Always and Forever By vanima-edhel
CHAPTER 2

Trowa ran to the edge of the river. "QUATRE!" Trowa screamed again but the blond had already disappeared beneath the surface. Trowa dived into the icy river and swam as fast as he could toward where he had seen his beloved Quatre fall. Taking a deep breath he dived down towards the murky bottom.

'Don't be dead Quatre, please, don't be dead' Trowa thought to himself as he frantically searched for any sign of the blond. Then about 10 meters away he saw a flash of blond. Swimming desperately Trowa soon reached Quatre. Grabbing Quatre, Trowa swam as fast as he could towards the surface.

Reaching the surface Trowa swam to the side of the river. Hauling Quatre out of the river Trowa began trying to get him warm.

"Please live. Please, please live. Don't leave me here alone." Trowa pleaded to the blond. Quatre wasn't breathing as Trowa started to give him C.P.R. After a few minutes Quatre still wasn't responding and Trowa had given up hope. He was shivering from the cold.

'If Quatre dies, then I die too' He thought. He gave Quatre one last kiss. "Goodbye my beloved Quatre." Feeling weak he lay down beside his blond angel and slept.

*Quatre's P.O.V.*

Blinking his frost covered eyelashes Quatre sat up. 'Where am I?' He thought, shivering. He looked around; he was beside the river and lying beside him was Trowa.

"Trowa?" he called softly wondering if he was in heaven. But why would heaven be this cold he wondered. He crawled slowly over to Trowa.

Trowa was barely breathing when Quatre reached him. "Trowa?", Quatre gently shook him. "Trowa, please wake up!" Quatre started to cry as he shook Trowa. "Don't leave me Trowa. Trowa! Trowa, No!"

Hearing his screams Heero ran to where Quatre was bending over Trowa.

"What happened?" Heero asked Quatre softly.

Quatre just raised his tear streaked face to Heero. "He's dead. He's dead and it's all my fault."

'Trowa? Dead?' thought Heero as he ran over to Trowa and Quatre, 'Impossible'. Heero threw himself onto his knees on the ground next to Trowa. Finding a weak pulse Heero began to massage Trowa's body trying to get him warmed up.

"Quatre!" Heero snapped. "Use my cell phone and call 911 and tell them to send an ambulance. Hurry!"

Quatre quickly obeyed. "They'll be here in 5 minutes, Heero."

"Good. Now help me keep him warm." Quatre quickly knelt beside Heero and started to massage Trowa's fingers and arms.

*Five minutes later*

As the doctors loaded Trowa in the ambulance Quatre insisted that he come along too. He hopped in the back with Trowa as the ambulance sped off. 'He's going to be O.K.' Quatre thought. Then the combination of grief and cold caught up with Quatre and he fainted.

*Treize Memorial Hospital*

"Shhhhh! Duo be quiet. Trowa needs his rest." Trowa blinked a few times as he heard Wufei's familiar voice. "Hiya, Trowa!" Duo bounced to the side of Trowa's bed. "How are you doing?"

Trowa tried to sit up but was too weak and fell back into bed. "Don't overdo yourself Trowa. You've had a rough time." Trowa knew that voice belonged to Heero. Trowa twisted his head around to see Heero standing at the head of his bed and Wufei staring at the rain pounding against the window.

"How long have I been asleep?" asked Trowa. "Three days." Came Wufei's reply. "Man, you really had us worried Trowa." That was Duo again.

All the memories came back to Trowa in a rush. He broke down and started to cry. "What is it Trowa?" Duo asked.

"Q.Quatre. It's all m-my fault." Trowa managed between sobs. "What are you talking about?" Heero asked. "He just left the room to go get food. He's hardly left your side since he was able to get out of bed."

Trowa stared at Heero in amazement. "Quatre's Alive?!"

Just then the door opened and Quatre stepped in. "Hey guys! I brought you some- TROWA!" The last word was almost shrieked. He dropped the tray he was carrying and it fell to the floor with a crash. He ran to Trowa and gave him a big bear hug. "Gee Quatre, did you miss me?" Trowa said when he stopped coughing and grinned as Quatre looked sheepish.

"I'm just glad you both are okay." Wufei commented. "We all are", said Sally Po as she walked in the door followed by Noin.

"Sally! Noin! How are you?" "We're fine, how are you Trowa?" Noin inquired. "I've been better." Noin walked over and gave Trowa a hug as Sally walked over to stand by Wufei.

*Quatre's P.O.V.*

Quatre was so glad that Trowa was awake he felt like dancing. He vowed to himself that he would never leave Trowa again.

Heero looked at Quatre and saw the expression on his face.

"Hey! Duo! Let's go get some real food. I'll take you out to eat at your choice of restaurant." Duo perked up at the word "Food". "Sure! My choice. Hmmm. Let's go to that café where you first asked me out. What was it called? Oishi Gohan?"

"Yes. That was it. After you dearest." Heero answered. Duo raced out of the room as fast as his legs would carry him, dragging Heero with him.

Everyone laughed. It was a kin of strained laugh that people do when they are under pressure. Quatre sighed. 'It's all my fault' he thought. 'If I hadn't thought everyone was against me I wouldn't have tried to kill myself and we wouldn't be here. Trowa wouldn't have almost died.' Quatre started to silently cry. Trowa who had been silently watching the blond motioned with his head to Wufei, Sally and Noin. They took the hint and left.

"Oh, Trowa" The blond threw himself at Trowa.

*Trowa's P.O.V.*

As the little blond threw himself at Trowa he felt his heart melt for his little angel. "Shhh. It's okay. It'll be all right." Trowa muttered soothing words to Quatre as he cried. Eventually the blonde's tears stopped and the two just sat there in each other's arms.

"Oh Trowa. If I hadn't been so stupid you would never have been in all this trouble. I wish I had never been born." Quatre muttered into Trowa's arms.

"Hush. How can you say such things? If you had never been born where would I be? Who would I be with?" Trowa sighed. "Maybe we should get you some psychiatric help? Would that be okay with you?"

Quatre lifted his tear-streaked face to look in Trowa's eyes. "Do you think it would help?" At Trowa's shrug he continued. "I just want this paranoia to go away! I'm tired of thinking that everyone hates me."

Concerned about his angel Trowa pulled Quatre up onto the hospital bed with him and wrapped his arms around him. Quatre responded by snuggling himself closer to his love and falling into a content sleep for the first time in a month.

As Quatre fell asleep in his arms Trowa sighed in contentment. He hoped everything would be okay with Quatre. He wouldn't want his dearly loved Quatre to be hurt. He shifted slightly around Quatre and fell into a peaceful sleep.

*Two Days Later*

Trowa and Quatre returned home from the hospital after a couple days. It was a quiet homecoming with not much excitement. That night Quatre was settling into his room when Trowa appeared in his doorway. "Hey. You getting all settled?" "Yeah. Are you all settled?" Quatre asked as he brushed the hair out of his eyes. He looked at Trowa who was dressed in just his boxers and sighed. 'I'm so lucky to have him.' Quatre thought. 'He is so perfect.'

"I'm almost all settled. I just have one more thing to do..." Trowa sauntered over to Quatre and gently laid a kiss on the blonde's lips. Quatre warmed to Trowa's touch and kissed the tall pilot back. Trowa gently picked up Quatre and laid him on the bed. After Quatre had stripped down to his boxers, Trowa turned off the light and climbed into bed with the petite blond. As they snuggled against each other Trowa laid a kiss on Quatre's cheek. "I'm so glad you didn't succeed in your plan. I would have missed you so much."

"I know and I'm really sorry." Quatre explained with a huge yawn. "It's alright. Go to bed now. We'll talk more tomorrow." Said Trowa.

"G'night Trowa." Quatre said sleepily.

"Goodnight my angel."

The two fell into a content sleep wrapped in each other's arms.

*The next morning*

When Quatre woke up Trowa had already gotten up. Quatre could smell something delicious cooking. He snuggled down under the covers. He heard the door open and the soft tread of feet. "Trowa?" he asked. "I've brought you some breakfast." Came the answer.

Quatre sighed and turned over to see Trowa with a tray of pancakes, eggs, sausage and orange juice. Quatre grinned and sat up. "ooh! It looks good. Thanks Trowa!"

"No problem love." Trowa set the tray down on the bed as Quatre stretched. 'Just like an angel' Trowa thought. 'So innocent yet so beautiful.'

Quatre looked up after stretching to find Trowa watching him. He smiled and shook his hair out of his eyes; something that Duo said made him look appealing. Then he looked up meeting the tall brunette's eyes. Quatre found that he had a hard time not getting lost in the deep orbs that were Trowa's eyes.

Tearing his gaze away, Trowa took a couple deep breaths. It was getting harder to resist Quatre, and the innocent look in his eyes. "I forgot to bring you a knife. I'll go get you one." Trowa said to excuse himself. Outside the door he leaned against the wall.

Quatre lowered his head. 'Why do I always ruin everything?' he wondered. He blinked back tears that were fighting to come out.

Outside Heero came up next to Trowa. "What's wrong?" Heero asked quietly.

"Nothing. I'm just having trouble deciding what I'm going to do." Trowa admitted.

"You want Quatre." Heero stated. "You want him badly."

Trowa raised an eyebrow. "Is it that obvious?" He asked.

Heero just laughed.