Author: Jaya
Distribution: ask and I will let you...maybe
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Sailor Venus belongs to her very lovely creators, ditto for the mention of the Generals and other scouts. And Reeney and Darien. And anyone who I've missed.
Feedback: is the foundation of my universe. At: jacey111@yahoo.com
Summary: Venus begins to worry when she thinks the scouts suspect her defection.
Note: Thankyou to all the very wonderful people who took the time to review my work. You are splendiferous. And to my Beta Reader: Stephie.
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MEMORY FADES 3: PAIN
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Feelin' - I've been lost for years
There was always something missing in my old life. In England I was the crime-fighter, the heroine. I came to Tokyo then I was just one of the Sailor Scouts.
You can never understand me
Unless you've seen those tears
I think my parents and Malachite are the only people who have seen me upset. Really upset. Everyone else got Little Miss Reliable who NEVER got upset when all her friends were killed.
But you never get to sleep when I'm away
I don't mind deeper that you lay
They never knew me.
Outta time
Pain. I can't sleep.
Pain. I can't sleep.
I think they'd be afraid of me if they knew the real me.
Runnin' - Runnin' from those days
There's another warning inside me
I've tried to destroy everything from my past. I'm afraid they know I betrayed them.
Guess I've gone insane
Did they think I was so callous as not to mourn the death of a loved one?
But you always run away when I come around
They always used to take me for granted. Well not anymore!
I don't mind the depths that you delve
Run you down
They're gonna lose the war one day soon.
Pain. I can't sleep.
Pain. I can't sleep.
My dreams still keep me awake at night. Sometimes when I wake up babbling incoherently it even scares Malachite. Almost impossible.
Don't stop. Don't talk. Do not fight with me.
Don't stop. Don't talk. Do not fuck with me.
They always tried to mess with me, my mind. They didn't think I'd notice, I was treated like a dumb blonde the four years I've been in Tokyo.
Goaded - Loaded up this gun
There's a killer in me hopin'
Hope that you're the one
If they're eliminated maybe my dreams will for once be undisturbed The dreams only started after I met them.
But you always run away when I come around
I don't mind the depths that you delve
Terrified
In the Negaverse I have respect. Well fear at any rate. Some of my worse dreams have stopped. I used to dream I was being accused by the scouts and they wouldn't stop. Would never stop.
Pain. I can't sleep.
Pain. I can't sleep.
Pain. I can't sleep.
Soon. Soon the sailor brats will pay. Dearly.
And I won't be scared any more.
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"Aaargh" Venus screamed in anger.
"Jadeite for the LAST time, if you don't stop bothering me I'll....."
"You'll what Venus?" Jadeite sneered.
"I'll convince Sailor Mars to join our side, and tell her you've got the hots for her." Venus said brightly, as if she'd just suggested going on a picnic.
"You wouldn't...." Jadeite began.
He frowned at Venus's raised eyebrow.
"Fine, fine I'm GOING already......." Jadeite sighed his voice disappearing a moment after he did.
"That was just vindictive my Love......" Malachite said materializing in front of Venus and giving her a long kiss.
"I wouldn't ACTUALLY do it. He just wouldn't go away." Venus said examining her finger nails.
"But you still love me don't you?" She asked pouting for a moment.
The pair paused for a minute, watching the scene in the mirror on the opposite wall unfold.
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"Bye Amy! We'll miss you!" Serena, Lita and Raye called as their friend walked through the gate that would take her to her plane.
"I wonder why there was no Negaverse activity after Mina was.... Mina was.... I can't say it!" Serena sobbed.
"That's what I want to know." Lita said.
"I wonder if she WANTED to go with them?" Raye questioned thoughtfully.
"Raye! How could you say that?! Mina was one of your best friends!!" Serena almost yelled angrily.
"Yeah I suppose so. But I don't know why we were all so cut up about it anyway. It isn't as if she was the LEADER or something." Lita said. The other two scouts agreed.
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"Oh No! Malachite, they KNOW! What am I going to do?" Venus said shocked by the way events were going.
"Don't worry Venus, no one suspects you...." Malachite said soothingly. But inside he was angry.
*How dare they hurt my Love. Oh they will pay.* Malachite thought.
Venus didn't notice as her lovers eyes turned stormy gray to match his thoughts.
"How DARE they say I wasn't important. I wasn't the Leader. None of them know how to lead! I planned all the strategies, all the fights! They never even helped me plan the night before a big battle. Then they had the nerve to tell me off for being half asleep!" Venus yelled getting angrier and angrier.
She didn't notice that she began to glow with a faint amber hue.
"Then beating them will be easy." Malachite said smugly.
"Hell yeah." Venus said.
"Malachite?" Venus asked.
"Hmm?"
"You love me don't you?" She worried.
"Of course Venus." Malachite said.
"Thankyou...For being here for me I mean, I don't know what I'd do without you." Venus said.
"I'll always be there for you."
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