Gaining Holds, Losing Grip
~Made of Glass [Trapt]
I don't know anything at all and I'm somebody else / It could take years to
find you, it could years to find myself / And I don't need to hear your
answer I just need you to see / That I think it's time to break down these
walls that we throw // Am I still breathing have I lost that feeling / Am I
made of glass 'cause you see right through me / I don't know who I am and
you're the only one who sees that / I can't ask these questions that cannot
be answered today / And even if everything goes wrong and we start to fall
apart / I will understand where you are, I will understand this by myself
/And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to feel / Like there
are no boundaries at all // And how far have we come, too far to throw away
the past / Will you be there waiting for me / I have to ask what we are, if
I ask today it just won't last/ So I'll be here waiting for you // Will we
ever feel this good again - Not today // Will we ever feel this real
again - Not today // Will you ever be mine again - Not today // Will we ever feel this real again - Not today ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Gourry dear, are you suire it's safe to uh, 'hang out' with her kind of crowd?"
"Well, I'm not really sure about hangin out with her friends, but wow Slphiel, she's so different, but, it's like she hasn't changed! Lina's still so tiny, but she must've grown a little bit cuz-"
"Uh, Gourry-dear, hasn't she, I mean, her personatlity changed? Isn't she more....hostile? Those kind of people usually are."
"Sylphiel, it's not like you to talk like this. Is something wrong?"
"Oh Gourry, I jsut don't want you to get hurt!."
"Ah, ya shouldn't worry bout me, and trust Lina, she's really sweet at heart, I think. Besides, her mom asked me to take her to the festival thing, so I think it'd just be us."
"That's what I'm afraid of." Slyphiel muttered to herself, she cared deeply for Gourry, no question about it. She didn't like Lina in so many ways, mostly about what kind of person Lina had become sincec Gourry had left, but, Gourry and Lina were just friends right?' ~*~*~ "Awe, but Lina, we were supposed to go together, now we can't have fun!" Xellos held her from behind around the waist, resting his head atop hers.
"Hey, ,she can just ditch him! Ohohohoho, you guys are really a gas, can't believe you couldn't think of that." Naga laughed at her friend's obvious stupidity.
Lina winced as the gut-wrenching laugh stung her ears, "I can't just leave him, he's on of my best friends."
"But we're your friends now Lina-chan, and besides, just look how much you've changed, how do you know he hasn't become some kinda goody-two-shoes who hates what you've become, are you ready for that kind of rejection my dear?" Xellos began to rock back and forth, kissing Lina's neck while pulling her closer to him.
Lina could feel his arousal, his heat against her, "Hey Xellos quit it will ya!" She tried to wriggle out of his grasp, only to be turned around as he continued kissing her on her face, lips, and neck, not caring who was around. She was so impossibly intoxicating when she looked like she cared about someone, at least, that's what Xellos thought. Lina continued to try and push away.
"Oi, get a room you two!" Naga was flustered. She had had a deep infatuation with Xellos, but Lina had quickly became her best friend somewhere around middle school, and her and Xellos had been together then. Naga wasn't a person to give in to much of anything, but when it really came down to her friends and those who she felt close to, not that she'd mention them to anyone, she watned them to be happy, although, Lina didn't look too happy right now.
Suddenly, a rather quiet, raspy voice called out to Xellos, "Hey, she said knock it off!" Zelgadiss ahd been a quiet observer, forced to 'hang out' with his brother for the afternoon, he had said nothing until now. Zel wasn't the type of person who liked to see anyone in pain either, especially not at the hands of Xellos, he had seen first hand what could happen if Xellos didn't have is way. Zel grabbed his arm and yanked it painfully away from Lina, allowing her an escape route.
Xellos flashed Zel a smile which held some kind of dark tinge to it, "Dear brother, you're such a spoil sport! We were just having fun." Xellos put on his best whiny voice.
"Hmph, didn't look like it." Zelgadiss just couldn't stand to see Lina be taken advantage of right in front of him. Some said he had a cold heart, but he could still be noble at times.
"Hey Lina!" Gourry sauntered up, seemingly oblivious to the situation.
Lina broke from Xellos's embrace, flashing Zel a grateful smile, causing him to turn slightly red. She ran up to Gourry, her scarlet eyes sparkling.
Zelgadiss grinned, letting go of his brother's arm, "Looks like your girl found a better guy."
"Shut up Zel, if you know what's good for you, you'll just keep outta this." Xellos glared through slitted eyes at Gourry, who now had his hands on Lina's shoulders and was smiling down at her, "And if he knows what's goo for both of them, he'll keep away from my Lina." His glare turned to something beyond ice as he witnessed the blonde man embraced Lina then walk away, leaving her somewhat dazed.
"Perhaps I don't know what's good for me, I won't let you hurt either of them. Just calm down, she's not your property, Lina's Lina, harder than the wind to tame, you can't control her."
"Shut up bunny-chan."
Zelgadiss sweatdropped. ~*~*~ "So, um, Lina, you wanna go to that festival thing with me? It'd be a great way to catch up on old times ya know?"
"Gourry, my mom already said we were going together, uh, not that I wouldn't go with you, cause I would, but ya know, it's just..."
Gourry smiled and put his hands on her shoulders, she was starting to talk too fast again, and it got confusing when she did that, "Don't worry Lina, I know what you mean." 'Kinda.' "I can't wait! It's been so long, I've really missed you Lina." Gourry surprised Lina when he pulled her into an embrace. As long as they had been friends, they had never hugged, not even when Gourry had left. As a matter of fact, Lina had bashed him over the head because he had forgotten why he was saying goodbye. It was always a good-natured thing between them, Gourry was always a little dense, Lina was uptight, so, they fit together like peas in a pod. Her mother had always said they'd wind up together someday, though Lina never believed her, Gourry's memory couldn't hold what he had eaten for breakfast, his nickname: Jellyfish. But, somehow, Gourry remained stuck to Lina, and they grew on eachother, that is, until the day Gourry had to leave, Lina never really figured out why, perhaps she'd ask him while they were 'catching up'. Speaking of which, Lina remembered Gourry in all his yogurt-for-brain- ness, he had never told her goodbye, they just sat there talking before he left. Now, to her it seemed as if he never intended on saying it, for she remembered that day and the look in his crystal blue eyes, that told her that he firmly believed that they would see eachother again someday.
Lina smiled, Gourry's naivete always held such optomism . She broke the embrace and looked up into Gourry's eyes, the new-found sparkle they held sent her heart beating rapidly and a blush creeping up her face with a new feeling. In his eyes, she saw something that ran deeper than simple friendship, a sort of admiration, awe, of HER, not just her physically, but very aspect that was Lina. 'Love? Woaw Lina, you're getting in way over your head! You're friends with him and that's all it's every gonna be.'
As Gourry turne dto leave, Lina chanced a last look at him, he jsut happened to have chancecd a glimpse at her and flashed her a throat- tighteningly innocent smile. 'Maybe...' she thought.
Turning back toward her group of friends, Lina's face fell at the look in her current boyfriend's face. 'Maybe not.' *** a/n: hey, nother chapter done. hopefully the plot is building a little. thanx to all for the reviews, and for those who have reqested me writing a xel/lina ficcie, i'm currently working on it but i want to get this one out first. again, thank you minna-san for the reviews!!! much love
**don't own any characters from slayers, and don't own the songs from trapt. you all should listen, they're really good, unless u don't like them...
again - Not today // Will you ever be mine again - Not today // Will we ever feel this real again - Not today ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Gourry dear, are you suire it's safe to uh, 'hang out' with her kind of crowd?"
"Well, I'm not really sure about hangin out with her friends, but wow Slphiel, she's so different, but, it's like she hasn't changed! Lina's still so tiny, but she must've grown a little bit cuz-"
"Uh, Gourry-dear, hasn't she, I mean, her personatlity changed? Isn't she more....hostile? Those kind of people usually are."
"Sylphiel, it's not like you to talk like this. Is something wrong?"
"Oh Gourry, I jsut don't want you to get hurt!."
"Ah, ya shouldn't worry bout me, and trust Lina, she's really sweet at heart, I think. Besides, her mom asked me to take her to the festival thing, so I think it'd just be us."
"That's what I'm afraid of." Slyphiel muttered to herself, she cared deeply for Gourry, no question about it. She didn't like Lina in so many ways, mostly about what kind of person Lina had become sincec Gourry had left, but, Gourry and Lina were just friends right?' ~*~*~ "Awe, but Lina, we were supposed to go together, now we can't have fun!" Xellos held her from behind around the waist, resting his head atop hers.
"Hey, ,she can just ditch him! Ohohohoho, you guys are really a gas, can't believe you couldn't think of that." Naga laughed at her friend's obvious stupidity.
Lina winced as the gut-wrenching laugh stung her ears, "I can't just leave him, he's on of my best friends."
"But we're your friends now Lina-chan, and besides, just look how much you've changed, how do you know he hasn't become some kinda goody-two-shoes who hates what you've become, are you ready for that kind of rejection my dear?" Xellos began to rock back and forth, kissing Lina's neck while pulling her closer to him.
Lina could feel his arousal, his heat against her, "Hey Xellos quit it will ya!" She tried to wriggle out of his grasp, only to be turned around as he continued kissing her on her face, lips, and neck, not caring who was around. She was so impossibly intoxicating when she looked like she cared about someone, at least, that's what Xellos thought. Lina continued to try and push away.
"Oi, get a room you two!" Naga was flustered. She had had a deep infatuation with Xellos, but Lina had quickly became her best friend somewhere around middle school, and her and Xellos had been together then. Naga wasn't a person to give in to much of anything, but when it really came down to her friends and those who she felt close to, not that she'd mention them to anyone, she watned them to be happy, although, Lina didn't look too happy right now.
Suddenly, a rather quiet, raspy voice called out to Xellos, "Hey, she said knock it off!" Zelgadiss ahd been a quiet observer, forced to 'hang out' with his brother for the afternoon, he had said nothing until now. Zel wasn't the type of person who liked to see anyone in pain either, especially not at the hands of Xellos, he had seen first hand what could happen if Xellos didn't have is way. Zel grabbed his arm and yanked it painfully away from Lina, allowing her an escape route.
Xellos flashed Zel a smile which held some kind of dark tinge to it, "Dear brother, you're such a spoil sport! We were just having fun." Xellos put on his best whiny voice.
"Hmph, didn't look like it." Zelgadiss just couldn't stand to see Lina be taken advantage of right in front of him. Some said he had a cold heart, but he could still be noble at times.
"Hey Lina!" Gourry sauntered up, seemingly oblivious to the situation.
Lina broke from Xellos's embrace, flashing Zel a grateful smile, causing him to turn slightly red. She ran up to Gourry, her scarlet eyes sparkling.
Zelgadiss grinned, letting go of his brother's arm, "Looks like your girl found a better guy."
"Shut up Zel, if you know what's good for you, you'll just keep outta this." Xellos glared through slitted eyes at Gourry, who now had his hands on Lina's shoulders and was smiling down at her, "And if he knows what's goo for both of them, he'll keep away from my Lina." His glare turned to something beyond ice as he witnessed the blonde man embraced Lina then walk away, leaving her somewhat dazed.
"Perhaps I don't know what's good for me, I won't let you hurt either of them. Just calm down, she's not your property, Lina's Lina, harder than the wind to tame, you can't control her."
"Shut up bunny-chan."
Zelgadiss sweatdropped. ~*~*~ "So, um, Lina, you wanna go to that festival thing with me? It'd be a great way to catch up on old times ya know?"
"Gourry, my mom already said we were going together, uh, not that I wouldn't go with you, cause I would, but ya know, it's just..."
Gourry smiled and put his hands on her shoulders, she was starting to talk too fast again, and it got confusing when she did that, "Don't worry Lina, I know what you mean." 'Kinda.' "I can't wait! It's been so long, I've really missed you Lina." Gourry surprised Lina when he pulled her into an embrace. As long as they had been friends, they had never hugged, not even when Gourry had left. As a matter of fact, Lina had bashed him over the head because he had forgotten why he was saying goodbye. It was always a good-natured thing between them, Gourry was always a little dense, Lina was uptight, so, they fit together like peas in a pod. Her mother had always said they'd wind up together someday, though Lina never believed her, Gourry's memory couldn't hold what he had eaten for breakfast, his nickname: Jellyfish. But, somehow, Gourry remained stuck to Lina, and they grew on eachother, that is, until the day Gourry had to leave, Lina never really figured out why, perhaps she'd ask him while they were 'catching up'. Speaking of which, Lina remembered Gourry in all his yogurt-for-brain- ness, he had never told her goodbye, they just sat there talking before he left. Now, to her it seemed as if he never intended on saying it, for she remembered that day and the look in his crystal blue eyes, that told her that he firmly believed that they would see eachother again someday.
Lina smiled, Gourry's naivete always held such optomism . She broke the embrace and looked up into Gourry's eyes, the new-found sparkle they held sent her heart beating rapidly and a blush creeping up her face with a new feeling. In his eyes, she saw something that ran deeper than simple friendship, a sort of admiration, awe, of HER, not just her physically, but very aspect that was Lina. 'Love? Woaw Lina, you're getting in way over your head! You're friends with him and that's all it's every gonna be.'
As Gourry turne dto leave, Lina chanced a last look at him, he jsut happened to have chancecd a glimpse at her and flashed her a throat- tighteningly innocent smile. 'Maybe...' she thought.
Turning back toward her group of friends, Lina's face fell at the look in her current boyfriend's face. 'Maybe not.' *** a/n: hey, nother chapter done. hopefully the plot is building a little. thanx to all for the reviews, and for those who have reqested me writing a xel/lina ficcie, i'm currently working on it but i want to get this one out first. again, thank you minna-san for the reviews!!! much love
**don't own any characters from slayers, and don't own the songs from trapt. you all should listen, they're really good, unless u don't like them...