A.N. He-yo minna! I finished 'Idols' so now I can give this fic my complete
attention! (Except for work, & my original story, & all my friends, &
family... well, close enough! ^_^;) I hope you enjoy it, please review.
This takes place after Usagi has been living together with Mamoru for a few
months. ^_^ (Oh yeah! BTW, I feel bad about making Usagi's parents have a
bad reaction to the news, since they're based on Naoko Takeuchi-sensei's
parents & I don't like writing about how people I don't know act... but for
the sake of the story it's what I did.)
Disclaimer: I don't own SM or any of its characters. If I did, I wouldn't be writing fan fiction. ^_^;
Chapter 6
"Usagi, I'm home!" Mamoru called as he walked through the door of his- THEIR apartment.
"Welcome home!" Usagi called from the living room where she was watching TV.
"Here. I bought you something on the way home." He grinned.
"Eh?" She blinked as he handed her an ice cream cone. "Ice cream!"
"So... what are you watching?" Mamoru asked as he sat down beside her.
"Anime."
"I can see that." He laughed. "What's it about?"
"It's a romance one." She began to explain. "It's so sad!"
"Whoa! Their both guys!" Mamoru looked away quickly.
"That doesn't matter! Love surpasses all obstacles!" Usagi protested. She paused as something dramatic happened in the show.
"What? You're crying now?" Mamoru was only slowly getting used to living with a girl. All of these emotions & stuff were hard to understand sometimes. "Why are you crying?"
"It's just so sad!"
"Come on. They're men! There are better things to watch than stuff like this." Mamoru could scarcely believe he was talking to his pregnant 16-year- old roommate who was getting over-emotional about the latest plot twist in a shounen ai anime.
"But it's so much more complicated than that! You see-!"
"What? What is it? What's wrong?!"
Usagi laughed at him. "The baby kicked... that's all."
"It kicked?" Mamoru looked over at her.
"Yup. She's been kicking the heck out of me all afternoon. It was making me so sick! Remind me to put her in soccer." She laughed more.
" 'Her?' " He raised an eyebrow.
"I just have a feeling that it's a girl."
"Will you be disappointed if it's not?"
"Of course not!"
"Just checking... so, is 'she' still kicking?"
"Nope... for now."
"I'm going to make some dinner. You hungry?" Mamoru got up from the couch & walked over to the kitchen.
"Yes." She laughed.
*~*~*A Few Days Later*~*~*
"Who was that that just called?" Mamoru asked as he walked in the door from university.
"Naru-chan. I swear that they've all worked out some sort of weird schedule of calling me every few days to see how everything's going." Usagi answered him as she hung up the phone.
"Well, since you've stopped working in the evenings & refuse to go to school I'm not surprised that they'd be worried. Plus the fact that you've moved in with me."
"That's not something that I'M worried about." Usagi smiled.
"How's the little soccer star?" He laughed as he set his books down on the table.
"Kicking away like always." Usagi laughed back. "There she goes again!"
"Usagi... would you mind... if I felt it?"
"I guess not." She blushed, still a bit nervous about being around him so often. But she trusted him more than anyone else so she didn't worry.
Mamoru put his hand gently on her stomach. "Haha! There it is!" He smiled. "Amazing isn't it?"
"Yeah."
"You seem to be in a lighter mood lately."
"It's because the rest of me is getting heavier." Usagi joked. "I don't really know what it is... I think it's just being able to really think about the fact that there is actually something living inside me... you know, like when we went to the doctor's & we got to hear the little heartbeat & everything. It's really awesome."
"Tell me about it." He smiled. "So you're really okay with this, huh?"
"Yeah. I mean... when I first found out I was so distraught, I couldn't believe that I would have to go through all this, but now I'm really starting to believe that I'll be alright."
"I'm glad to hear that." Mamoru smiled. "I brought you another surprise today... do you want to see what it is?"
"Okay! Where is it?"
"Right outside the door, let me get it."
"You left it in the hallway!! What if someone stole it?!"
"Somehow... I doubt that." Mamoru grinned. "Close you eyes."
Usagi did as she told & sat impatiently on the couch. "Hurry up." She grumbled in a joking manner.
"Surprise." She heard a familiar voice say... but it wasn't Mamoru's. Usagi's eyes shot open in a flash & looked up at Shingo standing in front of her.
"Shingo!" Usagi gasped. She didn't know what else to say, she juts stared, barely blinking.
Shingo made the first move & leaned down, giving her a big hug. "I've missed you."
"Me too." Usagi cried as she hugged him back. "How have you been?" Mamoru left the room quietly so that the 2 siblings could talk alone.
"We're starting work for our exams in school. But, I should be asking you that." Shingo sat down beside her on the couch.
"Alright." She replied. "Mamoru's a good roommate." Usagi laughed a little.
"Yeah? He seems like a nice guy... after all he's the one who found me today on my way home from school & picked me up to see you." Shingo smiled.
"He did?"
"Yeah. He gave me his cell phone & told me to tell mama & papa that I was going to a friend's house to study & that I would be back later tonight." Shingo told her. "Usagi... why did you leave?"
"It's just better this way. I know it's hard to understand, but I couldn't stay at home, I couldn't bear to see mama & papa's disappointed faces. And yours especially! I didn't want you to hate me & think less of me."
Shingo flinched. "I don't hate you, & I CERTAINLY don't think less of you Neechan."
"But you don't know-!"
"Yes I do."
"No, there's more than what I told mama & papa."
"I know that too." Shingo nodded slowly.
"What?" She asked.
"I told him." Mamoru said as he walked back into the room.
"Why?" She looked at Mamoru, not really mad, but embarrassed.
"Because... he's your brother."
Usagi smiled a little at that. "Neechan. I don't care about that." Shingo said. "I still love you, & look up to you, I always will." Shingo smiled.
"Don't tell Mama & Papa." Usagi begged him in a whisper.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Shingo stayed as late as he could before finally hugging Usagi bye & promising he would visit again soon.
"Mamoru?" Usagi turned to him as she closed the door behind Shingo & locked it.
"Yes?"
"Thank you." She smiled. "I really wanted to see him again."
"I know." Mamoru was glad to see her so happy. Glad to see her smiling again like she used to when she would be playing arcade games & talking with her friends. She had a beautiful smile.
"You look tired."
"I am." He said as he yawned loudly. "Are you going to sleep now?"
"I will soon."
"Soon?"
"Half an hour or so."
"What are you going to do? Do you want to watch a show or something?" Mamoru sat down on the couch.
"I'll probably just read. You can go to sleep."
"But what if something happens? What if you slip or something?"
"I'll be fine. Don't worry so much. Go to sleep." Usagi laughed. "You have to go to University tomorrow!"
"I'll be fine, it's only 11:10."
"You're ridiculous! Go to sleep! You get up at 6:30!" She laughed more. "You're so stubborn..." She went to her room shaking her head. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight... are you sure you're okay?" He followed her to the door.
"Wonderful." She smiled. "Sleep."
"Alright then. You don't have to tell me twice." Mamoru grinned.
"What are you talking about? I told you 4 times!"
"I know. I'm just bugging you."
"And doing a good job of it." She teased.
Mamoru grinned & backed away from the door as she closed it behind her. It hurt a little when he heard the lock click... but he tried to make himself remember that she probably didn't completely trust him yet... & might not ever. Mamoru lay down on the couch & soon fell asleep... but it wouldn't be pleasant.
*~*~*~*~*~*
"No! Don't!" Mamoru woke up from the same nightmare he had been having for the past few months. He hoped that he hadn't woken up Usagi but he heard the bedroom door unlock & creak open as she came to check on him.
"Are you alright? Did you have that nightmare again?" She asked quietly.
"Yeah. I'm sorry I woke you up. What time is it?"
"3:46." She replied. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"No!" He said sharply causing Usagi to wince. "No." He said again softly. "I'm alright. Sorry."
"It's okay... just try to get some sleep." She smiled & went back to the bedroom.
"Yeah..." He sighed, raking his hand through his thick black hair. He turned over onto his stomach & put his pillow over his head as if trying to block out everything around him. He slowly fell back asleep.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi snuck quietly out of her room, careful not to wake Mamoru as she went to kitchen & poured herself a glass of water. She heard him shifting around on the couch & wondered if he had woken up. She walked over to the living room to check on him. Mamoru was mumbling under his pillow. "Mamoru? Are you awake?"
"No... Don't..." He kept mumbling over & over again. "Stop It!"
Usagi was startled from him shouting so close to her in his sleep & left as quick as she could so that he wouldn't wake up & find her watching him. It was a creepy thing to do. "Stop it?" She asked herself as she got to the bedroom & had closed the door behind her.
*~*~*The Next Morning*~*~*
Mamoru turned over & looked at his alarm clock, painfully realizing that he was going to be late. "Damn clock..." He mumbled as he slowly sat up, preparing to get ready to leave.
"Good morning!" Usagi cheered.
"What the-? Usagi? Why are you up so early? It's 7:45."
"I got up & got all of you stuff ready so that you could sleep an extra hour or so."
"You didn't have to do that." Mamoru smiled.
"I really appreciate what you did for me yesterday... so I wanted to do something nice for you."
"Thank you."
"Hey, Mamoru?"
"Yes?"
"Are you feeling okay? You were mumbling in you sleep after you went back to sleep... it was kinda creepy."
"I was?" Mamoru blinked. "What did I say?"
"Well, you said 'no,' 'don't,' & 'stop it'..."
"Stop it?"
"Yeah. That's why I'm curious... you weren't saying that whenever you had that nightmare before."
"Don't worry about it. It's just a dream."
"But isn't it bad if you keep on having the same one every night? It's keeping you up half the night & you look like a wreck."
"I'm fine." Mamoru smiled. "I'll see you this afternoon, okay?" He got up to end the conversation & began to gather his stuff & put his shoes on.
"What is it about? Why does it bother you so much to talk about it?"
"It doesn't bother me. I'm late." He replied & ran out the door.
"Liar." Usagi whispered to the empty room.
*~*~*Later That Evening*~*~*
"Where were you?!" Usagi asked as she opened their apartment door. "I thought that you would be home in the afternoon!"
"I fell asleep in the library." Mamoru rubbed the back of his neck.
"Go sleep in your bedroom. You look beat." Usagi's harsh look softened.
"But-!"
"I don't need to go to sleep yet. It's only 6:30. Go have a nap."
"Thanks." Mamoru smiled gratefully.
Usagi snuck into the bedroom after he had gone to sleep & waited for him to have his inevitable nightmare. It plagued his sleep constantly; Mamoru had that bad dream EVERY single time he slept. Just as she expected, it happened pretty soon after she got there. "Mamoru wake up." She gently shook him.
"What?" He woke up with a start.
"That's it. Tell me what has been bothering you so much." Usagi said sternly. "There's something wrong & you're beginning to scare me."
"I just want to forget..." He whispered into his pillow. "I want to forget that place..."
*~*~*~*~*~*
"My foster dad was an alcoholic." Mamoru told Usagi as she sat patiently across from him on the couch. "An abusive & evil man."
"What?" Usagi gasped.
"He beat my foster mom, he raped Miyako and..." Mamoru stopped. He closed his eyes and bent his head down.
"And what?" She asked.
"Nothing. That's all I was saying." He raked his hand through his hair.
"No it wasn't. Please tell me." Usagi begged.
"... Me too." He finished without looking at her. Mamoru got up & walked to the kitchen, pouring himself something to drink to escape from Usagi's shocked expression. He hated having to tell her that... he didn't want anyone to know. Ever.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Eek. I'm just twisting this worse than necessary now. I hadn't even originally planned on this part of the story. At least now I've explained why Mamoru understands Usagi so well between what happened to him & his foster sister. I hope you enjoyed it anyway, please review, I don't know if people are beginning to lose interest or not. There isn't much more to the story now, only 1 or 2 more chapters I think. (lol I CANNOT write a short story. The shortest complete one that I've written so far is 8 chapters long.) By the way, not that this really matters right now, but Mamoru's foster sister, Miyako, her name means 'beautiful march child' that's why I made her birthday in march. And because I'm twisted I made her die on her birthday... -_-; [Oh, by the way, would anyone read an original story of mine if I posted it here on ff.net? Please tell me if you would!]
Disclaimer: I don't own SM or any of its characters. If I did, I wouldn't be writing fan fiction. ^_^;
Chapter 6
"Usagi, I'm home!" Mamoru called as he walked through the door of his- THEIR apartment.
"Welcome home!" Usagi called from the living room where she was watching TV.
"Here. I bought you something on the way home." He grinned.
"Eh?" She blinked as he handed her an ice cream cone. "Ice cream!"
"So... what are you watching?" Mamoru asked as he sat down beside her.
"Anime."
"I can see that." He laughed. "What's it about?"
"It's a romance one." She began to explain. "It's so sad!"
"Whoa! Their both guys!" Mamoru looked away quickly.
"That doesn't matter! Love surpasses all obstacles!" Usagi protested. She paused as something dramatic happened in the show.
"What? You're crying now?" Mamoru was only slowly getting used to living with a girl. All of these emotions & stuff were hard to understand sometimes. "Why are you crying?"
"It's just so sad!"
"Come on. They're men! There are better things to watch than stuff like this." Mamoru could scarcely believe he was talking to his pregnant 16-year- old roommate who was getting over-emotional about the latest plot twist in a shounen ai anime.
"But it's so much more complicated than that! You see-!"
"What? What is it? What's wrong?!"
Usagi laughed at him. "The baby kicked... that's all."
"It kicked?" Mamoru looked over at her.
"Yup. She's been kicking the heck out of me all afternoon. It was making me so sick! Remind me to put her in soccer." She laughed more.
" 'Her?' " He raised an eyebrow.
"I just have a feeling that it's a girl."
"Will you be disappointed if it's not?"
"Of course not!"
"Just checking... so, is 'she' still kicking?"
"Nope... for now."
"I'm going to make some dinner. You hungry?" Mamoru got up from the couch & walked over to the kitchen.
"Yes." She laughed.
*~*~*A Few Days Later*~*~*
"Who was that that just called?" Mamoru asked as he walked in the door from university.
"Naru-chan. I swear that they've all worked out some sort of weird schedule of calling me every few days to see how everything's going." Usagi answered him as she hung up the phone.
"Well, since you've stopped working in the evenings & refuse to go to school I'm not surprised that they'd be worried. Plus the fact that you've moved in with me."
"That's not something that I'M worried about." Usagi smiled.
"How's the little soccer star?" He laughed as he set his books down on the table.
"Kicking away like always." Usagi laughed back. "There she goes again!"
"Usagi... would you mind... if I felt it?"
"I guess not." She blushed, still a bit nervous about being around him so often. But she trusted him more than anyone else so she didn't worry.
Mamoru put his hand gently on her stomach. "Haha! There it is!" He smiled. "Amazing isn't it?"
"Yeah."
"You seem to be in a lighter mood lately."
"It's because the rest of me is getting heavier." Usagi joked. "I don't really know what it is... I think it's just being able to really think about the fact that there is actually something living inside me... you know, like when we went to the doctor's & we got to hear the little heartbeat & everything. It's really awesome."
"Tell me about it." He smiled. "So you're really okay with this, huh?"
"Yeah. I mean... when I first found out I was so distraught, I couldn't believe that I would have to go through all this, but now I'm really starting to believe that I'll be alright."
"I'm glad to hear that." Mamoru smiled. "I brought you another surprise today... do you want to see what it is?"
"Okay! Where is it?"
"Right outside the door, let me get it."
"You left it in the hallway!! What if someone stole it?!"
"Somehow... I doubt that." Mamoru grinned. "Close you eyes."
Usagi did as she told & sat impatiently on the couch. "Hurry up." She grumbled in a joking manner.
"Surprise." She heard a familiar voice say... but it wasn't Mamoru's. Usagi's eyes shot open in a flash & looked up at Shingo standing in front of her.
"Shingo!" Usagi gasped. She didn't know what else to say, she juts stared, barely blinking.
Shingo made the first move & leaned down, giving her a big hug. "I've missed you."
"Me too." Usagi cried as she hugged him back. "How have you been?" Mamoru left the room quietly so that the 2 siblings could talk alone.
"We're starting work for our exams in school. But, I should be asking you that." Shingo sat down beside her on the couch.
"Alright." She replied. "Mamoru's a good roommate." Usagi laughed a little.
"Yeah? He seems like a nice guy... after all he's the one who found me today on my way home from school & picked me up to see you." Shingo smiled.
"He did?"
"Yeah. He gave me his cell phone & told me to tell mama & papa that I was going to a friend's house to study & that I would be back later tonight." Shingo told her. "Usagi... why did you leave?"
"It's just better this way. I know it's hard to understand, but I couldn't stay at home, I couldn't bear to see mama & papa's disappointed faces. And yours especially! I didn't want you to hate me & think less of me."
Shingo flinched. "I don't hate you, & I CERTAINLY don't think less of you Neechan."
"But you don't know-!"
"Yes I do."
"No, there's more than what I told mama & papa."
"I know that too." Shingo nodded slowly.
"What?" She asked.
"I told him." Mamoru said as he walked back into the room.
"Why?" She looked at Mamoru, not really mad, but embarrassed.
"Because... he's your brother."
Usagi smiled a little at that. "Neechan. I don't care about that." Shingo said. "I still love you, & look up to you, I always will." Shingo smiled.
"Don't tell Mama & Papa." Usagi begged him in a whisper.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Shingo stayed as late as he could before finally hugging Usagi bye & promising he would visit again soon.
"Mamoru?" Usagi turned to him as she closed the door behind Shingo & locked it.
"Yes?"
"Thank you." She smiled. "I really wanted to see him again."
"I know." Mamoru was glad to see her so happy. Glad to see her smiling again like she used to when she would be playing arcade games & talking with her friends. She had a beautiful smile.
"You look tired."
"I am." He said as he yawned loudly. "Are you going to sleep now?"
"I will soon."
"Soon?"
"Half an hour or so."
"What are you going to do? Do you want to watch a show or something?" Mamoru sat down on the couch.
"I'll probably just read. You can go to sleep."
"But what if something happens? What if you slip or something?"
"I'll be fine. Don't worry so much. Go to sleep." Usagi laughed. "You have to go to University tomorrow!"
"I'll be fine, it's only 11:10."
"You're ridiculous! Go to sleep! You get up at 6:30!" She laughed more. "You're so stubborn..." She went to her room shaking her head. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight... are you sure you're okay?" He followed her to the door.
"Wonderful." She smiled. "Sleep."
"Alright then. You don't have to tell me twice." Mamoru grinned.
"What are you talking about? I told you 4 times!"
"I know. I'm just bugging you."
"And doing a good job of it." She teased.
Mamoru grinned & backed away from the door as she closed it behind her. It hurt a little when he heard the lock click... but he tried to make himself remember that she probably didn't completely trust him yet... & might not ever. Mamoru lay down on the couch & soon fell asleep... but it wouldn't be pleasant.
*~*~*~*~*~*
"No! Don't!" Mamoru woke up from the same nightmare he had been having for the past few months. He hoped that he hadn't woken up Usagi but he heard the bedroom door unlock & creak open as she came to check on him.
"Are you alright? Did you have that nightmare again?" She asked quietly.
"Yeah. I'm sorry I woke you up. What time is it?"
"3:46." She replied. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"No!" He said sharply causing Usagi to wince. "No." He said again softly. "I'm alright. Sorry."
"It's okay... just try to get some sleep." She smiled & went back to the bedroom.
"Yeah..." He sighed, raking his hand through his thick black hair. He turned over onto his stomach & put his pillow over his head as if trying to block out everything around him. He slowly fell back asleep.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi snuck quietly out of her room, careful not to wake Mamoru as she went to kitchen & poured herself a glass of water. She heard him shifting around on the couch & wondered if he had woken up. She walked over to the living room to check on him. Mamoru was mumbling under his pillow. "Mamoru? Are you awake?"
"No... Don't..." He kept mumbling over & over again. "Stop It!"
Usagi was startled from him shouting so close to her in his sleep & left as quick as she could so that he wouldn't wake up & find her watching him. It was a creepy thing to do. "Stop it?" She asked herself as she got to the bedroom & had closed the door behind her.
*~*~*The Next Morning*~*~*
Mamoru turned over & looked at his alarm clock, painfully realizing that he was going to be late. "Damn clock..." He mumbled as he slowly sat up, preparing to get ready to leave.
"Good morning!" Usagi cheered.
"What the-? Usagi? Why are you up so early? It's 7:45."
"I got up & got all of you stuff ready so that you could sleep an extra hour or so."
"You didn't have to do that." Mamoru smiled.
"I really appreciate what you did for me yesterday... so I wanted to do something nice for you."
"Thank you."
"Hey, Mamoru?"
"Yes?"
"Are you feeling okay? You were mumbling in you sleep after you went back to sleep... it was kinda creepy."
"I was?" Mamoru blinked. "What did I say?"
"Well, you said 'no,' 'don't,' & 'stop it'..."
"Stop it?"
"Yeah. That's why I'm curious... you weren't saying that whenever you had that nightmare before."
"Don't worry about it. It's just a dream."
"But isn't it bad if you keep on having the same one every night? It's keeping you up half the night & you look like a wreck."
"I'm fine." Mamoru smiled. "I'll see you this afternoon, okay?" He got up to end the conversation & began to gather his stuff & put his shoes on.
"What is it about? Why does it bother you so much to talk about it?"
"It doesn't bother me. I'm late." He replied & ran out the door.
"Liar." Usagi whispered to the empty room.
*~*~*Later That Evening*~*~*
"Where were you?!" Usagi asked as she opened their apartment door. "I thought that you would be home in the afternoon!"
"I fell asleep in the library." Mamoru rubbed the back of his neck.
"Go sleep in your bedroom. You look beat." Usagi's harsh look softened.
"But-!"
"I don't need to go to sleep yet. It's only 6:30. Go have a nap."
"Thanks." Mamoru smiled gratefully.
Usagi snuck into the bedroom after he had gone to sleep & waited for him to have his inevitable nightmare. It plagued his sleep constantly; Mamoru had that bad dream EVERY single time he slept. Just as she expected, it happened pretty soon after she got there. "Mamoru wake up." She gently shook him.
"What?" He woke up with a start.
"That's it. Tell me what has been bothering you so much." Usagi said sternly. "There's something wrong & you're beginning to scare me."
"I just want to forget..." He whispered into his pillow. "I want to forget that place..."
*~*~*~*~*~*
"My foster dad was an alcoholic." Mamoru told Usagi as she sat patiently across from him on the couch. "An abusive & evil man."
"What?" Usagi gasped.
"He beat my foster mom, he raped Miyako and..." Mamoru stopped. He closed his eyes and bent his head down.
"And what?" She asked.
"Nothing. That's all I was saying." He raked his hand through his hair.
"No it wasn't. Please tell me." Usagi begged.
"... Me too." He finished without looking at her. Mamoru got up & walked to the kitchen, pouring himself something to drink to escape from Usagi's shocked expression. He hated having to tell her that... he didn't want anyone to know. Ever.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Eek. I'm just twisting this worse than necessary now. I hadn't even originally planned on this part of the story. At least now I've explained why Mamoru understands Usagi so well between what happened to him & his foster sister. I hope you enjoyed it anyway, please review, I don't know if people are beginning to lose interest or not. There isn't much more to the story now, only 1 or 2 more chapters I think. (lol I CANNOT write a short story. The shortest complete one that I've written so far is 8 chapters long.) By the way, not that this really matters right now, but Mamoru's foster sister, Miyako, her name means 'beautiful march child' that's why I made her birthday in march. And because I'm twisted I made her die on her birthday... -_-; [Oh, by the way, would anyone read an original story of mine if I posted it here on ff.net? Please tell me if you would!]