Hello Hello Hellooooooooooo! We're doing as many as possible b/c I'm going
to be gone 4 camp soon, and I will not let Raven do this alone. I don't
trust her. Talon
Ha-ha Talon! But yeah, well, here. Oh yeah, thanks Phoenix for becoming our official second reader! Raven
Chapter10
Arousing Troubles.
Life with the To'kra wasn't bad once you got used to it. Thera wasn't about to get used to it anytime soon. For one thing, the few To'kra who didn't avoid them were stiff, as though they'd rather not be talking to them. Tolm/Kajren was pretty nice, but he also didn't know who Thera was. N'kiri was becoming increasingly irritating, for she always had to go to one meeting or another conference, meaning Thera really didn't feel like much more than some host. Honestly, that's what everybody made of her. Another inconvenience was the hieroglyphics. The higher To'kra had hoped it held some new goa'uldish technology. As it turned out, it was simply instructions for how to use the weird thing Thera wore on her hand called a ribbon device.
On the other hand, Thera wasn't the only non-earthling there. That wasn't very much comfort, however, seeing as Thera was not only the one Abydonian there, but also the only To'kra who hadn't actually agreed to her bonding, and the only one who could not remember her home world, and the only one who did not want to be a To'kra.
Two weeks in the To'kra base, Thera had pretty muchly decided that her life officially sucked. Nobody liked her, she couldn't even get along with her own simbeote, she constantly felt like she'd just stepped out of an Egyptology textbook, and there was absolutely, positively no privacy! The foremost, however, being the worst. Tolm had seemed nice as long as Selnac made him show her around, but once that was done, he had become like everyone else. Cold and hostile. Thera suspected that he now knew who she was. The worst part of it seemed to be the loneliness. Had God put her here as punishment for having something once evil inside her? N'kiri was only a scientist working for the system lords, she had never been one. Sometimes, Thera just felt like she was suffocating. She still hadn't woken up from this dream, and with each step she took, with each breath she breathed, it felt more like a nightmare. Wherever she walked, icy glares met her. Just abut everything she heard went completely over her head. She felt that it was a hopeless cause. The whole two years of life that she had known, she had had friends, she had had people by her side. She had never imagined how much it could hurt to be without. The one time N'kiri truly let Thera be was when she cried herself to sleep at night.
The Stargate Command back on Earth had been better. At least there the people had been pleasant. Jack was funny without realizing it, Sam had been like a motherly figure, as had Dr. Frasier. Jonas was kind, and Teal'c was seemingly pleasant. She had even enjoyed the company of Daniel Jackson. No matter how she tried to keep her chin up and be optimistic, it seemed useless.
As Thera was applying the heay make-up N'kiri often bullied her into wearing, she heard Selnac's booming voice requesting her to report to yet another meeting.
"Great." Thera thought. "Another chance for me to face the other To'kra." though, it would be N'kiri who would technically be attending the meeting. Thera was just dead weight.
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Thera was miserable. N'kiri could tell. The fourteen-year-old girl was not used to being alone, as N'kiri was. Humans, unlike goa'uld, tended to flock and be together.
"Thera" she said to her host as she walked slowly to the council room.
"Yeah, yeah!" Thera interrupted. "I'll give you control of my body when we get there and I won't make a scene, I got it, okay?"
"It wasn't that..."
By then they had reached the council room, and Thera had given N'kiri control. N'kiri inwardly sighed, careful to hide her feelings of pity from her host. She'd learned that humans generally hated pity, and they fought enough as it was.
N'kiri took her seat at the council table and listened as a To'kra she had yet to have met explained their current situation and the latest strike against Anubis. This was one of the first meetings N'kiri had attented that did not include new technologies, and the first she had heard of the Ta'ri's strike against Anubis. After about two hours, the meeting ended, much to Thera's obvious relief.
She stood up and walked out of the hall, ready to return to her quarters and try to come up with a new invention that could possibly help the To'kra. She was stopped by Jacob Carter.
"I don't mean to point out the obvious." he said. "but nto many of the other To'kra are really ready to place their trust in you. And, I hate to say it, but I cna't help but side with them. You've yet to have truly helped us. There's been no new technology, no new knowledge, some of the others think you're a spy. They want to put you on probation."
N'kiri dutifully nodded. She'd known it would probably come to this.
"N'kiri." Selnac's voice cut in. "You could very well be our most valuable resource. If the others turn against you, there's nothing I can do. If not for your own sake, please try to help for the sake of the To'kra."
"You have my complete loyalty." N'kiri replied, her voicing effect amplifying Thera's speech. "I shan't fail you as I did two years ago."
Selnac nodded and released her. N'kiri walked easily down the halls, once again giving Thera the control. Once again, she hid her pity once she felt Thera's pains of loneliness. It was then that they passed Kajren, or, as Thera knew them as, Tolm. N'kiri knew about Thera's hidden feelings for them. She, unlike N'kiri, could not hold in her feelings. He did not look happy to see them.
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"Tolm." Thera said politely as they passed. "I'm so happy to see you. Did you hear about Anubis? It happened about a week ago. This could give us a huge advantage!"
Tolm scowled.
"You shouldn't be so cheerful! You'll never be one of us, goa'uld!"
Thera choked. She was torn between sadness and anger. She chose to act upon the latter. Lunging, she knocked the smart-mouthed boy to the floor and punched him with all her might. He dodged and swung back at her, hitting her golden-brown cheek. Together, they scuffled and fought on the floor. All around, To'kra stopped what they were doing and watched, unsure of whether or not to interfere. Though Thera was without her goa'uldish weapon, she still looked dangerous in her state. Thera couldn't help but feel odd inside, as though there were little bubbles popping around within her. At the same time, her anger flared and fire seemed to burn throughout her body, and yet ice seemed to cover her in fear and sadness. Tolm punched her again, and she slapped him hard across his already bruised cheek. Suddenly, she felt a sturdy arm grab her and pull her up as Tolm was caught by another To'kra. Thera glanced up and saw a very angry looking Selnac gripping her shoulder. With much difficulty, she fought the tears that were trying desperately to wet her eyes.
"What is the meaning of this?" Selnac demanded, his echoey voice booming. Thera wiped her bloody lip and N'kiri took immediate control.
"I am sorry!" she pleaded. "My host is different, she did not know! Please! I apologize for her behavior!"
"What began this?" Selnac bellowed.
"We were called a goa'uld." N'kiri said, as though ashamed for Thera's pathetic excuse to hit another To'kra.
"Is this true?" Jacob Carter asked, with a much softer tone than Selnac. N'kiri returned control to Thera.
"Is it?" Jacob Carter asked again, as gently as he could. Thera weakly nodded, then burst into tears, smearing her Egyptian make-up. Hands over her bloody, bruised face, she rushed back to her open bedroom and thrust herself upon the hard, To'kra bed. She didn't care if anyone saw her. She didn't care about anything now. She just wanted to go home and be human again! But she knew that this time, this dream, she could not wake-up, no matter how miserable she got. What did To'kra do to people they could not trust? Did they kill their victims? Would they kill her?
"Thera" N'kiri said gently, trying to console her host.
"Just go away!" Thera lashed angrily. "I never asked for a goa'uld and I never asked for one who was ashamed to have me! Just go away! Go think about your inventions! That's what you're here for! I'm just your way of getting around! So just go away!"
Thera sobbed angrily into her flat pillow. Maybe she could just go away, maybe they would let her go, or kill her, or give her to the goa'uld system lords. Anything was better than this place.
"You'll never be one of us, goa'uld." Tolm's words stung more then the open cut on her eyebrow. "goa'uld!"
She just wanted to end it, to wake up from the unwakeable dream.
Okay, okay, it's a little, err, negative. But she's a goa'uld in a To'kra base! I expect that's how she would feel! Hence the title. Well, R&R please. Talon
Yeah, this is a particularly deep chappie, but don't worry, the funny will be back. In the meantime, R&R or I shall set Yeu on you! Cause he's old and senile and too stupid not to. No, I can't set reincarnated guys on you anymore. Oma Desalla made that pretty darn clear! Raven
R&R!
Ha-ha Talon! But yeah, well, here. Oh yeah, thanks Phoenix for becoming our official second reader! Raven
Chapter10
Arousing Troubles.
Life with the To'kra wasn't bad once you got used to it. Thera wasn't about to get used to it anytime soon. For one thing, the few To'kra who didn't avoid them were stiff, as though they'd rather not be talking to them. Tolm/Kajren was pretty nice, but he also didn't know who Thera was. N'kiri was becoming increasingly irritating, for she always had to go to one meeting or another conference, meaning Thera really didn't feel like much more than some host. Honestly, that's what everybody made of her. Another inconvenience was the hieroglyphics. The higher To'kra had hoped it held some new goa'uldish technology. As it turned out, it was simply instructions for how to use the weird thing Thera wore on her hand called a ribbon device.
On the other hand, Thera wasn't the only non-earthling there. That wasn't very much comfort, however, seeing as Thera was not only the one Abydonian there, but also the only To'kra who hadn't actually agreed to her bonding, and the only one who could not remember her home world, and the only one who did not want to be a To'kra.
Two weeks in the To'kra base, Thera had pretty muchly decided that her life officially sucked. Nobody liked her, she couldn't even get along with her own simbeote, she constantly felt like she'd just stepped out of an Egyptology textbook, and there was absolutely, positively no privacy! The foremost, however, being the worst. Tolm had seemed nice as long as Selnac made him show her around, but once that was done, he had become like everyone else. Cold and hostile. Thera suspected that he now knew who she was. The worst part of it seemed to be the loneliness. Had God put her here as punishment for having something once evil inside her? N'kiri was only a scientist working for the system lords, she had never been one. Sometimes, Thera just felt like she was suffocating. She still hadn't woken up from this dream, and with each step she took, with each breath she breathed, it felt more like a nightmare. Wherever she walked, icy glares met her. Just abut everything she heard went completely over her head. She felt that it was a hopeless cause. The whole two years of life that she had known, she had had friends, she had had people by her side. She had never imagined how much it could hurt to be without. The one time N'kiri truly let Thera be was when she cried herself to sleep at night.
The Stargate Command back on Earth had been better. At least there the people had been pleasant. Jack was funny without realizing it, Sam had been like a motherly figure, as had Dr. Frasier. Jonas was kind, and Teal'c was seemingly pleasant. She had even enjoyed the company of Daniel Jackson. No matter how she tried to keep her chin up and be optimistic, it seemed useless.
As Thera was applying the heay make-up N'kiri often bullied her into wearing, she heard Selnac's booming voice requesting her to report to yet another meeting.
"Great." Thera thought. "Another chance for me to face the other To'kra." though, it would be N'kiri who would technically be attending the meeting. Thera was just dead weight.
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Thera was miserable. N'kiri could tell. The fourteen-year-old girl was not used to being alone, as N'kiri was. Humans, unlike goa'uld, tended to flock and be together.
"Thera" she said to her host as she walked slowly to the council room.
"Yeah, yeah!" Thera interrupted. "I'll give you control of my body when we get there and I won't make a scene, I got it, okay?"
"It wasn't that..."
By then they had reached the council room, and Thera had given N'kiri control. N'kiri inwardly sighed, careful to hide her feelings of pity from her host. She'd learned that humans generally hated pity, and they fought enough as it was.
N'kiri took her seat at the council table and listened as a To'kra she had yet to have met explained their current situation and the latest strike against Anubis. This was one of the first meetings N'kiri had attented that did not include new technologies, and the first she had heard of the Ta'ri's strike against Anubis. After about two hours, the meeting ended, much to Thera's obvious relief.
She stood up and walked out of the hall, ready to return to her quarters and try to come up with a new invention that could possibly help the To'kra. She was stopped by Jacob Carter.
"I don't mean to point out the obvious." he said. "but nto many of the other To'kra are really ready to place their trust in you. And, I hate to say it, but I cna't help but side with them. You've yet to have truly helped us. There's been no new technology, no new knowledge, some of the others think you're a spy. They want to put you on probation."
N'kiri dutifully nodded. She'd known it would probably come to this.
"N'kiri." Selnac's voice cut in. "You could very well be our most valuable resource. If the others turn against you, there's nothing I can do. If not for your own sake, please try to help for the sake of the To'kra."
"You have my complete loyalty." N'kiri replied, her voicing effect amplifying Thera's speech. "I shan't fail you as I did two years ago."
Selnac nodded and released her. N'kiri walked easily down the halls, once again giving Thera the control. Once again, she hid her pity once she felt Thera's pains of loneliness. It was then that they passed Kajren, or, as Thera knew them as, Tolm. N'kiri knew about Thera's hidden feelings for them. She, unlike N'kiri, could not hold in her feelings. He did not look happy to see them.
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"Tolm." Thera said politely as they passed. "I'm so happy to see you. Did you hear about Anubis? It happened about a week ago. This could give us a huge advantage!"
Tolm scowled.
"You shouldn't be so cheerful! You'll never be one of us, goa'uld!"
Thera choked. She was torn between sadness and anger. She chose to act upon the latter. Lunging, she knocked the smart-mouthed boy to the floor and punched him with all her might. He dodged and swung back at her, hitting her golden-brown cheek. Together, they scuffled and fought on the floor. All around, To'kra stopped what they were doing and watched, unsure of whether or not to interfere. Though Thera was without her goa'uldish weapon, she still looked dangerous in her state. Thera couldn't help but feel odd inside, as though there were little bubbles popping around within her. At the same time, her anger flared and fire seemed to burn throughout her body, and yet ice seemed to cover her in fear and sadness. Tolm punched her again, and she slapped him hard across his already bruised cheek. Suddenly, she felt a sturdy arm grab her and pull her up as Tolm was caught by another To'kra. Thera glanced up and saw a very angry looking Selnac gripping her shoulder. With much difficulty, she fought the tears that were trying desperately to wet her eyes.
"What is the meaning of this?" Selnac demanded, his echoey voice booming. Thera wiped her bloody lip and N'kiri took immediate control.
"I am sorry!" she pleaded. "My host is different, she did not know! Please! I apologize for her behavior!"
"What began this?" Selnac bellowed.
"We were called a goa'uld." N'kiri said, as though ashamed for Thera's pathetic excuse to hit another To'kra.
"Is this true?" Jacob Carter asked, with a much softer tone than Selnac. N'kiri returned control to Thera.
"Is it?" Jacob Carter asked again, as gently as he could. Thera weakly nodded, then burst into tears, smearing her Egyptian make-up. Hands over her bloody, bruised face, she rushed back to her open bedroom and thrust herself upon the hard, To'kra bed. She didn't care if anyone saw her. She didn't care about anything now. She just wanted to go home and be human again! But she knew that this time, this dream, she could not wake-up, no matter how miserable she got. What did To'kra do to people they could not trust? Did they kill their victims? Would they kill her?
"Thera" N'kiri said gently, trying to console her host.
"Just go away!" Thera lashed angrily. "I never asked for a goa'uld and I never asked for one who was ashamed to have me! Just go away! Go think about your inventions! That's what you're here for! I'm just your way of getting around! So just go away!"
Thera sobbed angrily into her flat pillow. Maybe she could just go away, maybe they would let her go, or kill her, or give her to the goa'uld system lords. Anything was better than this place.
"You'll never be one of us, goa'uld." Tolm's words stung more then the open cut on her eyebrow. "goa'uld!"
She just wanted to end it, to wake up from the unwakeable dream.
Okay, okay, it's a little, err, negative. But she's a goa'uld in a To'kra base! I expect that's how she would feel! Hence the title. Well, R&R please. Talon
Yeah, this is a particularly deep chappie, but don't worry, the funny will be back. In the meantime, R&R or I shall set Yeu on you! Cause he's old and senile and too stupid not to. No, I can't set reincarnated guys on you anymore. Oma Desalla made that pretty darn clear! Raven
R&R!