Mine Forever

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Hey, up with another chapter. Good for me. Anyway, not much to say… so enjoy this chapter and PLEASE review / vote thanks! Oh and one thing always try and read my author notes…most importantly, read my ending author notes, they are the most important. Thanks lots!

~ Suraka-chan~

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Kagome hunched up in a ball, lying on her side. She was so full of regret. Each syllable engraved in her mind; her heart.

" Heartless

half

breeds

aren't

able

to

forgive."

" What…have I done?" She asked herself. " What…. have…I…done?"

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Chapter 6: Unworthy Pity

" Oh crap!" Rin yelled across the forest. She frantically searched her bag over and over. " My drawing book, I left it at that house of theirs. I need that, it means so much to me. All my art…I must go and get it." She picked up all her stuff and headed out immediately. She paused for a second, and looked back at the lonely grave and the old camp. ' It was good to come back for a few days. I am glad I did.' She thought.

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" I'm leaving!" Kagome yelled towards the others. " I will find Inuyasha and Rin on my own."

" Wait Kagome there is no need for that. We will gladly assist you in such a fickle journey. We will need Kirara's nose and you know it. Just let us assist you and…"

" No Sango, I need to do this on my own. I have my miko instincts and I will bring my bow and arrows. I have been crying for 6 days now, deciding to give them space, but this is all I can take." Kagome had been trying to convince her friends for sometime now.

" I don't know Kagome." Miroku started.

" I really don't care what you think of me doing this… because I'm going to whether you like it or not!" She demandingly stated. And with that she picked up her bag. She almost opened the door when she heard a most unnatural creak coming from Rin's room. Kagome ran in to see what it was. She saw a dark figure. Kagome grabbed the nearby candle, wax dripping on her weak hand and put it at the figure's face. " R…Rin?" Kagome screeched. She ran up and gave Rin a forceful hug.

Rin didn't give one back. She only watched in how stupid she could really be. ' She wastes all her time with this stupid happy-go-lucky emotion. I swear. It's so aggravating… but something is different about her.' She finally released Rin.

" Thank goodness your back, because at first I thought you were dead, but your not and I never thought I would see you again and…" Kagome continued to ramble on like that.

' I swear is she making any sense at all?' Rin shook her head and picked up her messed up drawing book. It was opened. Fury grew in her eyes. ' Who looked at this?" She rasped out of her hatred filled voice. " Tell me who looked at this."

" Well, you were gone, and I wasn't sure for how long. I wanted some clues to know where you went and so I looked. And Rin you're a very good artist." Kagome squeaked out.

" I told everyone to keep out of this!" She slowly got more serious. " How much of it did you look at?"

" Only the first 5 pages I swear." Kagome swore.

Rin looked over her a second to make sure she wasn't lying. She concluded that she wasn't. So she closed the book and walked past the groveling Kagome. It seemed she was leaving the house yet again.

" Um…hi Rin." Miroku said, noticing Rin walk past them almost as if they weren't there.

" Hi" She paused for a minute and looked at Sango, Miroku, and Shippou. " I'm leaving again, I have some unfinished business." Rin stated quickly. She didn't mind the three as much as she did Kagome. They didn't pester her by the hour.

" We're not here to stop you but…" Sango trailed off

" WAIT! Rin please don't go!" Kagome said, stumbling over the blankets and pillows of the room. " You can't go again."

" Kagome, this is my choice…even Inuyasha understood." Rin paused. " Where is he anyway?"

" We got in a fight, because he let you go. I called him a heartless demon, and said how he cared about no one. I didn't mean to, I just want him back, and I know he will never come back." Kagome babbled on. She started to cry. Sango patted her on the back to comfort her.

Rin was in disgust. " God, I can't believe you're that low and weak! You desperately need to change the way you look at the world around you. You are worthless, always depending on others to comfort you when you fall down. You'll have to make bigger decisions in life than this. Inuyasha isn't dead now is he? So why the hell are you crying. If he died than yeah, I would give you some leeway. But no, he's still alive, and it's your self-pity that is keeping you here. You wont have people by your side all your life. Get used to it. Your situation is sad, but it's not tragic. So don't think you deserve all this comfort your getting, because truthfully you don't. You will get no pity from me. You sicken me!"

" I know you lost Sesshomaru, and it isn't my place to talk, but it's been months now. Shouldn't you, be…okay by…now?" Kagome asked warily.

" Your right it wasn't your place to talk." Rin snapped. She paused for a long time. She continued, still very pissed off. " But, would you ever be okay if Inuyasha died? I don't think so…because if you react this way to him leaving, how would you act if you saw his bloody body in front of you, dying, saying his last words of love to you, love that you could now never share…and there was nothing you could do to save him. How would you react then Kagome?" Rin said seriously, tears claimed her own eyes.

Kagome didn't have an answer. She thought it over, and she didn't know how she would react. Rin was right.

" I'm going." Rin stated after another long silence.

Just then, Kagome had noticed Rin's arms. They were covered in dirty, red and brown bandages. " Rin your arms. What happened?"  You could here the worried tone ringing in Kagome's hoarse voice.

" Nothing." Rin spat sharply.

" Well something happened and I want to kn…" Kagome stopped herself and tired again. " Well, if you wont tell us, at least let me change those bandages and give you some new ones to bring with you.

Rin stood there a second, but she finally turned around and placed her arms out in front of her to Kagome.

Kagome smiled, but still wondered what had happened to her. Sango retrieved Kagome's medicine bag. " Thanks Sango." Kagome carefully picked up Rin's right arm. " This may be painful." Kagome warned.

Rin smirked and shook her head in understanding. Kagome grabbed the frayed end of the bandage and lightly pulled it up. She slowly unraveled the bandage from her arm. The wounds were major. Not to mention, the bandages were pulling up skin from the arm, and lots of dried blood. Kagome gasped at the damages. She reached the end and saw the palm of her hand. There was a huge pole indention in it. " Rin? What happened?" She tried asking again. There was no answer. Kagome figured that she wasn't going to answer so she continued.

" It was a dear friend to me. He was burned brutally, skewered through his body by a metal pole. His body was mocked, mutilated, and set on fire. I got his body out of the fire, but I refused to use water to drench him in it. If I had decided to used the water to extinguish the fire, the remains would have broken down and reduce to nothing but wet ashes. So in conclusion I reached in the fire and got the pole out." She looked away from Kagome, quickly ending the story. ' Not to mention I loved the pain it gave me. Sad thing is, pain is slowly becoming less and less enjoyable. I think I need to kick it up a notch.' She thought to herself. A wide smirk spread across her face. ' Fun.' She thought. " I got these minor wounds from it." She boldly said to Kagome.

Kagome looked at her Rin's unworried face. " These aren't minor wounds, they are major, Rin. You will have scars for the rest of your life from these, and the scar of the metal pole is forever engraved into you palm."

" I know this…but it was a small price to pay for what was done. I'm not a little girl anymore Kagome, you cant continue to treat me like one." Rin said sternly, watching everyone's response to her statement.

Kagome faintly smiled. " I know." She said, looking at Rin's now fully exposed arms. " It's just, I'm usually the one who is babied, and always protected. And since I still don't enjoy all the fighting that takes place, I try to do what I can. Like doctoring people, cooking, trying to make up strategic plans to get to place to place, and of coarse locating the jewel shards. I still fight, and I know I can, but it's not really where I belong."

Rin looked at her kind, honest friend. ' She is still blinded by innocence.' Rin thought, pity was given through her eyes. ' But, at least she belongs.' Rin looked away from Kagome. ' Where do I belong?' She asked her self, thinking of possible places, but nothing came to mind. ' I'm not a warrior, not a healer, not a nurturer, not a lover, not a plan maker, and not a comedian. What am I? Who am I?'  After Rin's thoughts had faded, Kagome had finished the bandaging.

" Here's a new set if you need them on your…journey." Kagome said wantingly.

Rin accepted them. " Thanks." Rin quickly said, as she ran out the door with her food, money, drawing book, and bandages she was given, not even waiting for a ' your welcome' from them.

" It seems she's gone again to who knows where." Miroku said, leaning up against the wooden wall, letting out an exaggerated sigh.

" Yeah." Kagome agreed weakly, watching Rin disappear in the distance. ' It would be easier to let her go, if I didn't worry about her safety…from herself.'

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Inuyasha ran his claws slowly and lightly across his skin. He then let tears flow down. " How I crave you Kagome. Oh how I crave you Kagome…you and your delicious blood." He sharply stabbed his claws into his own arm. Bloody seeped out. " What a lovely color, crimson is. I want more. I need more of this red paradise." His tears quickly dried up. The blood flowed down his arm and landed on the tree trunk that he was sitting on. Inuyasha lifted his arm up to his mouth, and he licked the wound clean until all the blood was gone from his faintly colored skin. " Fun." He whispered with a wicked smile broadly plastered across his blood stained lips.  " Fun, indeed."

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Okay! How was the chapter? Ha ha ha ha ha ha! Inuyasha is getting creepy…which reminds me. MORE VOTES. THE VOTING IS STILL GOING ON! YOU CAN CHANGE A VOTE…OR VOTE AGAIN…I DON'T CARE, ITS WHAT YOU THE READERS WANT!  What will it be? Here are the results so far… lol sorry I couldn't help sounding like a game show host…they are so funnily stupid. Is funnily a word? Ha yes it is!!!! Wooohooo! Oh well…fun…lol. Okay, but here is the tallies so far:

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Inuyasha and Kagome get together in the end – 7

Inuyasha and Kagome end up apart – 0

And me doing something truly evil – 4

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