A/n: so what did u think of the prologue? (Hopefully you're saying nice words and comments to that to that). Anyway, here is chapter 1. Please keep reading and reviewing! Thanks to those of you who did. We love to here what you think!

Finding love

Chapter 1

It had been almost a year since Lily's Hogwarts Graduation. She had spent the summer with her parents and sister as she had originally plan.

Lily's sister Petunia had been unbearable. Her sister found great humor in the events that had happened the night of Lily's graduation. Lily started avoiding her parents and sister by the end of summer. Her mother thought she was a fragile emotional wreck. Petunia started laughing when even the subject of James was brought up, which she tried to bring up at every chance she got.

Luckily, Petunia wasn't in the house very much. She was busy spending most of her time with her own fiancée, Vernon Dursley. Lily didn't like him. He was always looking at her as if she was some lower human being.

Lily spent most of her time up in her room. She talked with many of her friends from Hogwarts through the owl post. Finally, the summer was over. Two weeks into September, Lily moved out of her parents' house and into a flat in Diagon Alley. She got a job in one of the many little shops by her flat. She decided to take a job at a second hand book shop.

Shortly after she had moved out, she got a letter from Dumbledore. In the letter he asked her to join a secret society of wizards and witches that fought against Voldemort and his followers. It was called the Order of the Phoenix. She quickly wrote back to him excepting his offer.

Most of her time was now full. Between work and the Order, she had no time to let her mind go back to that night and the love she lost. For this, she was thankful. She was hoping that she could finally move on.

Fall and winter quickly passed. By the time spring had come, Lily was quite use to living on her own and she enjoyed it very much. She even started dating again, but none of them went pass the first date.

One day in late spring, someone walked into the book store where she worked, that she hadn't seen in almost a year.

"Lil, is that you?" said the young man who had just walked in. "I can't believe it! I though you fell off the earth."

"Sirius?" Lily said as soon as she saw him. "How are you? What have you been up to?"

"I've been working on a few odd jobs for Dumbledore and I have a part time job in hogsmead. I'm still living with James to." He added.

"Are you apart," Lily began before lowering her voice. "Of the order?"

"Yeah, how did you know? Are you?" Sirius asked.

"Yes. I joined in the fall. I've never seen you at the meetings." Lily said.

"Well, I'm usually late and usually leave early." Sirius said.

"Oh," she said.

"Lily, would you mind if I ask you a question?" Sirius said after a pause.

"Sure," Lily replied.

"Do you still think of him? James I mean, because he still thinks of you everyday." Sirius said.

"Yes," Lily said softly.

"Then why didn't you come back?" Sirius asked.

"Why didn't James follow me?" She asked.

"I told him not to, and I'm sorry I didn't let him follow you. The two of you are meant for each other and for great things." Sirius said.

"Then why aren't we together?" Lily asked as tears stared to form in her eyes. "Did he not mean anything he said to me? Did he not truly love me and he just didn't know how to break it off, so he broke my heart?" she said as she wiped tears out of her eyes.

"He still loves you. He always has. He's miserable without you. This past summer was hell with him. He acted as if someone had died. And in a way someone had." He said.

"Why did he kiss that other girl then?" she asked.

"She told James she wanted to ask him something and then all of a sudden she just jumped on him and started kissing him." Sirius explained.

"So, you're trying to tell me that she just attacked him!" Lily said raising her voice. "I really don't think so!"

"It's the truth. She had had a thing James for months. She was jealous of you. You had everything she wanted." Sirius explained.

"Then why didn't James come and tell me all of this?" Lily asked.

"He thought you never wanted to see him again and he didn't want to upset you anymore." He said before looking down at his watch. "I'm so sorry; I have to go meet James. Do you want to come?"

"I can't. I have work." Lily said. "Bye."

"Bye, I'll talk to you later." Sirius said before turning around and walking out of the store.

'Great, just what I need. Just when I think I'm getting over James, I get a reminder of him.' Lily thought to herself. 'Why me?'

Lily sighed and tried to get her mind back onto work, but that was quite hard. For one thing, the book shop was dead. There was never very much business and so Lily sat there day dreaming for the rest of the day.

After hours of doing nothing all day, Lily left work and headed down the street towards her flat. She was half way there when she remembered she had a Order meeting the following night. She was also supposed to get her first assignment.

Although she had been apart of the Order for almost nine months, she had never had a true assignment. She wasn't expecting anything big, just something small that she could do so that she felt involved. She felt so out of place during the meetings.

She continued to walk down the street and up to her flat as she thought about all of this.

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The fallowing day started off much like every other day. Lily woke up and prepared for work. She had a short day there today because of the Order meeting that afternoon. Lily walked slowly off to work ready for another boring day, unlike the day before.

She made it into work just on time. She sat there most of the day flipping through the latest issue of Witch weekly. No one really ever came to the little shop except right before the new school term began and of course the few people looking for older books no longer in print.

Finally after what seemed like longer then just four hours, Lily left work and headed to where the Order of the Phoenix meeting was being held. When she reached the headquarters, she took a seat off to the side and waited for it to begin.

Finally, everyone that was supposed to be there had arrived and Dumbledore began the meeting. He discussed the current problems that Voldemort had come across. At the end of the meeting, Dumbledore issued the orders to people for their new assignments.

"Ms. Evans, it's so nice to see you. You will be working with Mr. Potter. The two of you will be recruiting new members." Dumbledore said.

"Um, sir, not to sound rude, but I don't think it's the best idea for you to have James and me working together." Lily began. "We haven't seen each other in almost a year and the last time we were together it didn't end very well."

"Well Lily, I can't change your assignments. The two of you are just going to have to work together." Dumbledore replied.

"Alright," Lily said, not wanting to protest anymore.

"Great, then I guess you can go and find James and the two of you can start on you assignment. I want a report on every one you get." Dumbledore said before turning around and walking away.

Great, just great. That's much easier said then done. I'm supposed to just walk up to James after not talking to him in over a year. Lily thought as she took a deep breath and looked around trying to figure out where James was. Luckily, he was just across the room talking with Sirius and Remus. She took another deep breath and walked over.

"Lils!" Remus said when he saw her, which caught James's attention. He looked over at her amazed to see her.

"Hello Remus, Sirius." Lily replied before turning to James. "Dumbledore has assigned us a recruiting mission together. We are to start as soon as possible and to report back on each person we get."

"Ok. But how are we supposed to work together when you can't even look at me?" James asked.

"I'm not sure, but I guess you should have thought about that a year ago." Lily said stiffly.

"You never let me explain." James said.

"What was there to explain? You were obviously enjoying yourself." Lily replied. "But, I'm not going to fight with you here. We have a job to do, and we will do it professionally. And then, after we finish, we can go back to acting as if we never really knew each other."

"What if that's not what I want?" James asked.

"Then I guess that's too bad." Lily said. "Now can go and get started on this mission so I can get it pass me."

"Fine," James replied before following Lily out of the room and back out side in to the early summer air.