Dear Diary,
My counselor Evan told me to write down my thoughts, feelings, and emotions in you. So I will. I will start by telling you how weird Evan is. She's like crazy! She's just weird! Yet, she made me think about a lot of things. She is a great counselor, in her own weird way.
Well, why don't I just right down the whole conversation:
Evan: Ginny, it is so nice to meet you. So tell me, why are you here?
Ginny: Cuz I do drugs and I need to get off of them. They will ruin my life if I don't. (At this time I was being sarcastic Diary!)
Evan: They already have, look at your friend Slash, she is dead.
Ginny: Drugs didn't do that!
Evan: Ginny, would Slash have been out at that place if she wasn't on drugs?
Ginny: No.
Evan: Would she have been there if you weren't there?
Ginny: No.
Evan: Would she have been there if you had refused the drugs when she handed them to you?
Ginny: I don't think so. She might, but probably not. Why? Why does it matter?
Evan: Ginny, you have ruined not only your life, but those around you. Because of you, Slash is dead, your brother Ron tried to kill himself, Fred and George aren't eating, and Harry is currently in St. Mungos. All because you took a little packet of drugs from one person. Doesn't that sound like a ruined life?
Ginny: Yes, but.....
Evan: But what?
Ginny: Isn't also Slash's fault? She is the one who gave them to me.
Evan: So if Hermione gave them to you, you wouldn't have taken them? or would you, seeing as you two or so close. Well, used to be. After all, you did start calling her mudblood , How do you think she feels? I bet pretty bad. She can't stop crying, and you are the reason why. Slash has very little to do with it. You have a mind, you think for your self. You could have said no. Instead, you said yes.
Ginny: So, everything that happened with my family is my fault?
Evan: Almost, but the thing is, you weren't there to see the good times. You were to busy trying to get hold of some drugs. Now it is time for you to go, I will see you next time, Ginny.
Ginny: Bye, Evan.
Okay, isn't she weird? But I was thinking about what she said, and she is right. Now I feel all guilty. Well, I have to go, mum is cooking dinner. Oh, I'm doing ok without the drugs. I didn't take a lot of them anyways.
Also, Draco Malfoy has been stopping by here a lot, I wonder why.
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A/N: Thankies to all you that reviewed, I feel so special! I d like to give a special thanks to my betareader/confidence booster, Kimberly a.k.a Pink-Crane. You are a great helper!
fcuking cathy: Thankies! I'm glad you like it. The plot is sorta of difficult, but it will work.
Pink-Crane: Thanks a lot! Also, I sorta explained why Draco is being nice. It is because he also did drugs once, and he knows what its like. You will find out more about what happened to Ginny before the story started. I swear. I have it all worked out in my head! Also, thanks for saying you'd be my beta reader!
Anyone else I didn't name, thanks! My reviews aren't all there, so you know how it is! I love you all!
