Beyblade nor lyrics belong to me, I can only lay claim Alexandria and a few Cd's and a few anime DVD's.


Chapter five - Mute
Shouldn't have that far to go
The less you think the more you know
It seems the dream is impossible
Never made a difference so why should you

"Alex!" Kai spotted her and called her over. He said something to the helper, who then walked off. Alex didn't move she didn't want to seem like she was waiting for him.
"What are you doing here?" he asked, his crimson eyes seemed to be searching for an answer in her.
"Walking." She kept her tone cold.
"Funny." He replied, "there's a party type thing later at the youth club. You want go?"
"You mean at the help clinic?" Alex asked, twigging on why he was helping her, she was his project.

Every person who went to the centre had to do a community service project, Alex had been approached before by some one who wanted to help her from there, she remembered his name was Rai. He had been straight with her and actually told her that it was a project, that was when she started to pull away from people all together. They pitied her and she couldn't bare it, so she delt with I the only way she knew how, she ran from it.

"Yeah" Kai answered, Alex noted him not looking at her as he answered. Kai didn't care about her, he cared about his stupid project. Everything she had come to believe about him was lie. He was working with the guy from the centre to achieve a goal. They didn't really care what happened to her, they just wanted something to boast about.
"Bastered." Alex spat the word at him, and turned away anger burning insider. Anger at herself for trusting him and anger at Kai for betraying her trust.
"Alex" Kai objected, grabbing her arm and turning her around.
"Don't touch me" she yanked her arm away form him, "Dot talk to me. Don't even think about me." Alex warned him, the image of him holding her that had been in her mind a short time ago was smashed and replaced by an image of Alex strangling him.

Promise me you won't look at me
There's nothing left here to talk about
There's nothing left

"What have I done?" Kai asked, not realising the extant of her anger.
"What have you done?" she mimicked him mockingly, "You have used me. You have lied to me. Isn't that enough?" her face had become flushed through shouting, "you know how that makes me feel? Totally violated. I trusted you and you betrayed me, just like everyone else." Alex paused for a second allowing herself to calm down, "You aren't any different to them"
Kai looked at her blankly, "I am sor…"
"No. No you aren't, so don't say it. Don't ever come near me again." With that she turned and ran back to the wooded area, where Josh stood waiting for her to come back.
No matter how hard I try
The lonely one refuses to die
Someday I will be a better man
Never made a difference so why should I
Promise me you won't look at me

Alex sat in her room, the curtain drawn. She sat huddled in the corner with her little black box beside her, thinking. Thinking of how Kai had betrayed her, he was just like everyone else. It was all a lie, no truth to any of it. Alex felt her heart flutter as if it was pleading, that was a lie too. She couldn't love him if everything she knew about him was a lie. What she felt was just a lie so why tolerate something that will hurt her more.
"Everything is back to how it was." She thought aloud, sitting in her room contemplating escape, hating everyone outside of her room, and hating herself. Just like before Kai came into her life. Unable to secure a permanent escape through reasons she couldn't explain. Always alone in a hell that wouldn't let her out, that was Alex.
"I'm such a fool" she spoke to the window, hoping Kai would hear but knowing he wouldn't. Part of her hoping her would burst through the door and stop her form reaching in to her black box and attempting yet another escape, part of her wanted so badly for him to tear the white little stick from her lips and throw it away. But he didn't.


The End? Naw, havent put in my favourite song yet.