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Chapter 4 New Beginnings to Everything

Lily walked out of Charms thinking about James. They were inseparable when they were little. They did everything together through thick or thin, no matter what. 'What's so different about now?' she thought.

She was heading towards transfiguration. Before she knew it she was there. Oddly enough she knew she was there without looking up because she slammed right into the door. 'This day keeps getting better and better she thought,' and went in. She was meet with 22 amused faces and one stern looking professor. "Miss Evans," Professor MaGonagall began looking slightly amused, "there is a muggle saying 'you have to be smarter than the door,'" she thought for a moment, "But around here it a may be quite impossible. Please take a seat and we may begin," she said gesturing to the only empty seat. Which was coincidentally next to James.

'Why did you get up this morning,' she thought to herself. She felt like banging her head against the table. But she settled for sitting down stiffly next to James. She looked around the room and was glad to see the rest of the Marauders on the other side of the room. But was not glad to see them giving her cold looks. She quickly turned to the front of the classroom to avoid meeting their gaze again.

She felt someone looking at her and turned to see James staring at her. She smiled weakly at him.

"You know I had hoped we could get another chance to talk," he said "But this is neither the time or the place." He gave her a meaningful look and turned back to the front of the classroom.

He was hinting at something, she knew, but it was up to her to make the move. He wasn't going to force her to do anything she didn't want to, for fear of pushing her even farther away. She wasn't sure if she was ready. He knew that. But he also knew that the more she kept stuff to herself the farther she pushing her self to the point of no return. The point where he would lose her forever. He couldn't handle that.

She had some thinking to do. When she looked into his eyes now all she saw was anger, hurt, and confusion. Buried deep was the emotions she once saw, even when he was angry at her love, warmth, and friendship. She missed those and she didn't know if she could get those back and if she could, she had to work for it.

By the end of class she had done some hard thinking and got a detention for not paying attention. She made her decision. She came to the conclusion that what she did to her friends was wrong. That was pretty obvious but what got her was she never gave her friends the choice not to be friends with her. Now she felt she would never be able to give them that choice, because their choice was pretty clear, they wouldn't and didn't want to be friends with her. She pushed them away for good, which is what she intended. But a certain messy haired boy with a great smile wormed his way back to her. He was giving her a second chance, not the other way around. He was ready to forgive and forget.

At the end of class she quickly got a piece of parchment out, once she made her decision she wrote:

James,

I came to the conclusion that maybe I should have giving you guys the choice about being friends with me, after I told you what happened. Once I give you the story you will have that choice. But even if you decide not to be friends with me anyways I owe it to you my best friend, the one I knew for almost all my life, the truth. I will understand if you feel you don't want to be friends with me, But I will always be your. Please meet me at on the hill by Shrieking Shack at 1 o'clock next Hogsmeade trip.

Always and Forever your once and still Best Friend

Lily

Before she lost her nerve she gave him the note and left. She thought she didn't need to stay around for an answer if he came, he came. If not..well...hopefully he came.

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James looked at the note that was thrust into his hands. He kept turning it over in his hands afraid of what it might say. 'It probably says I hate you or stay away from me, never come near me again,' he thought ' nah Lily wouldn't do that.'

'The old Lily wouldn't. The Lily you thought you knew. The Lily you knew since you were three and used to play in the mud wouldn't. But this one...' a voice in the back of his mind said. He scowled

He took a deep breath and opened it slowly; afraid it might explode, and read it. A small smile crept across his face. He knew Lily probably wasn't there still, but looked anyways and saw only the Marauders coming towards him. He put the note quickly in his pocket, not sure how to tell them Lily was ready to talk to them again. He could forgive her but 'could the others' he asked himself.

"The nerve of her sitting with poor little Jamsie like that," Sirius said pinching James cheek like a little baby. "Did she bother you?" James just ignored him.

"Where was she supposed to sit, on the floor?" asked Peter trying to keep the amusement off his face.

"Well...er....uh...Well just think of James feelings. Bring up bad memories. How dare her? He's probably hurt and confused," Sirius said while patting James head. James just pushed his hand off and Sirius was pretending to look hurt.

"Sirius," James laughed, " You just made no sense there."

"I am not supposed to make sense I am Sirius."

"Ya, well your weird too," retorted James.

"Just because you think I am weird doesn't mean your normal," Sirius huffed and walked out of the room. They just looked after him amused. He stuck his head back in and said, " Well are you guys coming it's a long walk up to the North Tower." He smiled and wiggled his eyebrows.

Jen and Remus laughed and walked out after him hand in hand. "Well come on Pete, let's go keep them out of trouble," James said while walking out after them, Peter just smiled.

When James got to the trap door he asked, " Do guys ever think that Lily was trying to protect us from something?"

"Like what?" asked Jen, her face serious. An unusual expression on a face usually filled with humor.

" I don't just look at Remus he almost didn't want us to be friends with him because of his condition. He was afraid of hurting us," and with that went up the ladder.

"Yes, but I doubt its something like that," Remus said as soon as he was up.

"I know," he sighed and sat down in a pink fluffy chair by the window. He decided to tell them about the note. " Lily asked me to meet her on the next Hogsmeade trip. On the hill by the Shrieking Shack at 1." He showed them the note. "Do you guys think I should go?" he leaned his elbows on the table and looked at them.

"I don't know, that's up to you James. She might just hurt you again. I don't know if you want that or not," said Sirius flipping through his divination book.

"You guys could come if you want," James said getting out his own book.

Jen leaned back in her chair and sighed. "No, I don't think so. I think you should go alone. She asked you not us. If she wanted all of us she would have asked. You've also known her longer. She probably thinks you would understand best and maybe you would. I don't know. All I know is I am miss my best girl friend and I want her back." Remus squeezed her hand gently.

When the rest weren't looking Peter scribbled something down on some parchment and out it in his pocket a triumphant look on his face.

James looked out the window deep in thought. A flash of red caught his attention. He came to a realization. He watched that spot long after the flash was gone.

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The next Hogsmeade trip was September 21, 3 weeks away and where ever Lily was James was watching. Lily made it a point to avoid James as much as possible...more than she already did.

The morning of September the 21st dawned cold, Grey and cloudy. Lily dressed in a pair of comfortable pants and a loose T-shirt. She grabbed her cloak and headed it out.

Lily was nervous, she hasn't talked to James more than twenty minutes in two years. She hasn't talked to anybody more than twenty minutes in two years. She wasn't sure he was going to show up. What if he didn't? Where would she be then? 'Alone,' thought Lily.

She decided to walk to Hogsmeade, instead of taking a carriage. She needed the time to think of what she was going to say. But all the time in world wasn't going to be enough. She had an hour and a half before she had to meet him and the walk would calm her nerves.

As she trudged up the hill, she saw the Shack blend in with the sky and realized it was going to rain. 'Maybe it will hold off long enough for James not to show up,' she thought bitterly. 'Why do you expect him to come? You have ignored him for two years and now you expect him to come when you want him to? And for him to do it out of the goodness of his heart?'

She got to the top of the hill and turned to look out over the forest. She could hear shrieks of joy and laughter coming from the town behind her. 'I would give anything to be like them again,' she thought.

'Remember Lily it was your own doing that brought you where you are,' said a voice in the back of her mind.

She stood there for a quarter of an hour, the wind getting stronger by the moment whipping her hair around. She crossed her arms over her chest. She was getting cold. It was getting cold.

'Face it Lils he's not coming you've been standing here for fifteen minutes,' she thought to herself.

She turned around to go and started forward but stopped. Because there he was. James Potter. Wind whipped hair cloak billowing out behind him. Just standing behind her, staring at her with an odd look on his face.

"How long have you been here?" she questioned. She pulled a piece of hair out of her face the wind kept insisting be there.

He shrugged. "A couple of minutes." He still had that odd look on his face. In three strides he came to stand in front of her a mere hands length away. So close she could smell his cologne. "Lily I-," he started.

"Oh isn't this touching," a new voice proclaimed.

~*~*End Chapter 4 New Beginnings to Everything pt.1*~*~

A/N I decided to do this chapter in 3 different parts. It would be way to long for me to type out all together. Part 2 is giving me some trouble so I have to re-write some of it. It should be up around Wednesday or Thursday. Part 3 should be up around Saturday or Sunday.

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