I own nothing apart from Alexandria and the Cd she is listening to. Beyblade belong to some one who isnt me, and the lyrics are property of Drowning pool.
Chapter Two - Tearing away
I'm tearing away
Pieces are falling I can't seem to make them stay
You run away
Faster and faster you can't seem to get away
Break

Alex sat in her room, a white joint burning between her fingers but un-smoked. Questioning thoughts running through her mind, thoughts that questioned if she would be missed. Missed if she left the world, not just run away, left forever.
She had watched her life unfold and fall apart on her before and now everything she knew was falling apart again, all because of a comment made by a boy she hardly knew. The escape routes she had used so often before were ceasing to work, and making her escapes so much harder, so much more unbearable. If she died it would be a permanent escape. She would never have to deal with anything again.

Hope there's a reason
For questions unanswered I just don't see everything
Yes I'm inside you
Tell me how does it feel to feel like this
Just like I do

Alex crushed the joint between her fingers, the light end burned into her flesh. The small burn filled her nostril with a stank stench of burnt meat.
"Kai" she breathed his name. Did he really care? Alex wondered if she could let herself believe that there was some one out there who didn't want something from her for their care, but she had been alone for so long. It was a thought that she wasn't ready to accept.
She stood up and looked out the window on the far side of the room. The window faced the park, and she could see some kids playing on the half-pipe. There were from school, Kai was with them. Alex often wondered if the park was built there so the rest of the school could watch her as she screwed up her life. A thought that was quickly blown away because Alex knew no one cared what she did.
She watched for a while, Kai tried to grind but he messed it up and smacked to the ground. His friends laughed but helped him up. Alex watched wishing she was there, wish she wasn't always the one on the outside.

I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone
Do I really want this
Sometimes I scare myself I just can't let it go
Can you believe it
Everything happens for reasons I just don't know

But she could never be in the 'in-group', she had pushed everyone away. Alex was now considered a loner, like wolverine without the cool edge. It had never bothered Alex before, but since Kai had asked her why, it had. She took a last look at the skater boy out her window and turned around with a low growl. "Bastered" she commented, then fell back onto her bed and pressing play on her stereo. Drowning Pool's 'Tearing Away' filled the room. "I don't need or want you help, Kai Hiwatari."
Se closed her eyes fell into a deep sleep. Unaided dreams consumed her unconscious mind, revealing her subconscious thoughts to her and her alone.

I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone or anything but me
Goddamn I love me

Alex woke up to screaming. The little boy from next door, he always woke up crying or screaming. And every time he cried it made Alex shiver, it reminded her that she was on her own and no one would come if she cried.
She noted the time as 8:30, one thing the kid next door was good at was acting like an alarm. He always woke up at half eight. Just enough time to get to school, thought Alex wondered why she even bothered going.
Walking through the trees on rose street, she watched the light dance on the pavement through the leaves, like fairies. The sound of a skateboard rattled in her head.
"Hey" Alex looked up to see Kai flip his board up and catch it, "Can I walk with you for a while?"
"Free world." Alex replied and Kai took step with her.
"You know yesterday?"
"You mean the day that is usually before Today?" Alex asked sarcastically, earning a Scowl off Kai.
"About what we were talking about. I wanted to say…
Suddenly Alex didn't want to hear it. What if he was going to say he didn't care, she couldn't handle it, "I don't need your pity." She glared at him cutting him off, and then stepped up her pace. Leaving Kai to stare after her.
"I just wanted to say I do care." He muttered to the girl back but she didn't hear, she was too wrapped up in her misery to see he wanted to help.
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