Author's Note:: Okay, last chapter. I've got nothing else to say...other than thanks to everyone who reviewed the story. So, enjoy!!! `=D
P.S.- the inspiration for this story was the song 'emotions' by destiny's child. So, if you wanna, you can listen to the song after reading this last bit. hehes. `=D Enjoy!!!!!
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Outside, she was able to breathe. "What were you thinking?!" she nearly yelled at herself. "He's married!"
"What the heck's the matter with you?!" yelled the voice. "He was showing you that he still LOVES you!"
"Syd!!" she heard him yell. She turned to see him catch up to her.
"Vaughn," she started softly. "You're married." He looked down at the ground, ashamed of himself for what he nearly did.
"I know. But, I couldn't help it. I HAD to know whether or not you still felt the same way." She wasn't looking at him. And who could blame her? Even HE didn't want to look at himself. She found his gaze again and there were tears in her eyes.
"Of course I do!!!" she screamed. "But I can't do anything about it because you're MARRIED!!!" The look in her eyes said it all. He remembered the look she had after she had kissed him at the airport. It was the same look she had now. It was the look of LOVE. She felt her tears pour out.
"How could you do that to me?!"
"I tried EVERYTHING humanly possible to prove to the CIA that you weren't dead!!" he yelled back.
"Then I guess it wasn't enough, now was it?" her tears were nearly uncontrollable, now. "There are things I can accept, VAUGHN. Losing my fiancee and my best friend because of this thankless job, was one thing." He could sense her anger. That, and every other emotion she had surpressed in the course of 6 months. She was ready to explode.
"But losing the ONE person who mattered to me, the ONE person who said he'd always be there for me, the ONE person who, at the end of the day, I knew I could run to and cry to, because he knew that I didn't have to be solid as a rock all the time, is the ONE THING that I cannot ACCEPT!!!"
"And how do you think I felt?! Learning that you were DEAD, and then hearing that you were alive nearly 2 YEARS after, was something that was harder to swallow, Sydney!!"
"How long did it take you to get over me, Vaughn?! Huh?!" she shoved him away. "A day? A week? A month?"
"Til the day I got married," he said softly. "And after that." Her face softened. She had reacted as if she had heard someone say it before. Sydney immediately remembered the voice that would not leave her alone in her head.
"He got married to get over YOU," she remembered. Finally, she recognized the voice in her head. It was Vaughn's voice!!!
"Did you know that I've hated my life for the last 6 months because of you?" she asked softly. "I've hated reality since the moment you told me that you were married." her tears came back. Vaughn had heard that phrase before. It was the voice in HIS head. Now he knew who it was. It was Sydney's voice!!
"And do YOU KNOW how much I've been beating myself up for it? I married her to get over YOU. But, it's not working. I'm still in love with you. And no matter HOW HARD I've tried to fight it in the last 6 months, it just keeps getting stronger. You know why?!"
"Why?" she asked, her tone still in anger.
"Because every DAMN time I see you, I'm reminded of what we had, and what we could've had. And now, MY LIFE is a mess because you're back in it, and I can't have YOU. I could divorce Melanie and marry you, but that wouldn't do me any good, because I would hurt Melanie in a way that I would NEVER want to hurt ANYONE. But, I'm almost WILLING to do it...FOR YOU." Sydney couldn't believe what she was hearing.
She raised her hand and it hit him square across the face. "You have NO RIGHT TO TELL ME THAT!!" she yelled back at him. She sighed and took a minute to recollect herself and be calm. "This is more than just you being married," she said, but choked on her tears.
"What is it about, then?" he had never felt so much emotion at one time. It was as if EVERY emotion that could possibly exist was surging through him and coming out through his mouth.
"It's about YOU, my guardian angel, not being there when I needed you the most." The words hit him like a ton of bricks.
Her tone softened,"Rebuilding a life that I lost in two years in the course of 6 months, and then compressing my feelings towards you, is something that I couldn't handle by myself. But somehow I managed to do it."
"If anything, I've wished countless times for you to just fall back into my arms, so I could make anything that hurt you stop. But, you've made it clear that you don't need me anymore."
"As untrue as that is, the fact remains that you're married to her. And you can't do anything to change that, because whatever you do to try and change your relationship with Melanie, you're going to factor ME into it."
"I don't want to be the deciding factor of whether or not you stay with your wife. I wouldn't be able to have that on my conscience." She realized what she had to do in order for him to not do anything that would jeopardize his marriage. And so they both could have a sense of closure. She couldn't live like this anymore. She couldn't sacrifice her life if it meant for her not to be with the one man she ever really loved. Vaughn realized where this was going. Sydney was GIVING him up.
"Don't do this," he began.
"I have to," she whispered. She came closer to him, put her hand on his cheek, and kissed him.
After the kiss, she looked into his eyes. She wanted to remember the way he looked at her after that kiss. She felt as if she were going to start crying all over again.
"Goodbye, Michael Vaughn," she softly whispered. And with one last gaze, she turned and went back to the hotel. By the time he got there, she was gone.
-THE END-
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Or, is it? I'm thinking of doing a 2nd part to this. But, I don't know yet. So, help me out!!! Review!!! `=D
P.S.- the inspiration for this story was the song 'emotions' by destiny's child. So, if you wanna, you can listen to the song after reading this last bit. hehes. `=D Enjoy!!!!!
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Outside, she was able to breathe. "What were you thinking?!" she nearly yelled at herself. "He's married!"
"What the heck's the matter with you?!" yelled the voice. "He was showing you that he still LOVES you!"
"Syd!!" she heard him yell. She turned to see him catch up to her.
"Vaughn," she started softly. "You're married." He looked down at the ground, ashamed of himself for what he nearly did.
"I know. But, I couldn't help it. I HAD to know whether or not you still felt the same way." She wasn't looking at him. And who could blame her? Even HE didn't want to look at himself. She found his gaze again and there were tears in her eyes.
"Of course I do!!!" she screamed. "But I can't do anything about it because you're MARRIED!!!" The look in her eyes said it all. He remembered the look she had after she had kissed him at the airport. It was the same look she had now. It was the look of LOVE. She felt her tears pour out.
"How could you do that to me?!"
"I tried EVERYTHING humanly possible to prove to the CIA that you weren't dead!!" he yelled back.
"Then I guess it wasn't enough, now was it?" her tears were nearly uncontrollable, now. "There are things I can accept, VAUGHN. Losing my fiancee and my best friend because of this thankless job, was one thing." He could sense her anger. That, and every other emotion she had surpressed in the course of 6 months. She was ready to explode.
"But losing the ONE person who mattered to me, the ONE person who said he'd always be there for me, the ONE person who, at the end of the day, I knew I could run to and cry to, because he knew that I didn't have to be solid as a rock all the time, is the ONE THING that I cannot ACCEPT!!!"
"And how do you think I felt?! Learning that you were DEAD, and then hearing that you were alive nearly 2 YEARS after, was something that was harder to swallow, Sydney!!"
"How long did it take you to get over me, Vaughn?! Huh?!" she shoved him away. "A day? A week? A month?"
"Til the day I got married," he said softly. "And after that." Her face softened. She had reacted as if she had heard someone say it before. Sydney immediately remembered the voice that would not leave her alone in her head.
"He got married to get over YOU," she remembered. Finally, she recognized the voice in her head. It was Vaughn's voice!!!
"Did you know that I've hated my life for the last 6 months because of you?" she asked softly. "I've hated reality since the moment you told me that you were married." her tears came back. Vaughn had heard that phrase before. It was the voice in HIS head. Now he knew who it was. It was Sydney's voice!!
"And do YOU KNOW how much I've been beating myself up for it? I married her to get over YOU. But, it's not working. I'm still in love with you. And no matter HOW HARD I've tried to fight it in the last 6 months, it just keeps getting stronger. You know why?!"
"Why?" she asked, her tone still in anger.
"Because every DAMN time I see you, I'm reminded of what we had, and what we could've had. And now, MY LIFE is a mess because you're back in it, and I can't have YOU. I could divorce Melanie and marry you, but that wouldn't do me any good, because I would hurt Melanie in a way that I would NEVER want to hurt ANYONE. But, I'm almost WILLING to do it...FOR YOU." Sydney couldn't believe what she was hearing.
She raised her hand and it hit him square across the face. "You have NO RIGHT TO TELL ME THAT!!" she yelled back at him. She sighed and took a minute to recollect herself and be calm. "This is more than just you being married," she said, but choked on her tears.
"What is it about, then?" he had never felt so much emotion at one time. It was as if EVERY emotion that could possibly exist was surging through him and coming out through his mouth.
"It's about YOU, my guardian angel, not being there when I needed you the most." The words hit him like a ton of bricks.
Her tone softened,"Rebuilding a life that I lost in two years in the course of 6 months, and then compressing my feelings towards you, is something that I couldn't handle by myself. But somehow I managed to do it."
"If anything, I've wished countless times for you to just fall back into my arms, so I could make anything that hurt you stop. But, you've made it clear that you don't need me anymore."
"As untrue as that is, the fact remains that you're married to her. And you can't do anything to change that, because whatever you do to try and change your relationship with Melanie, you're going to factor ME into it."
"I don't want to be the deciding factor of whether or not you stay with your wife. I wouldn't be able to have that on my conscience." She realized what she had to do in order for him to not do anything that would jeopardize his marriage. And so they both could have a sense of closure. She couldn't live like this anymore. She couldn't sacrifice her life if it meant for her not to be with the one man she ever really loved. Vaughn realized where this was going. Sydney was GIVING him up.
"Don't do this," he began.
"I have to," she whispered. She came closer to him, put her hand on his cheek, and kissed him.
After the kiss, she looked into his eyes. She wanted to remember the way he looked at her after that kiss. She felt as if she were going to start crying all over again.
"Goodbye, Michael Vaughn," she softly whispered. And with one last gaze, she turned and went back to the hotel. By the time he got there, she was gone.
-THE END-
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Or, is it? I'm thinking of doing a 2nd part to this. But, I don't know yet. So, help me out!!! Review!!! `=D