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AN: This chapter is in honor of all my lovely NJL girls who inspire me every day to keep writing…..even though I haven't forever……okay…..so I'm lazy……Yes, well, it's been about seven months or something to that effect and this story is finally being updated. I deleted the accent by accident then realized that the accent was actually really distracting, so it is now gone for good. I'll try to change the rest of the chapters like that later. So enjoy much m'dearies, I love you all!
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Chapter Fifteen
*I Hate You Too*
"Spot!" Jade screamed, straining to reach his hand as she lost all that was keeping her from hitting the ground.
Spot yelled in horror as he watched her fall, "NO!"
He lunged for her hand, his impending fall out the window being stopped only by Hawk, who made a dive for Spot and grabbed his legs, keeping him suspended in the air.
As Hawk's feet began to skid across the floor in the direction of the window he was quickly grabbed by his two brothers, and the collective strength of all three of them was more than enough to keep Spot from crashing into the sidewalk.
The various people in the room crowded against the window from all sides, eager to see what had happened. A glare and a couple of succinct phrases from Hawk sent them away from the scene.
Spot exhaled shakily, tightening his grip on the portion of Jade's hand he had managed to grab hold of. Jade glanced up at him then looked away guiltily.
"What's going on, Spot?" Hawk asked impatiently.
"I got her. Help me pull her up," Spot replied from his position halfway out the window.
Hawk nodded to his brothers and they slowly began to pull backwards as the rest of the room's inhabitants waited with bated breath.
Tara stood up on her tiptoes, straining to see if two forms, not one, were pulled out of the window. First, she saw Spot's upper-half, then his face, and finally, as Hawk and the rest of the newsies backed off, Jade's arms came over the window sill.
Spot helped Jade into the room as she struggled to get over the window, kicking her legs about in the air beneath her.
When Jade was finally standing, completely in the room, much to the relief of Tara and others, she was pale and considerably shaken.
No one said a word. No one moved. Everyone just stared open mouthed and Jade and Spot, waiting for one of them to do something.
Jade ducked her head and shoved through the throng of people, running out of the bunkroom and down the stairs.
The telltale slam of a door moments later alerted everyone that she had exited the lodging house.
Without missing a beat Spot shot off after her, and everyone in the bunkroom shuddered as the front door slammed a second time.
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She stood at the end of the dock, her arms wrapped around herself with tendrils of black hair whipping around her face as the wind blew a long and mournful note.
"Jade…"
He was breathing hard, as if he had forgotten to take in any air while he ran.
Her face contorted into an expression of hurt and distaste.
"I can't do this."
Spot froze, his arms hanging limply at his sides.
"What?" He croaked out.
Turning to him she held her hands out, "This," she shook, "Don't you get it? I can't do this. I can't be like this."
He started forward, reaching out for her and she stepped back, avoiding his outstretched arms.
"Please…"
Her eyes burned into his and he pleaded with her.
"I don't understand!"
Choking on her words she managed to let out, "I'm not like this!"
Shaking his head he reached for her again and managed to lightly stroke a heated cheek with his hand.
She cried out.
"Don't touch me!"
Her voice was rough and hit his ears like stones on water.
"I just can't do this, Spot! Why can't you understand? I feel guilty when I'm happy! I feel like I'm wallowing in my own goddamn misery when I'm sad! I hate everything! I hate the way that Blink and Angel looked at each other, because it made me just want to throw up. I hate the way that you look at me because I don't deserve it. I hate this place, I hate these people, I hate all of it!"
The wind howled again and she shook violently as Spot just stared at her dumbly. She could feel her entire body begin to go numb as he spoke.
"It's okay Jade," he took a step towards her, "I feel like that too sometimes," hesitating, he stepped again, "Really, I do. But it's okay," he closed the distance between them and let his hands fall loosely on her hips, drawing her closer to him, "It's all okay….Because we still have each other…"
Her lips parted and she drew in a shuddering breath, the cold air burning down her throat.
"No Spot," she whispered, and her eyes locked with his, "Because I hate you too."
He froze, and his body cried for air but he couldn't find the will to breathe. She brushed past him and walked back into the lodging house.
Wetting his lips with his tongue he finally let the dark night enter into his lungs. His eyes closed briefly and he shivered.
He could still feel her warmth on his fingertips.
AN: Holy shit, I can't even believe I updated……I can't even friggin' believe it……I don't think anyone will read this, but I do hope some people will…….So….I hope to have the next chapter of this up soon….Anyway, comments are most definitely welcome, and I would love some feed back. Thanks!
Comments:
Merlin's Quill: Honestly, you've caught me. I did only write the predecessor of this story for reviews. I'm not proud of it, but it's the blunt truth. However, I did write this story because I was attempting to make up for the lack of good plot in Broken Rules, and I'm terribly sorry that you seem to dislike King Of Shadows so much. Anyway, I re-read some of the chapters and I fully understand what you're saying. I guess I just got in the habit of writing like that. Sad, ne? Eh, thanks much for pointing that out to me, and I'll try to lay off the cheesy cliffhangers. I think I did an okay job of that in my Dogma story….Check that out if your interested.
Ice Dancer: Okay…so you're probably not interested anymore….but here it is! Eh heh…
Stripes: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Here it is! Finally! I swear you-know-who will be in here eventually……I'm finally getting my act together!
Raven: Oh sad….I really like the name Tara……*pout* oh well….lol…..Yeah…..she can be a bit annoying…..Widow amuses me to no end. She's so fun to write! Hmm…..I'm pretty sure that they used the name Sean that long ago…….especially in places like Ireland and Scotland…..*shrug* Yeah…..Angel gets on my nerves….but she's such an extreme that it's really entertaining to write her too……just like Widow……But yes, I noticed that Jade seemed to be going under a majorly un-jade-like personality change, so I attempted to change her back in this chapter. Poor dear, she just can't be satisfied with happiness. Lol, I read over this story and kept thinking "That's not Jade……what the hell was I doing?!" *sigh* You've discovered my secret! I'm really uber bad at plotlines! But I promise I will take your comments to heart and try to give my writing more content…..thank you much!
Tiger: Lol…..I'm sorry I'm mean! Here's an update……I'll give you more later!