Wow! Thanks for reading my third chapter. Oh, yeah I kept on
forgetting the disclaimer. Evangelion is owned by Gainax and not me.
Well, you can now read. ^_^
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Shinji woke up to someone shaking him. His tired eyes opened and he saw Asuka was the one shaking him. "You better thank me for waking you up so you won't be late to school!" He rubbed his eyes and clearly saw her enraged face. It was typical to see her like this in the morning so he couldn't help smiling at the fact nothing had changed. She didn't exactly seem to be as happy as he was. He got up and started to get ready for school while she was impatiently tapping her foot. Shinji looked at his reflection and fixed his hair but saw Asuka was brushing her hair out of her face. "Hurry up Shin-chan!" He ran to his room and got his book bag as fast as he could. Both of them went running to class and made it before the bell rang.
Typically Rei wasn't there and the teacher sighed in irritation that she was missing too much school. Everyone in the class was worried about her being gone for so long. Shinji stared at his laptop ignoring what the teacher was writing on the board. He felt like someone was looking at him, he turned and noticed both Asuka, and Kaworu were gazing at him. They both automatically looked back at the teacher once he saw them. Asuka still kept on staring but with the corner of her eye though. Shinji wondered what was wrong with both of his friends or just to make it worse; what was wrong with him.
Before Shinji knew it lunch bell rang and Asuka was trying to get his attention. "It's time for lunch." Shinji sighed.
"I'm not hungry." Asuka sat on the desk in front of him and gave him a worried smile.
"A growing boy like you should eat more to grow up nice and tall. Then you could become a grown man, you know like the kind that isn't starving himself. Not to mention you need to gain weight." She pinched his stomach in response to her pun. "See nothing to pinch."
"You know I usually don't eat in the first place."
"Then why do you still make lunch for yourself?" He questionably looked at his bag of lunch and shrugged.
"I don't know anymore." Asuka pet his head and stood up.
"You're weird," she walked away to Hikari who was waiting for her in the hall. Shinji still sat in his desk in the isolated classroom. No one was with him so he just looked out the window were the sun was hidden by the clouds covering the blue sky. Everything was dark when the sun was completely covered and the whole place became quieter than before. He was miserable but just couldn't talk to anyone about it. Shinji covered his face with his hands and silently cried.
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Asuka ran into the apartment and threw her bag onto the couch enthusiastically. She was glad that the school day was over and that she didn't have any homework. Shinji walked in with a gloomy face but was surprised when Misato approached him with a happy face. "Hi Shin-chan." The woman waved at him hoping Shinji was just as happy as she was. He forced a smile on his face and without a word to his guardian, enclosed himself in his room. Asuka sighed as Shinji passed by her. She brushed her hair onto her back and knocked on his door.
He slid it open and saw Asuka who was in a good mood which was a rare event. "So you could know, I'll make lunch later tonight. I'm not exactly up for it okay."
"What's wrong with you? Is it because we almost kissed yesterday?" Misato was peeking from around the corner and gasped but tried to not make any noise.
"Damn it I shouldn't have left them alone," she mumbled to herself. Asuka lightly pushed Shinji so she could enter his room. She jumped back when she saw how neat it looked. Everything was stacked on top of each other and everything was in the right places.
"Shinji" She turned to look at his face. "We're alone," she decided to get to the point. "About us almost kissing, I'm sorry if I led you on. I just don't like you in that way." He stared at their feet as he felt his heart begin to ache. His eyes closed halfway, trying to hold back any tears.
"I came to expect that statement Asuka. But tell me why did you waste your first kiss on me that other time?" Asuka shrugged.
"I guess I was so excited to grow up and you were the first available guy that was in my grasp," suddenly there was an awkward silence as Asuka tried to think of what else to say. She looked at his dark blue eyes and touched his face. Suddenly she kissed him. Shinji raised his arms but didn't know if he could hold her in his arms. She closed her eyes and stroked his face as if she loved him with all her heart. Then she reluctantly let go of his lips and blushed. Shinji had a surprised look on his face because it was so sudden to him.
"Why did you just kiss me Asuka?" Shinji didn't know what to think anymore. She had clearly stated that she wasn't interested in him but the kiss just threw him off track of thought. Asuka looked at him with full of surprise and ran out the door. He touched his lips with his fingertips remembering when her warm lips were planted on them. He shook his head as if trying to forget about what had just happened but he found he couldn't.
Then someone knocked on his door and he heard Misato's worried voice, "Shinji I'm gonna come in" She slowly slid the door open and saw Shinji trying to wipe his mouth, worried he might have lipstick on him. Misato smiled at him," Did Asuka just cuss you out or something because she was in here for a while." Shinji nodded at her and was hoping she wouldn't ask him anymore questions.
"She just talked to me for a while."
"About what? Are you two friends because that would scare me," she said as she fixed her hair because she had just finished changing.
"No not that I know of. She just helped me with a problem I didn't know. You know she really smart for a person her age, I guess she's a genius when it comes to schooling."
"I wouldn't exactly say that, her grades are extremely low. Maybe German education is much different from Japanese schooling. All I can say is that don't exactly depend on the answer or the explanation she gave you." Asuka opened the abruptly to see Misato and Shinji talking about her. Both of the victim's eyes widened at the sight of an angered Asuka who was twitching. She glared at them and walked away in a huff. As if everything wasn't already going wrong, now even Misato was talking behind her back.
"Oh I was the one who was talking about you're bad grades. Shinji was just complementing you."
. Shinji didn't say anything but just blushed as he saw her pass by. He felt weird about her so he tried his best to not draw any attention to himself.
"I'll get you later my little Shin-chan," she said ruthlessly from across the hall. "I know you were talking about me too." Shinji shivered at the thought of being beat up again. Misato smiled at Shinji and pet his head.
"Remember to start making dinner tonight, Shinji." Shinji closed his eyes as Misato slid the door closed. Her statement didn't really assure him at all but stressed him more. He knew that if he even walked out his bedroom door that Asuka would beat him up so he stayed in his room for as long as he could.
A few minutes later Misato knocked on his door and announced," Uhh. Shinji I'll be going out tonight so I'll leave you alone with Asuka. Remember Shinji FIGHT BACK!!!" Shinji forced a smile at Misato's advice that would never work when it came to him. He closed his eyes expecting for Asuka to storm in his room once Misato slammed the front door. Instead, she knocked on the door.
"Shinji, I want to talk to you about something." Shinji sat up and slowly slid the door open. She blinked and suddenly she looked like she was innocent at that moment. "Hello Shinji," she smiled at him, "don't you dare tell anyone about what happened." Shinji felt another blow and he felt worse.
"I know you lowered your standards and you don't want anyone to know about it. I am an embarrassment to you, so why don't you go away before someone catches us actually talking." He looked at the floor tightly gripping the bed sheets as he felt tears falling down his face.
"Wow you really understand me! You just saved me all of the excruciating explaining." It hurt him when she admitted to his sarcastic remark and he turned away from her as the pain worsened like someone had stabbed his heart. He stood up angrily. He had enough and everything he had kept inside was causing him to feel aggressive.
"You bitch!" He slapped her as if all that was bottled up had exploded in that one slap. Asuka touched where he had hit her. "I've had enough!"
"What the hell was that for! Why did you hit me! I was just saying the truth Shinji," she ran away from him to go get an ice pack because her face was swelling. He ran after her and grabbed her arm to make her stop running away from him. She pulled her arm away and gave him a cold glare. "Now I'm gonna be so embarrassed when I go to school with a big bruise! I hate you!"
"Guess how I feel everyday. You just got what you always gave to me." Asuka backed away from him so she wouldn't be too close to him. She got out an ice pack and placed it on her cheek.
"You know it's against the rules to hit a girl. I'm just going to tell Misato about you hitting me and we'll both see what happens to you," she smirked and turned away from Shinji.
Shinji walked away from her to his room and turned towards her suddenly," If you hated me so much then why did you kiss me two times?" He looked at her angered expression and ran into his room in fear of what might happen. Asuka thought to herself while sitting in the kitchen chair. Was she being too mean to everyone? She knew that she had hurt Shinji so many times but she didn't want to be too nice to him. The thing she was scared of most was actually falling in love with someone that wasn't Kaji. Though she felt like she was drifting away from Kaji ever since he started dating Misato. He loved her with all his heart but Asuka didn't want to notice. She placed her hands on her face and rubbed her eyes to check if everything was dream.
Shinji laid himself on his bed in his dark and gloomy room. He helplessly wiped away his tears with his hands but the tears wouldn't stop. He didn't know what to think about Asuka because at times he hated her but then he still loved her. It made him feel angry towards her whenever she was being a nuisance and she didn't appreciate anything about him. All he wanted was some sort of acceptance from her or even for her to actually love him. Asuka knocked on his door. Shinji looked up as she slid it open. "Can't you just leave me alone!" he screamed at her hoping for her to leave.
Asuka wiped her tears and stared at him. "This is gonna have to stop, Shinji. We need to fix things up." Shinji raised his head and looked back at her.
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I hope you liked it. I don't really wish to make Asuka seem mean. She's like this because of all the things she's going through. I really like Asuka and at times I could relate with her. I just think she's a confused teenager like Shinji. And all you Kaworu fans, he's coming back next chapter. I hope you read chapter four because a lot of things will happen. Please review.
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Shinji woke up to someone shaking him. His tired eyes opened and he saw Asuka was the one shaking him. "You better thank me for waking you up so you won't be late to school!" He rubbed his eyes and clearly saw her enraged face. It was typical to see her like this in the morning so he couldn't help smiling at the fact nothing had changed. She didn't exactly seem to be as happy as he was. He got up and started to get ready for school while she was impatiently tapping her foot. Shinji looked at his reflection and fixed his hair but saw Asuka was brushing her hair out of her face. "Hurry up Shin-chan!" He ran to his room and got his book bag as fast as he could. Both of them went running to class and made it before the bell rang.
Typically Rei wasn't there and the teacher sighed in irritation that she was missing too much school. Everyone in the class was worried about her being gone for so long. Shinji stared at his laptop ignoring what the teacher was writing on the board. He felt like someone was looking at him, he turned and noticed both Asuka, and Kaworu were gazing at him. They both automatically looked back at the teacher once he saw them. Asuka still kept on staring but with the corner of her eye though. Shinji wondered what was wrong with both of his friends or just to make it worse; what was wrong with him.
Before Shinji knew it lunch bell rang and Asuka was trying to get his attention. "It's time for lunch." Shinji sighed.
"I'm not hungry." Asuka sat on the desk in front of him and gave him a worried smile.
"A growing boy like you should eat more to grow up nice and tall. Then you could become a grown man, you know like the kind that isn't starving himself. Not to mention you need to gain weight." She pinched his stomach in response to her pun. "See nothing to pinch."
"You know I usually don't eat in the first place."
"Then why do you still make lunch for yourself?" He questionably looked at his bag of lunch and shrugged.
"I don't know anymore." Asuka pet his head and stood up.
"You're weird," she walked away to Hikari who was waiting for her in the hall. Shinji still sat in his desk in the isolated classroom. No one was with him so he just looked out the window were the sun was hidden by the clouds covering the blue sky. Everything was dark when the sun was completely covered and the whole place became quieter than before. He was miserable but just couldn't talk to anyone about it. Shinji covered his face with his hands and silently cried.
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Asuka ran into the apartment and threw her bag onto the couch enthusiastically. She was glad that the school day was over and that she didn't have any homework. Shinji walked in with a gloomy face but was surprised when Misato approached him with a happy face. "Hi Shin-chan." The woman waved at him hoping Shinji was just as happy as she was. He forced a smile on his face and without a word to his guardian, enclosed himself in his room. Asuka sighed as Shinji passed by her. She brushed her hair onto her back and knocked on his door.
He slid it open and saw Asuka who was in a good mood which was a rare event. "So you could know, I'll make lunch later tonight. I'm not exactly up for it okay."
"What's wrong with you? Is it because we almost kissed yesterday?" Misato was peeking from around the corner and gasped but tried to not make any noise.
"Damn it I shouldn't have left them alone," she mumbled to herself. Asuka lightly pushed Shinji so she could enter his room. She jumped back when she saw how neat it looked. Everything was stacked on top of each other and everything was in the right places.
"Shinji" She turned to look at his face. "We're alone," she decided to get to the point. "About us almost kissing, I'm sorry if I led you on. I just don't like you in that way." He stared at their feet as he felt his heart begin to ache. His eyes closed halfway, trying to hold back any tears.
"I came to expect that statement Asuka. But tell me why did you waste your first kiss on me that other time?" Asuka shrugged.
"I guess I was so excited to grow up and you were the first available guy that was in my grasp," suddenly there was an awkward silence as Asuka tried to think of what else to say. She looked at his dark blue eyes and touched his face. Suddenly she kissed him. Shinji raised his arms but didn't know if he could hold her in his arms. She closed her eyes and stroked his face as if she loved him with all her heart. Then she reluctantly let go of his lips and blushed. Shinji had a surprised look on his face because it was so sudden to him.
"Why did you just kiss me Asuka?" Shinji didn't know what to think anymore. She had clearly stated that she wasn't interested in him but the kiss just threw him off track of thought. Asuka looked at him with full of surprise and ran out the door. He touched his lips with his fingertips remembering when her warm lips were planted on them. He shook his head as if trying to forget about what had just happened but he found he couldn't.
Then someone knocked on his door and he heard Misato's worried voice, "Shinji I'm gonna come in" She slowly slid the door open and saw Shinji trying to wipe his mouth, worried he might have lipstick on him. Misato smiled at him," Did Asuka just cuss you out or something because she was in here for a while." Shinji nodded at her and was hoping she wouldn't ask him anymore questions.
"She just talked to me for a while."
"About what? Are you two friends because that would scare me," she said as she fixed her hair because she had just finished changing.
"No not that I know of. She just helped me with a problem I didn't know. You know she really smart for a person her age, I guess she's a genius when it comes to schooling."
"I wouldn't exactly say that, her grades are extremely low. Maybe German education is much different from Japanese schooling. All I can say is that don't exactly depend on the answer or the explanation she gave you." Asuka opened the abruptly to see Misato and Shinji talking about her. Both of the victim's eyes widened at the sight of an angered Asuka who was twitching. She glared at them and walked away in a huff. As if everything wasn't already going wrong, now even Misato was talking behind her back.
"Oh I was the one who was talking about you're bad grades. Shinji was just complementing you."
. Shinji didn't say anything but just blushed as he saw her pass by. He felt weird about her so he tried his best to not draw any attention to himself.
"I'll get you later my little Shin-chan," she said ruthlessly from across the hall. "I know you were talking about me too." Shinji shivered at the thought of being beat up again. Misato smiled at Shinji and pet his head.
"Remember to start making dinner tonight, Shinji." Shinji closed his eyes as Misato slid the door closed. Her statement didn't really assure him at all but stressed him more. He knew that if he even walked out his bedroom door that Asuka would beat him up so he stayed in his room for as long as he could.
A few minutes later Misato knocked on his door and announced," Uhh. Shinji I'll be going out tonight so I'll leave you alone with Asuka. Remember Shinji FIGHT BACK!!!" Shinji forced a smile at Misato's advice that would never work when it came to him. He closed his eyes expecting for Asuka to storm in his room once Misato slammed the front door. Instead, she knocked on the door.
"Shinji, I want to talk to you about something." Shinji sat up and slowly slid the door open. She blinked and suddenly she looked like she was innocent at that moment. "Hello Shinji," she smiled at him, "don't you dare tell anyone about what happened." Shinji felt another blow and he felt worse.
"I know you lowered your standards and you don't want anyone to know about it. I am an embarrassment to you, so why don't you go away before someone catches us actually talking." He looked at the floor tightly gripping the bed sheets as he felt tears falling down his face.
"Wow you really understand me! You just saved me all of the excruciating explaining." It hurt him when she admitted to his sarcastic remark and he turned away from her as the pain worsened like someone had stabbed his heart. He stood up angrily. He had enough and everything he had kept inside was causing him to feel aggressive.
"You bitch!" He slapped her as if all that was bottled up had exploded in that one slap. Asuka touched where he had hit her. "I've had enough!"
"What the hell was that for! Why did you hit me! I was just saying the truth Shinji," she ran away from him to go get an ice pack because her face was swelling. He ran after her and grabbed her arm to make her stop running away from him. She pulled her arm away and gave him a cold glare. "Now I'm gonna be so embarrassed when I go to school with a big bruise! I hate you!"
"Guess how I feel everyday. You just got what you always gave to me." Asuka backed away from him so she wouldn't be too close to him. She got out an ice pack and placed it on her cheek.
"You know it's against the rules to hit a girl. I'm just going to tell Misato about you hitting me and we'll both see what happens to you," she smirked and turned away from Shinji.
Shinji walked away from her to his room and turned towards her suddenly," If you hated me so much then why did you kiss me two times?" He looked at her angered expression and ran into his room in fear of what might happen. Asuka thought to herself while sitting in the kitchen chair. Was she being too mean to everyone? She knew that she had hurt Shinji so many times but she didn't want to be too nice to him. The thing she was scared of most was actually falling in love with someone that wasn't Kaji. Though she felt like she was drifting away from Kaji ever since he started dating Misato. He loved her with all his heart but Asuka didn't want to notice. She placed her hands on her face and rubbed her eyes to check if everything was dream.
Shinji laid himself on his bed in his dark and gloomy room. He helplessly wiped away his tears with his hands but the tears wouldn't stop. He didn't know what to think about Asuka because at times he hated her but then he still loved her. It made him feel angry towards her whenever she was being a nuisance and she didn't appreciate anything about him. All he wanted was some sort of acceptance from her or even for her to actually love him. Asuka knocked on his door. Shinji looked up as she slid it open. "Can't you just leave me alone!" he screamed at her hoping for her to leave.
Asuka wiped her tears and stared at him. "This is gonna have to stop, Shinji. We need to fix things up." Shinji raised his head and looked back at her.
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I hope you liked it. I don't really wish to make Asuka seem mean. She's like this because of all the things she's going through. I really like Asuka and at times I could relate with her. I just think she's a confused teenager like Shinji. And all you Kaworu fans, he's coming back next chapter. I hope you read chapter four because a lot of things will happen. Please review.
