Chapter 9 A million times
OK people we've been through this before. None of these characters belong to me. They all come from the ingenious mind of S.E. Hinton.
Darry stared at me for a while. I don't know how much time passed but it had to have been at least 5min before he spoke
"Pony. what." He was speechless. He was pale and and I had said something that he couldn't think of anything to say back. This was a first.
"Darry, you and Soda are great. But you set your expectations way too high and keep them there. You expect me to be something wonderful, when I don't even know who or what I am. Sometimes all I want to be is a kid."
"Pony I don't know what to say. Why didn't you tell me before?"
"When? Huh? When you hit me? When Johnny died? Or would you rather I told you during one of our many fights?"
"Look Pony I set high standards for you because I know."
"If your next words are because I know you can reach them I don't want to hear it. You don't know shit. You want me to be able to reach them and you want to think that I can reach them. But your lying if your saying you know you can reach them."
"No Pony I know you can reach my expectations because that's the kind of kid you are."
"Oh so you know who I am. Please enlighten me. Who am I?"
"What kind of question is that. You're Ponyboy. You're the shy kid who always has his nose in a book. Or at least used to have his nose in a book. You're the kind kid that nobody takes the time to get to know. You're the kid who does great in school and is a star athlete. You're the same Ponyboy from before Johnny's death only slightly altered. Now you know you're not invincible and that one day everyone will die."
"That's not everything about me though. Is it? I mean that can't be all there is to me. What values do I have? Am I still gold or have I turned?"
"What do you mean? If you mean are you still young and innocent no. Because you have seen things that kids shouldn't have to see. Are you saying that you still have a quality personality that everyone loves yes. As for your values. I don't know what your values are Pony. I thought you wanted to stay clean and go places in this world. But lately you haven't been showing me that side. You have been showing me that you'll go along with the crowd just to make friends. That's wrong Pony. That's wrong on so many levels because sometimes your friends can hurt you even if they don't mean to. Your friends don't know what's best for you."
"And neither do you. You stand here and tell me that they don't know what's best for me and that I shouldn't let my friends run my life and yet you stand before me doing it as we speak. Does that mean that I shouldn't listen to you?"
"No Pony um your gardian. I take care of you. Plus I've lived longer. You can listen to me. And listen good. I hope you find yourself, but that's not something I can help you with. It's your life that means you can screw it up or take what me and Soda are offering to you. We're offering you a future. Curly Shepherd and his gang are offering you trouble, jail, and an early death. I love you and I want to see you succeed and so does Soda. We're rooting for you Pony. We'll always be there for you if you tell us what's up. We can't help you if we don't know what's going on. And even though you're so lost I still have to ground you because you still did break house rules. I will continue to ground you until you get it threw your head that you need to try and pull yourself together."
"Darry don't give up on me. Even if I fall a million times. Please be there to pick me back up. Please help me in whatever ways you can. I need a lot of help.
OK people we've been through this before. None of these characters belong to me. They all come from the ingenious mind of S.E. Hinton.
Darry stared at me for a while. I don't know how much time passed but it had to have been at least 5min before he spoke
"Pony. what." He was speechless. He was pale and and I had said something that he couldn't think of anything to say back. This was a first.
"Darry, you and Soda are great. But you set your expectations way too high and keep them there. You expect me to be something wonderful, when I don't even know who or what I am. Sometimes all I want to be is a kid."
"Pony I don't know what to say. Why didn't you tell me before?"
"When? Huh? When you hit me? When Johnny died? Or would you rather I told you during one of our many fights?"
"Look Pony I set high standards for you because I know."
"If your next words are because I know you can reach them I don't want to hear it. You don't know shit. You want me to be able to reach them and you want to think that I can reach them. But your lying if your saying you know you can reach them."
"No Pony I know you can reach my expectations because that's the kind of kid you are."
"Oh so you know who I am. Please enlighten me. Who am I?"
"What kind of question is that. You're Ponyboy. You're the shy kid who always has his nose in a book. Or at least used to have his nose in a book. You're the kind kid that nobody takes the time to get to know. You're the kid who does great in school and is a star athlete. You're the same Ponyboy from before Johnny's death only slightly altered. Now you know you're not invincible and that one day everyone will die."
"That's not everything about me though. Is it? I mean that can't be all there is to me. What values do I have? Am I still gold or have I turned?"
"What do you mean? If you mean are you still young and innocent no. Because you have seen things that kids shouldn't have to see. Are you saying that you still have a quality personality that everyone loves yes. As for your values. I don't know what your values are Pony. I thought you wanted to stay clean and go places in this world. But lately you haven't been showing me that side. You have been showing me that you'll go along with the crowd just to make friends. That's wrong Pony. That's wrong on so many levels because sometimes your friends can hurt you even if they don't mean to. Your friends don't know what's best for you."
"And neither do you. You stand here and tell me that they don't know what's best for me and that I shouldn't let my friends run my life and yet you stand before me doing it as we speak. Does that mean that I shouldn't listen to you?"
"No Pony um your gardian. I take care of you. Plus I've lived longer. You can listen to me. And listen good. I hope you find yourself, but that's not something I can help you with. It's your life that means you can screw it up or take what me and Soda are offering to you. We're offering you a future. Curly Shepherd and his gang are offering you trouble, jail, and an early death. I love you and I want to see you succeed and so does Soda. We're rooting for you Pony. We'll always be there for you if you tell us what's up. We can't help you if we don't know what's going on. And even though you're so lost I still have to ground you because you still did break house rules. I will continue to ground you until you get it threw your head that you need to try and pull yourself together."
"Darry don't give up on me. Even if I fall a million times. Please be there to pick me back up. Please help me in whatever ways you can. I need a lot of help.