Fearful Innocent
~Enigma[Trapt]
Do we know how to get the message across / We turn the lights off to find a
way out / It's hard to get through to grasp what was lost / Don't turn the
light off and leave me in the dark / Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding
/ I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you/ What are
you thinking, it's so misleading / Is it not for me to know, I think it's
just hard for you to show // We never spoke in the words that we want / We
turn the lights off to find a way out / We've never chosen to keep what
we've got / Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark // I thought
it would be nice to lie down and close my eyes / It never occurred to me
that I am already asleep // Don't be the one to be let go / Don't be the
one to be alone
****WARNING***** THIS IS VERY DARK AT THE END, NOT FOR KIDS OR THOSE OF
LIGHT HEART AND STOMACH!!!! you've been warned!
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Lina stormed inside, stumbling out of her platform, buckle up sandals,
confusing her sister who had been putting on a pair of silver hoop earings,
"Lina, what are you doing? And why are you home so early, it's not like you
to be home before I have to go out hunting for you?"
"Shut up, I don't need to say anything, nor do I want to." She seemed as if to be convincing herself more than telling her sister to but out. Lina was now struggling with the buttons on her blouse and the tie at the bottom causing her sister to raise her eyebrow in bewildered confusion. Finally succeding with the blouse, Lina flung it to the ground in a fury, wishing death upon it soon as it hit the floor.
"Lina, what's-" but Luna cut herself off when she saw her sister trip taking off her skirt on her way down the hall. Earrings long forgotten, Luna grabbed Lina by the shoulders and hauled her up, looking fiercly into her eyes, causing Lina to turn away, "Can I ask why you're stripping in the main hall?"
Lina shrugged her off, "Don't you have some date?"
"Yes, and I should be gone now, but you're here, which has got me confused, and I don't like being confused! Now what's going on?" Luna squeezed her shoulders painfully, willing to get the answer out of her somehow.
Lina, no garbed in only her under-garments, simply pushed her sister off, not caring how bad she'd get beaten later on, "It's none of your fricken business!"
"He ditched you didn't he? That doesn't sound like Gourry, maybe you misunderstood."
"GO AWAY LUNA! I said I didn't want to talk about it."
"No you didn't, you said it's none of my business."
"It shouldn't matter to you anyway!"
"What if it does?"
A honk at the door interrupted the argument, Luna's facial expression suddenly went to elated mode, "That's my date, I'll see you later ok? We'll talk then ok? And for goodness sakes Lina, get DRESSED! What if he were to come in here?"
"What would it matter, it's not as if he'd look at me, I have the physique of a ten-year-old remember?"
"Fine, whatever, just..." Luna couldn't think of anything to say, she was so annoyed with Lina and her self pity trips. 'Oh how I'd just love to pummel that child.' Luna rolled her eyes and left the house at the second honk of the car horn.
"Yeah, real nice, won't even come to the door, and she puts down Xellos for bein rude." Lina muttered to herself after Luna closed the door. Lina tramped down the hall to the last door on the left, not bothering to clean up her mess in the main hall, she'd probably get her ear chewed off by Luna when she came home but she didn't care, right now she was imersed in her own thoughts, "How could someone like Gourry stand someone up, let alone say what he said? Maybe I was too quick to assume, I mean, he IS a jellyfish brain, maybe he did forget? I feel so bad but, HE DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY THOSE THINGS! I miss him...Gourry..." She flopped down on her bed now dressed in an overly large white t-shirt that touched her knees. *** Gourry followed Xellos down a couple of sidestreets before he had become completely and hopelessly lost. 'I thought he was going to Lina's, maybe he was just going home?' "Oh well, gues I should go apologize to Lina for what I said, I don't know what came over me, but she seemed so hurt, she's never EVER been like that before. I never should have accused her of lying, I'm an awful friend."
'But she accused YOU of lying.' Gourry's innervoice spoke to him.
"I doesn't matter, she's my friend and I never should have-"
'Are you sure she's just a friend, doesn't seem like it to me.'
"Um, I'm pretty sure...."
'Sure she's not more? Like maybe a girlfriend?'
"Well," Gourry looked up at the stars in the sky, his vast, blue eyes, twinkling in time with them, making him look utterly enchanting. "she's a girl, and she's my friend so I guess so."
'You're an idiot!' The voice went silent.
"Wow, that voice sounds a lot like Lina sometimes." Gourry smiled. *** Xellos wandered around thinking, he knew the dumb blonde was following, he'd lose that airhead shortly. Besides losing Gourry, Xellos had alternate motives for taking such an outrageous route to Lina's house, Lina's inuition being one of them. Years of being Xellos's girlfriend had honed her skills enough to know when someone was following her, she had caught him trying to sneak up on her many times. Xellos would rather Lina not know directly about his plans. The second motive to the route would be that Luna'd be gone. He knew she had a date tonight, weedling the news out of Lina was nothing too difficult, he also knew that if Lina had a problem, Luna wouldn't leave until she knew what it was and Lina'd never tell her. The argument would last about this long then Xellos'd show up to make Lina feel better and help Lina with any bruises left by Luna. "Luna should be gone by now."
Xellos turned around and sure enough, Gourry was gone, "Ah noble Gourry, always out for Lina-chan's best interests, too bad though *chuckle* you're such an airhead at times." *** Lina tossed and turned in her bed, her scarlet eyes reflecting the rising moon in clear annoyance, "Great, can't sleep, simply wonderful. Yup.....soooooooooo bored." A rustle in the dark scarlet curtains from the wind through her open window caused Lina to realize just how lonely she was.
Struck with no particular inspiration other than that of a wild craving for coffee. Lina threw on her deep purple, satin robe, scowling at the fact that it went well down, past her feet, a hand-me-down from her taller, more endowed, sister. Lina had always meant to cut it down or just buy a new one but never got around to it. Her life, and Xellos, came first. 'Still, it'd be better if it were red, yes, a dark red, that'd be great.'
Lina took a moment to think back to what Luna had said about Xellos, "He's a domineering pig."
"He's not trying to control me right? I-I really love him." Instantly, her thoughts of Xellos turned to Gourry and she dispelled them almost as quickly, not before, however, regretting her earlier actions. *** "Ugh." Lina had made it to the coffee pot in the kitchen. She had quickly disposed of the pot full of old coffee which had acquired a sort of odd smell. Refilling the coffee maker with water, she went through the necessary steps to make the drink, not really thinking of anything. She didn't have long to wait until in her hand was a creamed, sugared, pot of caffinated goodness, "Not exactly a caramel macchiato but good enough for now." For some reason Lina felt as if she were being watched but ignored the feeling and took a sip from her mug.
"Oh but Lina sweety, I could keep you awake so much better."
*CRASH*
Lina gasped, almost horrified at the look in Xellos's eyes, haunting, almost as if he were a different person.
"Ya know, you're little friend Gourry is coming here to say he's sorry, but it's really not his fault is it? Little Lina's just a little insecure, but I'm here to remedy that."
"What do you want Xellos?" She suddenly didn't trust Xellos the way she had, something about him Lina now saw, shining through as something saved for just this moment.
"Why Lina, that...is a secret." He started to move toward her, his eyes closed as they often were, but a deceptively sweet smile plastered on his face.
"G-get out Xellos, I don't want anyone here right now!" Lina backed up into the cupboards of the kitchen, suddenly feeling very helpless and terrified under the smile. In a futile attempt to get away, Lina called out, "Someone help! Gourry!" not entirely believing it'd work.
Blinding pain swept through her as she was lifted off her feet and slammed into the cupboards lining the wall above the sink and stove. A moment of panic swept through her as she found she couldn't breathe, Xellos had a hold of her throat, suspending her just above eyes level. "No one's gonna help you now Lina, you belong to me. And I don't like how close you've gotten to that idiot!"
"FIREBALL!" Xellos suddenly flew back behind a massive ball of fire, unfortunately which did nothing more than singe him. Lina fell from her ealier position but ignored that as she massaged her throat, "You are a controlling pig aren't you?"
Xellos only grinned, "Why Lina-chan, I'm hurt, how could you think such a thing. By the way, aren't you forbidden to use your abilities?" With a simple wave of his hand, Xellos swept Lina up into the air, using a spell of some kind to hold her there while he walked slowly back up to her. "My, my, if looks could kill."
"Na, I'd rather do that with my bare hands."
"I'm hurt, really. You still don't realize that you'll never get the best of me Lina. You and I are two different people. My question is, how did you change so quickly, trying to impress me one minute and now, it's as if you want to kill me." By now, Xellos was mere centimeters from Lina, she could feel his heat radiating off him, a desire stronger than she'd felt from him, it made her sick.
"You're disgusting!" Lina spat in his face.
Xellos let out his anger toward his supposed girlfriend in a violent slap that sent her across the room, rendering her a large bruise up her whole right side and on her left cheek where his hand connected with her face. Dispite this, she stood, albeit unsteadily, "So much for love eh?"
Suddenly, he was on her, her back pinned against the wall, Xellos proceeded to tear the large shirt off her. Lina let out a primal scream that quickly muffled by Xellos as he delt her another blow across her face. Tears coarsed down her face as she tried countless spells to get him off of her, all of which were met with a kick, knee, or hit before they could take effect. Soon, she gave into hitting him when he proceeded to remove her bra and panties, "NO, LEAVE ME, JUST GO AWAY! You monster!"
Xellos began to get very frustrated at her, "You are mine and I'm going to make sure everyone knows it!" He pressed himself against himself against her, just so she could feel how much he wanted her. Noticing Lina about to wretch, he grinned, she was at HIS mercy.
Suddenly, all stopped as Xellos felt cold, sharp metal pressed against his skin. Dropping Lina, he turned around to face the tall, blonde man who had been holding a long, broadsword. Xellos grinned.
Lina crawled into a corner, unaware of her nakedness, watching in horror at the situation. She jumped, screaming slightly when she felt something touch her, calming down a little when she saw Zelgadiss's concerned face, holding his cream-colored cloak around her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ a/n: yes, dark. the next chapter won't be like this, but it will be slightly dark, but more like a darkish grey. please, don't flame me for this ending, i apologize to those who love xellos, personally, i do. this was merely part of the story. if you'd like a lighter xellos-centered fic, please be patient, i'm writing a xellos/lina one right now but i want to get this one done first. keep in mind this is a gourry/lina fic. oh, and amelia will FINALLY make her debut in this next chapter [gomen nasai all amelia lovers!] filia won't be in this fic, mostly because i don't really know her character that much right now, gomen nasai again!
"Shut up, I don't need to say anything, nor do I want to." She seemed as if to be convincing herself more than telling her sister to but out. Lina was now struggling with the buttons on her blouse and the tie at the bottom causing her sister to raise her eyebrow in bewildered confusion. Finally succeding with the blouse, Lina flung it to the ground in a fury, wishing death upon it soon as it hit the floor.
"Lina, what's-" but Luna cut herself off when she saw her sister trip taking off her skirt on her way down the hall. Earrings long forgotten, Luna grabbed Lina by the shoulders and hauled her up, looking fiercly into her eyes, causing Lina to turn away, "Can I ask why you're stripping in the main hall?"
Lina shrugged her off, "Don't you have some date?"
"Yes, and I should be gone now, but you're here, which has got me confused, and I don't like being confused! Now what's going on?" Luna squeezed her shoulders painfully, willing to get the answer out of her somehow.
Lina, no garbed in only her under-garments, simply pushed her sister off, not caring how bad she'd get beaten later on, "It's none of your fricken business!"
"He ditched you didn't he? That doesn't sound like Gourry, maybe you misunderstood."
"GO AWAY LUNA! I said I didn't want to talk about it."
"No you didn't, you said it's none of my business."
"It shouldn't matter to you anyway!"
"What if it does?"
A honk at the door interrupted the argument, Luna's facial expression suddenly went to elated mode, "That's my date, I'll see you later ok? We'll talk then ok? And for goodness sakes Lina, get DRESSED! What if he were to come in here?"
"What would it matter, it's not as if he'd look at me, I have the physique of a ten-year-old remember?"
"Fine, whatever, just..." Luna couldn't think of anything to say, she was so annoyed with Lina and her self pity trips. 'Oh how I'd just love to pummel that child.' Luna rolled her eyes and left the house at the second honk of the car horn.
"Yeah, real nice, won't even come to the door, and she puts down Xellos for bein rude." Lina muttered to herself after Luna closed the door. Lina tramped down the hall to the last door on the left, not bothering to clean up her mess in the main hall, she'd probably get her ear chewed off by Luna when she came home but she didn't care, right now she was imersed in her own thoughts, "How could someone like Gourry stand someone up, let alone say what he said? Maybe I was too quick to assume, I mean, he IS a jellyfish brain, maybe he did forget? I feel so bad but, HE DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY THOSE THINGS! I miss him...Gourry..." She flopped down on her bed now dressed in an overly large white t-shirt that touched her knees. *** Gourry followed Xellos down a couple of sidestreets before he had become completely and hopelessly lost. 'I thought he was going to Lina's, maybe he was just going home?' "Oh well, gues I should go apologize to Lina for what I said, I don't know what came over me, but she seemed so hurt, she's never EVER been like that before. I never should have accused her of lying, I'm an awful friend."
'But she accused YOU of lying.' Gourry's innervoice spoke to him.
"I doesn't matter, she's my friend and I never should have-"
'Are you sure she's just a friend, doesn't seem like it to me.'
"Um, I'm pretty sure...."
'Sure she's not more? Like maybe a girlfriend?'
"Well," Gourry looked up at the stars in the sky, his vast, blue eyes, twinkling in time with them, making him look utterly enchanting. "she's a girl, and she's my friend so I guess so."
'You're an idiot!' The voice went silent.
"Wow, that voice sounds a lot like Lina sometimes." Gourry smiled. *** Xellos wandered around thinking, he knew the dumb blonde was following, he'd lose that airhead shortly. Besides losing Gourry, Xellos had alternate motives for taking such an outrageous route to Lina's house, Lina's inuition being one of them. Years of being Xellos's girlfriend had honed her skills enough to know when someone was following her, she had caught him trying to sneak up on her many times. Xellos would rather Lina not know directly about his plans. The second motive to the route would be that Luna'd be gone. He knew she had a date tonight, weedling the news out of Lina was nothing too difficult, he also knew that if Lina had a problem, Luna wouldn't leave until she knew what it was and Lina'd never tell her. The argument would last about this long then Xellos'd show up to make Lina feel better and help Lina with any bruises left by Luna. "Luna should be gone by now."
Xellos turned around and sure enough, Gourry was gone, "Ah noble Gourry, always out for Lina-chan's best interests, too bad though *chuckle* you're such an airhead at times." *** Lina tossed and turned in her bed, her scarlet eyes reflecting the rising moon in clear annoyance, "Great, can't sleep, simply wonderful. Yup.....soooooooooo bored." A rustle in the dark scarlet curtains from the wind through her open window caused Lina to realize just how lonely she was.
Struck with no particular inspiration other than that of a wild craving for coffee. Lina threw on her deep purple, satin robe, scowling at the fact that it went well down, past her feet, a hand-me-down from her taller, more endowed, sister. Lina had always meant to cut it down or just buy a new one but never got around to it. Her life, and Xellos, came first. 'Still, it'd be better if it were red, yes, a dark red, that'd be great.'
Lina took a moment to think back to what Luna had said about Xellos, "He's a domineering pig."
"He's not trying to control me right? I-I really love him." Instantly, her thoughts of Xellos turned to Gourry and she dispelled them almost as quickly, not before, however, regretting her earlier actions. *** "Ugh." Lina had made it to the coffee pot in the kitchen. She had quickly disposed of the pot full of old coffee which had acquired a sort of odd smell. Refilling the coffee maker with water, she went through the necessary steps to make the drink, not really thinking of anything. She didn't have long to wait until in her hand was a creamed, sugared, pot of caffinated goodness, "Not exactly a caramel macchiato but good enough for now." For some reason Lina felt as if she were being watched but ignored the feeling and took a sip from her mug.
"Oh but Lina sweety, I could keep you awake so much better."
*CRASH*
Lina gasped, almost horrified at the look in Xellos's eyes, haunting, almost as if he were a different person.
"Ya know, you're little friend Gourry is coming here to say he's sorry, but it's really not his fault is it? Little Lina's just a little insecure, but I'm here to remedy that."
"What do you want Xellos?" She suddenly didn't trust Xellos the way she had, something about him Lina now saw, shining through as something saved for just this moment.
"Why Lina, that...is a secret." He started to move toward her, his eyes closed as they often were, but a deceptively sweet smile plastered on his face.
"G-get out Xellos, I don't want anyone here right now!" Lina backed up into the cupboards of the kitchen, suddenly feeling very helpless and terrified under the smile. In a futile attempt to get away, Lina called out, "Someone help! Gourry!" not entirely believing it'd work.
Blinding pain swept through her as she was lifted off her feet and slammed into the cupboards lining the wall above the sink and stove. A moment of panic swept through her as she found she couldn't breathe, Xellos had a hold of her throat, suspending her just above eyes level. "No one's gonna help you now Lina, you belong to me. And I don't like how close you've gotten to that idiot!"
"FIREBALL!" Xellos suddenly flew back behind a massive ball of fire, unfortunately which did nothing more than singe him. Lina fell from her ealier position but ignored that as she massaged her throat, "You are a controlling pig aren't you?"
Xellos only grinned, "Why Lina-chan, I'm hurt, how could you think such a thing. By the way, aren't you forbidden to use your abilities?" With a simple wave of his hand, Xellos swept Lina up into the air, using a spell of some kind to hold her there while he walked slowly back up to her. "My, my, if looks could kill."
"Na, I'd rather do that with my bare hands."
"I'm hurt, really. You still don't realize that you'll never get the best of me Lina. You and I are two different people. My question is, how did you change so quickly, trying to impress me one minute and now, it's as if you want to kill me." By now, Xellos was mere centimeters from Lina, she could feel his heat radiating off him, a desire stronger than she'd felt from him, it made her sick.
"You're disgusting!" Lina spat in his face.
Xellos let out his anger toward his supposed girlfriend in a violent slap that sent her across the room, rendering her a large bruise up her whole right side and on her left cheek where his hand connected with her face. Dispite this, she stood, albeit unsteadily, "So much for love eh?"
Suddenly, he was on her, her back pinned against the wall, Xellos proceeded to tear the large shirt off her. Lina let out a primal scream that quickly muffled by Xellos as he delt her another blow across her face. Tears coarsed down her face as she tried countless spells to get him off of her, all of which were met with a kick, knee, or hit before they could take effect. Soon, she gave into hitting him when he proceeded to remove her bra and panties, "NO, LEAVE ME, JUST GO AWAY! You monster!"
Xellos began to get very frustrated at her, "You are mine and I'm going to make sure everyone knows it!" He pressed himself against himself against her, just so she could feel how much he wanted her. Noticing Lina about to wretch, he grinned, she was at HIS mercy.
Suddenly, all stopped as Xellos felt cold, sharp metal pressed against his skin. Dropping Lina, he turned around to face the tall, blonde man who had been holding a long, broadsword. Xellos grinned.
Lina crawled into a corner, unaware of her nakedness, watching in horror at the situation. She jumped, screaming slightly when she felt something touch her, calming down a little when she saw Zelgadiss's concerned face, holding his cream-colored cloak around her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ a/n: yes, dark. the next chapter won't be like this, but it will be slightly dark, but more like a darkish grey. please, don't flame me for this ending, i apologize to those who love xellos, personally, i do. this was merely part of the story. if you'd like a lighter xellos-centered fic, please be patient, i'm writing a xellos/lina one right now but i want to get this one done first. keep in mind this is a gourry/lina fic. oh, and amelia will FINALLY make her debut in this next chapter [gomen nasai all amelia lovers!] filia won't be in this fic, mostly because i don't really know her character that much right now, gomen nasai again!