Only Alex is mine, the lyrics belog to Him (bet you thought I was going to say Drowning pool!) and Kai belongs to Beyblade people.
Sorry this took so long I dont know what happened, I just kinda started writing other stuff and slightly forgot this one, but there's a new chapter now let just hope I dont forget again.
Chapter seven - Beyond Redemption
Oh I see your scars I know where they from
Sensually carved and bleed until you're dead and gone
I've seen it all before beauty splendid soul
It's when heaven turns to black and hell to white
Right's to wrong and wrong's to right
"What are you doing here then?" Kai asked again, he didn't get where his anger was coming from. Seconds before he had been freaking out about her and now he knew she was okay he was being nasty but he couldn't stop himself, nor could he bare to say sorry.
"I .." Alex couldn't answer, she didn't know why she was here. Her hair slipped from behind her ear and into her face covering her eyes, covering the tears that she was fighting to conceal and winning.
"Well?" he pressed, unable to stop himself.
"I wanted to see you, I think." She breathed the reply not wanting him to hear it but wanting him to hear it at the same time. People wear still dancing around them, Alex watched them feeling more alone than she had ever felt before. Even with Kai there, she felt alone.
"Why do you want to see me?" His voice was more hostile than he meant it to be, as I had been since he began talking to her that night.
Alex looked him straight in the eyes, the same question was in her mind. She shook her head and turned from him. She always turned from him, it was always here that walked away, why. Was there something she was running from? Alex let a smile seize her face, she was always running, escaping from a pain that haunted her.
"Alex." Kai called behind her, he always did that. "I didn't mean for you to go."
She turned to look back at him, giving an unreadable expression. Then shook her head, " I think I get it." She told him, not revealing that she realised that she cared for him deeply. "This isn't right, none of it." Alex almost tried to explain that she wasn't right for him, he need someone who wouldn't throw everything back in his face. He deserved someone better than Alex. She looked at him, he was angel, Alex cursed herself for never noticing it before. He was really an angel trying to help, not trying to use her at all.
Feeling turning your heart into stone
Feeling piercing your courageous soul
Beyond now - redemption
No one's gonna catch you when you fall
Alex smiled at him, "It's not right."
She didn't care that she sounded as she was verging on insanity all she cared was that he didn't come after her.
"Where are you going?" he asked pleading to her back as he so often did when she walked away from him. "What's not right?" For the first time that night Kai didn't sound hostile, he sounded confused.
Alex felt her heart twitch, she need to do this. She could ruin her life but she would refuse to hurt Kai. He didn't deserve it, where as her deserving was questionable.
"Alex, look at me." Kai grabbed her arm and spun her round to face him, "What isn't right?"
Alex looked at the grip he held her in and he let go. "Being here." She still didn't meet his expectant gaze. "I have to go."
"Don't."
Kai sent messages that got so mixed up, first he wanted her there then he didn't and he did. Shame Alex couldn't stand to be here anymore. "I cant care any more, I cant." Alex muttered to herself as she pulled herself away from Kai's pleading gaze, a small smile still hovered on her pale pink lips
"Alexandria…"
Alex smiled, people only called her that when they was serious. She turned to face him again. His eyes met hers and fire burned in them, like she had never seen them before. "Don't. I can't care for you." She heard Kai gulp and watched his adams apple gently bob up then down.
"So you 'like' me?" he emphasised the word like.
Alex wondered if she could lie to him, would he see through her, would care? Did she want him to know she cared for him more deeply than anyone before? She had to question if she even did care for him or was it just yearning, a yearning to be able to feel another person's want. No, she could lie to him. Well, maybe she could but she didn't want to. .
"yes." A twinkle appeared in his eyes over the fiery stare in his eyes, "But I cant." The second part of her answer wiped all the fire from his eyes, leaving them dull.
He frowned, it didn't suit him, he could smirk, smile and pull a stern face but frowns didn't suit him.
"I don't get it." He took a step towards her, "You like me, I like you. What the problem?"
Alex cocked her head to the side, "I'm the problem".
Oh I see you crawl you can barely walk
With arms wide open you keep on begging for more
I've been there before knocking on the same door
It's when hate turns to love and love to hate
Faith to doubt and doubts to faith
It was evident that he still didn't understand what she was trying to say, she didn't understand so why did she expect him to. Alex turned away from him once more, maybe she would actually be able to make it out this time. Alex could almost hear Kai standing there in his confusion hoping she wouldn't walk away.
Alex cocked her head over her shoulder, a last look at what could have been. "Bye" she whispered knowing her couldn't hear.
She walked across to the park, it was empty. Empty and quiet, just the way she like it. She wondered over to the Half pipe, it was decorated with black smear marks. She ran her finger over the marks, they were scars. Alex wondered where her scars were, she'd probably been hurt more than a half pipe but she had no scars to prove it. Maybe all the pain she had suffered was just in her head, maybe she created all the suffering the made her want to escape. If that was true then she was the problem and should die. That still didn't sound right, it wasn't dieing, it was escaping, it was freeing the world of her, it was right. Wasn't it?
Alex slammed her fist on to the half pipe, everything was easy before Kai, this was Kai's doing. One comment from him flipped her world, why? What influence did that boy have over her? None, so did she flip her world form him.
"I hate you Kai. I hate you with all my heart" She said, not meaning a world of it. Also not seeing the boy standing a few feet behind her, listening to her out break of forced hatred.
Tears stained her face, but the smile she wore still played o her lips. "Why. Why do I feel this way?" she plead turning her gaze to the sliver moon that hung behind a cloudy sky, part of her brain registered it was going to rain and that she go inside. Another part of her brain coxed her to stay out side and try catching ammonia then maybe she could die and Kai wouldn't blame her for it.
Sorry this took so long I dont know what happened, I just kinda started writing other stuff and slightly forgot this one, but there's a new chapter now let just hope I dont forget again.
Chapter seven - Beyond Redemption
Sensually carved and bleed until you're dead and gone
I've seen it all before beauty splendid soul
It's when heaven turns to black and hell to white
Right's to wrong and wrong's to right
"What are you doing here then?" Kai asked again, he didn't get where his anger was coming from. Seconds before he had been freaking out about her and now he knew she was okay he was being nasty but he couldn't stop himself, nor could he bare to say sorry.
"I .." Alex couldn't answer, she didn't know why she was here. Her hair slipped from behind her ear and into her face covering her eyes, covering the tears that she was fighting to conceal and winning.
"Well?" he pressed, unable to stop himself.
"I wanted to see you, I think." She breathed the reply not wanting him to hear it but wanting him to hear it at the same time. People wear still dancing around them, Alex watched them feeling more alone than she had ever felt before. Even with Kai there, she felt alone.
"Why do you want to see me?" His voice was more hostile than he meant it to be, as I had been since he began talking to her that night.
Alex looked him straight in the eyes, the same question was in her mind. She shook her head and turned from him. She always turned from him, it was always here that walked away, why. Was there something she was running from? Alex let a smile seize her face, she was always running, escaping from a pain that haunted her.
"Alex." Kai called behind her, he always did that. "I didn't mean for you to go."
She turned to look back at him, giving an unreadable expression. Then shook her head, " I think I get it." She told him, not revealing that she realised that she cared for him deeply. "This isn't right, none of it." Alex almost tried to explain that she wasn't right for him, he need someone who wouldn't throw everything back in his face. He deserved someone better than Alex. She looked at him, he was angel, Alex cursed herself for never noticing it before. He was really an angel trying to help, not trying to use her at all.
Feeling turning your heart into stone
Feeling piercing your courageous soul
Beyond now - redemption
No one's gonna catch you when you fall
Alex smiled at him, "It's not right."
She didn't care that she sounded as she was verging on insanity all she cared was that he didn't come after her.
"Where are you going?" he asked pleading to her back as he so often did when she walked away from him. "What's not right?" For the first time that night Kai didn't sound hostile, he sounded confused.
Alex felt her heart twitch, she need to do this. She could ruin her life but she would refuse to hurt Kai. He didn't deserve it, where as her deserving was questionable.
"Alex, look at me." Kai grabbed her arm and spun her round to face him, "What isn't right?"
Alex looked at the grip he held her in and he let go. "Being here." She still didn't meet his expectant gaze. "I have to go."
"Don't."
Kai sent messages that got so mixed up, first he wanted her there then he didn't and he did. Shame Alex couldn't stand to be here anymore. "I cant care any more, I cant." Alex muttered to herself as she pulled herself away from Kai's pleading gaze, a small smile still hovered on her pale pink lips
"Alexandria…"
Alex smiled, people only called her that when they was serious. She turned to face him again. His eyes met hers and fire burned in them, like she had never seen them before. "Don't. I can't care for you." She heard Kai gulp and watched his adams apple gently bob up then down.
"So you 'like' me?" he emphasised the word like.
Alex wondered if she could lie to him, would he see through her, would care? Did she want him to know she cared for him more deeply than anyone before? She had to question if she even did care for him or was it just yearning, a yearning to be able to feel another person's want. No, she could lie to him. Well, maybe she could but she didn't want to. .
"yes." A twinkle appeared in his eyes over the fiery stare in his eyes, "But I cant." The second part of her answer wiped all the fire from his eyes, leaving them dull.
He frowned, it didn't suit him, he could smirk, smile and pull a stern face but frowns didn't suit him.
"I don't get it." He took a step towards her, "You like me, I like you. What the problem?"
Alex cocked her head to the side, "I'm the problem".
Oh I see you crawl you can barely walk
With arms wide open you keep on begging for more
I've been there before knocking on the same door
It's when hate turns to love and love to hate
Faith to doubt and doubts to faith
It was evident that he still didn't understand what she was trying to say, she didn't understand so why did she expect him to. Alex turned away from him once more, maybe she would actually be able to make it out this time. Alex could almost hear Kai standing there in his confusion hoping she wouldn't walk away.
Alex cocked her head over her shoulder, a last look at what could have been. "Bye" she whispered knowing her couldn't hear.
She walked across to the park, it was empty. Empty and quiet, just the way she like it. She wondered over to the Half pipe, it was decorated with black smear marks. She ran her finger over the marks, they were scars. Alex wondered where her scars were, she'd probably been hurt more than a half pipe but she had no scars to prove it. Maybe all the pain she had suffered was just in her head, maybe she created all the suffering the made her want to escape. If that was true then she was the problem and should die. That still didn't sound right, it wasn't dieing, it was escaping, it was freeing the world of her, it was right. Wasn't it?
Alex slammed her fist on to the half pipe, everything was easy before Kai, this was Kai's doing. One comment from him flipped her world, why? What influence did that boy have over her? None, so did she flip her world form him.
"I hate you Kai. I hate you with all my heart" She said, not meaning a world of it. Also not seeing the boy standing a few feet behind her, listening to her out break of forced hatred.
Tears stained her face, but the smile she wore still played o her lips. "Why. Why do I feel this way?" she plead turning her gaze to the sliver moon that hung behind a cloudy sky, part of her brain registered it was going to rain and that she go inside. Another part of her brain coxed her to stay out side and try catching ammonia then maybe she could die and Kai wouldn't blame her for it.
