Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, or any of its characters, so don't sue me!
Pairing: Can be any you like.
Plot: Okay, this is not done in the form of a story, it is doen in the form of a letter. It is from one of the pilots, who is in love with another pilot. However, those feelings are not returned, so the pilot has to let the other pilot be with the one who he loves. This is basically a good bye letter, explaining why he is going etc.
The Letter
I've watched you. In a way I've always watched you.
I used to stay awake at night just to watch you, taking the following exhaustion as my punishment for daring to.
To someone who hasn't felt what I've felt this may sound like an obsession. And in a way I guess it is. I crave you the way a starving man craves food. And yet, I am still in control of myself.
Look but never touch.
That could be my motto, it so describes the way I am with you.
But I am not obsessed. I am in love. I am possessed of the same clarity all people are gifted when they fall in love. I don't delude myself into thinking you feel the same for me, nor do I begrudge you your freedom of choice.
If you fall in love I will not be bitter, I will simply be happy you are now happy. I may not be able to stop a part of myself from wishing it were me you loved, but I won't let it interfere with your happiness.
You recently told me of your feelings for another, asking me for guidance. You were drunk at the time, otherwise you would never have asked.
Despite the pang in my heart I urged you to talk to the object of your feelings, and try to make a go of things.
And I know that, despite your embarrassment over your behaviour, you took what I said to heart.
I know this because you are out with them right now. And I am glad it was me you turned to in your drunken fog. Because I know I played a part, however minute, in making you happy, and that is more than I had hoped for.
Another advantage of you coming to me was that it gave me time to think, and plan. I don't think I can stand to be around you and your love, so I will leave and get over you somewhere new. Despite this, know you can always depend on me for support, and who knows? One day I may return.
I am writing all this to help you understand why I have gone, as I will not be saying goodbye. I will leave this somewhere you will find it in a couple of weeks time. By then I will have made my arrangements, and you will be so deep in your new relationship that this news shouldn't rock it too much.
I can see you and your love returning now, which is just as well since I've said all there is to say.
And no, I don't begrudge you your happiness at all.
Well? Impressions? R+R please. I think that this really would be the ideal reaction to a love that is not returned. Unfortunately nobody ever acts, or sounds, that clear headed when love is involved, but you never know, maybe somewhere there is such a soul…
I'm not very good at tuning in to emotions, so this is me practising, in case I have to do something like this in A level english (I think it is A level anyway, I can't keep them straight in my head).
Hope you enjoyed it! J