Chapter Five You're not in a good mood. I walked back to the place where we first met, and looked at the sunset. I couldn't go back to Eddie not just yet, my eyes where all splotchy, and I also felt downhearted. Furthermore I did not feel up to his questions about the afternoon. I felt a hand grip my shoulder and knew who it was. I prayed that she would understand. She had to, I wanted her to. why? Because you like her. no I don't I just feel like a jerk. As I approached the place we first met I saw her. She had her head down and I knew I would have to do some work to get around this. You were a jerk and you owe her an apology.' I put my arm on her shoulder and waited for her to answer. All she did was turn to look at me. I just stood there with my mouth open like an idiot. 'Jamie I'm sorry. I shouldn't have treated you the way I did, I know class doesn't matter...' I was trying to get the words out, but I just couldn't. She turned away from me and shrugged my hand off her shoulder. "Come on Jamie. Please," I begged, but when she turned around for the second time, I wasn't too sure if I had done the right thing by asking her to. She had this look on her face.she was furious. "Oh," I took a few steps back "You're not in a good mood." "You don't miss a thing." 'All right Landon you can do this... just apologize. Just admit you were a complete idiot this afternoon.' "Listen Jamie, I was hoping we could take a walk together." "Mmmm. Okay but just not so anybody knows, right?" 'Hey, maybe she did get it after all?' "Well," I stupidly went along with this theory. "I just figured we could spend the time alone." "Like we could be secret friends?" "Exactly." 'What did you know, she understood. "Exactly, Exactly It's like you're reading my mind." "Good. Umm.Maybe you could read mine?" I watched as her face morphed from one of understanding to one of apparent pain and anger. It looked like I'd have to explain myself after all.
'You hurt me Landon. You embarrassed me, humiliated me. I'm sorry.but you can't just play with me, I'm not a doll. I have feelings! "Jamie. Jamie.I can't just be your friend." 'No.of course you can't, it would be immoral.' I couldn't look at him anymore it hurt so much so I turned away from him. I was angry and put off and hurt, so hurt. My disappointment in him was overpowering. "Landon look. I thought I saw something in you. Something good. I was very wrong." With that I walked pasts him never looking back. 'Ouch, that stung.' When she turned from me that final time I knew it was for good. My mind screamed out "Dammit!" as I watched her retreating form walk away, never faltering. I made my way back to my bedroom knowing that I just screwed up something really good.