Disclaimer: I do not own anything but the story plot, JKR owns all of this, and yes I am extremely jealous.

Summary: Hermione is given the advice to write a memoir. She reflects on her past telling us the story of what her life was like after the downfall of Voldemort. No longer a little girl, the woman of 24 tells us her story. How she hid from the world but at the same time found herself falling in love. Even if she denied it from the start. ~ A glimpse into the life of 24 year old Hermione Granger as she tackles the obstacles of friends, family, work, luck, mistakes, challenges, lessons and love. Prepare yourself, you have no idea what you have just gotten yourself into.

Note: Thank you in advance for taking the time out to read this. It's a work in progress, which basically means I have no idea how often I can post. But hopefully with your support I'll find the strength to get at least one chapter up per week. I hope you enjoy this story and please when you're done review. The beginning of the story is told in first person and then it changes when we get to the actual story. Sorry if its confusing but I think you will catch on.

Chapter 9 ~ When Things Couldn't Get Any Worse

Hermione stopped short in her tracks and cursed to herself. She could feel George's hands pressed firmly on her shoulders. Turning around slowly Hermione winced, she wasn't sure what to expect.

" Colin Creevy! How are you? "Ginny's back was still facing Hermione and George. " I can't believe I ran into you! " Ginny hugged him tightly.

" We should have stayed under the table until we were certain they were gone! " Hermione whispered.

" We can still get out of here…come on…" George pulled her towards the back entrance as Hermione stared up at Ginny and Draco.

Out of the corner of her eye Hermione saw Draco shoo her off, he was right it was now or never. Pushing through the back entrance George let out a sigh of relief, Hermione however paced nervously back and forth.

" This is a sign George…maybe we shouldn't date, maybe this is a mistake…" slouching against the back wall of the Leaky Cauldron she threw her hands over her face. " I shouldn't be doing this to myself…"

" Doing what? Having a good time? Enjoying life? Honestly Hermione, I thought of all people you would understand what it means to live! How many times did you stare death in the face? " He moved to her side, " Why stop something that you're obviously enjoying? "

" Because I don't want to hurt people I care about! "

" But if your happy, don't you think they would be happy? The more I think about us hiding this…the more I feel that its because of me…are you embarrassed of me…" pushing away from the wall, Hermione could see the crimson color that George's face had turned.

" It has nothing to do with that George, you know that….we discussed this already…I don't want to ruin any friendships…and if anyone found out, like Ginny or Ron, they would blow things out of proportion so much…"

" Well maybe they wouldn't, but how will we ever know if we keep this a secret! " the tone of his voice was harsh and cold. " It just doesn't make any sense to me. "

" Well it makes perfect sense to me. " she retorted

" Well of course it would, your Hermione Granger, everything makes sense to you…" he mumbled under his breath

" That hurt George. " Hermione's face dropped towards the floor. " Why are we arguing…why are we doing this? "

" Because you need to sort out your priorities Hermione…I'll talk to you tomorrow. " he walked away, leaving her standing in the cold.

Those words blinked heavily in my mind. I can recall it like it was yesterday. And maybe George was right, maybe my priorities had been backwards, but maybe he didn't understand anything I was saying. I look back on that night and wish I had run after him, explained to him right there the real reason I wanted to keep our relationship a secret…but instead I went home, drowning in my own self pity. It was rather stupid of me when I think of it now, but I was too stubborn…Im still too stubborn.

That night I sat in my bed and thought about what I was doing. The moonlight crept through my window and danced happily on my walls. Unfortunately I wasn't as happy. My heart felt as though someone had ripped it out, stomped on it, and then chucked it back inside my chest…it wasn't a pleasant feeling. Was this love? Was it guilt? Or was I just denying something from myself. When I eventually fell asleep that night I had a dream. Thousands of pixies had swarmed around me. I ran into a cave for cover and became lost. Now I wasn't exactly sure what that all meant, but someone else had a more meaningful dream…

" Hermione you look terrible! " Emily squealed as Hermione walked into the office.

" Gee, thanks Emily…" Hermione slummed into her chair and brushed her hair out of her face. " I had such a terrible night sleep, Rusty ripped through my brand new dress robes, and then on top of that I was cursed with the weirdest dream of all times. "

" Really? You should have been in here about ten minutes ago, Ron was just looking for you, he said he had a strange dream as well. " Emily turned back to her work and cursed. " Dumb muggles! "

A pang of emotion exploded in Hermiones gut. 'What kind of dream could Ron be having, and why would he want to tell me?' Rising quickly in her seat Hermione walked towards the office door.

" Emily, Im going to go look for Ron, if you need me just give a yell. " Hermione opened the door and let it close softly behind her. The hallways of the building were bustling with lots of people and Hermione strode over to Rons office. Knocking softly she opened the door and stuck her head inside.

" Hey Ron, were you looking for me? " she stepped inside as Ron looked up from his work.

" Mione, Im so glad you're here! Come sit. " He rose from his desk and grabbed her by the arm. "You are not going to believe the weird dream I had last night. " He dropped Hermione in one of his chairs.

" Ron calm down, it was only a dream! " she laughed a bit and rubbed her elbow, which she had hit on the edge of the chair.

" No it was more than a dream, it was a sign! " he sat back in his chair and shook his head, " I just cant believe it all came to me in a dream. "

" Tell me! " she was growing impatient, one thing Hermione hated was procrastination.

" Well in my dream you were sitting at the kitchen table…at the Burrow. You were talking to someone, I presumed it was me because it was my dream…anyway…you were going on and on about living life…following your heart, how you regretted never taking a stand, and then you did something that took me by total surprise…you kissed me. It was so odd, I mean…Hermione, you don't have any feeling for me do you? " Ron shot her a quizzical face.

" Ron! This is absurd! Dreams are dreams and nothing more, " Hermione stood from her chair and laughed, " You honestly thought that, that dream meant I had secret feelings for you…ha ha…" she laughed again and clutched her stomach. The tears fell heavily down her face and her body shook uncontrollably.

" Well it must mean something Hermione. The only reason I was so concerned about it was because Parvati had given me a potion to take before bed last night, it was supposed to make me clear my head and dream of happy and pure things. " He blinked hard and rubbed his forehead, " And then instead of dreaming about my fiancée, I dream about you kissing me! "

" Ron, did you actually see your lips touch mine? " Hermione crossed her arms over her chest.

" No…like I said I saw you talking to someone…and it was my dream…who else would it be? " he shot her an angry look.

" Why are you getting angry? "

" Am I not good enough for you Hermione? "

" Ron what are you talking about? Are you listening to yourself? You sound ridiculous! You're engaged to Parvati…why are you letting this little dream bother you so much? " Her voice had risen quite a few decibels.

" You didn't let me finish…When I woke up this morning Parvati asked me how I slept…I told her fine and she got all excited. You see she was testing out a new Divination formula that would allow people to have premonitions while they sleep. She hasn't worked out all the kinks yet, but it did work…" his voice trailed off as he looked at the shocked expression on Hermiones face. " That's why I wanted to see how you felt…the premonitions showed me. "

Hermione took a deep breath and rubbed her temples. She was silent, and so was Ron…the uncomfortable feeling in the room had risen to an all time high. Ron moved back from his desk and over to Hermione.

" Don't worry Hermione, I totally understand what you're going through. When you and Harry dated awhile back I felt so left out…not part of the circle anymore. I can see how you feel this way with Harry and I getting married…you feel like we are going to leave you out. Don't worry Hermione, you will find someone soon, and even if you don't we will still be your friends. " His smile faded quickly from his face when he looked at the torn up emotions of Hermione.

" Oh…so you will still be my friends even though Im alone? Is that what your trying to say? That even though I don't have a love life I will be lucky enough to have you guys as friends…Sometimes I don't understand the male species! " Hermione stormed out of the room.

" Hermione? " Ron chased after, " What's wrong? "

" It seems as though you have found the wrong words to say! It must be a male Weasley gene! " Turning around again she huffed away.

' I cant believe Ron would say that….or think that…or dream that! ' Hermione thought as she stormed away from his office.

' But what if his dream was a premonition…he did say that Parvati didn't work out all the kinks…what if Ron was seeing me with George?! '

Hermione stopped, and thought about the possibility. Then without looking back at Ron she headed back to her office. There was going to be a major conversation with him sooner or later, and Hermione hoped for the sooner rather than the later.

Ron scratched his head and continued to stand by the office door. " What do you mean a male Weasley gene? " he called after her.

Special Thanks:

JoeBob1379: I know, Im an evil cliff hanger witch! Im sorry! I cant help it sometimes. Im glad I answered your questions! Thanks for your review. ( Both of them!!)

Sneezy Mouse: Hey rambling is cool…especially when you are right. I know a total cliché soap turn out but oh well…it fit the story! Besides George got to say some cool mean lines to Hermione. If Ginny had seen them he wouldn't have been able to fight with her afterwards.

Cinnamon: Well I hope you got your answer. Thanks for reviewing!!

SweetGinny: Yeah I think Hermione should have loosened up as well ( I would have gone for it!!) Thank you for your SWEET review!

JAMTillDawn: Ahh yes you are a loyal…and I thank you for your wonderful review. So many things are going to be happening soon! Hermione should prepare herself! Again Thanks for your wonderful review!

Faith McKay: I know FFN is slow sometimes, but I hope you got to read chapter 8! Thanks for the review.

Digi-rain: Like I said, Im the evil cliffhanger witch. Seriously I bet before this story is done there will be huge cliffhangers that make this one look like nothing! Thank you for your kind words!

When you finish reading this please click on the box and review for me! I like writing these little notes at the end! If you feel compelled to flame go ahead. But be warned, I have obtained the 5th Harry Potter book and have soaked it in gasoline…flame if you dare…mwahahahaha!