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"You said things I wouldn't say

straight to my face, boy

You tossed the egg up

And I found my hands in place, boy After backing up as far as you could get

Don't you know nobody parts tow rivers met

Don't you know I'm very happy

You know me well I'm even happier

I like it

I like it With all of the time in to world to spend it

Wild and unwise

I wanna be mesmerizing too

Mesmerizing too

Mesmerizing to you With all the time in the world to spend it

Wild and unwise

I wanna be mesmerizing to

Mesmerizing too

Mesmerizing to you" Mesmerizing, by Liz Phair

Lily was trying her hardest to act like the fact that James liked another girl wasn't bothering her at all. But everyone could tell that she wasn't too happy. She was trying as much as she possibly could to get over it, because obviously James didn't want her, so she had better get over him. Sirius was confused; there was a definite change in Lily, but not in James. James was still trying to show Lily that she was the girl that he liked, but he was going about it all wrong. Remus was trying to help him but there wasn't much you could do for James... he had already dug his hole, now he had to die in it.

Remus watched as two of his best friends slowly but surely grow apart. They would never be the same. Lily liked him, a lot, Remus knew this and so did James. But Jack-Ass James wasn't used to treating Lily the way that she should be treated as a young woman, and that was obvious to everyone around them. James treated Lily like she was just one of the guys.

James couldn't think of anything that he was doing wrong. All the other girls in the school would have loved to receive little flowers from him, but Lily wasn't satisfied. He just couldn't figure out what she wanted, or what would make her believe that he liked her and no one else.

"Foxy, tomorrow's Christmas! Are you going to be acting like this then too? I don't like you to be this way. Why are you sad? What can we do?" James asked Lily when they were sitting by the fire in the common room.

Lily looked at her five best friends, Sirius and Bella flirting in the corner, Remus waiting for her answer, Peter staring out of the window. James was looking at her, concerned for her well-being.

Lily shrugged and got up.

"I'm bored. I need something to do. I need to get out of Gryffindor common room and just spend time alone; I haven't been alone for a long time. Please don't follow me." With that she left the common room, to walk around the castle and look for new things or just the things that were so familiar to her.

She missed the concept of having parents. Looking around at all the paintings conversing with one another just made her want someone to talk to, someone she could tell everything to. Bella was busy, and the none of the boys would understand. She walked out to the Quiditch pitch, willing her head to quit spinning.

Lily was having this weird pain in her head. Not quite a headache, but lesser so. Maybe it was just the cold, or maybe it was all the thinking that she had been doing lately.

Who did James like? That was her main question. Did he really even know her? Would he choose her over this other girl? So many questions, and not very many answers.

Once on the quiditch pitch she sat right in the middle of it, even with the snow melting through her pants and making her colder. The clouds were large and puffy, perfect for pretending that they are something else.

One looked like a rabbit, another like a mushroom. There was one that looked like a pillow and then a rose. Lily smiled; she knew things would be fine. She would get over James and probably never commit to anyone. She didn't want anyone else.

-Back in the Gryffindor common room-

The boys watched Lily go. Sirius walked over to James and hit him in the back of the head.

"Just tell you how you feel and get it over with. I hate seeing her like that, it makes me think of the times when we would go get her in the middle of the night from her parents house. I still think it should have been us that killed them." Sirius said seriously.

"I don't know what I am doing wrong. I thought I was going about it all right but she seems so depressed now. Padfoot, Moony... Just shoot me and get it over with." James said and fell onto the large couch by the fire dramatically.

"Tell her tomorrow as like a Christmas present." Remus said. James's face lit up instantly as he ran up to the boy's dormitory.

That night James didn't sleep a wink, and neither did Lily. They were both up all night concocting Christmas presents for people, but James's was just for Lily.