Chapter 3 My Bed
You know the drill. None of these characters are mine they all belong to S.E. Hinton.
I opened the door as slow as possible. I think I was going a little too slow, because by the time I had opened the door fully I was standing face to chest with Darry. I say face to chest because at this moment I felt 3inches tall and quite frankly I was scared. I had never felt so small in front of Darry. I had felt 5inches tall but right now I felt only a mere 3inches. He just stood there and looked at me. It was like he was at a loss of words and Darry not yelling at me was like well there is no example cause it just doesn't happen.
We just stood there staring at each other until Soda walked up behind Darry and said "Where ya been Pony?!?! It's 3:35 in the morning!"
"Sorry I was at the movies."
"Yeah well we thought you would go to Buck's."
He kept talking he was more rambling but I just tuned him out. I just didn't feel like listening to him or Darry, even though Darry hadn't said a word. I was staring at Darry and he was staring right back. His eyes were cold but they had a hidden feeling in them. It was like he wanted to tell me something but he couldn't find the words. Soda suddenly noticed that me and Darry were just standing there not listening to him but instead staring at each other. I think he noticed Darry's look too.
"I called the police." Darry stated. "I was worried and I know you went there. I told them that I was worried that my kid brother was there and to be on the lookout for you there. They went there because I told them to and they were looking for you there. They called me and told me that you weren't there. But you were there weren't you Pony. You just didn't want to go up to the house while ther was police there. What have you gotten yourself into? Do I even want to know? Cause right now I don't think that I do."
I stared at him in silence for a second and then realized I had been right not to go up there. I had thought that Darry had somehow been involved with the police being there. "How could you, Darry? You got Buck arrested. What if he finds out it was you? I would have been fine there. You don't control and you don't care about me and I sure as hell don't want you too. You yell at me all the time. If I do good you want me to do better. Well I don't know that I can do better."
"You got it wrong Pony he cares about you. Tell him Darry." Soda spoke up.
"I gave up a good life for you Pony. I could have gone threw college but I stayed behind to care for you. This is how you repay someone who gave up is life to give you a good one?" Darry's voice was cold and hard. It just showed that he really didn't care about me.
"I didn't ask you or Soda to give up anything for me. And I don't care what you do with your own damn life. JUST STAY THE HELL OUTTA MINE. You gave up your life to help me in the respect that I would be grateful and throw myself at your feet and be the perfect brother and child. But Darry that's not how it works. You gave in order to receive thanks, but someone who truly cares would give with the hope that they could make a difference even if they didn't get a thanks. But if that's what you really want Darry fine. Thanks Darry thank you for being the bestest parent I ever had. You're great and how can I ever repay you? Is that what you want?" I said this without even thinking. I said it sarcastically and he looked kind of hurt. I never realized how much resent I felt when it came to Darry, I didn't resent him but I felt that he resented me.
"Yeah Pony that's exactly what I wanted." He slapped me hard, harder than before and I flew back against the door. "Listen here Ponyboy I care about you too much to see you hang out at Buck's and get in trouble. Use your head. Where else do you have to go. And another thing if you get in trouble it's not just you who'll be taken away but Soda ."
"Oh yeah your precious Soda. Soda who can drop out of school and still stay in your good graces. He gets treated better than I do by you and up until recently I did whatever you told me. I would do something good and that would set the standard for the next time. It's not far and you know it. You should just get rid of me and live happily ever after with Soda."
I couldn't take it anymore. I ran past them and into my room. I locked the door and sat on the bed. I grabbed a book and started reading. I heard Darry and Soda trying to get in to my room.
"Ponyboy open this door right now."
"Oh go fuck off!" I yelled back.
I heard a giant slam and knew Darry was trying to break into my room. I opened the window and ducked into the closet. I left it open a crack to see what happened next. Darry broke down the door with a loud BOOM. He charged in with Soda behind him. He saw the open window and thought I had gone out it. He couldn't stop me from sleeping in my own bed tonight.
You know the drill. None of these characters are mine they all belong to S.E. Hinton.
I opened the door as slow as possible. I think I was going a little too slow, because by the time I had opened the door fully I was standing face to chest with Darry. I say face to chest because at this moment I felt 3inches tall and quite frankly I was scared. I had never felt so small in front of Darry. I had felt 5inches tall but right now I felt only a mere 3inches. He just stood there and looked at me. It was like he was at a loss of words and Darry not yelling at me was like well there is no example cause it just doesn't happen.
We just stood there staring at each other until Soda walked up behind Darry and said "Where ya been Pony?!?! It's 3:35 in the morning!"
"Sorry I was at the movies."
"Yeah well we thought you would go to Buck's."
He kept talking he was more rambling but I just tuned him out. I just didn't feel like listening to him or Darry, even though Darry hadn't said a word. I was staring at Darry and he was staring right back. His eyes were cold but they had a hidden feeling in them. It was like he wanted to tell me something but he couldn't find the words. Soda suddenly noticed that me and Darry were just standing there not listening to him but instead staring at each other. I think he noticed Darry's look too.
"I called the police." Darry stated. "I was worried and I know you went there. I told them that I was worried that my kid brother was there and to be on the lookout for you there. They went there because I told them to and they were looking for you there. They called me and told me that you weren't there. But you were there weren't you Pony. You just didn't want to go up to the house while ther was police there. What have you gotten yourself into? Do I even want to know? Cause right now I don't think that I do."
I stared at him in silence for a second and then realized I had been right not to go up there. I had thought that Darry had somehow been involved with the police being there. "How could you, Darry? You got Buck arrested. What if he finds out it was you? I would have been fine there. You don't control and you don't care about me and I sure as hell don't want you too. You yell at me all the time. If I do good you want me to do better. Well I don't know that I can do better."
"You got it wrong Pony he cares about you. Tell him Darry." Soda spoke up.
"I gave up a good life for you Pony. I could have gone threw college but I stayed behind to care for you. This is how you repay someone who gave up is life to give you a good one?" Darry's voice was cold and hard. It just showed that he really didn't care about me.
"I didn't ask you or Soda to give up anything for me. And I don't care what you do with your own damn life. JUST STAY THE HELL OUTTA MINE. You gave up your life to help me in the respect that I would be grateful and throw myself at your feet and be the perfect brother and child. But Darry that's not how it works. You gave in order to receive thanks, but someone who truly cares would give with the hope that they could make a difference even if they didn't get a thanks. But if that's what you really want Darry fine. Thanks Darry thank you for being the bestest parent I ever had. You're great and how can I ever repay you? Is that what you want?" I said this without even thinking. I said it sarcastically and he looked kind of hurt. I never realized how much resent I felt when it came to Darry, I didn't resent him but I felt that he resented me.
"Yeah Pony that's exactly what I wanted." He slapped me hard, harder than before and I flew back against the door. "Listen here Ponyboy I care about you too much to see you hang out at Buck's and get in trouble. Use your head. Where else do you have to go. And another thing if you get in trouble it's not just you who'll be taken away but Soda ."
"Oh yeah your precious Soda. Soda who can drop out of school and still stay in your good graces. He gets treated better than I do by you and up until recently I did whatever you told me. I would do something good and that would set the standard for the next time. It's not far and you know it. You should just get rid of me and live happily ever after with Soda."
I couldn't take it anymore. I ran past them and into my room. I locked the door and sat on the bed. I grabbed a book and started reading. I heard Darry and Soda trying to get in to my room.
"Ponyboy open this door right now."
"Oh go fuck off!" I yelled back.
I heard a giant slam and knew Darry was trying to break into my room. I opened the window and ducked into the closet. I left it open a crack to see what happened next. Darry broke down the door with a loud BOOM. He charged in with Soda behind him. He saw the open window and thought I had gone out it. He couldn't stop me from sleeping in my own bed tonight.