Chapter 4 Mine
It's my bed not Darry's and I live in this house too not just Darry. I heard Darry and Soda run out of the house. I came out of my hiding space. See Darry I can use my head. I fooled you. I went over to the bed and slipped between the covers, and soon I was asleep. I woke up to the sounds of argueing.
"I think you should do what the little bastard said and get rid of him." That was Steve. I was hurt, but not surprised in the slightest. Steve and me were never too savvy when it came to the each other. He thought I was just Soda's tag-a-long brother and I thought he was a jackass. That caused more than one heated discussion between us.
"Steve keep your big mouth shut. We're not giving up Pony. We need him whether it's obvious right now or not." Darry said. He said the last part almost inaudibly.
"I honestly don't know what to do with him. He sneeks out. He runs away only to come back when we're not here. He needs to get on with his life." Darry sure was in a talking mood.
"Is there anything we can do? It's getting me tired trying to find him and trying to keep track of him. Darry we have jobs that we have to be at and I don't know about you but I got in trouble today for falling asleep on the job. I think that I already have a few gray hairs." Soda was giving up on me? No it wasn't possible. What did it matter if I was innocent were they going to believe me? No they never would. It wasn't fair. I thought Soda loved me. I've given him trouble before, but he has never given up on me. I walked into the room and slugged Soda. It was so unexpected that he didn't have time to react, but Steve did. He gave me a beating. He tackled me to the floor and punched me over and over until Darry got him off.
"Steve let him go!" Darry and Soda yelled. Darry grabbed Steve and held him back and Two-Bit grabbed me.
"HOW COULD YOU GIVE UP ON ME?!?!? I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BROTHER?! WELL BROTHER'S DON'T GIVE UP ON EACH OTHE AND THEY BELIEVE EACH OTHER!!!!" I yelled this, broke free of Two-Bit's hold and then ran into my room and locked the door. I sank to the floor and started to cry. Everyone in the other room heard me because I didn't even try to hide the fact that I was crying. I couldn't help it it was just too much on top of everything else.
"Pony look um so sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm just tired and worn out."
"Yeah I heard it all while you were all talking. At least Darry stood up for me. You were all for Steve's plan to give me away. Why don't you just sell me to someone who wants me? Then you get the money and you get to get some sleep. Did anyone ever ask you to care about me? No."
"Pony look."
"No I savvy real well. There's no need to explain."
"Come on Pony Soda didn't mean it."
I just kept on crying and stopped listening to them. They kept talking and even Steve joined in to yell at me for crying.
"Pony let us in. You been bawling for the last 30min. He didn't mean it. Haven't you ever said something that you didn't mean to? I know you have. In fact as I recall you said you hated me." Darry said quietly through the door.
"Why would you think that that was a lie. That was what I meant. I still do hate you and Two-Bit and Soda and Steve and Johnny and Dally. You've all abandoned me in one way or another. Tell me why I should stay here when everyone tries to hurt me. You've all done it and you each know it. It seems it would be in the best interests of everyone if I just went out the bedroom window again." I said all this while still in tears. In truth I had no intention of going out that window. This was my bed and partly my house. Darry, Soda, Steve, and Two-Bit couldn't drive me out. They may desert me when I needed them the most and they may think I'm a liar, but I refuse to leave my house. If I left I would have nowhere to go. When someone's target is nothing they're sure to hit it and I got the bulls eye.
It's my bed not Darry's and I live in this house too not just Darry. I heard Darry and Soda run out of the house. I came out of my hiding space. See Darry I can use my head. I fooled you. I went over to the bed and slipped between the covers, and soon I was asleep. I woke up to the sounds of argueing.
"I think you should do what the little bastard said and get rid of him." That was Steve. I was hurt, but not surprised in the slightest. Steve and me were never too savvy when it came to the each other. He thought I was just Soda's tag-a-long brother and I thought he was a jackass. That caused more than one heated discussion between us.
"Steve keep your big mouth shut. We're not giving up Pony. We need him whether it's obvious right now or not." Darry said. He said the last part almost inaudibly.
"I honestly don't know what to do with him. He sneeks out. He runs away only to come back when we're not here. He needs to get on with his life." Darry sure was in a talking mood.
"Is there anything we can do? It's getting me tired trying to find him and trying to keep track of him. Darry we have jobs that we have to be at and I don't know about you but I got in trouble today for falling asleep on the job. I think that I already have a few gray hairs." Soda was giving up on me? No it wasn't possible. What did it matter if I was innocent were they going to believe me? No they never would. It wasn't fair. I thought Soda loved me. I've given him trouble before, but he has never given up on me. I walked into the room and slugged Soda. It was so unexpected that he didn't have time to react, but Steve did. He gave me a beating. He tackled me to the floor and punched me over and over until Darry got him off.
"Steve let him go!" Darry and Soda yelled. Darry grabbed Steve and held him back and Two-Bit grabbed me.
"HOW COULD YOU GIVE UP ON ME?!?!? I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BROTHER?! WELL BROTHER'S DON'T GIVE UP ON EACH OTHE AND THEY BELIEVE EACH OTHER!!!!" I yelled this, broke free of Two-Bit's hold and then ran into my room and locked the door. I sank to the floor and started to cry. Everyone in the other room heard me because I didn't even try to hide the fact that I was crying. I couldn't help it it was just too much on top of everything else.
"Pony look um so sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm just tired and worn out."
"Yeah I heard it all while you were all talking. At least Darry stood up for me. You were all for Steve's plan to give me away. Why don't you just sell me to someone who wants me? Then you get the money and you get to get some sleep. Did anyone ever ask you to care about me? No."
"Pony look."
"No I savvy real well. There's no need to explain."
"Come on Pony Soda didn't mean it."
I just kept on crying and stopped listening to them. They kept talking and even Steve joined in to yell at me for crying.
"Pony let us in. You been bawling for the last 30min. He didn't mean it. Haven't you ever said something that you didn't mean to? I know you have. In fact as I recall you said you hated me." Darry said quietly through the door.
"Why would you think that that was a lie. That was what I meant. I still do hate you and Two-Bit and Soda and Steve and Johnny and Dally. You've all abandoned me in one way or another. Tell me why I should stay here when everyone tries to hurt me. You've all done it and you each know it. It seems it would be in the best interests of everyone if I just went out the bedroom window again." I said all this while still in tears. In truth I had no intention of going out that window. This was my bed and partly my house. Darry, Soda, Steve, and Two-Bit couldn't drive me out. They may desert me when I needed them the most and they may think I'm a liar, but I refuse to leave my house. If I left I would have nowhere to go. When someone's target is nothing they're sure to hit it and I got the bulls eye.