Chapter 14 A Shadow
Sorry that I haven't updated in a really long time. I never knew what to write about, so I just let the story go. Then today I got an e-mail from my friend with a link to my story and a note that says your fans are getting restless. I decided to try and write a new chapter. Here it is. Hope you like. Also, these characters belong to S.E. Hinton not me.
After my prayer I fell into a deep sleep. I never heard Soda come in for bed. I never heard what was left of the gang leave. I did hear a voice. I sat up and looked around the room. I could see someone standing in the corner watching me. It was too dark to see their face.
"Pony, what happened to you? You know who you are. Stop wearing that mask that you've worn since the day your parents died. Your letting others tell you who you are, and that's why you're confused." A faint glow was being given off by the person. "Pony, Nothing has changed. Only you know who you are. When you let people tell you different you lose yourself. Just believe in who you are. Stop being such a pain, but don't lay down and let them plow over you."
"I feel like they don't understand me. I'm just the baby to them. I'm not mature. I'm not old enough to make my own decisions. I'm 16 for Christ's sake! They treat me like um 5. They don't know how hard I work. It's not easy doing a sport and getting good grades. Teachers yell at me, Coaches yell at me and for what?!? Huh?? Tell me that what's it all for? So I can come here and get yelled at some more! They think I snap my fingers and an A paper appears. They think I can handle everything they throw at me just because I'm their little brother. Well guess what. I'm only human. I'm not Darry the superhero, or Soda who can laugh everything off. I'm Ponyboy Curtis. I can't be perfect. I can't always bring home an A. I'm not always going to win the race." It felt so good saying that, even if it was to someone besides Darry and Soda.
"Your completely and totally right. So why are you telling me that? Shouldn't you be telling them?"
"I already have. They said they understood. Then Darry grounded me. I can't blame him for that but he walked away. He didn't talk to me. He didn't comfort me. He just said 'I understand', grounded me and walked away. He hates me. I can see it in his eyes. Whenever he talks to me he can never quite look me in the eye. He just acts like he blames me for everything. And now I think Soda does too."
"You know that's not tru."
"DON'T TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE!!! YOU DON'T LIVE MY LIFE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!"
That's when he stepped into the light. I knew exactly who it was and was sorry I had ever raised my voice. He just looked at me with a sense of pity and said "I'm sorry". Then he was gone.
Sorry that I haven't updated in a really long time. I never knew what to write about, so I just let the story go. Then today I got an e-mail from my friend with a link to my story and a note that says your fans are getting restless. I decided to try and write a new chapter. Here it is. Hope you like. Also, these characters belong to S.E. Hinton not me.
After my prayer I fell into a deep sleep. I never heard Soda come in for bed. I never heard what was left of the gang leave. I did hear a voice. I sat up and looked around the room. I could see someone standing in the corner watching me. It was too dark to see their face.
"Pony, what happened to you? You know who you are. Stop wearing that mask that you've worn since the day your parents died. Your letting others tell you who you are, and that's why you're confused." A faint glow was being given off by the person. "Pony, Nothing has changed. Only you know who you are. When you let people tell you different you lose yourself. Just believe in who you are. Stop being such a pain, but don't lay down and let them plow over you."
"I feel like they don't understand me. I'm just the baby to them. I'm not mature. I'm not old enough to make my own decisions. I'm 16 for Christ's sake! They treat me like um 5. They don't know how hard I work. It's not easy doing a sport and getting good grades. Teachers yell at me, Coaches yell at me and for what?!? Huh?? Tell me that what's it all for? So I can come here and get yelled at some more! They think I snap my fingers and an A paper appears. They think I can handle everything they throw at me just because I'm their little brother. Well guess what. I'm only human. I'm not Darry the superhero, or Soda who can laugh everything off. I'm Ponyboy Curtis. I can't be perfect. I can't always bring home an A. I'm not always going to win the race." It felt so good saying that, even if it was to someone besides Darry and Soda.
"Your completely and totally right. So why are you telling me that? Shouldn't you be telling them?"
"I already have. They said they understood. Then Darry grounded me. I can't blame him for that but he walked away. He didn't talk to me. He didn't comfort me. He just said 'I understand', grounded me and walked away. He hates me. I can see it in his eyes. Whenever he talks to me he can never quite look me in the eye. He just acts like he blames me for everything. And now I think Soda does too."
"You know that's not tru."
"DON'T TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE!!! YOU DON'T LIVE MY LIFE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!"
That's when he stepped into the light. I knew exactly who it was and was sorry I had ever raised my voice. He just looked at me with a sense of pity and said "I'm sorry". Then he was gone.