Jackie
Everything was going fine for Steven and I until Michael knocked on the door. We were talking about what we were planning on doing tomorrow when he intruded on our conversation. There was a loud pounding on the door until Steven answered it. He opened it all the way and Michael barged in. "Kelso what are you doing here man?" Steven asked angrily. "Eric and Big D kicked me out and so did Fez. And since you kicked me out last time you have to let me stay!" He yelled. "No I don't," He responded. "Oh Steven it's just gonna be one night, tomorrow we leave for San Francisco," I told him. I was a little mad he couldn't even be nice to his friend though I understood why. "Fine," he sighed. "Who's gonna sleep with who?" Kelso asked excitedly. "You are sleeping on the floor," Hyde told him. "Aww come on the floor isn't comfy," He whined. "But you'll try to feel Jackie up and I don't want to share a bed with you," Hyde explained. "Yeah and I don't want you sharing a bed with Jackie," Kelso thought for a second. "So you can sleep on the floor Hyde," "No," Hyde said. "Why not?" Kelso asked. "Because I'm stronger then you and you don't want your eye to be sorer," Hyde explained. "But my eyes not sore," Kelso said and then Hyde poked him in the eye. "Ow!!! That was my eye!" Kelso cried. "Enough!" I shouted. I'm so sick of listening to those two bicker! I mean sure I'm hot and every guy wants to be with me but Michael needs to get over it. I mean I did. "Alright Michael your on the floor," I said and handed him the extra pillow from my bed and the sheets I wouldn't sleep on because they are dirty. "And Steven your in the other bed," I told them. "Now its time for bed!" Michael groaned but Steven had a smile on from ear to ear. I hit the lights off and settled into bed.
Around one in the morning I felt someone crawl into bed with me. Ugh it has to be Michael. I kicked him in his leg and he let out a whimper. It was definitely Michael. "Michael!" I hissed. "Get out of my bed!" "Damn it Jackie, I'm cold!" he whispered loudly. "Get out!" I said and kicked him again. He finally got the message and crawled out of bed. A few hours later I heard Steven fighting with him and Michael ended up falling between our two beds and then he didn't try to get into our beds again.
I got changed in the bathroom but kept the door locked. The guys piled the entire luggage in the car and Donna was going to get breakfast. This was going to be a long day traveling. Annette was coming with us so I was probably going to have to sit on Steven's lap not that I minded. Steven and I had the best day in a long time together. We joked around and he actually helped me pick stuff out so un-Zen of him. He carried my bags and held my hand. He was the total gentleman; I was starting to forgive him slowly but surely. I had a little more trust in him then I did when we started the trip. I was kind of angry that Annette found her way back to us. I'm not jealous of her at all I'm just angry that she dumped Michael and he came running back to me. Just like all the others, he would cheat on me and then come back. It was because I was always willing to take him back but this time I'm not. He hurt me to bad there's no way I could take him back. He passed the point of no return. I was scared because at first I thought Steven had followed in his footsteps but he is nothing like Michael and I'm starting to see that.
I fixed my hair and put on my make up. "Jackie are you coming or are you gonna stay in there and put your make up on all day?" Donna asked. "I just want to look good. It wouldn't hurt if you put on a little bit of make up you lumberjack," I responded. "Say that again and I'll throw out your food," She said.
I walked back into my room and sat on the bed to eat the greasy croissant with eggs and bacon on it. I only ate half because I couldn't risk gaining weight over a fat filled meal like this. This is why I hate fast food there's so much calories. I have to look good in my bikini. I was about to throw away the heart attack chow when Donna told me not to waste food if you could call it that and give it to one of the guys.
We walked out to the Cruiser. Fez was driving this time and Annette was sitting up front with him. To try to make me jealous again Michael sat on the other side of Annette, Eric and Steven where already in the back. Donna got in forcing Eric into the center and I went around to the other door. I sat down on Steven's lap and he shut the door. I sat the trash on Eric's lap. "What's this?" He asked. "A 1000 Calorie Croissant," I said simply. "You could afford to gain a few pounds," "And you could afford to be nicer" He retorted. Fez peeled out of the parking lot. "Hey Jackie why didn't you come sit on my lap? There's more room up here anyway," Michael called to me. "Kelso!" Steven called to Michael. Michael turned around. "You got something on your nose," Steven said to Michael. "Where?" He asked and stared to rub his nose. "Hold on man your missing it," He said and put his finger up by the bridge of his nose and pretended to get bumped in the arm and poked Michael in the eye. "Gosh Hyde! You got to be careful!" He said and turned around. This was obliviously lost on him and we began to laugh at him. "So did you all hear?" Eric asked. "What?" I turned to look at him. "Annette lost her virginity," He said. "To who?" I scrunched up my face. How could she? Michael was in the room with us. Unless she got a quickie before we left. But then again any time Michael has sex he does it in less then a minute. "To me!" Fez cheered in the front. "Fez, that was suppose to be a secret," She said a little angry. "I'm sorry my sweet. I'll make it up to you," He said. "I'll give all my candy to you," Her face brightened up. "Okay," Steven and I began to laugh. How dumb could she be?
We drove for a few more hours before we found a hotel in San Francisco. We unpacked the car and got hotel rooms. This time Eric and Donna got a room, Steven and I got a room, and Fez, Kelso and Annette got a room. This did not make Fez to happy. "Alright lets change into our bathing suits and meet down here in fifteen minutes so we can go to the beach," Tour Guide Donna said.
Steven helped carry my bags to our room. He even let me have the bed by the window and he let me change in privacy. This whole gentleman thing must have gone to his head. Not that I mind its just odd how un-Zen like he has been the last couple of days. I came out of the bathroom in my Red Bikini and red skirt to cover my bikini bottoms. Steven's mouth dropped a little bit like when I came out in that small nightgown. I just laughed and he picked up our towels and we left. He held my hand down to the lobby. I didn't mind, actually I was kind of happy because it was comforting. The hotel staff couldn't hit on me if they saw me holding his hand.
Michael's jaw dropped when he saw me but I looked at Annette she had on a blue string bikini, that slut! I looked at Steven but he just rolled his eyes. We piled into the cruiser and Steven put his hand on my back to hold on to me more. Aww he's too sweet. Fez and Kelso bickered about who got to put suntan lotion on Annette and Eric drove. Donna just kept smiling at Eric. They were starting to make me sick. Eric bought her a typewriter for god's sakes! Its not like a diamond ring which she already has and its not flowers or anything. What would you want a typewriter for? That's just silly.
When we got to the beach we walked around for along time until I found a good spot where I could get an even tan. I laid my towel out and Steven rolled his next to mine. Donna and Eric laid a few feet away and Annette laid her towel on the other side of me surprisingly. She said she wanted an even tan too. Michael and Fez fought for what seemed like an eternity about Annette but finally Michael said "Well at least someone had sex with her," and then they went off to go swim. Michael wanted to use Fez as a surfboard what a dumbass. Steven rubbed a low sun lotion number on my back as I got the front. Soon Eric took Steven to build a sand castle of some building in star wars. Though I know Steven really didn't want to go he knew I was probably not in the mood to talk since I was tanning. Annette tried to start a conversation with me but I just set my egg timer and let myself fall asleep.
I woke up to Michael splashing water at me. I started screaming. I still had five minutes to go before I had to flip over. He and Fez were playing with a beach ball and they ended up hitting a woman in the head. She threw the ball back at them and they didn't apologize so I got up from my tanning to apologize for them I know that's very un-Jackie like but this woman was gorgeous and I wanted to know what she did to keep her tan. "I'm really sorry about them," I said pointing to Michael and Fez. "They can be really childish sometimes," The woman looked up at me. First she started to squint but then she looked at me and then looked down into her lap where her magazine was to continue reading. Then it finally dawned on me who this woman was. "Mom?" I asked. "Jackie?" The lady asked loudly. Now all my friends stopped doing whatever they were doing. "No Hyde leave her alone," I heard Donna call to him behind me. "Come on let's move over a little bit to the left," Eric said moving farther away from us. "Mom!" I continued. "Where have you been?" "In the Bahamas and Ft. Lauderdale. I have just been on the move Jackie! So many places to see so little time!" She said like her normal self. "But mom! Dad's still in jail," I told her. "I talked to his lawyer. You did a good job of taking care of the finances," She smiled weakly. "But Mom." I began but she cut me off. She started to pick up her stuff. She was leaving. She was running out on me like she did before. I followed her, I wasn't gonna let her go so easily this time. She can't just run out on me again. Not after what she put me through last time. I could careless if she thought I took care of the finances well. I needed her at home. I needed her to be a good mother. Something she never mastered over the years. I had promised myself the day I called her and she said she wasn't coming back that I wouldn't ever do that to my kids. I would never runaway.
I followed her into a bar; her favorite past time was drinking. I think my father actually drove her to it because she was so bored at home. Everything was catered to her every need and she had nothing better to do but drink away her depression. She sat down on an empty bar stool the bar was pretty deserted but it was only two in the afternoon so not to many people would be here anyway. I sat down next to her. She stared straight ahead of her and ordered vodka. She wouldn't look at me because I was her mistake; I was the thing she was running away from. If I wasn't here she might have went back home to get my dad out of jail. But I was here and she didn't want to be near me. "Why Mom?" I finally demanded. I wanted to hear it from her. If she told me I would never bother her again. I sat there for a few minutes waiting for her answer. She had a blank stare on her face it reminded me of her postcards. Mostly blank except her signature. Like I was supposed to remember that she was my mom like I was just suppose to love her because she was my mom. But I didn't love her anymore. She just existed and now I was here with her. I felt nothing but remorse for her. Because she was in a loveless marriage and I don't think she'll ever experience love like I have. I was actually the lucky one here. She took her drink and left. She didn't even say goodbye she just left. I sat there a few seconds myself. Just thinking about how I made a huge mistake by breaking up with Steven because he actually loved me. He might be the only one who ever loved me.
The hand on my shoulder startled me and I turned around to see Steven. He sat down next to me. "Hi Jackie," He said softly. "Steven," I said. I was amazed I hadn't cried. "Look I'm really sorry about your mom," He said. "Don't be sorry, everyone's always sorry," I told him. "Yeah. I know what you mean," he said.
And that's when it hit me. I had forgotten he went through the same exact thing that I had gone through only three more times. I couldn't take the hurt anymore and I began to cry. I didn't want to cry but I did and I wasn't afraid to show it. He looked at me for a second and then did something that I would never think would happen. Not in a million years. He took off his sunglasses and handed them to me. I picked them up carefully in my hands. "I want you to have these," He said.
I was shocked. Something he had used to cover himself so no one could see what he felt. So no one could see the hurt or pain he had to endure. He thought he was saving everyone from the pain but everyone had troubles of his or her own. "Steven, I love you so much," I said. "I love you too Jackie," He whispered and then kissed me. I will never ever forget this day. The day that Steven and I finally got back together. I was right actions do speak louder then words. He was willing to let the world see who he truly was. And he handed me the key.
Everything was going fine for Steven and I until Michael knocked on the door. We were talking about what we were planning on doing tomorrow when he intruded on our conversation. There was a loud pounding on the door until Steven answered it. He opened it all the way and Michael barged in. "Kelso what are you doing here man?" Steven asked angrily. "Eric and Big D kicked me out and so did Fez. And since you kicked me out last time you have to let me stay!" He yelled. "No I don't," He responded. "Oh Steven it's just gonna be one night, tomorrow we leave for San Francisco," I told him. I was a little mad he couldn't even be nice to his friend though I understood why. "Fine," he sighed. "Who's gonna sleep with who?" Kelso asked excitedly. "You are sleeping on the floor," Hyde told him. "Aww come on the floor isn't comfy," He whined. "But you'll try to feel Jackie up and I don't want to share a bed with you," Hyde explained. "Yeah and I don't want you sharing a bed with Jackie," Kelso thought for a second. "So you can sleep on the floor Hyde," "No," Hyde said. "Why not?" Kelso asked. "Because I'm stronger then you and you don't want your eye to be sorer," Hyde explained. "But my eyes not sore," Kelso said and then Hyde poked him in the eye. "Ow!!! That was my eye!" Kelso cried. "Enough!" I shouted. I'm so sick of listening to those two bicker! I mean sure I'm hot and every guy wants to be with me but Michael needs to get over it. I mean I did. "Alright Michael your on the floor," I said and handed him the extra pillow from my bed and the sheets I wouldn't sleep on because they are dirty. "And Steven your in the other bed," I told them. "Now its time for bed!" Michael groaned but Steven had a smile on from ear to ear. I hit the lights off and settled into bed.
Around one in the morning I felt someone crawl into bed with me. Ugh it has to be Michael. I kicked him in his leg and he let out a whimper. It was definitely Michael. "Michael!" I hissed. "Get out of my bed!" "Damn it Jackie, I'm cold!" he whispered loudly. "Get out!" I said and kicked him again. He finally got the message and crawled out of bed. A few hours later I heard Steven fighting with him and Michael ended up falling between our two beds and then he didn't try to get into our beds again.
I got changed in the bathroom but kept the door locked. The guys piled the entire luggage in the car and Donna was going to get breakfast. This was going to be a long day traveling. Annette was coming with us so I was probably going to have to sit on Steven's lap not that I minded. Steven and I had the best day in a long time together. We joked around and he actually helped me pick stuff out so un-Zen of him. He carried my bags and held my hand. He was the total gentleman; I was starting to forgive him slowly but surely. I had a little more trust in him then I did when we started the trip. I was kind of angry that Annette found her way back to us. I'm not jealous of her at all I'm just angry that she dumped Michael and he came running back to me. Just like all the others, he would cheat on me and then come back. It was because I was always willing to take him back but this time I'm not. He hurt me to bad there's no way I could take him back. He passed the point of no return. I was scared because at first I thought Steven had followed in his footsteps but he is nothing like Michael and I'm starting to see that.
I fixed my hair and put on my make up. "Jackie are you coming or are you gonna stay in there and put your make up on all day?" Donna asked. "I just want to look good. It wouldn't hurt if you put on a little bit of make up you lumberjack," I responded. "Say that again and I'll throw out your food," She said.
I walked back into my room and sat on the bed to eat the greasy croissant with eggs and bacon on it. I only ate half because I couldn't risk gaining weight over a fat filled meal like this. This is why I hate fast food there's so much calories. I have to look good in my bikini. I was about to throw away the heart attack chow when Donna told me not to waste food if you could call it that and give it to one of the guys.
We walked out to the Cruiser. Fez was driving this time and Annette was sitting up front with him. To try to make me jealous again Michael sat on the other side of Annette, Eric and Steven where already in the back. Donna got in forcing Eric into the center and I went around to the other door. I sat down on Steven's lap and he shut the door. I sat the trash on Eric's lap. "What's this?" He asked. "A 1000 Calorie Croissant," I said simply. "You could afford to gain a few pounds," "And you could afford to be nicer" He retorted. Fez peeled out of the parking lot. "Hey Jackie why didn't you come sit on my lap? There's more room up here anyway," Michael called to me. "Kelso!" Steven called to Michael. Michael turned around. "You got something on your nose," Steven said to Michael. "Where?" He asked and stared to rub his nose. "Hold on man your missing it," He said and put his finger up by the bridge of his nose and pretended to get bumped in the arm and poked Michael in the eye. "Gosh Hyde! You got to be careful!" He said and turned around. This was obliviously lost on him and we began to laugh at him. "So did you all hear?" Eric asked. "What?" I turned to look at him. "Annette lost her virginity," He said. "To who?" I scrunched up my face. How could she? Michael was in the room with us. Unless she got a quickie before we left. But then again any time Michael has sex he does it in less then a minute. "To me!" Fez cheered in the front. "Fez, that was suppose to be a secret," She said a little angry. "I'm sorry my sweet. I'll make it up to you," He said. "I'll give all my candy to you," Her face brightened up. "Okay," Steven and I began to laugh. How dumb could she be?
We drove for a few more hours before we found a hotel in San Francisco. We unpacked the car and got hotel rooms. This time Eric and Donna got a room, Steven and I got a room, and Fez, Kelso and Annette got a room. This did not make Fez to happy. "Alright lets change into our bathing suits and meet down here in fifteen minutes so we can go to the beach," Tour Guide Donna said.
Steven helped carry my bags to our room. He even let me have the bed by the window and he let me change in privacy. This whole gentleman thing must have gone to his head. Not that I mind its just odd how un-Zen like he has been the last couple of days. I came out of the bathroom in my Red Bikini and red skirt to cover my bikini bottoms. Steven's mouth dropped a little bit like when I came out in that small nightgown. I just laughed and he picked up our towels and we left. He held my hand down to the lobby. I didn't mind, actually I was kind of happy because it was comforting. The hotel staff couldn't hit on me if they saw me holding his hand.
Michael's jaw dropped when he saw me but I looked at Annette she had on a blue string bikini, that slut! I looked at Steven but he just rolled his eyes. We piled into the cruiser and Steven put his hand on my back to hold on to me more. Aww he's too sweet. Fez and Kelso bickered about who got to put suntan lotion on Annette and Eric drove. Donna just kept smiling at Eric. They were starting to make me sick. Eric bought her a typewriter for god's sakes! Its not like a diamond ring which she already has and its not flowers or anything. What would you want a typewriter for? That's just silly.
When we got to the beach we walked around for along time until I found a good spot where I could get an even tan. I laid my towel out and Steven rolled his next to mine. Donna and Eric laid a few feet away and Annette laid her towel on the other side of me surprisingly. She said she wanted an even tan too. Michael and Fez fought for what seemed like an eternity about Annette but finally Michael said "Well at least someone had sex with her," and then they went off to go swim. Michael wanted to use Fez as a surfboard what a dumbass. Steven rubbed a low sun lotion number on my back as I got the front. Soon Eric took Steven to build a sand castle of some building in star wars. Though I know Steven really didn't want to go he knew I was probably not in the mood to talk since I was tanning. Annette tried to start a conversation with me but I just set my egg timer and let myself fall asleep.
I woke up to Michael splashing water at me. I started screaming. I still had five minutes to go before I had to flip over. He and Fez were playing with a beach ball and they ended up hitting a woman in the head. She threw the ball back at them and they didn't apologize so I got up from my tanning to apologize for them I know that's very un-Jackie like but this woman was gorgeous and I wanted to know what she did to keep her tan. "I'm really sorry about them," I said pointing to Michael and Fez. "They can be really childish sometimes," The woman looked up at me. First she started to squint but then she looked at me and then looked down into her lap where her magazine was to continue reading. Then it finally dawned on me who this woman was. "Mom?" I asked. "Jackie?" The lady asked loudly. Now all my friends stopped doing whatever they were doing. "No Hyde leave her alone," I heard Donna call to him behind me. "Come on let's move over a little bit to the left," Eric said moving farther away from us. "Mom!" I continued. "Where have you been?" "In the Bahamas and Ft. Lauderdale. I have just been on the move Jackie! So many places to see so little time!" She said like her normal self. "But mom! Dad's still in jail," I told her. "I talked to his lawyer. You did a good job of taking care of the finances," She smiled weakly. "But Mom." I began but she cut me off. She started to pick up her stuff. She was leaving. She was running out on me like she did before. I followed her, I wasn't gonna let her go so easily this time. She can't just run out on me again. Not after what she put me through last time. I could careless if she thought I took care of the finances well. I needed her at home. I needed her to be a good mother. Something she never mastered over the years. I had promised myself the day I called her and she said she wasn't coming back that I wouldn't ever do that to my kids. I would never runaway.
I followed her into a bar; her favorite past time was drinking. I think my father actually drove her to it because she was so bored at home. Everything was catered to her every need and she had nothing better to do but drink away her depression. She sat down on an empty bar stool the bar was pretty deserted but it was only two in the afternoon so not to many people would be here anyway. I sat down next to her. She stared straight ahead of her and ordered vodka. She wouldn't look at me because I was her mistake; I was the thing she was running away from. If I wasn't here she might have went back home to get my dad out of jail. But I was here and she didn't want to be near me. "Why Mom?" I finally demanded. I wanted to hear it from her. If she told me I would never bother her again. I sat there for a few minutes waiting for her answer. She had a blank stare on her face it reminded me of her postcards. Mostly blank except her signature. Like I was supposed to remember that she was my mom like I was just suppose to love her because she was my mom. But I didn't love her anymore. She just existed and now I was here with her. I felt nothing but remorse for her. Because she was in a loveless marriage and I don't think she'll ever experience love like I have. I was actually the lucky one here. She took her drink and left. She didn't even say goodbye she just left. I sat there a few seconds myself. Just thinking about how I made a huge mistake by breaking up with Steven because he actually loved me. He might be the only one who ever loved me.
The hand on my shoulder startled me and I turned around to see Steven. He sat down next to me. "Hi Jackie," He said softly. "Steven," I said. I was amazed I hadn't cried. "Look I'm really sorry about your mom," He said. "Don't be sorry, everyone's always sorry," I told him. "Yeah. I know what you mean," he said.
And that's when it hit me. I had forgotten he went through the same exact thing that I had gone through only three more times. I couldn't take the hurt anymore and I began to cry. I didn't want to cry but I did and I wasn't afraid to show it. He looked at me for a second and then did something that I would never think would happen. Not in a million years. He took off his sunglasses and handed them to me. I picked them up carefully in my hands. "I want you to have these," He said.
I was shocked. Something he had used to cover himself so no one could see what he felt. So no one could see the hurt or pain he had to endure. He thought he was saving everyone from the pain but everyone had troubles of his or her own. "Steven, I love you so much," I said. "I love you too Jackie," He whispered and then kissed me. I will never ever forget this day. The day that Steven and I finally got back together. I was right actions do speak louder then words. He was willing to let the world see who he truly was. And he handed me the key.