Chapter 12 It Hurts
Hey everyone sorry this took soooooo long in coming but with school and extra curricular activities I couldn't help it. Besides that I didn't know what to write. Anyway none of these are my characters except Andy who isn't going to mentioned very much (I don't think so at least)
Darry and Soda walked in, one following right behind the other.
"Did he get home?"
"Is he here?" They asked at the same time.
"Why don't you guys see for yourselves."
I opened my eyes just a little and saw the two standing there looking at me as if they had never seen anything like me in the entire world. Which I knew wasn't right because there are millions of people and who cares about me. I am one and one is not all. If it came down to everyone dieing or just me which do you think they'd choose? Exactly, they'd choose everyone else because like I said one is not all.
"Hey guys how was work?" As soon as I said something the look was gone from there faces and all I saw was anger and concern. But mostly anger.
"Can you believe that he actually has the guts to ask us how work was?" Soda said.
"Work was fine Pony. Now explain yourself now. Where did you go? We were so worried. Why did you go? You can't believe how relieved we are to have you back." Darry said this. I think he was in hysterics because some of it he yelled and he said it all in one breath. How he did that I have no idea.
"Chill Darry. That's too many questions for me to answer at once."
"Ok then how about you just tells us what happened." Said Darry as Two-Bit came and sat down to listen.
"Aight fine." I told the truth. Of how I went out for a short walk and ended up walking all night. Well not really all night because for part of it I had been sitting staring at the wall. I told them how I thought a lot about things while I was walking. And how I didn't hitch hike (that didn't earn me as many bonus points with Darry as I thought it would).
"Pony you gotta stop this now," Darry wasn't too pleased with me, "You have so much going for you. You're getting side tracked because you don't know who you are. Pony there are so many who feel just like you. When I was your age I didn't know who I was. Get a handle on your life. Yes you need to figure out who you are but you can't look like you are. Your looking as if your somewhere on earth when in truth your not. You can't find yourself by physically searching."
"How did you find yourself?"
"Mom and Dad were there for me. Always cheering me on. And my friends were there too just for the extra support. It's gonna be hard Pony nobody every said life was easy. When did you start feeling this way?"
"For a while. When Johnny was alive I was fine because he was always there to make me laugh so I never had to even think about it. I just laughed and all my problems went away. But now that Johnny is gone I have no reason to laugh anymore. It's like when Johnny and Dally died, I died with them. It hurts."
Hey everyone sorry this took soooooo long in coming but with school and extra curricular activities I couldn't help it. Besides that I didn't know what to write. Anyway none of these are my characters except Andy who isn't going to mentioned very much (I don't think so at least)
Darry and Soda walked in, one following right behind the other.
"Did he get home?"
"Is he here?" They asked at the same time.
"Why don't you guys see for yourselves."
I opened my eyes just a little and saw the two standing there looking at me as if they had never seen anything like me in the entire world. Which I knew wasn't right because there are millions of people and who cares about me. I am one and one is not all. If it came down to everyone dieing or just me which do you think they'd choose? Exactly, they'd choose everyone else because like I said one is not all.
"Hey guys how was work?" As soon as I said something the look was gone from there faces and all I saw was anger and concern. But mostly anger.
"Can you believe that he actually has the guts to ask us how work was?" Soda said.
"Work was fine Pony. Now explain yourself now. Where did you go? We were so worried. Why did you go? You can't believe how relieved we are to have you back." Darry said this. I think he was in hysterics because some of it he yelled and he said it all in one breath. How he did that I have no idea.
"Chill Darry. That's too many questions for me to answer at once."
"Ok then how about you just tells us what happened." Said Darry as Two-Bit came and sat down to listen.
"Aight fine." I told the truth. Of how I went out for a short walk and ended up walking all night. Well not really all night because for part of it I had been sitting staring at the wall. I told them how I thought a lot about things while I was walking. And how I didn't hitch hike (that didn't earn me as many bonus points with Darry as I thought it would).
"Pony you gotta stop this now," Darry wasn't too pleased with me, "You have so much going for you. You're getting side tracked because you don't know who you are. Pony there are so many who feel just like you. When I was your age I didn't know who I was. Get a handle on your life. Yes you need to figure out who you are but you can't look like you are. Your looking as if your somewhere on earth when in truth your not. You can't find yourself by physically searching."
"How did you find yourself?"
"Mom and Dad were there for me. Always cheering me on. And my friends were there too just for the extra support. It's gonna be hard Pony nobody every said life was easy. When did you start feeling this way?"
"For a while. When Johnny was alive I was fine because he was always there to make me laugh so I never had to even think about it. I just laughed and all my problems went away. But now that Johnny is gone I have no reason to laugh anymore. It's like when Johnny and Dally died, I died with them. It hurts."