with any children you might
have..."
Severus was getting irritated, "enough with the warnings! Where can I
find your father?"
"his name is gyorgy, I don't have a clue where he is, he's midium height,
about the same as remy, he has dark skin, dark hair and dark eyes. You'll
know him, by the golden chain he always wears, with a single amethyst
bead hanging on it."
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Remy knocked
On the headmasters door.
"come in." albus called, ]\
She pushed open the door, "hey professor. D , do you know where severus
is? The umbridge says he's missing."
Same remy that albus had taught growing up, same lingo, same attitude.
"the umbridge" was what remy had started to call prof. Umbridge because
it made her think of "the umbrage" the resentment. Exactly my feelings
about her! Remy had said.
"he's away on personal business, it would be betraying a confidence to
tell you, she looked crushed. "fine! He could have atleast told me."
defiance. "the Christmas break starts tomorrow.when he gets back, tell
him I'm spending the holiday in London!" grimmauld place.
She marched out of the office.
She sent this letter out to: lupe, remus & tonks
Get your butts to grimmauld place!!!
I'm coming home for the holidays and I damn well want you all to be
there!!!
(-remy.
She was angry. She did remember however to wright to Sirius:
Hey!!!
Guess who?? It's remy!
And guess who alls coming to stay with you over Christmas?!
Me, lupe, tonks and remus!!! Smile and be happy!
-REMY.
Ok, she even had to admit she was being a bit pushy and bitchy, but until
further notice, she consider grimmauld place her home away from hogwarts.
Until she got her own place of course, she'd do some shopping-around
over Christmas, time to get herself a life of her own set up here!!!
She waited, Sirius wrote back he'd be happy to have her and the others
come stay, and that harry and the weasly's where there, mr. Weasly had
had some sort of injury. Noone tells me of course, remy thought.
She came to grimmauld place the very next day,
Remus was saying nothing about his meeting with severus.
He was still in denial anyways, so it was all just as well.
Sirius was very pleased that remy was angry at snape, "coming to her
senses"
He called it. Offering everyone more butterbeer,
Remy glared at him. "he just left! Without even telling me where he was
going! Damn.." she sighed "men! "
"not all men are like snape." Sirius was happy to point out.
"I just hope he has a good reason for not telling me, when he gets back,
or." she smiled at remus, punching him in the arm, "I may just have to
find a guy more like my brother, *pause* but everything was going so
well, why would he have left like that? "Personal business" dumbledore
called it."
Sirius shrugged , remus stared at the table, guiltily, but he couldn't
tell her, "why does snape do anything? don't ask me."
"maybe." said harry thoughtfully. "he had to do something for voldemort."
Remy shook her head, "no, if the dark lord had summoned severus , he
would have been expected to bring me with him."
They all stared at her, remus's eyes turned dark, "what do you mean he
would have been expected to take you with him.?"
"yeah" tonks said, "what do you mean?"
"well." remy said slowly, "unfortunately it seems that I will be doing
the same job as severus for the order."
Ron's mouth fell open, "your.your going to be a death eater?!"
"a fake one." remy said.
Sirius stood up "I knew this would happen, " he seemed to be shouting at
remus. "he's dragging her down with him moony! You mark my words!!!
Nothing good can come of this!!"
"your preaching to the choir , Sirius." remus said calmly, "don't you
think I know?"
"well then why the bloody hell arent you doing something about it?"
Everyone was watching them fight, in a kind of awe, mrs. Weasly started
to tell them to shut up and sit down, but remus cut her off.
"do what about it? The damage is already done , Sirius, what can I do?
Kill snape? I'm not that kind of person Sirius, I don't but in, if remy
wants to."
"GET HERSELF KILLED?!" Sirius shouted "IF SHE WANTS TO GO AND GET HERSELF
KILLED IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU???"
"DAMMIT SIRIUS! OF COURSE I'M WORRIED ABOUT REMY! HOW COULD I NOT BE? BUT
I KNEW THE MINUTE THEY WHERE BACK TOGETHER THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN AND I'M
TRYING TO LIVE WITH IT PEACEFULLY! SHE OBVIOUSLY THINNKS HE'S RIGHT FOR
HER."
Remy stood up, having had enough of this. "FIRST OF ALL, I CAN TAKE CARE
OFF MYSELF, EVEN IN THE FACE OF THE DARKLORD! I DON'T NEED YOU (simpering
sarcastic tone) BIG TOUGH MEN TO LOOK OUT FOR ME! AND SECOND, WHY ARE WE
ARGUING ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE? IS THIS ABOUT ME AND PRETENDING TO WORK FOR
VOLDEMORT, OR ME BEING WITH SNAPE???"
"BOTH!" Sirius and remus cried.
"WELL YOU CAN WORRY ABOUT ME AND VOLDEMORT ALL YOU WANT! BUT WHAT THERE
IS BETWEEN ME AND SEVERUS IS NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUISNESS!" she snapped,
marching from the room, tonks shot remus a "I'll talk to her but you wont
like what I tell you" look, and followed her, lupe slapped Sirius right
across the face, and said, "you had your chance in hogwarts!" and left .
"what a woman!" Mundungus said staring after lupe, "that was some slap!"
-------
"ooh! That boi!" lupe fumed, remy was sitting curled up against the
headboard staring at the opposite wall, tonks was bouncing a ball absent
mindedly between her hands.
"you'd think he'd buck it up, and be a man about you and severus!"
Remy laughed coldly, "why the fuck does he care what I do anyways? He
never cared before."
Lupe snorted, "isn't it obvious? He's upset because his archenemy is
with a girl he fancies!"
Remy smirked at her, "fancies?"
She laughed, rolling on the bed, "Sirius? Like me? Yeah!? What planet
are you from? "
Lupe rolled her eyes. "please.can you say self-esteem problem??"
"self-esteem problem." tonks said, with a laughing smile.
" I don't have a self-esteem problem," remy said seriously. "I know I'm
beautiful, but I also know that there are notches above me, I'm say.on a
scale of 1-10, a 8, and Sirius is say.an 11 and a half."
"oh my god!!" that had gotten tonks attention, "you like him! I don't
believe it!!!"
Remy shook her head, "come on, I just know gorgeous when I see it, that
doesn't mean I wanna get "with" him, have you all forgotten? I have a
serious relationship with severus right now!"
"who has mysteriously disappeared." lupe said, crossing her legs, in a
guru-like pose.
Remy glared at her."anyways, " tonks cut in, "where is your relationship
with severus going? "
Remy shrugged, "I guess we'll stay the way we are.until.um.until.."
Lupe laughed, "try this question: what do you want from your life?"
"I want.to start my own bar, I want a family."
"exactly!" tonks said. "a family! I mean severus isn't the marrying type
is he? Even if by some weird fate, he's still definetly not a family
man."
Remy shrugged, "I can give up a few things for severus."
Lupe looked at her with genuine concern, "these arent a few things were
talking about here, I could write a whole list of why severus is not
your true love."
Remy's hand curled into a fist, "oh? Ya? Well you do that then! Arent you
guys supposed to be on my side of this I-don't-know-what-about, argument?
Besides, I told you, Sirius has no feelings for me!"
Tonks pocket the ball, "we are on your side, but, let's play what-if,
what if Sirius did have feelings for you?"
Remy's lip quivered, "ok dammit! You win! I have a small crush on
Sirius! But." she recovered. "it wouldn't be wise to throw away a time-
tested relationship for something that may or may not be the real deal."
Lupe and tonks shared a smile, "baby doll! This is everything you've ever
wanted! You can have your bar, your family, your nights dancing.."
"no" remy shook her head, "first of all.even if I did take this risk, It
would look suspicious to the darklord wouldn't it? If I suddenly broke up
with severus, and the darklord would find out I was with Sirius, and the
whole world would come crashing down."
Lupe rolled her eyes, "you cant let the world keep you from true love!"
Remy shook her head, "there are so many reason's why I cant break it off
with severus, and I don't want to ."
She cried. "I wish I were still in america! I love severus, I think I
could have a wonderful relationship with Sirius, too though, and this
whole death eater thing.it would be easier just to die."
"tell me you don't mean that." tonks looked shocked,
"I'm 36 nymphy, I usually mean what I say."
"stupefy!" lupe stunned her.
"ok." tonks raised an eyebrow, "you stunned her. why?"
"we cant let her ruin, and/or end her life!"
"uh-huh, and your plan is? We cant mess with her relationship, even I
wont do that."
"true, but we can give her a week off, don't you think a week away in
paradise to decide who she wants, and her best plan of action if it's
Sirius."
Tonks grinned devilishly, sprouting horns as a comidiatric effect,
"are you thinking."
"Timaru!" they said, slapping hands,
Timaru, a town in new Zealand where they had gone with lily and ebony
after graduation, and when lily was pregnant .
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Gyorgy was just as remus had described him, but, unexpectedly, he was
alone, and quite drunk when severus found him in a tavern somewhere in
Syria.
'wonderful,' severus thought, 'he's intoxicated. Perfect.'
This wasn't easy. How do you ask a man you don't even know for his
daughters hand in marriage??
He ran scenerios in his head.
'hello, my name is severus snape, I don't know you, but I hope that can
change, you see, I'd like to marry your daughter."
Actually, he really didn't want to get to know anyone better. He just
wished this where simpler. 'what would I think if someone asked me that
about my daughter?' he laughed to himself. 'I'd deck him.'
He thought, smirking.
Well he couldn't just stand there.and he couldn't think of a better line.
He walked up behind gyorgy.
"gyorgy?" he questioned the man turned around to face him.
''hello, my name is severus snape, I don't know you, but I hope that can
change, you see, I'd like to marry your daughter."
"who the hell are you??? Marry my daughter???"
'well,' severus thought, ' I was right'
Gyorgy punched him straight in the left eye.
He stepped back,
'damn' he thought.
"I told you my name is severus, I've been with remy for awhile now."
Gyorgy looked at him suspiciously.
"a while now? When did this happen ? I did not condone this, she has not
spoken to me!"
What a fun question to answer, severus would actual have to think for a
minute,
From fourth year until she went to america.7 years. Three after hogwarts
and four months since she got back.
"7 years, before she went to america and four months since she returned."
Gyorgy's mouth fell open like remy's did when she was shocked, angry,
ect.
"7 YEARS??? Ka jav te xenav tut! 7 YEARS??? AND NO WORD TO ME??? 7
YEARS??? THIS CONVERSATION SHOULD CERTAINTLY HAVE HAPPENED SOONER!!!"
well.that wasn't the reaction he had expected. "IF YOU LOVE MY DAUGHTER
SO MUCH, WHY YOU WAIT 7 YEARS TO ASK HER TO MARRY YOU???"
"it's complicated." severus answered simply, honestly, it had just taken
him awhile to realize he could take the next step with remy.
"COMPLICATED??! Oh devlesa." severus figured that meant oh god. . "she's
pregnant isn't she???"
He stood up, "I SWEAR TO GOD, I WILL KILL YOU!!!"
Severus almost laughed. "of course she's not pregnant!"
Gyorgy calmed and sat back down. "oh? Then it is complicated why??"
Severus glared at him, "look most of those seven years we where in
school, in fact only three of the years we where out of school."
"still, 3 years! A proper rom would have married her sooner!."
Severus sighed. "yes well, I'm not a gypsy."
Gyorgy was thoughtful for a moment. "quite true, I forbid you to marry my
daughter."
Well, it's not like he really had a choice, severus thought, but, he
should atleast try to make nice with remy's dad. "okay, why?"
"because you are a gajo, and I don't know you."
"well, remy's not a gypsy either."
This was obviously the wrong thing to say.
"you! You come waltzing in here, asking for remy's hand , when I don't
even know you, and now you say she is not romany? Bah!" whatever. "look, i was courteous by coming here, i hoped we could get along, be civil atleast, but i , love remy, and i'm going to marry her, whether you like it or not." again with the punching! straight in his right eye. "what is it with you and my eyes??" severus demanded. gyorgy laughed "i am making them black, to match their color!"
" look i have things to do and places to be so..." gyorgy was serious again. "you will stay severus snape." they sat. gyorgy ordered two drinks. "do you honestly think i would not submit to a marriage between my daughter and a man she's been with for seven years? that's longer then i was with remy's mother! Total!" he sighed. "i will not deny, i imagined a different man asking me this someday, maybe even a gypsy, hopefully someone I knew, but my daughter chooses her own path, she chose to leave and go to that school , and like our people she follows the roads her heart leads her too. i do not know if you will be good for her, if you are not (he looked at severus coldly) Te shordjol muro rat if I do not kill you. but as it is. i am welcoming you to the family." he placed his hand on severus's shoulder, " you will have a gypsy wedding, and you will be good to her, severus snape." this entire whole-name thing was reallly wierd in severus's opinion. "um, you can call me severus you know, and if remy wants a 'gypsy wedding' she can have it, if she doesnt , your out of luck." gyorgy shrugged. "she will bring you to me , when she is ready, she will bring you to meet her family." "farewell." severus said leaving. "goodbye for now, severus snape." gyorgy said, downing what was left of his pint.
---
Severus went to the only appropriate place to find a ring for remy.
Wick. Scotland.
He knew a man there, who did fine rings.
He had never done so much country to country disapperation! It was really
starting to take it's toll on his energy.
He appeared In a small, well kept shop, the room was circular and ring
boxes lined the walls. He walked to the front desk.
"dales!" he called.
A short wizard with graying red hair appeared from behind a shelf.
"severus?! Good lord! What are you doing here? Not that it's not good to
see you because it is!" he pumped his hand. Severus frowned.
"yes, yes of course, I'm looking for a ring dales."
"what kind?" the ring-maker asked.
"I'm thinking silver, set with a diamond , and two amethyst's next to the
diamond."
Dales smiled mischievously, " whats the ring for?" in the old days,
severus had ordered quite a few "dark" rings, from dales, for various
purposes. He probably thought that's what severus wanted now.
Severus tapped his foot impatiently, "dales , are you thick? Nothing dark
! It's an engagment ring."
Dales's mouth fell open, in that annoying way severus was getting a lot
lately.
"married?? You??? Severus! You never cease to amaze me! Whats her name?
*pause* Or his name?" severus snorted. "god dales! Anyways, her names
remy lupin."
Dales thought for a moment. "wait.." big grin. "astronomy tower remy???"
Severus nodded.
"yes, astronomy tower remy, looked as far as I'm concerned, you can come
and we can catch up later, but the ring."
"of course.hows a black box?" severus nodded, dales raised his wand, a
black box zoomed towards him, the ring severus had described inside it,
he reached into his pockets, "this ones on me, severus." dales said
handing severus the box, "send me an invite and I'll be there." severus
nodded bid dales a fond farewell, and left.
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Remy stirred right when the girls and three suitcases landed outside the
welcome to timaru sign.
Remy looked at the saign, the suitcases, and finally lupe & tonks, who
were grining guiltily.
"timaru?? What.where.you've got to be kidding me!!!"
"we thought you needed a vacation."
"how did I get here??? What day is it?? How long have I been out??"
"disaperation, we kidnapped you, same day, you been out a matter of
hours. We packed your stuff."
----------------
Sirius, remus and the rest of grimmauld places inhabitants, where baffled
by the note tonks had left them:
Hey !!! Everybody!!!
Lupe and I have taken the liberty of giving the young ms.lupin a week to
clear her head, if anybody's looking for us, remus, we left you a
special note, look in your brown patched hat..
Be back whenever.
Severus and Sirius are hereby and hence force forbidden to come near or
communicate with remy, until she gets back!!!
On punishment of becoming an it.
Remus, you however can come anytime, because your remus.
However you are no exception to the it rule, if you talk about Sirius
or severus.
Signed:
Tonks_the_bounce
p.s: like my latest title? The bounce? I love it.
Does anyone have any idea what this is about?" Sirius asked angrily.
"yea, " said Hermione. "obvious isn't it? Remy's deciding whether or not
she loves Sirius or prof. Snape."
Sirius looked shaken, "she.me, what??"
Remus reread the note "what do you supose they mean? taking the liberty
of?"
"they kidnapped her," fred laughed, "george and I saw them carry her down
the stairs."
Mrs. Weasly rounded on fred and george. "and you didn't stop them? What
where you thinking?"
"that they where her friends." george shrugged.
"well, this'll be a surprise for severus, if he's still alive." remus
gave a half-smile, his dad would never really kill someone.
Except maybe remus himself.
Sirius stared at him, the room was quite. "do you know something your not
telling us?"
"all I know," remus said calmly, "is that severus asked my father for
remy's hand in marriage and should be back to propose to her anyday now,
provided my father hasn't done something.odd.with him." like tie him up,
and take him on the road with him. His dad would do that.
The weasly twins faces fell into identical looks of shock and humor.
"are you serious? Snape's going to get married??" George asked
"it's just like a fairytale!" fred spun around like a love sick princess
to make his point, "the babe and the bat king."
as not to wake severus.
She crossed to his wardrobe and pulled on one of his black shirts, the
houseelves had taken her robes to be washed.
She looked at the clock.
12:45!!!
Severus had missed his Friday morning classes!!!
Someone was knocking loudly on the door,
As though they'd been knocking awhile,
In her best impression of severus she called, "just a minute!"
She'd have to pull on a pair of his pants as well. Both shirt and pants
where black.
She woke severus, who grabbed on a robe, pointed underneath his bed and
went to open the door, remy hid under severus's bed, it was proffesor
umbridge.
"prof. Snape! Where have you been?" she demanded "three classes you've
missed!!!"
"I'm sorry, professor, I took too strong a sleeping draft last night."
She scanned the room , obviously looking for remy. "very well!" she
snapped "you are on probation until further notice! Now get dressed, your
fifth years are waiting!" she strode out closing the door behind her,
remy scuttled out from under severus's bed. "sorry." she said
apologetically, "I shouldn't have come and jeopardized your job." severus
shook his head, crossing to her, "it's not your fault, besides, it was
worth it." he kissed her gently, her hand was at the tie on his robe.
He shook his head, she had the look of a child being denied candy. He
laughed,
"come on, I've got students to teach!"
She nodded and smiled slyly, "and the weekends coming up."
He was about to reply when it hit him,
"damn these quarters!" he cursed,
"what?" remy asked.
" don't you remember the only way out of my chambers is through the
potions class room?"
"oh no." remy muttered. Shaking her head. Smiling.
"and there's a whole room full of fifth years out there." he pulled her
over to the door, and checked through the peep hole, "at least umbridge
is gone,"
Remy fixed her hair with her wand , severus kissed her, "go on"
There was dead silence as she walked out, blushing, and in severus's
clothes.
"oh." it was draco malfoy "now we know why prof.snape's been missing."
She crossed through the room of whispering kids and out the door,
actually she stayed outside the door awhile, and watched severus come in
to a room full of giggling fifth years.
The story spread throughout the school like crazy,
But severus & remy insisted it was only gossip.
To prof. Umbridge.
Remy had asked to keep the particular outfit of severus's she had worn,
and he had agreed, whispering in her ear that she was at her best in his
clothes, just as she was in his bed. she hit him repetedly with her fork,
while laughing, as he tried to pull the fork away from her, muttering
something about students watching them.
And they did, The students watched this, some with interest, others, like
harry and ron, with repulsion.
"you know, lupin's sister's fine an all, " ron said " but personally any
pairing with snape has my stomache turning."
Hermione rolled her eyes, "oh, ron, prof. Snape's not half bad."
Harry and ron stared at her in disgust and amazment.
Hermione pretended not to notice,
Morgan laughed at them all.
_____
________
He came to the astronomy tower as her class was leaving, they stared at
him, and whisperd and giggled.
As soon as they where all gone, they moved into each others arms,
Remy glanced at the sky. "mars is bright tonight."
"as are your eyes," he put his hand under her chin and turned her face
toward his.
"we have to be more careful," he continued "we can only make love on
weekends. I mean Friday and Saturday nights, I cant afford to miss
anymore classes."
She nodded, then got an evil grin, "what about lunch?"
He smiled "any day"
She kissed him, an innocent kiss, followed by naughty words.
"tonights Friday night."
He pulled her closer, and said, with a devilish look, "your place or
mine?"
"yours." remy decided. "I love how it's so.you." she said. "perfectly,
wonderfully, severus."
She looked around at the astronomy tower. "look where we are." she said
with a grin, "remember?" how could he ever forget? They'd first made love
here, in the exact spot they where standing. "do you think I'd ever
forget?"
He ran his hands through her hair, "alright this weekend my chambers,
next weekend yours, and so on."
Remy was still wearing severus's clothes.
He pulled out something from the folds of his robes.
It was a black silk "robe" that cut at the hips, and tied with a matching
tie-rope thingy, "remy" was embroiderd on the left. In silver.
She smiled at him taking it in her arms.
" I had the house elves do the embroidery."
Remy lay her head on severus's shoulder and muttered so quietly that had
she not been so close he could not have heard her.. "I love you severus."
He wrapped his arms around her.
He knew that she understood that the gift was his way of saying all the
words he couldn't.
He placed his arm around her waist and marched defiantly though the
passing students, and down to the dungeons.
The entire weekend was like that,
They couldn't keep their hands off each other, they hadn't left severus's
rooms, since Friday night, house elves had been leaving their meals in
the living room, but they weren't touching a lot more than each other and
the wine. If anything, remy was wearing the robe severus had given her,
she had said that the next time she managed to find away out of his arms
and into hogsmeade, she would buy him something he had replied by
grabbing her tightly in his arms and saying,
"never then, I wont let you go." she'd laughed and kissed him.
But they did, at some point Sunday, make it into hogsmeade together.
"you've been happier then usual lately, sev." remy noted as they walked.
"there is no way I could get you to eat icecream, albeit, in a dish.
Before."
Severus raised an eyebrow, "cheerful? Somehow I don't think so." he said
dipping his spoon into his small dish of vanilla ice cream, remy had
tried to make him get sprinkles and/or a cone. He refused.
"well.okay, not cheerful, but you are eating icecream, in the sunlight."
He looked up at the sky and then at his icecream,
"so I am," he looked at her "congratulations, you've charmed me into
coming out into the light, sadly, now I must turn to ash."
Remy smiled and rolled her eyes, elbowing him in the ribs, "shut up
gorgeous. You turn to ash and I'll (pause) put you in a urn!"
"uhuh.yeah, that's right."
She tossed her ice cream into a trashcan, and turned to severus, wrapping
her arms around severus's neck.
"it was wonderful coming out here severus, but I think I'm ready to go
back and use the rest of my time this weekend as best I can."
He smiled and pulled her close.
"of course."
She reached into her pocket, and pulled out a silver pendant,
The border of the medium sized pendant was a snake wraping around itself
in the middle was his name "severus" engraved and filled in with green
glass.
"a friend did it for me." she explained.
Severus flipped it over, the back read, "with love from remy yours
forever"
Was written.
He fastened it around his neck. 'yours forever' playing in his
mind.'yours'
He kissed her, a heat rising between them, "lets go."
______
He sat her on the bed.
She took down her hair,
And he unbuttoned her shirt slowly,
He slid it off her shoulders,
He paused for a moment, taking in her bueaty.
He ran his hands over her breasts, he hadn't taken off her bra yet, he
stretched his arm around to her back, unsnapping the bra with ease and
dropping it to the floor. They were so perfect, soft, milky, round and
ivory, he stroked them, and cuped them in his hands, he moved his
fingers and his thumb, gently squeezing and massaging her nipples. She
moaned, grabbing his belt and pulling him towards her. He smiled,
"I'm not done with you yet." he said lifting her hands from his belt.
He moved his hands to her belt, and unbuckled it, she reached again for
his, but he caught her hand in mid air, smile. "bad girl, you must
restrain yourself., discipline."
She smiled a gremlin smile in return. He pulled off her belt and set it
aside.
He unbuttoned her blue jeans, and slide them to her knees, taking in the
site of her ivory skin against her black satin panties,.he slid them off
all the way, they fell to the floor with her boots, he pressed her
backwards, onto the bed,
And began to slip off her panties,
The mark on his shoulder burned with a white-hot intensity,
He fell onto the floor, clutching his shoulder, remy sat up, shocked,
"severus!" she had knelt down beside him, gently placing her hand on his
other shoulder . "are you alright?."
'wonderful timing he has, the dark lord.' severus thought.
"get dressed remy, all black, you'll need to put on some dark make up and
pale powder, make yourself more dark. and start emptying your head off
memorys, it's time, I have to go tell dumbledore, meet me by the
entrance doors."
remy nodded, she threw on her clothes and rushed off to her chambers.
Black robes.she dressed quickly , and did her make-up, she looked
disturbingly like bellatrix lestrange with brown hair. She practiced
making her voice cold, and distant. She pulled out her pensieve, and
emptied all important memorys that could be harmful to the order of the
phoenix, ect. into it.
Severus was waiting, he looked startled at her transformation, but nodded
his approval, he took her hand, and dragged her quickly through the
doors, a carriage waited to take them into hogsmeade where they could
disaperate to the dark lord's side. remy's heart beat quickly and she was
sure it was quite audible in the silence of the carriage, it wasn't, but
severus could still tell how unnerved she was, 'what if I mess up?' she
thought ' what will happen then?'
They reached hogsmead, as severus helped her from the carriage she felt
his pain surge through her, every minute they took, he hurt worse. "it'll
be okay remy," he muttered in her ear, but it was him she was worried
about. "just remember, you hate muggleborns, muggles, muggle-lovers, and
dumbledore and harry. On that basis you should be okay."
She took a moment to fill her head with a (albeit, guilty) hatred of all
severus had listed, he tapped his foot impatiently, and grabbed her to
him, there was a crack, and they had dissaperated .
------
The "basement" (remy assumed that's what it was,) was dark and cold. She
moved instinctively closer to severus,
Torches, flickered on along the walls, a gathering of masked cloaked,
people, (death eaters, obviously,) where gathered around a throne.
I swear. A throne.
Remy couldn't help but think this was cheesy.
But the one sitting on it, was anything but. Remy bowed, ( she figured
that was proper right?) she even did it before severus, which mad her
look good, she guessed. severus followed her in formalities, "so..."
said a high ,cold, voice.
She looked up, and into the scarlet eyes of lord. Voldemort. "you are
remy lupin." he finished.
She stood quietly, unmoving her gaze,
She felt the power of unwand-made legilumens , braking into her mind,
most people couldn't sense this, so she stayed still as though nothing
was happening,
"what , remy, do you think of my plans?"
She forced up a cruel smile, and conjured up a fantasie of her happily
torturing muggles.
"very favorable, my lord." she spoke with the air of one, who couldn't
wait until after dinner to eat dessert.
This act seemed to satisfy voldemort, because he moved to the next
question,
"how did you come to that conclusion when you where raised by such an
unsatisfactory family?"
"when I came to hogwarts, and met severus he taught me about the dark
arts.."
"really?" she could feel voldemort delving deeper into her mind, for
memorys, she forced in an image of a younger version of severus and
herself practicing crucio on spiders.
She tried to make a pleased reminiscing look appear on her face.
"are you looking to enter my service?"
Voldemort asked cooly.
Remy considered, if she said yes, she was screwed , if she said no.it
would make all her other successes a fail, she decided to say.
"if it would please you, my lord."
He nodded,
"I may or may not have use for you."
He snapped his fingers, "bellatrix! Fetch me the boy!"
Bellatrix lestrange smiled evily, "with pleasure."
Remy didn't dare glance at severus. His vibes weren't good.
Bellatrix returned with a tortured looking 9yr old muggle boy.
Remy was horrified! But she couldn't let that show.she forced it down, in
favor of a look of false casual interest.
"demonstrate your skills with the cruciatis curse." voldemort commanded.
Remy gulped, she couldn't balk. She visualized that the boy was prof.
Umbridge, no not good enough.peter pettigrew! Someone she truly wished to
hurt! "CRUCIO!!!" she cried with delight, imagining peter writhing with
pain. After a few minutes voldemort said,
"you may stop!"
She lifted the spell and was horrified to see a crying nine year old, and
a room full of death eaters with nothing but surprise and acceptance in
their eyes.
She glanced at severus, he would not meet her gaze.
"she was enjoying it!" bellatrix exclaimed, "she would do well my lord!"
The other death eaters where murmuring their agreement ,
'shit' remy thought, 'what have I done?'
"very well.": voldemort looked thoughtful. "you both may go, I will
summon you when I am ready to initiate her, if I do decide to do so."
Severus, grabbed her arm, a little too sharply, and they disaperated,
He did not speak to her , just dragged her into the carriage. He sat
across from her, cold and silent.
Remy couldn't keep it in any longer,
She burst in to tears.smearing her dark make-up.
Severus looked up at her , startled.
"what?!" he demanded
"I---I tortured a nine year old!!!! Severus, a child!!! I inflicted pain
on a child!!! *she sobbed* and now, I might have to receive the d-dark m-
mark.and I don't want it!!! And your *sob* acting like it all my
fault!!!"
How thick could he have been? It was all just an act afterall, even one
so well done.
It was just an act. She was still remy, the sleeve of her black robe was
torn, revealing her shoulder, her hair had fallen down, and now that her
tears had removed the make-up, he wondered how stupid he must have been
to think it was real.
He moved to sit next to her, he took her in his arms, she cried against
his chest.
"I don't think it's your fault at all remy, it's mine, I should never
have gotten you into this."
she sobbed "t-the m-mark!!!!!"
She gasped and cried harder. "forever!!!! I'll have it forever.a reminder
of.that!!! This!!! Them, him.*sob* and you.you'll never look at me the
same way again, once I have it!!! It will never be the same again."
It was true , remy was the only pure thing he had, the only innocent
being in his life.
He had taken her virginity, and she had only ever loved him. well, as far
as he knew. But this.the dark mark, on her.a black burning tatoo , a
devil-brand on an angel.
He'd have to deny that this would change anything to put her mind at
rest.
"nonsense! I'll look at you no differently!" he kissed her gently,
"you'll always be my remy. Always mine."
She whiped, her tears away, trying to be stronger. "I'm.s-sorry severus,
I'm so weak, sometimes I just cant control m-my emotions."
He shook his head, "would I be with someone who was weak? You controlled
your emotions very well with lord voldemort, better even, then me. Its
okay, to cry on my shoulder remy, I never mind." he hated It when she
tried to be like him, let him affect her like that, she didn't often act
like she should be stronger, or any different for him, and he hated it
when she did.
Remy smiled slightly, "there must have been something I could have done
differently."
He could think of 1,000 excuses she could have given lord voldemort for
not joining the death eaters, but , whats done is done.
Remy continued, " severus.will you still love me after.the mark.?"
He was startled. " of course!" he would , wouldn't he? Yes he would,
remy still
embodied everything he ever wanted in a woman.
He kissed her softly,
They had reached hogwarts.
"severus." she said , nervously, "would you mind if I stayed with you
tonight?"
He wished! "remy, if I miss anymore classes."
"no sex!" she explained, "I, I just don't want to be alone tonight."
"of course you can stay with me."
He never minded remy in his bed, clothes on or off, and besides that, she
looked like her world had just come crashing down around her, he
understood, it was bad for remy, because she hadn't even wanted it in
the first place, atleast he hadn't felt as bad from the very
beginning.but her pain was nothing to his, his years of service.
He walked to his chambers, remy held close.she could hear the rain
beating on the walls of the castle as she snuggled in next to severus, in
his shirt, she cuddled to him, he wrapped his arm around her, and she
welcomed sleep, severus lay awake, ' if I never wake up tomorrow, would
remy know how much I really cared?'
_________
"I need to take a week off, headmaster."
Dumbledore looked over severus, casually interested, severus had never
asked for time off.
"does this concern."
"the dark lord? No, it's a personal matter, I would return as soon as
possible of course."
Dumbledore understood what severus meant by 'a personal matter' he
smiled and shook severus's hand, "It's about time! A very gentlemanly
way of going about it as well! Does she know?"
Severus shook his head, "it seemed proper to ask him first."
Dumbledore nodded, smiling, "I'll warn you severus, remy was raised
mostly by her fathers side of the family, and if it's proper your looking
for, you wont find much in her father."
Severus raised an eyebrow, "meaning?."
Dumbledore sat down, "very interesting man, remy's father. But I'll let
you find the rest out for yourself."
Severus nodded, and left.
____
Remy woke up. where was severus ???
She glanced at the wall, it was during his morning classes! But.
She glanced through the door to see.proffessor umbridge addressing the
class.
She listened through the door.
"all potions classes are canceled for today!" she sounded very miffed.
"because the potions master was called away on personal business!"
She stormed out, leaving the
Confused fifth years behind,
Ron weasly yet out a yelp of joy.
Remy heard Hermione mutter, "do you think he's doing work for the order?"
Remy opened the door,
The fifth years stared at her, she walked towards the door,
Draco malfoy asked, "prof. Lupin, wheres prof. Snape?"
Remy turned to face the class, " I have no idea."
Draco looked as though he thought she where lying , "but you're his
girlfriend! Of course you'd know!"
"well I don't." she said leaving.
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Severus reached hogsmeade and disaperate to grimmauld place.
He knocked on the door,
Sirius opened the door, and raised his eyebrows at severus.
"what the hell do you want??" he asked.
"I'm looking for remus lupin." severus said irritably.
"he's not here!" Sirius started to shut the door, severus caught it.
"where is he??"
"I don't know- traveling."
"where?"
"I told you! I don't know! He's looking for work, why do you want to
know?"
Severus glared at him, "that's not your business."
"I think it is! Remus is my best friend, and if your going to go messing
with him.."
Severus shut the door in Sirius's face, and walked away.
So.he'd merely disaperate, and be wherever remus was, why hadn't he done
that in te first place?
He did, he was outside a two-story , blue house, he walked up and rang
the doorbell,
A plump, elderly woman answered the door,
Severus shifted his feet uncomfortably.
"I'm looking for remus lupin." he said.
The old lady smiled, she was obviously a muggle, and therefore disturbed
by his robes.
"of course , come in!"
She led him into a Victorian style parlor room, and motioned for him to
sit, every wall severus could see was lined with books.
The lady left , seconds later she returned with remus, who was wearing a
light blue muggle t-shirt and blue jeans. "this fellow wanted to see
you," the old lady said, leaving.
Remus looked shocked to see severus.
"is something wrong with remy?" he asked immediately.
"no" severus snapped "of course not!" severus seemed to take it as an
insult that remus thought anything bad could possible have happened to
remy while he was with her.
"I came to ask you where I could find your father, and how to identify
him?" severus finished.
Remus sat down. Suspicious.
"why couldn't remy tell you?"
Severus raised an eyebrow, "because I felt it was proper to first declare
my intentions to your father, before asking your sister."
Remus's mouth dropped open. "well no one asked me! Are you talking about
marrying my sister?"
"I was with her for quite awhile, before she went to america, and now
were together again, it seemed appropriate."
Remus shook his head, " appropriate and proper be damned! Do you love my
sister?"
Severus looked shaken, "did anyone ever doubt?"
Remus nodded forcefully, "only about every other day!"
Severus ignored this.
"are you going to tell me about your father, or not?"
Remus laughed.
"do you really want to meet my dad??"
"yes- of course."
"very gentlemanly! Tell me, what kind of wedding where you thinking of?"
Severus thought for a moment, "something small, simple, traditional."
Remus laughed again, coldly, annoying severus.
"if you go to my dad.he will either attempt to kill you, or, if he likes
you, only bruise you up a bit, then he will demand that you have a gypsy
wedding, and you will be surrounded by my fathers side of the family, and
my step family, and everyone else they travel with, who are some how
relatives, noone bothers to remember how, and, " he surveyed severus.
"trust me it wouldn't be your scene, dancing, singing, clapping.death
threats."
Severus looked at remus, in uncertainty, "a gypsy wedding? Death
threats?"
"my father is a gypsy, and the death threats would be from all of remys
half brothers, who trust me, are quite unlike me. They will first welcome
you into the family, a lot of hugging, and drinking and partying.and then
, threaten to murder you in several different ways, usual concerning
knives, if you mis-treat remy, in any way, "
Remus paused then continued. "but of course.you already know that I would
be the one to kill you if you hurt remy."
Severus snorted at him. "yes, yes, I'm certain you would." on other
occasions , severus would have laughed loudly, but he was trying to be
nice to remus, so sarcasm would have to do.
"anyways." remus continued, "you know that he kidnapped remy off to his
caravan, don't you? Taught her all sorts of things, didn't you ever
notice how.different remy was? Her accent, they way she acted? Anyway
most likely he'll try and do the same with any children you might
have..."
Severus was getting irritated, "enough with the warnings! Where can I
find your father?"
"his name is gyorgy, I don't have a clue where he is, he's midium height,
about the same as remy, he has dark skin, dark hair and dark eyes. You'll
know him, by the golden chain he always wears, with a single amethyst
bead hanging on it."
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Remy knocked
On the headmasters door.
"come in." albus called, ]\
She pushed open the door, "hey professor. D , do you know where severus
is? The umbridge says he's missing."
Same remy that albus had taught growing up, same lingo, same attitude.
"the umbridge" was what remy had started to call prof. Umbridge because
it made her think of "the umbrage" the resentment. Exactly my feelings
about her! Remy had said.
"he's away on personal business, it would be betraying a confidence to
tell you, she looked crushed. "fine! He could have atleast told me."
defiance. "the Christmas break starts tomorrow.when he gets back, tell
him I'm spending the holiday in London!" grimmauld place.
She marched out of the office.
She sent this letter out to: lupe, remus & tonks
Get your butts to grimmauld place!!!
I'm coming home for the holidays and I damn well want you all to be
there!!!
(-remy.
She was angry. She did remember however to wright to Sirius:
Hey!!!
Guess who?? It's remy!
And guess who alls coming to stay with you over Christmas?!
Me, lupe, tonks and remus!!! Smile and be happy!
-REMY.
Ok, she even had to admit she was being a bit pushy and bitchy, but until
further notice, she consider grimmauld place her home away from hogwarts.
Until she got her own place of course, she'd do some shopping-around
over Christmas, time to get herself a life of her own set up here!!!
She waited, Sirius wrote back he'd be happy to have her and the others
come stay, and that harry and the weasly's where there, mr. Weasly had
had some sort of injury. Noone tells me of course, remy thought.
She came to grimmauld place the very next day,
Remus was saying nothing about his meeting with severus.
He was still in denial anyways, so it was all just as well.
Sirius was very pleased that remy was angry at snape, "coming to her
senses"
He called it. Offering everyone more butterbeer,
Remy glared at him. "he just left! Without even telling me where he was
going! Damn.." she sighed "men! "
"not all men are like snape." Sirius was happy to point out.
"I just hope he has a good reason for not telling me, when he gets back,
or." she smiled at remus, punching him in the arm, "I may just have to
find a guy more like my brother, *pause* but everything was going so
well, why would he have left like that? "Personal business" dumbledore
called it."
Sirius shrugged , remus stared at the table, guiltily, but he couldn't
tell her, "why does snape do anything? don't ask me."
"maybe." said harry thoughtfully. "he had to do something for voldemort."
Remy shook her head, "no, if the dark lord had summoned severus , he
would have been expected to bring me with him."
They all stared at her, remus's eyes turned dark, "what do you mean he
would have been expected to take you with him.?"
"yeah" tonks said, "what do you mean?"
"well." remy said slowly, "unfortunately it seems that I will be doing
the same job as severus for the order."
Ron's mouth fell open, "your.your going to be a death eater?!"
"a fake one." remy said.
Sirius stood up "I knew this would happen, " he seemed to be shouting at
remus. "he's dragging her down with him moony! You mark my words!!!
Nothing good can come of this!!"
"your preaching to the choir , Sirius." remus said calmly, "don't you
think I know?"
"well then why the bloody hell arent you doing something about it?"
Everyone was watching them fight, in a kind of awe, mrs. Weasly started
to tell them to shut up and sit down, but remus cut her off.
"do what about it? The damage is already done , Sirius, what can I do?
Kill snape? I'm not that kind of person Sirius, I don't but in, if remy
wants to."
"GET HERSELF KILLED?!" Sirius shouted "IF SHE WANTS TO GO AND GET HERSELF
KILLED IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU???"
"DAMMIT SIRIUS! OF COURSE I'M WORRIED ABOUT REMY! HOW COULD I NOT BE? BUT
I KNEW THE MINUTE THEY WHERE BACK TOGETHER THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN AND I'M
TRYING TO LIVE WITH IT PEACEFULLY! SHE OBVIOUSLY THINNKS HE'S RIGHT FOR
HER."
Remy stood up, having had enough of this. "FIRST OF ALL, I CAN TAKE CARE
OFF MYSELF, EVEN IN THE FACE OF THE DARKLORD! I DON'T NEED YOU (simpering
sarcastic tone) BIG TOUGH MEN TO LOOK OUT FOR ME! AND SECOND, WHY ARE WE
ARGUING ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE? IS THIS ABOUT ME AND PRETENDING TO WORK FOR
VOLDEMORT, OR ME BEING WITH SNAPE???"
"BOTH!" Sirius and remus cried.
"WELL YOU CAN WORRY ABOUT ME AND VOLDEMORT ALL YOU WANT! BUT WHAT THERE
IS BETWEEN ME AND SEVERUS IS NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUISNESS!" she snapped,
marching from the room, tonks shot remus a "I'll talk to her but you wont
like what I tell you" look, and followed her, lupe slapped Sirius right
across the face, and said, "you had your chance in hogwarts!" and left .
"what a woman!" Mundungus said staring after lupe, "that was some slap!"
-------
"ooh! That boi!" lupe fumed, remy was sitting curled up against the
headboard staring at the opposite wall, tonks was bouncing a ball absent
mindedly between her hands.
"you'd think he'd buck it up, and be a man about you and severus!"
Remy laughed coldly, "why the fuck does he care what I do anyways? He
never cared before."
Lupe snorted, "isn't it obvious? He's upset because his archenemy is
with a girl he fancies!"
Remy smirked at her, "fancies?"
She laughed, rolling on the bed, "Sirius? Like me? Yeah!? What planet
are you from? "
Lupe rolled her eyes. "please.can you say self-esteem problem??"
"self-esteem problem." tonks said, with a laughing smile.
" I don't have a self-esteem problem," remy said seriously. "I know I'm
beautiful, but I also know that there are notches above me, I'm say.on a
scale of 1-10, a 8, and Sirius is say.an 11 and a half."
"oh my god!!" that had gotten tonks attention, "you like him! I don't
believe it!!!"
Remy shook her head, "come on, I just know gorgeous when I see it, that
doesn't mean I wanna get "with" him, have you all forgotten? I have a
serious relationship with severus right now!"
"who has mysteriously disappeared." lupe said, crossing her legs, in a
guru-like pose.
Remy glared at her."anyways, " tonks cut in, "where is your relationship
with severus going? "
Remy shrugged, "I guess we'll stay the way we are.until.um.until.."
Lupe laughed, "try this question: what do you want from your life?"
"I want.to start my own bar, I want a family."
"exactly!" tonks said. "a family! I mean severus isn't the marrying type
is he? Even if by some weird fate, he's still definetly not a family
man."
Remy shrugged, "I can give up a few things for severus."
Lupe looked at her with genuine concern, "these arent a few things were
talking about here, I could write a whole list of why severus is not
your true love."
Remy's hand curled into a fist, "oh? Ya? Well you do that then! Arent you
guys supposed to be on my side of this I-don't-know-what-about, argument?
Besides, I told you, Sirius has no feelings for me!"
Tonks pocket the ball, "we are on your side, but, let's play what-if,
what if Sirius did have feelings for you?"
Remy's lip quivered, "ok dammit! You win! I have a small crush on
Sirius! But." she recovered. "it wouldn't be wise to throw away a time-
tested relationship for something that may or may not be the real deal."
Lupe and tonks shared a smile, "baby doll! This is everything you've ever
wanted! You can have your bar, your family, your nights dancing.."
"no" remy shook her head, "first of all.even if I did take this risk, It
would look suspicious to the darklord wouldn't it? If I suddenly broke up
with severus, and the darklord would find out I was with Sirius, and the
whole world would come crashing down."
Lupe rolled her eyes, "you cant let the world keep you from true love!"
Remy shook her head, "there are so many reason's why I cant break it off
with severus, and I don't want to ."
She cried. "I wish I were still in america! I love severus, I think I
could have a wonderful relationship with Sirius, too though, and this
whole death eater thing.it would be easier just to die."
"tell me you don't mean that." tonks looked shocked,
"I'm 36 nymphy, I usually mean what I say."
"stupefy!" lupe stunned her.
"ok." tonks raised an eyebrow, "you stunned her. why?"
"we cant let her ruin, and/or end her life!"
"uh-huh, and your plan is? We cant mess with her relationship, even I
wont do that."
"true, but we can give her a week off, don't you think a week away in
paradise to decide who she wants, and her best plan of action if it's
Sirius."
Tonks grinned devilishly, sprouting horns as a comidiatric effect,
"are you thinking."
"Timaru!" they said, slapping hands,
Timaru, a town in new Zealand where they had gone with lily and ebony
after graduation, and when lily was pregnant .
______________
Gyorgy was just as remus had described him, but, unexpectedly, he was
alone, and quite drunk when severus found him in a tavern somewhere in
Syria.
'wonderful,' severus thought, 'he's intoxicated. Perfect.'
This wasn't easy. How do you ask a man you don't even know for his
daughters hand in marriage??
He ran scenerios in his head.
'hello, my name is severus snape, I don't know you, but I hope that can
change, you see, I'd like to marry your daughter."
Actually, he really didn't want to get to know anyone better. He just
wished this where simpler. 'what would I think if someone asked me that
about my daughter?' he laughed to himself. 'I'd deck him.'
He thought, smirking.
Well he couldn't just stand there.and he couldn't think of a better line.
He walked up behind gyorgy.
"gyorgy?" he questioned the man turned around to face him.
''hello, my name is severus snape, I don't know you, but I hope that can
change, you see, I'd like to marry your daughter."
"who the hell are you??? Marry my daughter???"
'well,' severus thought, ' I was right'
Gyorgy punched him straight in the left eye.
He stepped back,
'damn' he thought.
"I told you my name is severus, I've been with remy for awhile now."
Gyorgy looked at him suspiciously.
"a while now? When did this happen ? I did not condone this, she has not
spoken to me!"
What a fun question to answer, severus would actual have to think for a
minute,
From fourth year until she went to america.7 years. Three after hogwarts
and four months since she got back.
"7 years, before she went to america and four months since she returned."
Gyorgy's mouth fell open like remy's did when she was shocked, angry,
ect.
"7 YEARS??? Ka jav te xenav tut! 7 YEARS??? AND NO WORD TO ME??? 7
YEARS??? THIS CONVERSATION SHOULD CERTAINTLY HAVE HAPPENED SOONER!!!"
well.that wasn't the reaction he had expected. "IF YOU LOVE MY DAUGHTER
SO MUCH, WHY YOU WAIT 7 YEARS TO ASK HER TO MARRY YOU???"
"it's complicated." severus answered simply, honestly, it had just taken
him awhile to realize he could take the next step with remy.
"COMPLICATED??! Oh devlesa." severus figured that meant oh god. . "she's
pregnant isn't she???"
He stood up, "I SWEAR TO GOD, I WILL KILL YOU!!!"
Severus almost laughed. "of course she's not pregnant!"
Gyorgy calmed and sat back down. "oh? Then it is complicated why??"
Severus glared at him, "look most of those seven years we where in
school, in fact only three of the years we where out of school."
"still, 3 years! A proper rom would have married her sooner!."
Severus sighed. "yes well, I'm not a gypsy."
Gyorgy was thoughtful for a moment. "quite true, I forbid you to marry my
daughter."
Well, it's not like he really had a choice, severus thought, but, he
should atleast try to make nice with remy's dad. "okay, why?"
"because you are a gajo, and I don't know you."
"well, remy's not a gypsy either."
This was obviously the wrong thing to say.
"you! You come waltzing in here, asking for remy's hand , when I don't
even know you, and now you say she is not romany? Bah!" whatever. "look, i was courteous by coming here, i hoped we could get along, be civil atleast, but i , love remy, and i'm going to marry her, whether you like it or not." again with the punching! straight in his right eye. "what is it with you and my eyes??" severus demanded. gyorgy laughed "i am making them black, to match their color!"
" look i have things to do and places to be so..." gyorgy was serious again. "you will stay severus snape." they sat. gyorgy ordered two drinks. "do you honestly think i would not submit to a marriage between my daughter and a man she's been with for seven years? that's longer then i was with remy's mother! Total!" he sighed. "i will not deny, i imagined a different man asking me this someday, maybe even a gypsy, hopefully someone I knew, but my daughter chooses her own path, she chose to leave and go to that school , and like our people she follows the roads her heart leads her too. i do not know if you will be good for her, if you are not (he looked at severus coldly) Te shordjol muro rat if I do not kill you. but as it is. i am welcoming you to the family." he placed his hand on severus's shoulder, " you will have a gypsy wedding, and you will be good to her, severus snape." this entire whole-name thing was reallly wierd in severus's opinion. "um, you can call me severus you know, and if remy wants a 'gypsy wedding' she can have it, if she doesnt , your out of luck." gyorgy shrugged. "she will bring you to me , when she is ready, she will bring you to meet her family." "farewell." severus said leaving. "goodbye for now, severus snape." gyorgy said, downing what was left of his pint.
---
Severus went to the only appropriate place to find a ring for remy.
Wick. Scotland.
He knew a man there, who did fine rings.
He had never done so much country to country disapperation! It was really
starting to take it's toll on his energy.
He appeared In a small, well kept shop, the room was circular and ring
boxes lined the walls. He walked to the front desk.
"dales!" he called.
A short wizard with graying red hair appeared from behind a shelf.
"severus?! Good lord! What are you doing here? Not that it's not good to
see you because it is!" he pumped his hand. Severus frowned.
"yes, yes of course, I'm looking for a ring dales."
"what kind?" the ring-maker asked.
"I'm thinking silver, set with a diamond , and two amethyst's next to the
diamond."
Dales smiled mischievously, " whats the ring for?" in the old days,
severus had ordered quite a few "dark" rings, from dales, for various
purposes. He probably thought that's what severus wanted now.
Severus tapped his foot impatiently, "dales , are you thick? Nothing dark
! It's an engagment ring."
Dales's mouth fell open, in that annoying way severus was getting a lot
lately.
"married?? You??? Severus! You never cease to amaze me! Whats her name?
*pause* Or his name?" severus snorted. "god dales! Anyways, her names
remy lupin."
Dales thought for a moment. "wait.." big grin. "astronomy tower remy???"
Severus nodded.
"yes, astronomy tower remy, looked as far as I'm concerned, you can come
and we can catch up later, but the ring."
"of course.hows a black box?" severus nodded, dales raised his wand, a
black box zoomed towards him, the ring severus had described inside it,
he reached into his pockets, "this ones on me, severus." dales said
handing severus the box, "send me an invite and I'll be there." severus
nodded bid dales a fond farewell, and left.
------------------
Remy stirred right when the girls and three suitcases landed outside the
welcome to timaru sign.
Remy looked at the saign, the suitcases, and finally lupe & tonks, who
were grining guiltily.
"timaru?? What.where.you've got to be kidding me!!!"
"we thought you needed a vacation."
"how did I get here??? What day is it?? How long have I been out??"
"disaperation, we kidnapped you, same day, you been out a matter of
hours. We packed your stuff."
----------------
Sirius, remus and the rest of grimmauld places inhabitants, where baffled
by the note tonks had left them:
Hey !!! Everybody!!!
Lupe and I have taken the liberty of giving the young ms.lupin a week to
clear her head, if anybody's looking for us, remus, we left you a
special note, look in your brown patched hat..
Be back whenever.
Severus and Sirius are hereby and hence force forbidden to come near or
communicate with remy, until she gets back!!!
On punishment of becoming an it.
Remus, you however can come anytime, because your remus.
However you are no exception to the it rule, if you talk about Sirius
or severus.
Signed:
Tonks_the_bounce
p.s: like my latest title? The bounce? I love it.
Does anyone have any idea what this is about?" Sirius asked angrily.
"yea, " said Hermione. "obvious isn't it? Remy's deciding whether or not
she loves Sirius or prof. Snape."
Sirius looked shaken, "she.me, what??"
Remus reread the note "what do you supose they mean? taking the liberty
of?"
"they kidnapped her," fred laughed, "george and I saw them carry her down
the stairs."
Mrs. Weasly rounded on fred and george. "and you didn't stop them? What
where you thinking?"
"that they where her friends." george shrugged.
"well, this'll be a surprise for severus, if he's still alive." remus
gave a half-smile, his dad would never really kill someone.
Except maybe remus himself.
Sirius stared at him, the room was quite. "do you know something your not
telling us?"
"all I know," remus said calmly, "is that severus asked my father for
remy's hand in marriage and should be back to propose to her anyday now,
provided my father hasn't done something.odd.with him." like tie him up,
and take him on the road with him. His dad would do that.
The weasly twins faces fell into identical looks of shock and humor.
"are you serious? Snape's going to get married??" George asked
"it's just like a fairytale!" fred spun around like a love sick princess
to make his point, "the babe and the bat king."