A/N. Thanks everyone who reviewed. today is my birthday nanananah.. March 26th. Happy Birthday to ME! 17 years old.. errrrr. I hope you like this chapter.. And once again I don't own Harry Potter

Song;

"And now that all is said and one It's kind of hard to hold my tongue Because you still don't believe you're wrong I'm not so sure what I would say If I could talk to you that way You wouldn't understand

I was foolish from the start I've tried not to fall apart Its just like you said but everything is somehow different

I've tried hard not to admit That there was some truth to it Its just like you said but everything is somehow different

Have you ever imagined what you think? They way you circumstance would be? And fixed a picture in your head I guess you've thought of everything I'm sure you know much more than me At least that's what you think

It shouldn't have to make you wonder I thought you knew it all along How I was innocent and pure And you were smug and so demure When you predicted I would fall"

"Just like you said", Face To Face.3
Lily Evans looked around the room at her half awake best friends. She knew she was lucky to be as close as she was to them. She told them everything, even something's they really, underline the really, didn't want to know.

Sirius and James were playing wizarding chess while Remus watched on making sure Sirius didn't cheat, because he had a habit of doing so. Peter was cuddled with one of the pillows on the ground not to far away from the almost dead fire. Lily was sitting in a deep cushioned chair, just watching everything.

"What do you think it will be like when we grow up?" James asked.

"Have any of you heard any news about the "rising" dark lord. I hope that someone takes him out before we are old enough to have to." Peter said, he was so afraid of everything.

"I wouldn't mind being an Auror, and taking the dark lord out, it could be interesting. He could be Lilys love slave." Sirius said, laughing. Remus threw one of the "dead" pawns at him. Lily just stared at them, as if it was the last time she would ever see them.

"What's wrong Lils." James asked

"Are we always going to be friends?" She asked looking serious, everyone seemed taken aback Lily wasn't usually one to get all sentimental.

"We will always be your friends, you know that." Remus said.

"Sometimes I think or actually wonder, why I don't have any girl friends. I mean I love you guys to death don't get me wrong. But I wouldn't mind having a girl I could talk to about things that you guys yell at me for." Lily said smiling as she remembered when she had told them she had started her period the first time. Sirius had just about had a heart attack and started screaming like a little girl.

"That still isn't funny Lily." Sirius said, knowing what she was smiling for. But he smiled in spite of everything.

"You don't like the Gryffindor girls remember, they are all ditzy and blonde. And we all wonder how they made it into Gryffindor." Remus said.

"I know. Why am I not like them? Why can't I be like any other girl? No instead I act like a boy and wear boys clothing and to top it all off I hang out with you guys. I have never held an intelligent conversation with a girl, ever. Sometimes I just want to know what it would be like to wear a dress, but I would never because, well I hate them. My feminine side is trying to kill me. I don't shave my legs, I only paint my nails black or orange. I don't have any boobs, which suck. I don't feel like a girl." She said, sounding slightly depressed.

"Lily have you been lying to us all these years. Do you have a penis?" Sirius said. Remus glared at him and James hit him in the head. Lily just smiled.

"Sometimes I wish I did just have a penis so I would feel more normal." She said, than looked at all of them, once more. "I'm gonna go to bed. Good night guys." And she walked up the stairs only to hear murmured good nights and sweet dreams.

"I think there is something wrong with Lily Billy." Sirius said, looking up towards the stairs.

"We know what we have to do. We have to find a girl friend worthy of Lilys friendship, and ours." James said. They all nodded and went up to their own dorm to sleep.

The next morning it was as though Lily had forgotten the whole episode she had the night before. It was true enough that she wanted a girl friend, but she wasn't girly. The friend would have to be fun, smart, and not so girly.

The marauders had stayed up a little later making flyers. They were going to be holding additions for Lilys new girl friend.

The flyers said; so you want to be friends with Lily Evans. Come to the great hall tonight at 7:30 p.m. and tell the Marauders about yourself. Be prepared to get a little personal.

The marauders.

Of course they were smart and put a spell on Lily so she wouldn't be able to see the flyers or know that there was something fishy going on. Everything seemed normal to her.

Lily didn't know what was wrong with her. She had the best friends in the world but that wasn't enough for her, she needed more. She didn't know what she wanted, and still wouldn't tell the boys the whole truth about what was causing all these girly thoughts to go through her head. Lily had a crush on someone.

This someone was also a Quiditch player on their house team and in their year. Lily didn't know what it was about him, but she liked him. He was only the second guy she had ever had a crush on, the first was James Potter. Lily hated to admit that she had had a crush on one of her best friends but she had.

She had never told anyone, except her journal, which she made a point to write in as often as she had time to.

Being winter break there were not many people about the school and it was quite cold out side of the common rooms, so no one really wondered around. But some how there was a very large turn out of girls at the great hall for additions to be Lily's girl friend.

James, Sirius, Remus and Peter took a look around them selves.

"This is going to be a very long night." James said.

And thus the additions began.