Reliable
By Tione
Disclaimer: I laugh.
A/N: This is my birthday ficu to you!!!! … Yeah, it's my birthday. Yippy skippy. This is also a very disturbing story and I really have no idea why I wrote this. Much much different then all my other ones. This is what I get for listening to Hoobastank's "Crawling in the Dark".
Warning: This story is shounen-ai! It is also an abstract couple! [Youko/Suuichi]
Revisions: Plot hole and repetitions fixed.
We met as we always did. It was always the same place, the same time. Something about the repetition made it comfortable. Secure. Reliable.
The landscape about us continued on and on, a never ending forest. The trees were all the same, never changing. The leaves never fell and the seasons never changed. It was an eternal summer. Secure. Reliable.
He never changed either.
When he arrived, always after me, we would sit and talk. About nothing and everything and all that's in between. We laughed over the silliest things and contemplated the most abstract. We cried over the saddest and desensitized against the worst.
We were inseparable. We knew each other inside out.
I noticed he would give me odd looks as I gave him the latest gossip about the hottest couple in school and who was messing what up in the government. His eyes changed when they turned towards me. They… glowed.
One day he told me, 'We are like hikari and yami. You are the hikari, I am the yami. We are destined to be intertwined.'
That cryptic statement puzzled me. Destined to be intertwined? Hikari? Yami?
Today when I visited, he wasn't there. I tore through the forest and screamed at the trees, willing one leaf to fall, one flaw to be shown. For the first time in my entire life, I didn't feel secure in Utopia.
I waited day after day, week after week. Soon it had been a month without seeing him. It was driving me mad. Had I done something? If so, what?
When hope had all but faded, he came. One day, I trudged dejectedly to out meeting spot, thinking, 'This is the last time I will check,' but knowing that I would come tomorrow and think the same. I wouldn't- no, couldn't break the cycle. Not while I knew that someday, maybe someday, he would be there.
He was leaning against his tree, grinning.
'Hi, Suuichi! What's new today?' he asked. For a minute, I thought this was an illusion and any minute I would find out I was hallucinating.
Doubtful, I stepped towards him. Reaching a hand out, I trailed my fingers down his face, nuzzled his furry ears, making sure it was really him.
Then he seized me and kissed me.
I let him.
Because I knew, there was no love here. He didn't love me and I didn't love him. But he was yami and I was hikari and we are ying and yang. And I let him because he needed it and I needed it.
After that, he got up and left. I followed, but not him. I followed back into the real world where he didn't exist to most people and I was the epitome of perfect.
I woke up.
… *scratched head* … *does it some more* … What inspired this again?
I think I freaked myself out writing this.