Hidden Child

Chapter 3: Persistent Personality:

It had been three days since Admiral Janeway had left with the away team to begin negotiations on Romulus. Lee couldn't help but miss her because she was his only family and friend he had. Her friendly smile and soothing words seemed to calm Lee, and they reminded him of his mother.

Lee's post was with 7 of 9 in Stellar Cartography. He thought 7 was very beautiful and would try to begin conversations with her, but she would give him terse answers and remind him that he was there to work, not to socialize. This made him feel as if he were even more alone.

All the friends Lee had made before they entered the Neutral Zone had deserted him. He didn't like any of the social activities taking place on his off-duty hours and he was beginning to find some of the crew extremely abhorrent. Especially Tuvok because he was a Vulcan which to Lee's inner self was no better than a Romulan.

One day Chakotay called Lee into his office to discuss what he felt was insubordinate behavior unbecoming an officer. Lee sat quietly as Chakotay read a report Tuvok had given him. As Lee listened, he could feel another entity surfacing within him. He tried to suppress it, but all attempts at doing so had been unsuccessful.

"That bloody rotten Vulcan, he is exactly like the Romulans I despise. Why should I treat him with respect when he thinks humans are fodder?" Lee heard himself yell at Chakotay.

Chakotay looked in disbelief at Lee and confined him to his quarters until further notice. He realized this was not the man Admiral Janeway had recommended to him. He was not the eager boy Chakotay remembered the first week of this mission either. There were changes Chakotay couldn't explain and he knew the personality he just witnessed was very dangerous.

They day Admiral Janeway returned from Romulus for a brief respite, Chakotay notified her of the developments in Lee's behavior. He told her that he had confined Lee to his quarters until further notice which he could tell did not settle with Kathryn at all.

Kathryn had a hard time ingesting the information Chakotay had given her, but she requested Lee be put under her supervision until the cause of the behavior could be found. Chakotay agreed reluctantly to let Lee go back to work, and gave him privileges to Janeway's quarters only.

Kathryn decided she needed to see this behavior for herself and requested Lee's presence for dinner. As Lee was in the shower, he wondered if he would fall into the pompous behavior he had shown while with Captain Chakotay.

As Lee left the shower, he looked at himself in the mirror. He admired his strong muscular body as if it were the first time he had ever seen it. He saw his ruffled brown hair and deep blue green eyes staring out at him and thought to himself, "Yes, I am quite handsome now, even regal looking." Then the face in the mirror changed and said "I am Shinzon of Remus, we are one and we are bred to conquer this ship." Lee saw his reflection give him an evil grin and then Lee knew he would be Shinzon this night with Kathryn and not himself.

Kathryn welcomed the person she thought was Lee at the door. She had decided to make her private dining quarters as comfortable as possible. She wanted Lee to feel like he was at home with family again. She had soothing instrumental music playing in the background and had replicated a very nice dinner for them.

After dinner, Shinzon told Kathryn he had never had chocolate mousse before, and he thought it was very good. He told her he liked all of the meal, but the dessert was definitely his favorite. He tried to be bashful like Lee would have been in this situation. He was relieved to see Kathryn smile warmly at him.

Kathryn then suggested they sit on the sofa where it was more comfortable to drink their after dinner coffee. Shinzon told her he preferred hot tea. Kathryn had the replicator make tea, and then coffee for herself. Kathryn was surprised at the request Lee had made for tea. He usually drank coffee the same way she liked hers, black.

They talked into the early hours of morning about the missions Kathryn and the crew of Voyager had in the Delta Quadrant. They talked about Lee's childhood, and all the years Kathryn had missed.

Shinzon decided it was time to become a little bolder. He leaned in close to Kathryn almost touching her cheek with his lips and whispered seductively, "Did you know you are a beautiful woman?"

This took Kathryn by surprise. She knew the person she was talking to was not the Lee she knew. His voice had changed from a Mid-Western American accent to a proper English accent.

Kathryn asked Lee if he had studied the file on Picard's encounter with his clone Shinzon. Everyone on board the ship had been told to read about Picard's encounter. Diplomatic ground with the Romulans was still shaking. Key personnel had been told it was mandatory reading, and Lee was one of those people. Kathryn needed to know if he was still following her orders.

Upon hearing Kathryn's question, Shinzon repressed himself back into Lee's subconscious. Lee could feel Shinzon's panic and he felt a little uneasy about the situation himself. Shinzon quickly relayed to Lee telepathically that he was afraid of the Admiral and they needed to leave now.

Kathryn continued probing Lee by saying: "You know just a minute ago you sounded a lot like Shinzon. In fact your mannerisms were exactly like the video clips we have on file."

Lee went on the defensive and said, "Did I? Should I shave off all my hair so you can see if I really am Shinzon in disguise?"

Kathryn quickly apologized knowing she had hurt Lee deeply. As Lee got up to leave, Kathryn decided to mention the meeting he had had with Chakotay. "Now Lee, I know about your meeting with Chakotay and the complaint Tuvok has filed. Know that I don't tolerate this behavior and any continuation of the behavior will get you demoted to crewman."

Lee looked at Kathryn solemnly and promised her he would not behave like that again. He gave Kathryn a peck on the cheek and thanked her for a wonderful evening.

As Lee walked into his quarters he we straight to his mirror and told Shinzon to show himself. Lee was extremely angry about disappointing Kathryn and wanted to threaten Shinzon with telling the Doctor everything. After several minutes of waiting, he gave up on Shinzon appearing and went to bed. When Lee fell asleep, Shinzon awoke contemplating what his next move should be in conquering Voyager for his own purposes.

Shinzon decided his first goal was to learn about human relationships--an how to use them as an emotional weapon. He looked through all the databases he could find on the subject and decided his best learning experience would be to create a simulation on the holodeck.

Shinzon decided to create the woman in his program based on Deanna Troi. He pulled all the archival information and fed it into the parameters of his character. He also added the memories he had of his encounters with her. He made sure the program was secured even from Tuvok and walked through the doors.

Deanna looked at him in innocent wonder. She didn't recognize Shinzon because of Lee's appearance. She wondered why this man had walked into her quarters with out her consent.

"I have forgotten how beautiful she is," Shinzon thought as he moved towards her.

Deanna backed away with a look of sudden recognition. She had briefly scanned this stranger to find out what he wanted, and found herself looking into Shinzon's mind.

"Yes, she fears me exactly as I remember." Shinzon thought. He smiled at her with a look of satisfaction at cornering his prey. You have no where to run Deanna. No one knows you're in here for my amusement. In fact no one knows I'm aboard this ship but you. Oh, don't try to use your communicator, it isn't working."

"Why are you here? You're dead." Deanna said fearfully.

"I am here to be with you. I am here to experience what it is like to enjoy human companionship."

"You think because you have made me that I will be with you? I would rather die!" Deanna yelled at Shinzon.

"Oh Deanna, you are perceiving me all wrong, I want your help." He said devilishly. "Besides you could die, or I could kill you a thousand times, but when I want you will always be here for me. I will bring you back as often as I have to until my knowledge of humans is complete."

Shinzon was directly in front of Deanna now and he brushed his lips against her ear as he encircled her against his body. "I feel your fear. . . I smell your fear. . . and now I've tasted your fear and it is everything I expected." Then Shinzon kissed her full on the lips.

Shinzon returned every night and began to earn Deanna's trust. On the fifth night, he decided to set up a romantic dinner for the two of them, he knew this would be their last night together.

Deanna stood before him. She was dressed in a red sequined gown with her hair pinned up and tresses of curls accentuating her face.

Shinzon smiled and thought about how his flower had grown and bloomed. "Yes, he thought it is time."

They had dinner and afterwards, Deanna expectantly awaited her good night kiss, but Shinzon had other plans.

Shinzon leaned in to kiss Deanna, but as she reached out to return his embrace, he picked her up and tossed her onto the bed.

"What are you doing" Deanna gasped.

"I'm bored Deanna. Being a gentleman is not in my nature. Tonight you will learn my true nature, you will learn the true pleasure of the old Reman ways."

Shinzon ripped off Deanna's gown and as he did, Deanna tried to struggle against him, she tried to push him away. He grabbed her two hands into one of his own and caressed her soft abdomen.

"Be still Deanna." Shinzon whispered. "Enjoy this night because I will not be able to come back to you for a while.

Deanna looked at him and tried to struggle more. Shinzon kissed her and she slowly returned his passion. "I don't want you to leave me, I'll do whatever you want." She said in desperation.

Shinzon and Deanna ravished each other several times during the night. When Shinzon knew he had to leave for Lee's sake, he kissed Deanna and said "Thank you for teaching me such invaluable lessons over the past 5 days. It was a lovely experience, just not me."

Shinzon grinned and walked back to Lee's quarters with thoughts of his next target on his mind.