Differences
Chapter 4: The Truth
Letting go of her slightly, Jann Lee pulled away to see her face. She was gorgeous. Her honey eyes gleamed against the sunlight. They were curved and almond-shaped. He could see his own reflection within those chocolate, innocent beads of beauty. But he also acknowledged that if he looked further, he'd be able to see her soul.
However, before he could gaze into them any longer, his attention seeked the rest of her face. Her cheeks were a rosy pink that blended perfectly with her pale skin. Jet black strands of hair hid part of her face. He blew a puff of air to move it out of the way. With his fingers, he carefully tucked the few that stayed in place behind her ear.
He couldn't take it anymore. As short as they may have seemed, within the past two days, Jann Lee had fallen in love with this girl. He had to show her how much he cared about her. He wanted to destroy the wall that shielded his heart. And he was going to do it, now.
Jann Lee leaned his head in forward. Shutting his eyes, he gently pulled her to him. He was so close to finally being able to bare his heart and kiss her, but she stopped him. "No…" she whispered as she turned her head to the side. Jann Lee ended up placing his lips on her cheeks, rather than the designated spot he was hoping for.
"Huh? What wrong?" he asked, feeling bewildered and hurt.
"It's, well, I just can't do this," she replied to him. But if only you knew how much I want to.
"Oh, I get it," he declared solemnly. He stood up and Lei-Fang looked at his face. He was heartbroken and disgraced.
Oh, no. He thinks I don't feel the same way about him. He has no idea about how my heart beats rapidly whenever I see him smiling at me, or how empty I am when he's not near. I'm crazy about him! It's just that… Her thoughts were interrupted.
"You know, for a second, I actually thought I found someone that I could fall in love with," he sneered coldly.
His icy words burned her heart mercilessly. She wanted to run up to him, grab him, kiss his lips passionately, and profess her love to him. But instead, the only words that were able to escape the chains of her lips were, "I'm sorry…"
"Yeah, so am I," he said as he slowly walked away.
She didn't know what to do. She was completely lost. But during her thinking, a towel was thrown at her head and hit her directly on the nose. She was too shocked to even gasp.
"Cover yourself up. That towel is for your shower. Hurry up and get in the bathroom. Right after you're done, I'll call a taxi and they'll bring you to the hospital."
His last words hurt her as though a thousand knives had just stabbed through her entire body. She remembered the night when he saved her, "You'll never make it to the hospital on your own. It's too far. Stay at my house for the night. We'll take a taxi to the hospital first thing in the morning."
What was he planning on doing? Just let me go? We spend two wonderful days together, so wonderful that he almost kissed me. Now he acts as if I'm nothing to him. But wait! What if he's not acting? What if I really am nothing to him?
There was a long silence as she sat there, asking herself heartbreaking questions. "Well? Are you gonna get in there or what?" he asked sternly.
"Oh… yeah," she answered apprehensively, "I'll do that."
Once she walked into the bathroom, Jann Lee was left alone. He leaned his back up against the wall and slowly slid down until he reached the floor. He put his face into his lap, and burrowed his mind into a portal of sadness.
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The two walked down the apartment building and reached the heavily crowded streets. Jann Lee waved his arm in the air and called out, "Taxi!!!" Suddenly a wave of about six cars came soaring towards them. They each ended up in a drastic situation causing disarray through the entire city. But a lone, single, calm taxi slowly came up to them. Jann Lee opened the door and let Lei-Fang get in. He then shut the door and told the driver, "Take this woman to the closest hospital, please."
"Sure." He rang up the price of how much the fee should be and answered, "That'll be $32.67."
Jann Lee handed him the money and began to walk away. But before the driver could begin the ride, Lei-Fang called out, "Wait! Jann Lee, please come with me."
He turned his head around to meet the saddened, hopeful eyes of Lei-Fang. "Lei-Fang… I really shouldn't…"
"Please?"
He thought hard, but he knew that somehow, he had to fight the temptation. "No… I'm sorry, Lei-Fang." He kissed her cheek goodbye and turned around. He walked towards his building as her eyes began to water with held-back tears. Right as he passed through the doors of the building, the taxi cab pulled away from Jann Lee, his home, and the wonderful dreamland they shared together.
She looked out the main window and began to get lost in her thoughts. If only I told him why I was being so distant… If only he knew the truth.
Tears were forming in Lei-Fang's eyes. Through his mirror, he could see her face filled with sorrow and grief. "Honey, are you okay?" he asked kindly.
"Huh? Oh yeah, I'm fine," she asked, a bit shocked that he had started a conversation.
"Not to be rude or anything, but, was that young man over there your boyfriend?"
My boyfriend? Was he? It'd be nice, but after what happened earlier, I doubt it. "No…" She paused for a moment, "Why do you ask?"
"Oh, I just was just wondering because as we were pulling away, I saw him get a bit teary-eyed over there… and you seem to be doing the same thing."
"No, it's nothing like that. We're just going to miss each other. I won't be seeing him for awhile."
"Oh. So when will you be seeing him again? I'm a guy, and I really shouldn't be saying this… but he's pretty good-looking."
"Yeah, he really is," she said a bit curiously. This man seemed fairly homosexual.
"Hahaha! Don't worry hon. I'm perfectly straight. Have you seen Real World lately? Just like Ace says, 'I'm as straight as an arrow.'"
This guy is like fifty and he watches MTV? What has this world come to? "Right…" she replied, sounding a bit sarcastic. The man laughed at the girl and they spent the rest of the car ride in complete silence, leaving Lei-Fang locked in her thoughts and curious wonders.
I wasn't ready Jann Lee. I've been through so much and as incredible of a man you are, I just can't give myself up that easily anymore. I've been to hell and back. My heart's been torn to shreds and I was forced to face a pain the one could never imagine. I've grown wiser now and know that in order for love to be true and burn freely, it will take time to ignite that flame. We may have had sparks, but it's not enough to ensure that our fire shall live on forever. I'm sorry…
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Author's Note: Hey everyone! How was this chapter? Good or bad? I thought it was okay. Sad, yeah… but don't worry, I'm not even the slightest bit close to the end of the story. There's soo much that I'm going to put in here. I promise that the next chapter is gonna be GREAT! I've already got the perfect idea. So don't worry, this troublesome relationship is far from over. Don't forget to review! Bye!