Chapter 10 Things
Wow a double digit chapter didn't think I'd make it this far. Anyway thank you all you reviewers out there. None of these characters belong to me. They belong to S.E. Hinton. I may make a girl character but I need some advice from readers should I add a girl or leave it be for now?
I walked away then. To the kitchen, to get some water and then went back into my room. I turned off all the lights and just sat there. Just sat there in the dark staring at the wall. When Soda came in I was still staring at the wall. He pulled back the covers and got in without turning on the light. I thought he would go to bed without saying anything to me, but I was wrong.
"Pony I know you're going threw a tough time. But your not the only one so you shouldn't act like. When I said you were my problem I didn't mean it like that. You're my brother and that is a sacred bond. I'll always be there when you need me. You know that. You can tell me anything you want. You don't have to be afraid I'll get upset."
"You don't know what I'm going through. I know everyone has problems. I know you and Darry get upset with me sometimes. I also know that it's hard to find something you've lost. Especially when you have no clue where to start looking for it. I see this situation two ways. I see it your way and I see it mine. You're the adults you feel the need to protect. But on the other hand what is there to protect if there is no me. You two seem to know me better than I do and I don't understand that."
"What do you mean if there is no you? Pony that's not what I want to hear outta y."
"I didn't mean it that way. I have too much to live for, and yet nothing at all. I meant that I don't know me so where is the person to protect. And besides that weren't you listening to a thing I said? The only thing you got out of what I said was that one statement." I was so calm. I didn't notice it, but I think Soda did, because he started to get nervous that I wasn't yelling or screaming or crying. Just talking. I'm not getting emotional probably because I'm too emotionally strained right now. Soda didn't try to talk to me again. I was sorry I had blown him off, but it's how I feel and I'm tired of hiding it and then getting in trouble for doing something to release the stress. This house and family were killing me. They were trying there best to help, I had to give them credit for that. And I know they love me. It's just. I don't know myself! It's like I'm fallinhg apart and nobody can help. They say they'll be there, but how can someone been there for you if they don't know what your going through. Things just don't work that way. Things don't work any way for me so what does it matter?
Wow a double digit chapter didn't think I'd make it this far. Anyway thank you all you reviewers out there. None of these characters belong to me. They belong to S.E. Hinton. I may make a girl character but I need some advice from readers should I add a girl or leave it be for now?
I walked away then. To the kitchen, to get some water and then went back into my room. I turned off all the lights and just sat there. Just sat there in the dark staring at the wall. When Soda came in I was still staring at the wall. He pulled back the covers and got in without turning on the light. I thought he would go to bed without saying anything to me, but I was wrong.
"Pony I know you're going threw a tough time. But your not the only one so you shouldn't act like. When I said you were my problem I didn't mean it like that. You're my brother and that is a sacred bond. I'll always be there when you need me. You know that. You can tell me anything you want. You don't have to be afraid I'll get upset."
"You don't know what I'm going through. I know everyone has problems. I know you and Darry get upset with me sometimes. I also know that it's hard to find something you've lost. Especially when you have no clue where to start looking for it. I see this situation two ways. I see it your way and I see it mine. You're the adults you feel the need to protect. But on the other hand what is there to protect if there is no me. You two seem to know me better than I do and I don't understand that."
"What do you mean if there is no you? Pony that's not what I want to hear outta y."
"I didn't mean it that way. I have too much to live for, and yet nothing at all. I meant that I don't know me so where is the person to protect. And besides that weren't you listening to a thing I said? The only thing you got out of what I said was that one statement." I was so calm. I didn't notice it, but I think Soda did, because he started to get nervous that I wasn't yelling or screaming or crying. Just talking. I'm not getting emotional probably because I'm too emotionally strained right now. Soda didn't try to talk to me again. I was sorry I had blown him off, but it's how I feel and I'm tired of hiding it and then getting in trouble for doing something to release the stress. This house and family were killing me. They were trying there best to help, I had to give them credit for that. And I know they love me. It's just. I don't know myself! It's like I'm fallinhg apart and nobody can help. They say they'll be there, but how can someone been there for you if they don't know what your going through. Things just don't work that way. Things don't work any way for me so what does it matter?