As Buffy packed the things she needed for her car trip she looked around her room feeling all the memories of her and Dawn being yet again dragged to the top. She filled her suitcase with the clothes and personal items she needed, pushing all the memories from her mind. Her mother would pack the rest of her things, and have them sent to Angel's.

            "Buffy?" She heard a voice call from behind her. Upon seeing Angel she attempted to put on a smile but knowing Angel would see right through it.

            "Are you almost ready? You should probably get going, it's going to take you a while to get there." He said softly, wondering why she faked it and why she wouldn't let him in 'I don't blame her for not letting me in, I left her' the rational side of his mind screamed. When seeing that she still wore his ring pointed down, his other side screamed in betrayal.

She left late that night, deciding to drive at night and avoid traffic; there was no need for a teary façade with he mother because she knew that she would miss her. Buffy just drived with the radio turned all the way up, her own roundabout way of trying to blast the thoughts from her head. She thought she had succeeded when a song came over the radio. She listened to the song, some of the lyrics hit her hard.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

The words hit home like a ton of bricks; she remembered when Angel and her were like that. He was her world; literally she would have done anything for him. And now, they hardly ever talked, she shut him out completely.

I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

As she heard the last words of the song and finally let the tears fall. She cried for everyone Angel, Dawn, her parents, and the loss of herself after Angel left. She just drove, there was nothing else she could do but drive and pray Angel could once again put her life back together.

Authors Note: Wow about time huh wink* I kno I kno I'm a bad girl for not updating as often as I said I would but I am seriously swamped with school. But I still love you guys and I'm posting as much as possible. Some of you mailed me because I made a few plot typos and I went back and fixed all that.

Next: Buffy's Arrival in New York

Song: I Don't Want To Miss A Thing 'Aerosmith'