Disclaimer: Inuyasha is mot mine.
A/n: Wow! It took forever for me update! Gomen ne! I have been so busy. I have school activities and school itself. Then I get home and do homework, eat dinner and go to bed. Yawn! Well, here's the next chapter. It's kind of sad and boring.
'thoughts'
"words"
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Kagome sat idly in the room she was in. She had been brought there over a week ago, and had attempted to escape eight times. Sesshoumaru had earlier locked her in the room with a demonic barrier that she couldn't penetrate without the miko's arrows. She had given up hope of ever escaping the evil Taiyoukai's clutches. But then… he wasn't really evil. Kagome began to contemplate on that.
"No, not evil at all, just ensuring that he didn't bring me back for nothing… that I do have something that he might value. What is it, I don't know, but I must find it and keep it safely preserved. It is my only ticket out of here alive. I don't understand why I let him catch me… time and again. I know that Inuyasha doesn't exactly shower me with love, but he did treat me decently after we got to know each other. I even started to really like him. Then again, he did always compare me with his precious Kikyou. Either way, I think I'll just sit tight here for as long as Sesshoumaru will permit me to. I mean; I bet he's kind of mad that I fell asleep on the way over and clung to him like glue, but I didn't know! I was asleep! I hope he gets over it soon and, at the very least, remembers to feed me."
Kagome smiled at the thought of the taiyoukai who had possessed all of her thoughts and dreams as of late. She had gained a sort of crush on him over the time she knew him, and it only blossomed over the time that she had spent in his presence. What were once trivial and small perks had become a deep and whole-hearted obsession. She had always respected him and even loved him on a certain platonic level. Now that she knew him, she felt as if she always had.
The only problem was: Sesshoumaru hated her. His every action displayed his disgust with her humanity and her existence. He despised and loathed her, and Kagome felt her heart bleed each and every time.
"He does take care of me, and he brought me back to life and healed my wounds with Tenseiga, the sword he claimed to despise also." Kagome felt the warm tears trickle down her cheeks and she wished that she didn't love the Taiyoukai who could never return her feelings.
"It is hopeless. I am hopeless. Why won't he kill me as he said to Inuyasha?! I wish he would, so I may be rid of this torment inside my heart." Kagome laughed wistfully at her lamentations. 'I have grown so weak and dramatic since my imprisonment, but, for some reason, it is sort of freeing. I almost like it. I have become a different person. But… am I truly weak? I wonder if there is a warrior deep within my heart somewhere who is fighting for life and freedom. I long for the same inner revolution, and I welcome it with all my heart. I wish to be independent. I want help from no one. I want to be strong, but I can't do it anymore. I know I was strong, long ago, but what about now? What am I now? I am weak and alone in a world that is not mine, nor can it ever be. Even if I were to love someone here, I could never be with that person. I could never be with him. I must live with this feeling, forever buried and known only to my deepest self.' Kagome closed her eyes and drifted off into a fitful, restless sleep, one of fearful nightmares that no one could relieve her of.
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Sesshoumaru stood, bathed in the pale glow of the moonlight. He had spent only a few days in Kagome's presence and was already being affected by her strength, her will and her courage. It was all overwhelming to him, yet he could not bring himself to stop his thoughts, no matter how much they threatened the existence that he clung to by the finest thread. Kagome's very life force sent his very being over the edge of life and death.
'Being near her makes me want to cry out of desperation for her. I wonder how long she will let me keep her here like this. I don't want her to run away, but I don't want her to be forever locked away. I have heard that if you truly love someone, you must be willing to let them go. If they return to you, then it was meant to be, otherwise, it was not meant to be. I want to free her, but I fear she will leave me.' Sesshoumaru gazed up at the heavens that alighted the night sky with sad and lost amber eyes. 'I have buried myself so deep that I thought no one could ever reach me again. I am impressed that she could. I am glad it was her. Kagome is the first human I have ever respected and cared for. Someday, perhaps she will see me as well. I have acted so coldly to her in hopes that she will depart from my heart, but I don't know if I could take it if I didn't care for her. Huh . . . emotions are strange things, love especially. Either way, I am prepared to fight for it and her. I will have to soon, too. Inuyasha is approaching swiftly. He will arrive early tomorrow. I will free her of her cage and she may leave if she chooses. I doubt she will return to me, but I must let her go. I want her happiness. She deserves her own freedom for giving me mine.'
"Tomorrow, Kagome… Sayo…nara," came a whispered voice as a single tear slid down the cheek of the renowned as heartless taiyoukai Sesshoumaru.
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A/n: Well, I think I might make this story have an unhappy ending. I like writing angst, even thought I am no good at it. The story will most likely end in a couple more chapters. Please leave me a review. I would appreciate it very much!
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