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They made their way to the Great Hall and when they were setting down an owl flew and dropped a letter for Lily. Lily was shocked she never got mail. She looked around to see the boys smiling and Bella looking as though she was heavily in thought.
Lily opened the letter, it was an official ministry letter. She didn't understand at first.
Dear Miss Evans;
We are unfortunate to have to tell you that your parents; Mr. John Evans and Mrs. Matilda Evans, were attacked last night by none other than Voldimort and his followers. They didn't make it, their funeral is in a week and you may attend if you wish. I am terribly sorry.
Jackson Hewitt Minister of Magic
Lily's eyes widened. Her parents were dead? How could that be, they didn't deserve to die, did they?
Lily stood up so fast that her chair fell to the ground with a loud bang, because the whole hall had gone completely quiet, as to see what her reaction would be to the letter. She looked at her friends and knew they thought she would be happy, but why wasn't she. She didn't like her home and they hurt her when she was there. Did she care that they died?
Lily ran as fast as she could from the hall, and out through the entrance hall. She was heading for somewhere she could be alone. She needed to be alone. She clenched her fists as she was running, why was she so angry?
She ran to the trees that were closest to her and climbed up one as fast as she could. All she ever wanted was to be free; she didn't know how she would ever be free now. Not even becoming her animagus form would help her now.
She had always promised herself that she was going to make something of herself and rub it in their faces, letting them know that she didn't need them anymore. Now they were gone and she was never going to be able to do that. She needed to get rid of some of the extra load of anger that she had just accumulated. She needed to beat the tar out of something or someone.
Without warning the tears came and she accepted them gladly; crying didn't make you girly, crying took away the pain.
She clung to the tree for dear life, afraid to fall off, but if she did fall off maybe the pain would take away the anger.
Lily took a few deep breaths and looked up towards the sky, it was pitch black. She had been outside all day crying and for what? For a few dead alcoholics, they didn't deserve her sympathy.
Lily laughed insanely and climbed out of the tree. She didn't stop laughing as she walked back up to the steps to the castle, nor did she stop when she entered Gryffindor Tower to see all of her friends there waiting for her. She just kept on laughing.
James knew what was going on in her head; he had seen it a million times. She always told them how she wanted to kill them herself; now she knew that she would never have the pleasure.
Sirius looked up to see his best girl friend laughing insanely and for a minute thought that everything was going to be ok, but than she broke down and fell to the ground and started crying all over again. Lily wasn't the type of person to demand attention, this wasn't a stunt to get their sympathy, and there was something really wrong.
Remus thought that she would have been happy but he was wrong, she wasn't happy. It didn't matter what they did now, Lily was bound to change. She had no place to live now, and everyone knew that Petunia wasn't going to let her live there. Remus sighed.
Peter was amazed to see Lily crying.
Bella was trying to get close to Lily but Sirius held her back.
"You have to let her cry it out, that is what she always does. Just give it a few minutes ok?" Sirius said being very serious.
Bella looked at him and she wanted to cry. Why didn't she realize it, why didn't she see it. Bella stared at Lily, the scars she tried so well to hide were all right there in plain view, written all over her face. As if Lily pulled away every defense she had about not letting people in, she looked so innocent just crying for her deceased parents, but there was so much more to it.
Lily looked up at Bella and quit crying.
"What the hell am I doing? I should be happy that they are gone, I should be celebrating that the people I hate the most are gone and I never have to see them again. But why do I feel like shit, why do I feel as though it was my fault? I did nothing wrong other than be a witch. Why would he kill my parents? I as good as killed them. We didn't having anything that he could possibly want, did we?" Lily said trying to smile, but it wasn't working out to well.
James went and sat next to her on the ground.
"Lily, it is not your fault, you know how Voldimort is he just kills muggles, I don't believe that there is a pattern behind it. Please don't blame yourself; it is not your fault. And you have us; we'll take care of you. You don't have to worry about anything, ok?" James said looking her straight in the eye.
Lily didn't know what was happening to her, she was falling for one of her best friends. She was having the butterflies again, and her eyes widened. What was going on with her these days. She was obviously going to start her period in a few days if she was going to keep acting so girly and temperamental. She had been thinking about James for a few days, was she going to be like this around him from now on? When are things going to get back to normal?
"You swear you will take care of me?" Lily whispered, for only James to hear. James was a little startled. He looked down at her tear soaked face and smiled one of his amazing smiles, his glasses gleaming in the firelight.
"I swear that I will take care of you for the rest of my life, Lily." James said and he put his arm around her shoulders lovingly.
Remus was smiling; he couldn't wait for the first kiss. He just didn't want to see Lily like this ever again, and he knew a little secret about James. James was going to tell Lily that he loved her, and had since he first met her. Remus was excited, Sirius didn't know; he was to busy with his own thoughts or Bella.
Lily was smiling again staring at the fire just thinking.
They made their way to the Great Hall and when they were setting down an owl flew and dropped a letter for Lily. Lily was shocked she never got mail. She looked around to see the boys smiling and Bella looking as though she was heavily in thought.
Lily opened the letter, it was an official ministry letter. She didn't understand at first.
Dear Miss Evans;
We are unfortunate to have to tell you that your parents; Mr. John Evans and Mrs. Matilda Evans, were attacked last night by none other than Voldimort and his followers. They didn't make it, their funeral is in a week and you may attend if you wish. I am terribly sorry.
Jackson Hewitt Minister of Magic
Lily's eyes widened. Her parents were dead? How could that be, they didn't deserve to die, did they?
Lily stood up so fast that her chair fell to the ground with a loud bang, because the whole hall had gone completely quiet, as to see what her reaction would be to the letter. She looked at her friends and knew they thought she would be happy, but why wasn't she. She didn't like her home and they hurt her when she was there. Did she care that they died?
Lily ran as fast as she could from the hall, and out through the entrance hall. She was heading for somewhere she could be alone. She needed to be alone. She clenched her fists as she was running, why was she so angry?
She ran to the trees that were closest to her and climbed up one as fast as she could. All she ever wanted was to be free; she didn't know how she would ever be free now. Not even becoming her animagus form would help her now.
She had always promised herself that she was going to make something of herself and rub it in their faces, letting them know that she didn't need them anymore. Now they were gone and she was never going to be able to do that. She needed to get rid of some of the extra load of anger that she had just accumulated. She needed to beat the tar out of something or someone.
Without warning the tears came and she accepted them gladly; crying didn't make you girly, crying took away the pain.
She clung to the tree for dear life, afraid to fall off, but if she did fall off maybe the pain would take away the anger.
Lily took a few deep breaths and looked up towards the sky, it was pitch black. She had been outside all day crying and for what? For a few dead alcoholics, they didn't deserve her sympathy.
Lily laughed insanely and climbed out of the tree. She didn't stop laughing as she walked back up to the steps to the castle, nor did she stop when she entered Gryffindor Tower to see all of her friends there waiting for her. She just kept on laughing.
James knew what was going on in her head; he had seen it a million times. She always told them how she wanted to kill them herself; now she knew that she would never have the pleasure.
Sirius looked up to see his best girl friend laughing insanely and for a minute thought that everything was going to be ok, but than she broke down and fell to the ground and started crying all over again. Lily wasn't the type of person to demand attention, this wasn't a stunt to get their sympathy, and there was something really wrong.
Remus thought that she would have been happy but he was wrong, she wasn't happy. It didn't matter what they did now, Lily was bound to change. She had no place to live now, and everyone knew that Petunia wasn't going to let her live there. Remus sighed.
Peter was amazed to see Lily crying.
Bella was trying to get close to Lily but Sirius held her back.
"You have to let her cry it out, that is what she always does. Just give it a few minutes ok?" Sirius said being very serious.
Bella looked at him and she wanted to cry. Why didn't she realize it, why didn't she see it. Bella stared at Lily, the scars she tried so well to hide were all right there in plain view, written all over her face. As if Lily pulled away every defense she had about not letting people in, she looked so innocent just crying for her deceased parents, but there was so much more to it.
Lily looked up at Bella and quit crying.
"What the hell am I doing? I should be happy that they are gone, I should be celebrating that the people I hate the most are gone and I never have to see them again. But why do I feel like shit, why do I feel as though it was my fault? I did nothing wrong other than be a witch. Why would he kill my parents? I as good as killed them. We didn't having anything that he could possibly want, did we?" Lily said trying to smile, but it wasn't working out to well.
James went and sat next to her on the ground.
"Lily, it is not your fault, you know how Voldimort is he just kills muggles, I don't believe that there is a pattern behind it. Please don't blame yourself; it is not your fault. And you have us; we'll take care of you. You don't have to worry about anything, ok?" James said looking her straight in the eye.
Lily didn't know what was happening to her, she was falling for one of her best friends. She was having the butterflies again, and her eyes widened. What was going on with her these days. She was obviously going to start her period in a few days if she was going to keep acting so girly and temperamental. She had been thinking about James for a few days, was she going to be like this around him from now on? When are things going to get back to normal?
"You swear you will take care of me?" Lily whispered, for only James to hear. James was a little startled. He looked down at her tear soaked face and smiled one of his amazing smiles, his glasses gleaming in the firelight.
"I swear that I will take care of you for the rest of my life, Lily." James said and he put his arm around her shoulders lovingly.
Remus was smiling; he couldn't wait for the first kiss. He just didn't want to see Lily like this ever again, and he knew a little secret about James. James was going to tell Lily that he loved her, and had since he first met her. Remus was excited, Sirius didn't know; he was to busy with his own thoughts or Bella.
Lily was smiling again staring at the fire just thinking.
