Part Nine
Leo turned to the oldest two Charmed Ones. He did not know how to repeating to them what the receptionist had just told him. In over fifty years as a whitelighter he had never had to deal with this or been trained for it. But he had never been as close to any charge as he was to Piper and her sister's, to his own family. His own family that now included an infant son who despite only being a couple of months old he couldn't image a world with.
Piper looked at her husband, and held her hands to her face and cupped them around her nose in a prayer-like position. Her mind kept flashing back to seeing Paige on the floor and the blood. She looked down at the cuffs on her sleeves and saw the dried blood on it. It was impossible to think that everything was the same as this morning.
"She's lost it hasn't she?" Piper asked.
Leo offered a soft nod.
Phoebe stood up and walked towards the window turning her back on the other two. She genteelly wrapped her arms around herself as she stared out of the window. The old feeling of guilt was sweeping through her body, only this time it included the feeling of losing a baby, losing her's and Cole's baby. A feeling that she hoped Piper would never understand herself. One thing she did know though was however hard it was to get through this; it was going to be harder to do it alone.
She turned around slowly, "Did they say when we could go and see her."
"As soon as we are ready," Leo told them. "They just said to remember that she with be sore, slightly groggy from the pain killers and emotions will be sky high."
"Well then I'd say that she needs us more than ever now." Phoebe replied, "You ready Piper?"
Piper nodded, "Yeah, what room is she in?"
"Seventeen."
* * *
Paige sat up in her hospital bed staring up at the ceiling. She was feeling so cheated at the moment, she knew that she had had no intention of keeping the baby, but it was her choice to make and now that had been taken away.
Keeping her eyes her eyes mixed onto the same stop of the ceiling she gripped onto her stomach protectively. She was starting to feel a sudden sense of lose, whether or not she had been planning to keep her baby, she had just lost it. Her eyes started to well up as she felt a lump grow in her throat, she wanted to mourn the lose of her child. Yet she couldn't grieve it, how could she let herself grieve something that she was never going to have?
'Pull yourself together,' Paige told herself as she heard a soft knock on the door. 'It's just saved you a trip down the clinic.'
The young Charmed One wiped her eyes as she sat up in her bed hugging her knees and looked towards the door. "Come in."
Phoebe made her way into the room and headed straight over to edge of the bed and sat down on it. She wanted to show her little sister that she was there for her immediately from the second the door had opened and the best way she knew how to do that was with a hug. Yet there was something inside her head that was telling her to keep her distance slightly until Paige reached out to her.
Piper edged her way into the room more slowly than her younger sister had down and carefully made her way to a chair my the bed. She was aware of not knowing what to say to her baby sister but also conscious of not wanting to push her into saying anything that she did not want to yet.
"How you holding up?" Phoebe asked.
"I'm holding in there." Paige replied casually, "I mean its not like I had my heart set on having a little baby."
"It's still okay to be upset about this all." Phoebe told her younger sister.
Paige looked between Phoebe and Piper as she felt her emotions uncontrollability sweeping over her again. Tears welled in her eyes again as she turned her head away so that her older sisters as she muttered, "I don't feel I have the right to be."
"Of course you have the right," Piper told her. "Whether you wanted the baby or not, your body was preparing to have one and you've just lost that in one of the most horrifying ways ever. You have every right to feel how you want."
* * *
Leo had left the three sisters to talk as he made his way to the telephone. They just needed a little time to talk and he was going to make himself useful while they did and hopefully he would be able to go back with some positive news.
He dialed Darryl's cell phone number into the nearest pay phone. He waited slightly impatiently tapping his foot on the floor while he heard the phone ring.
The whitelighter let out a small sigh when he heard Darryl answer on the other end of the phone. He tried to judge the tone in which his friend had said hello for a millisecond before asking quickly.
"What's happening over there?"
"The jury has just left." Darryl told him.
"How does it look like going?"
There was a pregnant pause from Darryl before he replied. "To be honest Leo it could go either way, I couldn't tell you for certain."
Leo turned to the oldest two Charmed Ones. He did not know how to repeating to them what the receptionist had just told him. In over fifty years as a whitelighter he had never had to deal with this or been trained for it. But he had never been as close to any charge as he was to Piper and her sister's, to his own family. His own family that now included an infant son who despite only being a couple of months old he couldn't image a world with.
Piper looked at her husband, and held her hands to her face and cupped them around her nose in a prayer-like position. Her mind kept flashing back to seeing Paige on the floor and the blood. She looked down at the cuffs on her sleeves and saw the dried blood on it. It was impossible to think that everything was the same as this morning.
"She's lost it hasn't she?" Piper asked.
Leo offered a soft nod.
Phoebe stood up and walked towards the window turning her back on the other two. She genteelly wrapped her arms around herself as she stared out of the window. The old feeling of guilt was sweeping through her body, only this time it included the feeling of losing a baby, losing her's and Cole's baby. A feeling that she hoped Piper would never understand herself. One thing she did know though was however hard it was to get through this; it was going to be harder to do it alone.
She turned around slowly, "Did they say when we could go and see her."
"As soon as we are ready," Leo told them. "They just said to remember that she with be sore, slightly groggy from the pain killers and emotions will be sky high."
"Well then I'd say that she needs us more than ever now." Phoebe replied, "You ready Piper?"
Piper nodded, "Yeah, what room is she in?"
"Seventeen."
* * *
Paige sat up in her hospital bed staring up at the ceiling. She was feeling so cheated at the moment, she knew that she had had no intention of keeping the baby, but it was her choice to make and now that had been taken away.
Keeping her eyes her eyes mixed onto the same stop of the ceiling she gripped onto her stomach protectively. She was starting to feel a sudden sense of lose, whether or not she had been planning to keep her baby, she had just lost it. Her eyes started to well up as she felt a lump grow in her throat, she wanted to mourn the lose of her child. Yet she couldn't grieve it, how could she let herself grieve something that she was never going to have?
'Pull yourself together,' Paige told herself as she heard a soft knock on the door. 'It's just saved you a trip down the clinic.'
The young Charmed One wiped her eyes as she sat up in her bed hugging her knees and looked towards the door. "Come in."
Phoebe made her way into the room and headed straight over to edge of the bed and sat down on it. She wanted to show her little sister that she was there for her immediately from the second the door had opened and the best way she knew how to do that was with a hug. Yet there was something inside her head that was telling her to keep her distance slightly until Paige reached out to her.
Piper edged her way into the room more slowly than her younger sister had down and carefully made her way to a chair my the bed. She was aware of not knowing what to say to her baby sister but also conscious of not wanting to push her into saying anything that she did not want to yet.
"How you holding up?" Phoebe asked.
"I'm holding in there." Paige replied casually, "I mean its not like I had my heart set on having a little baby."
"It's still okay to be upset about this all." Phoebe told her younger sister.
Paige looked between Phoebe and Piper as she felt her emotions uncontrollability sweeping over her again. Tears welled in her eyes again as she turned her head away so that her older sisters as she muttered, "I don't feel I have the right to be."
"Of course you have the right," Piper told her. "Whether you wanted the baby or not, your body was preparing to have one and you've just lost that in one of the most horrifying ways ever. You have every right to feel how you want."
* * *
Leo had left the three sisters to talk as he made his way to the telephone. They just needed a little time to talk and he was going to make himself useful while they did and hopefully he would be able to go back with some positive news.
He dialed Darryl's cell phone number into the nearest pay phone. He waited slightly impatiently tapping his foot on the floor while he heard the phone ring.
The whitelighter let out a small sigh when he heard Darryl answer on the other end of the phone. He tried to judge the tone in which his friend had said hello for a millisecond before asking quickly.
"What's happening over there?"
"The jury has just left." Darryl told him.
"How does it look like going?"
There was a pregnant pause from Darryl before he replied. "To be honest Leo it could go either way, I couldn't tell you for certain."