SHOW ME BY Konnie

A/N: I know nothing makes sense now, but there's a plot here somewhere. Trust me. And I happen to think it's a good one. By the way, I forgot to add a disclaimer on the first chapter. They really should just put one big giant disclaimer on the front page, since there's nothing but ff on this site now.

DISCLAIMER: This belongs to clamp.

TIMELINE: Post-show, Post-2nd movie

RATING: R (for violence and disturbing imaginary! Get your mind out of the gutter! Oh, ok, I'll be good, there'll be a little shounen ai loving in this too. But nothing too explicit. Oh no! what kinda girl you think I am?! I may read it! I may think about it! But I'll never write it! ;) )

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CHAPTER TWO

~I never really understood why you left me. You said you had to, that you were tired of this world. But I missed you. I still do. I wonder if you ever loved me as anything more than your creature. And now you hand me over to a new owner, to a new lover. But I love you! Can't you see? And every time I find myself staring into those deep black eyes I feel like I'm loosing myself. I won't forget you, I wont let you make me forget again.~

Sakura Kinomoto was a happy girl. It's funny how different happiness feels once you've lost it and found it again. Her happiness used to be pure, yes. Complete, even. But she wouldn't trade her current happiness for the previous one. Because this one was more real. The same could be said about her love for that special person.

Her twelfth birthday was approaching and she could tell that now she was a bit older she could understand better a lot of things. One of those things being the strange behaviour of her best friend. For years Tomoyo had done things she couldn't comprehend. Her friend's devotion towards her had always seemed bizarre but she'd figured that was the way Tomoyo was with all her close friends. But now she was older and she knew better. And that was why she wasn't resentful when Tomoyo started spending more time with her new "friend", Tanaka Kaoru. A new student of the sixth grade that had clicked with the black haired girl immediately. Now she was older and she could be happy for her dear friend.

Luckily though, that didn't mean Tomoyo cared for her any less. They still spend most of their time together, only now Tanaka-chan would always be with them. Just as Shaoran did when he was in town. And of course, she still had the little pink mobile phone her friend had given her as a gift, which meant 24 hours coverage on any news and eventualities that were worth sharing. Since the debacle with the cards and Clow Reed had ended, Sakura had found a new interest for gossip. And gossip was what she was doing that autumn evening on her way back home.

". . . And Rika told me why Chiharu-chan and Yamazaki-kun weren't at math class today!" Tomoyo said with her usual enthusiasm. Sakura chuckled.

"I think I have an idea of the why too! I want to know how they managed to sneak out though!" Sakura and Tomoyo laughed in unison. But Tomoyo's voice sobered for a moment.

"Have you told Li-kun about the news?"

"Not yet. . ." she shook her head even if Tomoyo couldn't see her. ". . . you know how stubborn he is. I'm sure he'd take the first flight to Japan if he knew Eriol was visiting. I think he's still jealous. But I guess that wouldn't be so bad after all. I really miss him, you know?"

"Yeah, I know. Well, it would be nice to see Li-kun again. And I'm curious of Eriol's reasons to come back to Tomoeda. Do you think he's planning something funny?"

Sakura laughed now.

"No, no. I made him promise: No flying penguins, no killer pianos, nothing!"

"Good!" Tomoyo laughed.

"Well, I'm at the front door now. I hope I'm not too late. It's my turn to make dinner, and Yukito's dining with us."

"Say hello to Yukito-kun and your brother for me. Bye friend."

"Bye Tomoyo, have fun."

It was the beep of the end button what made it obvious to her the silence of the house. This was highly unusual. Touya and Yukito were always doing something when they were home. If they weren't cooking, they would be chatting away in the living room or watching TV and looking positively crazy about each other. Yes, she was older now, and one thing she couldn't understand was why they were always doing something but the one thing they obviously wanted to be doing. Maybe she needed to be even older to understand that.

But as it was, the house was silent. She saw the empty cups and plates on the coffee table, so she knew they'd been there not long ago. She'd figured they probably went out to get something else to eat for Yukito, but one glance at the hanger and she knew she'd been wrong, since both coats were still hanging from it. Maybe they'd finally stopped fooling themselves and were in Touya's room, "knowing each other better" or something. Sakura chuckled and started climbing the stairs as silently as she could to avoid disturbing them.

In the hallway though, that theory also proved wrong. Yukito was crouched next to Touya's door, face down, looking rather sad and definitively worried. Sakura approached him slowly and cleared her throat when she realised Yukito wasn't aware of her presence. He lifted his eyes to meet hers and smiled sweetly.

"Sakura, hi!" he said as cheerful as usual, but the smile never reached his eyes.

"Hi Yukito-kun. Is everything alright?" she asked cautiously, sitting beside him. "Did you and my brother had a fight?"

Was that possible?

Yukito sighed and shook his head no.

"I'm not sure. I don't think so. Touya seemed very upset all of the sudden. He locked himself in here and wont come out. I tried to talk to him, but he won't listen."

"Oh, I see. That's strange, but somehow, I'm not surprised." Sakura said somewhat sadly. And Yukito replied with an equally sad smile.

"He's been to tired and stressed out lately. I know. What with college just around the corner, all the time he spends working and. . . and. . . "

Sakura smiled reassuringly and took Yukito's hand in hers.

"He's told you not to worry about that. He doesn't resent you for loosing his powers. You know that!" Yukito smiled again.

"Yes, I know that. You're right. He probably just needs a good night sleep to be as good as new."

"I'm sure. Now, come on. I'll be in my room. Try to talk to him, and if he doesn't let you in, knock the door down. I give you my permission."

Now Yukito laughed and this time it did reach his eyes.

"Ok, thank you Sakura."

The grey haired boy watched as the girl he thought of as a little sister made her way towards her room and closed the door. He stood up and knocked on Touya's door once more.

"To-ya?"

"What?!" came the grumpy reply.

"Can I come in? Please?"

There was a long silence and Yukito could almost hear Touya sigh. He'd notice his koibito was doing a lot of that lately and he couldn't figure out why. Though somewhere in the corner of his mind, he knew. There was something he was missing and he was hurting Touya because of it, but he couldn't put his finger on it. Finally came the tired reply, barely audible.

"Come in, it's open."

Yukito walked in carefully into the dim lit room. It took him a few moments to find Touya, who was sitting in a dark corner of the room, hiding his face behind his long bangs.

"Are you ok To-ya? Did I do something wrong?"

"No, you didn't do anything. I'm ok." The taller boy answered, without sounding too convinced.

Yukito bit his lip and walked towards him. From a closer angle he could see his boyfriend's eyes, red and puffy from crying, and his chest ached at the sight.

"You've been crying? Why?"

Touya sighed yet again and stood up, wiping his face with his sleeve. He sat on his bed and patted the space beside it, and Yukito didn't waste a moment in occupy it. Touya took Yuki's hand and rubbed the knuckles tenderly with his thumb.

"Sakura's right. I'm just so tired." The dark haired boy rested his head on Yuki's shoulder and Yukito had his arms wrapped around him in an instant.

"Shhh. It's ok, To-ya. You need to rest. Why don't you get ready while I fix you something to eat? I'll bring it to you here, ok?" Touya nodded on his shoulder.

"Will you stay tonight?"

Yukito ran his fingers through the black locks and smiled.

"Ok, I'll stay. I'll bring the cot as well." He rose from the bed and was about to leave the room but Touya seized his wrist.

"You can use my bed, you know?" there wasn't any suggestions in his tone. Touya sounded desperate more than anything; but there was still something inside Yukito that paralysed him upon hearing those words. And then the sensation was gone, but the fear remained. Something was pulling him back, and he didn't know why or what. Quickly he hid his concern behind his trade mark smile.

"C'mon, To-ya! You won't get any rest if we both sleep on that tiny bed. Don't you think?"

And before he had time to hear a reply, he was out of the room and started making diner, immediately forgetting what had sent him fleeting away from his beloved Touya.

TBC