A/N: They changed my pen name to Lady J4!!! So I decided to go check who stole the original "Lady J". She had one story...that story sounded familiar...it was as if I had written it. Hahaha...that's right. I then realized that I had registered in 2001 and had written one Batman ff. I didn't even know I used this exact pen name! So, what I did was change her(my) pen name (took me a while to figure out the email address and the password I used) and quickly renamed myself back to Lady J. Mwahahaha!!


Torichirou opened his eyes slowly. He blinked several times to clear up his blurred vision. An unfamiliar ceiling hung above him. "Where am I?" he asked in a dry voice.

"Torichirou! Thank God you are alright!" Several relieved voices exclaimed at once. He turned his head and next to the bed were his parents and Sai. They all looked worried with a thankful smile.

"I was calling you for dinner and you didn't reply! When I came up, I found you lying on the floor unconscious! I was so worried!" His mom explained, still a little shocked.

"What happened, son?" Mr. Murata asked with concern.

Torichirou stole a glance of Sai and hesitated, "I don't know. I was playing online games and suddenly my head hurt really badly. The next thing I know, I am at this hospital."

His parents weren't quite satisfied with his answer. They wished they knew what had caused his blackout. It would be quite dangerous if he just fainted for no reason. They looked at each other, both worried that the boy would pass out suddenly walking on the streets.

"I think I'll stay with him tonight," Mrs. Murata suggested. Then she felt a comforting hand on the shoulder. "Honey, you are tired out. Why don't I go home with you now and come back tomorrow?"

"But this is not the first time!" she raised her voice, insisting on staying with her son. "He fainted at the memorial two months ago!"

"Don't worry, Mom," Torichirou assured her with a smile. "I'm fine. I probably was too concentrated on the game or something. I should be able to check out any time now."

Seeing the bright smile, the woman finally gave in and left with her husband after making Torichirou promise to take good care of himself.

As the door closed, the boy spoke up before Sai had a chance to say anything, "Sai, I had another dream."

The Go expert studied him curiously. "I've been been having headaches, visions and dreams occasionally ever since I met you," he continued as he turned to face Sai with a serious look. "I think I'm the reincarnation of Torajiro."

The ghost stared at the boy, stunned by his words, not quite sure where this conclusion of his came from. "What makes you think so?"

"The visions and the dreams, I think they are all events of Torajiro's lifetime," That would make sense. That would explain why Sai had been sent back to earth and become attached to Torichirou. Sai listened carefully with great interest as the patient told him about his visions and dreams. As the boy described the games and matches, Sai knew for sure this child before him was the reincarnation of his first 'host', since he recognized all of them. They were all played by him through Torajiro a hundred and forty years ago.

Sai hugged the boy uncontrollably as he sobbed, "TORAJIRO!!! I missed you!! You left me alone in the world!"

"I'm sorry, Sai," Torichirou was a little surprised by his action. "But..umm.. I have absolutely no memory of my previous life. I just had these weird visions of Go games."

Sai blinked and was silent for a second, arms still around the boy. Suddenly, he cried again, "That means you miss me too!!!"

"Perhaps," he smiled and gave a pat on Sai's back. "But don't call me Torajiro. It's To-RI-CHI-rou."

"Hey, what happened to that game against Hikaru? We won, right?" Torichirou remembered. Sai finally let go of the child and nodded. "He resigned. I think he sent a message too, but I had no clue what he wanted to say."

"Do you think he was upset that he lost again?" He asked thoughtfully.

"Nah," the ghost waved, looking as if he knew the boy very well. "He has never won me before. He is probably used to it by now. One more lost doesn't make much of a difference."

However, Sai frowned as he recalled the online conversation earlier. "But then...I don't know if he was upset when he learned that I am with you now."

"Do you want to meet him?" Torichirou offered hesitantly as their eyes met.

* * * * * * *

"Hikaru, it's for you," Mrs. Shindou called from downstairs.

"Hai~" Hikaru put down the stones as stood up from the game that he was replaying and hurried to the phone. "Hello?"

"Hikaru?" The other end asked.

"Yes," he answered. Although the person must know him well enough to call him by his first name, Hikaru could not recognize the voice. "Who is this?"

"It's Murata Torichirou," the voice replied. The pro froze for a minute. He did not know what to say. Why is he calling? To mock me?

When Hikaru did not respond for a long period, Torichirou spoke again with a forceful laugh, "Ha, it was a lot of trouble looking up your number since you are not listed in the phone book. We called several wrong numbers before finally reaching you. Ha ha ha."

Then the blond heard him yell, "Shut up, Sai! It was your fault! I can't believe you didn't know Hikaru's number even after living with him for two whole years!"

"I never had to call him!" Sai protested, inaudible to Hikaru.

"Sure sure...whatever," Torichirou returned to the phone. "Sorry about that...umm...Would you like to meet?"

Hearing the boy yelling at Sai reminded Hikaru of all the arguments that they used to have. It was exactly how he used to yell at Sai, blaming him on everything that had gone wrong. He missed all the moments that they had spent together. It was as if he should've been the one yelling at Sai at the moment. He felt like Sai had been stolen from him.

"Of course," he agreed with a sad smile. A million questions had already popped up in his mind, ready to be answered.

* * * * * * *

Walking down the hospital hallway, every step made Hikaru's heart beat faster. He finally reached the door to his destination. Murata, reads the sign on the door. A private room. He must be rich. He knocked on the door after standing outside for several minutes and walked in. The boy was in bed, smiling politely at him as he returned the smile.

"Are you feeling better?" Hikaru asked routinely. He didn't quite recognize the boy, probably because of the missing orange cap on his head.

"Ya, thanks for asking," Torichirou wasn't exactly sure how he should start the conversation. He had been planning since he had gotten off the phone with Hikaru the night before, but rehearsals were always different from the real thing. "Umm..."

"Are you sick?" The older boy inquired.

"Hmm? No, I mean, Yes. Well, I passed out," he stammered.

Hikaru recalled the last time he fainted when the day he met Sai. Whenever Sai got depressed, he would feel ill. He chuckled, "Did Sai get depressed?"

"Depressed?" The patient wasn't sure where that came from. "No. Not really."

Torichirou's confused expression made the pro realized that the boy must've not seen Sai depressed. Sai must've been really happy with this boy. At least he lets him play Go. The only time that I fainted was the time I first met Sai. He was way too happy that I couldn't handle his overflowing joy. Hikaru studied the boy, who was currently mumbling something to Sai. So he must've made Sai really happy.

"We were playing you online, and in the middle of the game, I passed out." Torichirou explained. "Did you notice how I sort of just left?"

The pro pondered for a minute and recalled the time he had thought they had been disconnected. "Yes, after I resign."

"Umm..actually it was before that. I was out after that last move. I didn't see you resign, but Sai did," Torichirou pointed his thumb to the empty space to his left. Hikaru stared at the space, knowing that Sai was standing right there. The ghost stared back at him, straight into his eyes. "Hikaru, can you see me?"

The blond was silent as Torichirou's glance traveled between the two. "I don't think so, Sai," he finally spoke out loud, then turned to the older boy. "You can't, right?"

Hikaru furrowed his eyebrows, obvious that he didn't hear Sai's words.

"You can't see Sai, can you?"

His eyes returned to the empty space, which Sai was supposed to be occupying. He squinted, as if Sai would materialize if he concentrated hard enough. Unfortunately, he did not have eyes of Kuwabara. Hikaru lowered his head in defeat, yet still trying to act cool about it. "No."

"Why did you leave me, Sai?" he demanded an answer. Against his will, tears started to form. "You didn't even say goodbye!"

"I tried to tell you, Hikaru! But you didn't believe me. I didn't leave by choice!" Sai shouted.

~ S ~ I ~ L ~ E ~ N ~ C ~ E ~

Torichirou blinked, and suddenly realized that it was his turn as the middle person to deliver the message. "Umm..he said he tried to tell you and you didn't believe him and ..uh...he didn't have a choice," he tried his best to recite everything Sai had said.

"Right," Hikaru snorted sarcastically. Finally, Sai noticed his watery eyes. "Hikaru, you are crying?"

Torichirou leaned forward to take a closer look curiously, "Is he really?"

Hikaru looked up at the boy strangely when he felt his eyes on him.

"I've never seen him cry before," the ghost commented.

"Uh...Sai said he's never seen you cry before," the boy said quickly, trying to get rid of the what-are-you-staring-at-me-so-strangely-for look on Hikaru's face.

The pro snickered dryly, "Really? I hate to admit this, but from what I remember, I've been crying quite often ever since you left." It was true. He had never shed a tear the entire time he had spent with Sai. But he had cried for the first time in two years, when he had not been able to find the ghost after a desperate search. He had cried once more when he had found Sai in his Go when playing against Isumi. Then he had cried again at the end of the North Star Cup. Over and over again, he had cried many times recently after he had seen Sai on the Internet. "Do you know how many drops of tears you have made me shed, Sai?"

The ghost stared at the boy, touched. He had not known how much grief he had brought the pro until now. On the other hand, he was grateful that he held an important place in Hikaru's heart. "I'm sorry, Hikaru."

"He apologized," Torichirou passed on the message.

"Apologizing isn't going to help," Hikaru snapped bluntly.

The patient turned to Sai to see what he was going to say. The purple-haired ghost said passionately, "Hikaru, listen! I've enjoyed the time we've spent together, and I'll treasure our memories forever."

"He said he's enjoyed the time you two spent with each other and that he'll treasure the memories forever."

"Sure you did," Hikaru said sarcastically. "Especially when I didn't even let you play Go, eh? I wasn't anything like your Torajirou."

"Hikaru!" Sai shouted, upset that he had these kind of thoughts. "The way you had forced yourself to learn Go while you had absolutely no interest in this game, the way you had let me play on the Internet in my own name, and the way you had arrange the game with Touya Koyo for me... it was more than enough!"

"Sai is really stressed by the way you are thinking right now," Torichirou informed the pro, eyes still on the emotional Sai. "He said the way you had forced yourself to learn Go when you had absolutely no interest in this game, the way you had let him play on the Internet in his own name, and the way you had arrange the game with Touya Koyo for him was way more than enough." The boy smiled proudly at himself for being able to repeat such a long sentence perfectly.

Hikaru pondered for a minute and asked quietly, "Is that really true? You were happy?" His tone was hopeful when he asked the question.

"Yes, I was. Very happy," Sai smiled brightly with a pair of sad eyes, wishing that he had never left Hikaru. As if he had heard the inaudible reply, Hikaru smiled, finally relieved to know that the ghost did not leave disappointedly.

"Sai, can we review the game from last time?" Hikaru asked as he wiped his tears away with the back of his hand.

"Of course! Sai said you've improved a lot since you two departed!" The younger boy said eagerly. He, too, had been influenced by Sai as his interest in Go had been growing rapidly as days passed by.

Hikaru smiled once again as he was about to head home, since he had learned that Sai had not thought of him as an unworthy opponent. Walking down the hall in the hospital, someone called his name, "Shindou." Hikaru looked up at the gray-haired man.

"Touya Sensei. Mrs. Touya." the pro addressed the former Meijin and his wife with a bow. Recognizing him as one of the visitors of her husband several years ago, the woman returned his greetings with a slight bow and a warm smile.

"I didn't know you've come back from China, Sensei," Hikaru said.

"I just returned last week," Touya Koyo replied. "I'm here for my regular cardio checkups."

"I see," the blond smiled politely. Meanwhile, the man asked his wife to wait for him in the car in order to give them some privacy. After she had left, Touya suddenly spoke, "Have you been playing Internet Go, Shindou?"

"Huh?" Hikaru looked at him, a little startled by the question. "Y-yes."

"So it was you, who have been playing against Sai lately," Touya paused as the boy nodded. The man gazed at nothing in particular, and asked, "Do you know why I retired?"

"Wasn't it because you lost to Sai?" The pro thought it was pretty obvious.

"I didn't just do it to keep a promise. I wanted to become stronger. Being a multi-title holder prevented me from playing strong opponents other than the same group of pros all year long," he continued with a confident smile. "After I retired, I finally had a chance to train myself over in China. I had the opportunity to battle against and study with all kinds of outstanding pros."

Hikaru studied the man quietly, not sure where he was getting at.

"It's been two years. And now, I've become stronger, Shindou. A lot stronger," Touya Koyo's eyes turned to meet Hikaru's, and requested in a serious yet desperate tone. "I wish for a chance to play Sai again."


A/N: You know what's the most annoying thing? Making up titles for each chapter. Look how cheesy all of them are, especially that last one, "I See" Can it get any worse?? Every time I upload a chapter, I had trouble making a title up. Next time, I'm just gonna write "Chapter 1, 2, 3 ...etc" for all of them. If you have a better title for "I see", please lemme know!

Anyway, this chapter is long! Twice the length of previous chapters~! Not really used to it, so I got bored editing ...sorry if there are mistakes. I'm glad that people are still reading though! I thought everyone left town or something. Halcyon Clouds, I know I'm not the best at describing...I'd love to if I have more vocabs to use I guess, but too bad I suck in English, not to mention that I don't know how to play Go, so can't really describe Go games much either. Gomen!! But thanks for tip, I'll try my best to work on it.^_^

Up Next: Isn't it pretty obvious what's gonna happen next? Fujiwara Sai vs Touya Koyo. (either that or something that leads to that)