Mine Forever

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Hey, well I am deciding about how much of this story I should do. I'm not sure how many more chapters. Maybe you could help me out. I don't know…I hope to do as many as my abilities will let me without making it bad. I am happy with the out come so far. Thanks for those of you who reviewed. * hisses at others who didn't review* Please review!!!!!!!!! Oh and read my ending note…I have a question for all of you!

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She looked up at him. " If that's what you think, then I'll go." She said broadly. She turned around to leave.

" I can't stop you. It's not my place to, but so you know, there will always be a place that you can come home to. Just so you know that."

Rin continued to walk to who knows where. All she had with her were the clothes on her back, and a well-hidden knife. She disappeared into the depths of the forest. For the third time in her life, she was left on her own. What would she do now? With only the company of a metal blade attached to a well-designed handle and her self-prison, her mind.

' I hope I did the right thing, letting her go like that.' Inuyasha thought as he watched the last of Rin's figure fade away.

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Chapter 5: New Problems

Rin looked back only slightly to see last speck of red. She sighed and pressed forward. 'Why I left I don't know, but I had a gut feeling stirring inside of me; telling me to go. I guess I need… and want this personal solitude. I tend to think more that way, may that be a bad or good thing.'

After traveling all day, to nowhere in particular, she set up camp, alone. She grabbed her pack and got out her blanket. She placed the blanket over her put the pack under her head for comfort. She gazed up at the stars. ' What am I doing in this area again. I am only a mile away from… that forest.' She paused, and changed the subject to herself. ' I wonder where Jaken is. Maybe I should look for him. I don't know. Oh well, I'll drop it for now.' She closed her eyes and went to sleep.

" Hey what's this? A woman…alone without a man?"

" Yeah I guess so… does she have anything valuable?"

Rin heard the voices. She groggily moved to see who said that. Her eyes slowly opened and adjusted to the light. She saw two men. They shifted her direction at her movement. " Who are you?" Rin asked sternly with no care.

" Just a couple of friends." The first voice answered cruelly.

" Yeah and why don't you show your dear friends what's in that bag of yours, okay?" The second one demanded as her reached out for it.

" Why don't you get the hell out of my face and leave, okay?" She mocked. The second one grew angry and lifted her up by her thin throat and squeezed. " Insolent bitch! You'll pay for that!"

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You have a lot of nerve human." The greasy youkai said. " Why don't you get out of the water and do something about it."

She blushed. Then she angrily glared at him and replied, " You would enjoy that too much."

" Insolent bitch!" The greasy youkai yelled. He brought his hand up to slap her. She dodged it and punched him square in the face. " You'll pay for that!"

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"  Sesshomaru." She managed to choke out. She was not struggling, or crying. She hung there staring in his plain eyes, burning the soles of them.

Tears claimed to his eyes. " Wench, stop staring at me." But she didn't stop, she continued with no remorse, no care. He dropped her. He ran off in fright.

" Wait!" The other one yelled as he tried to keep up with the other one. They both disappeared in the forest.

Rin picked up her few things, extinguished the fire, and headed out. ' I think I will go see if Jaken is still around.'

She walked for a while and found the old camp. It still had its stuff up. She looked around and called for Jaken. Then, in an instant, she smelt something vulgar. ' What is that? It burns like hell itself.' She saw the source, smoke rose from behind the small hut that was placed up. She cautiously walked around. Her eyes grew unnaturally wide. " J… Ja… Jaken?" She cried.

Jaken had a metal pole skewered through his main body and was set on fire. His head was removed at put on the bottom of the pole, upside-down. His arms and legs were run through his own body. His eyes were placed in his mouth along with his ears. His blood boiled at the base of the fire and ran down what was left of his body. It was a heated puddle on the ground below him. The wood was turning to ashes from the immense heat. It was a horrific sight. Tears filled Rin's eyes. " Jaken." She softly cried. Her hands still covering her nose, and now mouth. She almost threw up then and there. ' Who could have done this to him? It was done recently, but why?'

A cruel thought than entered her mind. ' Well, its seems I better wear black all the time. Considering how many times in my life I will have to mourn for the dead. Good thing I did leave Kagome and the others, for they would be dead soon if I hadn't.' She looked up towards the smoky sky. "Sorry for whatever I did that made you so fucking mad." She yelled up to the gods themselves.

Rin snapped. Her tears continued to flow down her worn cheeks. After minutes of her mixed emotions she abruptly stopped in the realization of the matter. She got up off her soiled knees and wiped her few tears. She walked towards the sweltering flames, the light flickering in her face. The smell intoxicated the atmosphere; it made her eyes water. ' You don't deserve this Jaken. I will give you a proper burial.' She put her hands into the flames, ignoring the burning pain shooting up her arms. She placed her hand around the scorching metal pole. With one breath, Rin grasped the pole and yanked it up. Steam came from her hands as she continued to pull with all her might. Finally the pole released and she fell backwards; out of the hell's fury. The metal was burned into her hand. She pried it off and looked at her singed arms. The marking of the pole was engraved in her palm. The rest of her arms were ruined. The skin had broken and blood seeped out; some parts even burnt black. Her flesh boiled; blisters soon appeared. They would never be the same.

Rin looked down at the pole. As she waited for it to cool off, she grabbed one of Jaken's cooking utensils and started to dig his grave in the stained soil. When she finished she grabbed the now warm pole and removed Jaken's fried pieces. She reassembled them so that they were restored to their proper form, before when he was alive. Once she finished the disgusting assembly, she placed them in the grave carefully, ignoring her own pain. With each movement of her arms, the pain would shoot up. Her heart was over powering her mind, telling her to continue when she should have stopped. But, she continued to place each piece in the grave until it was the way it should have been. Rin put the dirt back in small, little grave. Rin ventured off to get flowers. She searched until she found some flowers worth of his grave. It was hard, but she picked the flowers. She walked back to his grave. Her arms hung towards the ground, sending the blood to flow onto the flowers. They were blood stained. She got two sticks of different proportion and she removed her hair band. Her hair limply fell, and swayed against her back. She attached the sticks together to make a cross. With the little strength she had left, she drove the stick into warm earth, as a marking. Her hands were blistered and hurt. They were dirty and untreated…they would soon be infected. She ran to the well and got a bucket of water. She poured it over her arms one at a time, screaming in agony in each contact with the water. Once the destroyed arms of hers were clean, she got her small white bandages out of her torn bag and wrapped them around each arm. She would surely be scarred for life, physically and emotionally.

She decided to stay there, at the old camp, just for a little while.

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Inuyasha left from the damp forest and headed back to camp. He reached the door. Only the wood blocked him from them. ' What will they say to me once they see that Rin is not with me? I guess no matter how angry they may get at me, I will have to tell them the truth to them about what happened to Rin. I still think that when I let her go, it was for the best. Here goes nothing.' He put his hand against the door to slide it open, but then it hit him. ' Kagome.' He thought. She kept him from going inside. His mind went haywire just thinking about her. Inuyasha imagined her on the floor weeping. She would surely hate him and leave to find Rin on her own. Then, she would never return to him. ' And… I would be alone forever.' He concluded his thoughts. He pulled his hand away from the old wooden door. ' Should I go in?' But almost as if someone answered it for him, the door slid open.

" Inuyasha! There you are. We were starting to get worried. We thought that you couldn't find…" Kagome cut off, her eyes grew wide with worry. " Where's Rin?" She asked slowly.

Inuyasha stepped back. He didn't know what to say. ' It's going to happen.' He thought. His hand started shaking.

" Inuyasha, what happened to Rin?" Kagome asked more directly.

The Inuyasha shifted slowly; his eyes were trembling. ' She's going to leave me forever.' He continued to think of the worst. He continued to back away. He wasn't sure why he did, but he knew what would happen. It was bound to happen in his mind. He was scared. Inuyasha found out was his fear was, just then, loosing Kagome.

Tears formed in Kagome's eyes. " Inuyasha…" She started, but couldn't get it out.

Inuyasha looked around. He noticed Shippou's eyes. They were always full of fury towards him, and they were even more now. Miroku and Sango knew something had happened, but didn't know what. They stared at him in puzzlement. Finally, the words chocked out. " She's…not…here." Inuyasha said warily.

" Is she…?" Kagome started, but Inuyasha quickly cut her off in her words.

" No…she left." Inuyasha said.

" How…are you sure?" Kagome said in between each whimper. The others just stood there, too afraid to say anything.

' This is it. This is where she is going to hate me…but…I must get her to still…be with me.' He looked down at the Earth. He formed a fist and squeezed with all his strength. His baring claws dug into his skin, exposing blood. The blood ran down his fists and onto the ground. It made small puddles, which Kagome acknowledged. She gasped at his sudden action. " Because… I let her go."

Kagome froze for a couple minutes, which worried Inuyasha even more. Suddenly, it seemed that the ground started rumble from underneath everyone's feet. Tears hit the Earth as they rolled from Kagome's eyes.

" How could you let her go?" She murmured under her breath. " HOW COULD YOU LET HER GO?!" She yelled, not even giving Inuyasha get a chance to defend himself.

Inuyasha took yet another step back, for he saw this coming. " She… wanted to go. I let her go, and I told her that…that…she was always welcome here… and…"

" AND WHAT INUYASHA? SHE CAN'T TAKE CARE OF HERSELF… SHE'S ONLY A YOUNG SIXTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL!" Kagome screamed. She started muttering words, constantly. All concerning Rin's well being.

" Kagome try and look at it from Inuyasha's point of view. Rin wanted to go…so Inuyasha had to respect her words and…" Sango said trying to calm her down.

" HEARTLESS HALF-BREEDS DON'T HAVE A POINT OF VIEW! THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEMSELVES!" Kagome screamed at the top of her lungs, immediately covered her mouth with her hands.

Inuyasha squeezed his fists even harder, leaving a gash in his palms. The blood now flowed out. His face after her words was horrific. He stumbled backwards. Holding back his own tears, he had too much pride to let them fall. He turned around and ran away; still letting the blood from his hands descend to the floor.

" No wait Inuyasha, don't go! Please I didn't mean it!" She ran after him. He stopped and she caught up with him. " Please!" She ran after him. He stopped and she caught up with him. " Please, don't go! He faced her; his eyes lost their golden brightness. They were a very pale amber color now. She stared deep in them; the changed made her cry. Little droplets started to fall from the sky. It seemed even the heavens cried at them. " Inuyasha, please, I was just angry and upset. I didn't mean to say the words I said. I'm so sorry, please forgive me."

He looked at her in disgust " Heartless half breeds aren't able to forgive." He stared daggers into her eyes. He jumped backwards, and up into the trees; never once breaking eye contact. He finally turned back around and ran out of sight.

Kagome fell to her knees and started to cry hysterically. His last words were ringing through her head.

" Heartless half breeds aren't able to forgive."

Kagome hunched up in a ball, lying on her side. She was so full of regret. Each syllable engraved in her mind; her heart.

" Heartless

half

breeds

aren't

able

to

forgive."

" What…have I done?" She asked herself. " What…. have…I…done?"

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 Hey! How was that chapter? Okay…I have a question for you! Okay… listen, the way things are going. I was wondering….

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What would you prefer: ~~  Inuyasha and Kagome ending up together? ~~ Inuyasha and Kagome staying apart? ~~~ Or should I make it really angst and do something truly evil? Which I won't tell you now.

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