Its alive! Alive I say! Mwahahaha.
Yeah another chappie, if your still interested in reading this.
Kai does not belong to me, no do the drowning pool lyrics only Alex is my creation.
Also remember to pay your respects today is the day of the anniversary of Dave Williams, the lead singers, death. (14 August)


Chapter Eight - Reminded
Down too long like I was before
And I've never thought I'd see the day
Can't be wrong 'cause I know the score
And I guess there is no other way
Reminded of you
Reminded

"Why!" Alex said again and kicked the base of the skating apparatus in front of her.
"Its getting cold, we should go in." the boy behind her spoke making her jump.
"You." Alex stated, the boy who was talking to Kai when she arrived stood with his hands in his black combat pockets and his golden eyes fixed on Alex.
"The names Rei Kon." He said, then walked and stood beside Alex, "We're going to get wet." As he spoke little droplets began their attack on two teenagers and anyone else who was outside.
Alex watched Rei shake his head, in an attempt to rid himself of the water droplets that were fast collecting in his hair, it reminded her of the black cat down the road when it accidentally got sprayed with water.
"I don't want to." she told him, letting the cold water run down her back and give system a small shock from the cold.
"You're going to hurt him, you know that right?" Rei told in an offhanded tone, he had stopped trying to get the water out of his hair and now let it drip, sticking long black strands to any exposed skin.
Alex didn't answer, him at first instead she bit down on her lower lip, hoping the pain might jog her brain in to answering. It didn't.
"You know that he really cares for you, he wont stop talking about you." Rei paused allowing Alex to absorb the information, "he keeps telling us how the ones who bad mouth you are wrong. How you are just misunderstood." He paused again, probably waiting for an answer off Alex when he didn't get one he continued, "Are you going to prove him Right? Or are you going to do what everyone thinks you're going to do and break his heart?"
Alex felt tears welling up in her eyes, "I thought he hated me…" she meet his eyes, "I'll hurt him if I get close to him, like I do to everyone else." Alex tried to rationalize her early actions in her head then explain then to Rei, but as she spoke the got mixed up which in turn made them get mixed up in her thoughts.
"Getting close to you and getting hurt is risk he want to take, let him take it." Rei whispered over the rain, his words crushing all of her arguments not to go back to Kai.
Alex suddenly crouched over and fell to her knees, she clutched her head in her hands and let out a loud sob. It happened again everything she knew was failing her, she need to leave, she needed to think. Without Rei's helping hand up, she stood and ran, ran back to her room, the rain cutting in to her skin as it grew colder and froze to hailstones.
There it is all in black and white
And it looks like that's the way it goes
Doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
'Cause by now I'm sure that I know
Never felt so undecided
Everything I've ever had has been taken away

Alex had run past the man who wasn't her father and straight in to her darken room, she threw herself on to her bed and let her body just fall where it did. Her hands had reached the other end of the bed and now lay partially under the bed touching a small box that lay there.
It had been a day since she had anything from that box, her body ached for it but heart ached for Kai, and that yearning seemed to be the only thing that was keeping her sane but at the same time it drove her in to confusion. She pulled herself further to the side of the bed, creasing the sheets as she did so. When she was eye level with the box, she peered over the edge at it. Her thoughts flicker to Kai then to Rei and what he said.
She sighed, every time she thought she had it sorted, something or some one upset her way of thinking. She reached over and clicked the box open, it was nearly empty. She lit one of the contents and put it to her lips, this was the only consent in her life. At least that's what Alex had always believed.

The door slammed open, Alex barely noticed she was too involved watching the colours in her room mutate. "Get out!" A purple man yelled at her, the man who wasn't her father had grabbed hold of her and was now dragging her out the her room. Alex felt it and she knew what was going on but the effect of her escape was still strong, besides she didn't want to do anything.
She listen to him yell about how she treated the house like a hotel and she never helped out and she brought crap in the house and used it.
His words rained down on her like the rain, which had now stopped but threaten to pour again soon, like the water she let his words course over her not really taking any notice but knowing it was there.
The door slammed and Alex leaned against it, she had nothing now, not that she had anything to begin with.
Little boy so scared and frightened
All of the things that have happened I'm surely to blame
Accept your fate then you'll be well but the truth is that it never ends
You can say that you've been through hell
But you'll always lose another friend

Tears wanted to beat down her face, part of her told her she should be begging his forgiveness and trying to regain her place in the house. But she didn't want to. She didn't want to ever see him again, she didn't care that she had nowhere to go, it somehow didn't seem to matter, none of it mattered to her. She looked at the clothes he had thrown out after her, nothing of importance and no black box. Alex then wanted to cry, her little box of escapes wasn't with her, he'd kept it.
She closed her eyes, still not moved from her leaned position against the door she'd just been thrown from. Her thoughts emptied, her stare went blank and the rain still patted down on her, soaking her to the skin.

Morning come Alex still hadn't moved from her feeble position last night, still nothing possessed her thoughts. She sat waiting to be moved along in a comatose state. Tears still threatened her eyes from the loss of her box, nothing changed for her as the morning came. Still stuck in hell, still addicted to escape and her knight in shining armour was nowhere to be seen.

The door behind her opened the man who wasn't her father anymore glared at her, he kicked the girl at the base of his door away so he could pass by. The pain from the kick couldn't seem to jog her out of the state she'd fallen in to.
"Move off my land!" he growled at her then stalked back in the house formally know Alex's residence. She dragged her self up, not conscious of what she was doing and walked off the uncovered porch to the street, where she just followed the path to anywhere.

The first thought since last night entered her thoughts in a sort of blur, mainly because she couldn't concentrate on one thing. She thought of the day she promised she would never cry again. The day her mother moved out and left her with her stepfather. She lost everything that day.
Never felt so unimportant
Everything I've ever said has been taken in vain
Little girl so scared and frightened
All of the things that I do are still subject to change

Alex walked unaware of the people around her, she found herself walking towards the park. She ended up in the forestry part of the park, in her what was her paradise. It was so cover that not even the morning sun could penetrate the canopy that covered it. She sat down in the middle and closed her eye letting the quiet wash over her. Letting the nothingness become part of her, or her part of the nothingness, she couldn't figure out which was happening. Though the latter option seemed more applicable.

She sat there and listened for anyone, but not wanting to talk to them. Eventually she heard Kai came by with a bunch of his friends, she tried to listen to what they were saying but she found it to hard to concentrate. They didn't see her tucked away in the cover area, for that she was glad, Alex didn't want to disappoint Kai. She cared for him, more than anyone she could remember.

"Hey" a voice intrude in her cloud of thought, "Alex, you alright?"
"Kai?" she looked up, expecting to see disapproving crimson eyes filled with concern. She didn't instead she saw greyish eyes that glittered with a smile. "Josh, hi."
He moved to sit beside her, then slide his arm round her, "can I do anything for you today?" he asked, smiling at her.
Alex opened her mouth then paused, Kai would hate her if she said yes but on the other hand everything would stop hurting, "Yes" her voice was a whisper as she was afraid Kai would hear it. Though if that was the case she should have screamed it, and he would have come to save her like the knight in shinning armour he was playing.