Chapter seven Only Hope The titanic love theme (on piano) is being played in the hall. Belinda is with Cale (Rosa's fiancée in the movie Titanic). Eddie is talking with Sally an actress. I stood at the bottom of the stairs, listening to the piano playing its sweet melody. I was nervous. What if she still didn't forgive me? It not as if I have actually said the words "I'm sorry Jamie". I mean she still may hate me. He stood there, looking very handsome in this tuxedo, I wanted to hug him right there on the spot. no Jamie you are happily engaged. I thought tonight, this will be the last time I will see him, I promise Eddie. I put my hand on the banister and began my decent. I turned to her as she descended down the stairs. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't breathe, couldn't think. She was amazing. Her auburn hair that always looked like silk to touch cascaded down her back and over her shoulders in flowing waves. Her mint green dress flowed behind her, as her hand lightly drifted down the banister. She floated down to me and smiled. she looked like my mother's painting of the angel. "You're beautiful" 'I mean it Jamie. From the deepest depths of my heart.'

I was lost. I didn't know what to say. He reached for my hand and gently brought it up to his lips. They brushed my hand causing the tiniest contact, but it was enough for me to sharply intake my breath. 'You're in love with him Jamie. No. I can't be.' "Shall we?" he extended his arm which I happily took. We walked in silence to our table, content with each others company. Eddie's mouth dropped open, and all of Landon's friends who had mocked me just stared. Landon helped me into my seat, and then he took a seat next to me. A girl with light blond hair sat next to Landon, he turned his gaze from me, and kissed her on the cheek. Who was she? I didn't like her, I knew that much. "Jamie, Eddie this is my fiancée Belinda", Landon said quietly. "Pleased to meet you" Eddie and I both said, and she gave a nod whilst turning to Landon giving him a quizzing look. I felt heartbroken. I looked down and noticed that there where so many knives and forks, I was at a loss. "Just start on the outside and work you way in 'kay?" whispered Landon. (A few hours later, during dessert) The evening had gone well. No one realised that Jamie was the same girl on the veranda. They assumed Eddie and Jamie were new money, and part of the gang. The both seemed to enjoy it, however Eddie felt it nesassary to excuse himself after the main course, but Jamie stayed. "Next..." I whispered to her ".will be Brandi in the smoking room where all the men will retreat in a cloud of smoke and congratulate themselves on being masters of the universe". She giggled but had this far off look in her eyes. "Oh Landon must you go?" she whispered I needed to talk to her, explain about Belinda, but most importantly about how I had fallen so fast for her. I kept getting flash backs of the time we spent together. "May I escort you on a walk?" I asked her. "Yes Landon, yes" They dismissed themselves from the table and walked to the front of the ship where they stood together, hand in hand watching the sunset. "How can you see places like this, have moments like this. and not believe?" "You're lucky to be so sure." "It's like the wind, I can't see it. but I feel it." "What do you feel?" "I feel wonder and beauty. Joy. Love. I mean. It's the centre of everything." As I looked at her I wondered if her skin felt as soft and smooth as it looked. Did she know that I was in love with her? Could she tell? I needed to tell her. I needed to embrace her. "I might kiss you." "I might be bad at it." "That's not possible." I stepped closer towards her and lifted my hand to cup her cheek. It was softer than I had ever imagined. Our heads moved in one slow motion, our lips joined. 'So silky...Jamie...' Her lips were so delicate, full. 'Those lips... I've never tasted anything so sweet and believe me I had tasted a lot.' The flavour of honey and something else lingered on them. 'Jamie.I love you. I love you.' I knew the second I pulled away from her that I had to tell her the truth. "Jamie." I felt a smile creep up on my lips as I told her, "I love you". Pause."Now would be the time to say something." His breath felt warm against my lips. This was something new to me. It was my first kiss, soft and sweet, just like him. I didn't know what to do when it was over. I had to divert my eyes. I just couldn't bring myself to face him. "Jamie," he spoke my name so softly I couldn't help but turn towards him. "I love you." 'Oh Landon, there's so much you don't know and were engaged to different people. . I'm so sorry for this. I never meant for you to fall in love me. Oh God forgive me please I really wanted him to?'

"Now would be the time to say something." "I love you Landon", tears ran down from my eyes. I understood perfectly why she cried. So many obstacles lay in our path if we were to remain together. Her class, my father, my friends and our fiancées. Would this love I felt for her be strong enough to carry us through everything? At that very moment I was certain that it would be strong enough. I loved her enough. Together there was nothing we couldn't do or overcome. Our fingers clasped and we watched the sun set. As I was humming my favourite song, Landon looked over at me and softly whispered "You look so familiar like this dame a new once, only it wasn't real; she was in a painting my mother painted for me before she died". "Tell me about your mother" "Well I don't really. remember her. Will you do something for me?" "Anything" "Will you sing for me?" "There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But you sing to me over and over and over again"

"So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now, you're my only hope" "Sing to me the song of the stars

Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again

When it seems like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that you hide from me over again" "So I lay my head back down

And I lift hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now, you're my only hope"

"I give you my destiny

I'm giving you all of me

I want your everything

Singing with all that I am

At the top of my lungs

I'm giving it back"

"So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope."

"Mmmmm.

Hmmmmmn

Hmmmm

Hmmmm hmmnnnn

Oooooh oooh oooh

Oooooh oooh oooh

Oooooooooooooooh." As I hummed the end of melody to him he kissed me on the lips again.

Should I continue?