Disclaimers: I don't own the 7H characters, song words taken from Mandy Moore's 'From loving you'

A/N - This is the last chapter folks, thanks to everyone who've reviewed (good ones and bad).

'I had you,

I had everything I ever needed

From that first look I knew I found heaven in your eyes

But who was to know,

The way it would go I have no regrets

Glad I let you in

Wouldn't have missed one single moment

I would do it all over again.'

Kaci had been gone 10 years, and for 10 years Simon had been miserable. Her father had been sent to prison for life, but Simon felt that he was in prison himself. Lucy had told him after Kaci's death that 'someday' the pain he felt would go. But Simon's 'someday' had never come.

''Cause I was loved

I was touched

And I learned what love is,

And I learned what love is

I was blessed

So blessed

'Cause i learned what love is,

I learned what love is

From loving you.'

"Dear Mom, Dad, Lucy, Robbie, Mary, Matt, Sam and David." his note began. "I'm sorry for the pain you're about to go because of me, but maybe your someday will come. Mine hasn't. "

'I held you,

I held everything I ever dreamed of

With that first kiss from you

All this world seemed all so right

But who was to see

The way it would be

I'll never forget

All the heaven we shared

And I'll thank God for every moment

Every moment that I had you there'

Simon continued his note, "I've been living a different life for 10 years, but I can no longer be who I'm not. When you look at me you might see me, but it's not. Just a person, who looks like me, walked talked and seemed like me, but it wasn't. The day Kaci died was the day I died, and it's time to put my shell to rest."

''Cause I was loved

I was touched

And I learned what love is,

And I learned what love is

I was blessed

So blessed

'Cause i learned what love is,

I learned what love is

From loving you.'

"You may think it's the cowards way out, but it's not. I want to be with Kaci, I want her with me. You may think by doing thing I've condemned myself to hell, but I've prayed to God, and I believe he's like you, he doesn't want to see me suffer."

Simon reached for the new bottle of anti depressants he'd gotten that morning. He took the bottles of water, and started devouring them.

Half way through the bottle he finished the note, "They said it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I think I'd rather have missed out on the heartbreak.

Love you guys

Simon"

He finished the bottle, and lay down waiting for death to come to him. He felt younger, and peaceful. A gateway of light opened, and Kaci appeared beside him; she took his hand pulled him to his feet. He looked into her eyes and saw himself, he looked 16 once more. He looked down to where he lay, and saw a stranger in his place.

Simon turned back to Kaci and kissed her, neither of them said anything. Nothing needed to be said as she led him into the light.