Covren
I walked in silence. Scared that I would say something I would regret. Thankfully I
kept my wits about me and said nothing. Even when he said goodnight I just smiled
and walked into my room. Though once inside i fell apart. I held back my sobs till I
could hide them in my pillow. I cried till I thought that I had nothing left. i rolled over
onto my back and stared through red rimmed eyes at the ceiling.
"How can I leave him." I said to myself. "Yet how can I stay." I fought an inner battle
that no matter the outcome I would be a loser. I fought for control of my emotions. I
would not become one of those woman who cried over spilt milk. I sniffed and wiped
my eyes.
"You will just have to live alone." I told myself. I made a promise to myself that no
matter what happened I would not cry again. I stood and looked out my window at
the starry night. A cold wind blew through my window. I wrapped my arms closer
about myself and turned and stared at the flames of my fire that had jumped higher
when hit by the wind. I turned away from the warmth and looked back out at the
night.
"Make me like the wind." I whispered. "I want to be cold like the wind." A single tear
fell and landed on the stone of my window sill. The last tear that I would cry.
"Covren." Eowyn said stepping into my room the next morning. "You said that you
would tell me what was wrong." I looked at her undecided as to whether I should tell
her the truth or not.
"I am in love with some one." I said. She sat down on a chaise that I had in my room.
She smiled widely.
"And who would this someone be?" She asked. I looked nervously out the window.
"Your brother." I said truthfully. She looked relieved.
"I was beginning to worry that it was someone else." She said. I looked at her
confused. She laughed and looked at me reprimandingly. "Covren. It has been obvious
for quite some time." I looked about the room horrified.
"Oh don't worry." She said reassuringly." Eomer is about as aware of it as a bat." I
laughed nervously and calmed some what.
"I don't know what to do?" I told her. She stood and walked over to me and sat next
to me. She put her arms around my shoulders in comfort and spoke softly.
"Tell him." She said. I shot up.
"No." I said sharply. I sat back down and looked sadly at the floor. "He has found
another." Eowyn laughed.
"Really." She said. I nodded. "I don't think so. He would have told me." I shrugged.
Then a thought struck me.
"You won't tell will?" I asked. Fear racing through me. "Please don't tell. I am
begging you." Eowyn laughed.
"I would not tell if you do not want me to." She said. I sighed in relief.
"Thank you." I said.
"Now tell me about this girl that you think Eomer has." She said.
Eomer.
"I will miss you." I said to her as we walked along the wall surounding Endoras one
night before she left for Gondor.
"I wish that I could stay here forever." She said to me while looking out at the snow
covered mountains " It is my home and always will be." She wrapped her arm
through mine and we continued.
"What has Covren decided." I asked. Eowyn smiled.
"She has decided to stay." She said. I felt a shot of relief go through me.
"Why do you think?" I asked. I was also confused. Why had she decided to stay.
She was of little use here. In Gondor she could watch after the children and I would
send the man she was with along with her. Why would she wish to stay? An inner
voice told me to open my eyes but I did not listen.
"There is someone here whom she would wish to stay with." Eowyn said evasively.
"Who?" I asked.
"A man."
I laughed.
"Allright. You two keep your secrets." I said. Eowyn smiled and turned once more to
the mountains. Thoughts filled my head. She was in love with that man. The one that
I had thought was her brother. How stupid I was. She only sat and talked with him,
not because he was a friend, but a lover. How could I have not seen? I chided myself
for my stupidity.
"Idiot." I muttered. Eowyn turned to me.
"What?" She asked.
"Hmm." I said distractedly." Oh nothing." She raised an eyebrow doubtfully.
"What do you think of her?" She asked me.
"I think that she is a very beautiful young woman who deserves the very best." I told
her. She smiled and we started to walk again.
"Is that all?" She asked. I looked at her.
"Why would there be anything else?" I answered. She shrugged.
"I've seen you look at her." She said. I nodded.
"i do not deny that." I answered truthfully. "But I just looked. There is nothing more."
"Do you love her?" She asked. I inwardly groaned. She was being very direct and right
on the head.
"I love her as a sister." I told her. She thought for a moment then she nodded in
assent.
"I have heard that you will not be going to Gondor with my sister." I said. Covren
gasped and spun quickly.
"Forgive me." I said." I did not mean to startle you." She smiled slightly and turned
back to her work.
"Is it true that you will not go?" I asked. She looked over her shoulder at me.
"Yes." She said quietly.
"Why?"
"There is someone that I stay for."
"Tell me who and I will send him with you." I told her. She turned and looked at me
sadly.
"That is something that I cannot tell you." She said.
"Why not?" I demanded.
"Because he cannot leave Endoras. Or all of Rohan for that matter." She said. I
stared at her puzzled. Who of my men could not leave Rohan? No one came to mind.
"I urge you to reconsider." I said. She shook her head.
"I will not." She said simply. I started to say something else but she excused herself
and quickly left.
I walked in silence. Scared that I would say something I would regret. Thankfully I
kept my wits about me and said nothing. Even when he said goodnight I just smiled
and walked into my room. Though once inside i fell apart. I held back my sobs till I
could hide them in my pillow. I cried till I thought that I had nothing left. i rolled over
onto my back and stared through red rimmed eyes at the ceiling.
"How can I leave him." I said to myself. "Yet how can I stay." I fought an inner battle
that no matter the outcome I would be a loser. I fought for control of my emotions. I
would not become one of those woman who cried over spilt milk. I sniffed and wiped
my eyes.
"You will just have to live alone." I told myself. I made a promise to myself that no
matter what happened I would not cry again. I stood and looked out my window at
the starry night. A cold wind blew through my window. I wrapped my arms closer
about myself and turned and stared at the flames of my fire that had jumped higher
when hit by the wind. I turned away from the warmth and looked back out at the
night.
"Make me like the wind." I whispered. "I want to be cold like the wind." A single tear
fell and landed on the stone of my window sill. The last tear that I would cry.
"Covren." Eowyn said stepping into my room the next morning. "You said that you
would tell me what was wrong." I looked at her undecided as to whether I should tell
her the truth or not.
"I am in love with some one." I said. She sat down on a chaise that I had in my room.
She smiled widely.
"And who would this someone be?" She asked. I looked nervously out the window.
"Your brother." I said truthfully. She looked relieved.
"I was beginning to worry that it was someone else." She said. I looked at her
confused. She laughed and looked at me reprimandingly. "Covren. It has been obvious
for quite some time." I looked about the room horrified.
"Oh don't worry." She said reassuringly." Eomer is about as aware of it as a bat." I
laughed nervously and calmed some what.
"I don't know what to do?" I told her. She stood and walked over to me and sat next
to me. She put her arms around my shoulders in comfort and spoke softly.
"Tell him." She said. I shot up.
"No." I said sharply. I sat back down and looked sadly at the floor. "He has found
another." Eowyn laughed.
"Really." She said. I nodded. "I don't think so. He would have told me." I shrugged.
Then a thought struck me.
"You won't tell will?" I asked. Fear racing through me. "Please don't tell. I am
begging you." Eowyn laughed.
"I would not tell if you do not want me to." She said. I sighed in relief.
"Thank you." I said.
"Now tell me about this girl that you think Eomer has." She said.
Eomer.
"I will miss you." I said to her as we walked along the wall surounding Endoras one
night before she left for Gondor.
"I wish that I could stay here forever." She said to me while looking out at the snow
covered mountains " It is my home and always will be." She wrapped her arm
through mine and we continued.
"What has Covren decided." I asked. Eowyn smiled.
"She has decided to stay." She said. I felt a shot of relief go through me.
"Why do you think?" I asked. I was also confused. Why had she decided to stay.
She was of little use here. In Gondor she could watch after the children and I would
send the man she was with along with her. Why would she wish to stay? An inner
voice told me to open my eyes but I did not listen.
"There is someone here whom she would wish to stay with." Eowyn said evasively.
"Who?" I asked.
"A man."
I laughed.
"Allright. You two keep your secrets." I said. Eowyn smiled and turned once more to
the mountains. Thoughts filled my head. She was in love with that man. The one that
I had thought was her brother. How stupid I was. She only sat and talked with him,
not because he was a friend, but a lover. How could I have not seen? I chided myself
for my stupidity.
"Idiot." I muttered. Eowyn turned to me.
"What?" She asked.
"Hmm." I said distractedly." Oh nothing." She raised an eyebrow doubtfully.
"What do you think of her?" She asked me.
"I think that she is a very beautiful young woman who deserves the very best." I told
her. She smiled and we started to walk again.
"Is that all?" She asked. I looked at her.
"Why would there be anything else?" I answered. She shrugged.
"I've seen you look at her." She said. I nodded.
"i do not deny that." I answered truthfully. "But I just looked. There is nothing more."
"Do you love her?" She asked. I inwardly groaned. She was being very direct and right
on the head.
"I love her as a sister." I told her. She thought for a moment then she nodded in
assent.
"I have heard that you will not be going to Gondor with my sister." I said. Covren
gasped and spun quickly.
"Forgive me." I said." I did not mean to startle you." She smiled slightly and turned
back to her work.
"Is it true that you will not go?" I asked. She looked over her shoulder at me.
"Yes." She said quietly.
"Why?"
"There is someone that I stay for."
"Tell me who and I will send him with you." I told her. She turned and looked at me
sadly.
"That is something that I cannot tell you." She said.
"Why not?" I demanded.
"Because he cannot leave Endoras. Or all of Rohan for that matter." She said. I
stared at her puzzled. Who of my men could not leave Rohan? No one came to mind.
"I urge you to reconsider." I said. She shook her head.
"I will not." She said simply. I started to say something else but she excused herself
and quickly left.