Chapter Eleven Going under PG13 ( for language) Disclaimer: 'A Walk to remember' and 'Titanic', any music from both films are not mine. Though I would definitely not mind owning Shane (well a girl can dream can't she) Just another *poor, underage* fan, so please don't sue!! "We will meet again, Jamie I promise you", I helped her into the lifeboat and she threw herself into my arms for one final embrace, and kissed my lips, letting hers linger on mine. I memorised the feeling of her lips on mine, the hint of strawberry blossom was heavenly. I knew we where getting funny looks from all the people who knew I was engaged to Belinda, but I didn't care, this would probably be the lat time I saw her. As the boat was being lowered she mouthed to me "I love you", I smiled at her and mouthed "I love you back". I sighed, memorising all her heavenly features, our eyes never leaving each other. I have to have faith, that's what Jamie would off wanted me to have. Oh God, why are you so cruel to me to give her to me then taking me away from her? Someone bumped into me, and grabbed me by the shoulders. I turned around to see Eddie standing in front of me. His face was a mask of worry. "Have you seen Jamie?" His entire body was shaking. I shook loose of his grip, and placed my hand on his back and pointed in the direction of Jamie's lifeboat, his face immediately relaxed "Don't worry pal, I made sure nothing will happen to Jamie", he eyed me suspiciously and mumbled his thanks. Then he started to look around the ship and his face tensed up again. I looked around the Titanic. I knew that at that moment I would never forget the sights, smells and feelings that where pumping through my veins. Before my eyes I saw panic and chaos. Many of the men where pushing the woman aside, trying to get in the lifeboats. It seemed to me that when it came to extreme matters, many gentlemen forgot their gentle-manners. I could here young children crying. Most of these children would die. For Christ's sakes there weren't nearly enough lifeboats and over half these people, probably me as well would die. "Jamie," I sighed. I would survive this for Jamie. Eddie looked at me, I gulped had I said her name aloud? Then Eddie snapped and punched me. His fist collided with my right cheek. and ouch for a little guy he sure could pack a punch. "That was for me." My mouth opened but no sound came out. Then the weirdest thing happened, Eddie grabbed me by the arm and pulled me to the back of the boat, to where Jamie and I first met. We past the house band playing their sweet blues music. We past a priest saying "As I walk into the valley of the death, I shall not fear, for God is with me." He had a congregation of people with him, making the sign of the cross, and I prayed to God, please let me see Jamie again, just one more time. please. "This is for Jamie", I turned sharply to face Eddie. "What. I mean. I don't understand?" Eddie started to climb over the rail and signalled for me to join him. "She loves you. now come on! The ship is going under and you and I need to survive! Now get over this bloody rail!" I didn't need telling twice. But I didn't quite understand why I needed to go the other side of the rail but for some reason even though I stole his fiancée I trusted him. So I nodded and climbed over. I was shaking to my bones, I was scared, scared for me, scared for Jamie. She was the only reason I was trying to survive. I needed her, she was my air. I looked to my left, "Jack this was the first place we met", the boy laughed and kissed her telling her to hold on tight. He had hope, the same hope I carried. The ships backend started to rise up and I watched helplessly as hundreds of people started to fall to their doom. My grip tightened as I watched some of the falling people hit objects in their way. The priest fell, yet as he fall I could hear him saying the lords prayer, he had faith, the same faith I must have. We stayed raised up in the air for only half an hour but it felt like an eternity. I realised in that eternity many things about myself. Firstly I revealed in myself all about truth, freedom, faith, hope, beauty and most importantly love. These where the key things to life. Secondly I believe the struggle for financial freedom isn't fair. I believe the only ones to disagree are people like my father, millionaires. Thirdly what Jamie said about "without suffering there'd be no compassion" was true. I finally understood, because I was the one suffering. Then the ship started to go under, and I took a deep breath. He/he, that's it for now, I'll write again tomorrow if I have time!!!!!!! Have fun xxxLonz*xxx