SHOW ME by Konnie

A/N: So, this is not the end, but...well, it's not, but it is, get me? I honestly don't know if the "scene", the one that had me rating this R on the first place, was even worth that rating. I turn red just to think I wrote that though. I think it's mild, and very tastefully done, but maybe I have no taste. You'll have to read and find out. It probably sucks anyway...The scene! Get your mind out of the gutter! :P

Another thing, I may have been a tad aggressive in my whole "no Japanese in fics" speech. I was talking for myself, I should have said that. As some of you may know, English is my second language, and it honestly becomes really hard to have to add other languages to the equation, hence, I didn't see the point. I apologize if it sounded like anything else.

Enjoy!

CHAPTER 10

Having recognised a problem might be the first step towards the solution, but Yue knew it didn't even meant knowing which way to start walking.



He watched the retreating figures of his mistress and her friends until he lost sight of them. Li's words lingered in his mind. Could it be true? Was he hiding behind Yukito? The brown-eyed kid had been right about everything else, hadn't he? The truth was, he didn't know for certain what role Yukito played in his life. He tried to look at his dilemma from an objective point of view, focusing on what he had in common with his alter instead of the difference.



He figured the natural thing to assume was that they were the same person, considering both shared the same body and one of them shared both their memories. Though that wasn't the only thing they shared. If he was honest, the line between him and Yukito had been fading for a while now. It had started when Touya had given him...them, his powers. That day, Yue had met the young man in person, and hadn't been able to get him off his thoughts ever since. When the thought of Touya got him off guard- and that was often- Yue would smile and forget about the continuous shadow over his soul. That was not supposed to happen, EVER. At least not until Clow returned.



That same day Yukito had found out he wasn't human, that all his life was a lie and that he'd deprived his best friend from his most precious gift. He'd lost a bit of the cheerfulness that had been he's most distinct feature.

And the one thing in common that this two seemingly opposite occurrences had been Touya.

Yue knew that Yukito was still Yukito and nothing more. But every time either him or Yukito would stare at Touya's eyes, or hear his voice speaking his,...their name with so much tenderness and love; every time the dark haired boy would touch Yukito, Yue couldn't really tell the difference.

Since the first day Yukito was awake to this world, while Yue still slept, Touya had been what united them. Those two years, all there was of him was Yukito, and he couldn't really say he hadn't lived back then. His memories of that time where as his own.

Thinking about it was starting to cause him a headache. Only Clow Reed could come up with something so complicated.

The bottom line was that no matter if Yue and Yukito were the same person. Yue was affecting Yukito's choices with his fears, and Yukito was confusing him with his love for Touya.

Whatever test Clow had planned, it had been left very clear it was intended for him. He knew he was failing miserably. He'd hurt his mistress, his friend. Sakura had said that the very same day she'd defeated him, and as time passed he realised it was true. Sakura had given him her friendship and he'd never truly appreciated it.

But at some point he'd accepted her as his new mistress. He could easily say he cared about her. He'd give his life for her and wouldn't regret it. He loved Sakura.

And Touya...?

Touya had been the same. He'd given him his friendship unconditionally. He'd given him part of his soul to keep him alive. And then he handed him his heart. Why hadn't he accepted Touya the same way?

He couldn't say he didn't feel anything for the dark boy. On the contrary, it was so overwhelming what Yue felt for him, so different from what he'd felt for Clow. But then it couldn't be love, could it? He'd love Clow.

Apparently his trail of thought hadn't proved to be any simpler than the previous one, since his headache was getting worse. He left his seat under the Sakura tree and concealed his wings so he could walk inside the hospital without having the staff thinking madness was contagious. Still, his attire wasn't as ordinary as to go around walking in public, so he tried to get there unseen.

Maybe seeing Touya would clear his thoughts now that he wasn't fighting them. It worked for Yukito.

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Walking down the hall, Yue could feel Clow's aura getting stronger. All that analysis about himself and his alter; about his obsession with the past; none of that answered why Clow was doing this. Couldn't he just talk to him about it like everyone else? Trust Clow to make a mess out of everything, Yue thought with mild amusement.

He stopped midway when he felt another aura coming from Touya's room. It was very much like his own, but this one had a slight warmth in it that he lacked. It felt like the power coming from the moon if the moon guardian had been Kerberos, and Yue immediately knew who it was. Filled with unease, Yue speeded up his pace and pay no attention to the noise he made when he slammed the door to Touya's room open.

The moonlight outlined a figure sitting beside the window, and the first thing Yue was able to distinguish was a flash of crimson. Dread crept into his heart when he realised Touya's restrains had been undone and the bed was now empty.

"Hello Yue..." she said without turning her head to look at him. "I thought you'd never come. I've been waiting here for a while. I even got a chance to see that little scene you all made down there." She pointed to the tree that had served him as a refuge just a few moments before.

Yue took a step towards her, cautiously. The last thing he needed was to provoke her into a fight, no matter how much he wanted to punch her ugly face.

"What are *you* doing here?!" Ruby Moon laughed.

"Afraid I've come to replace you... again?" Yue winced despite himself, and was surprised to see Ruby Moon's face softening. "I'm sorry, that was uncalled for. As much as I'd like it, ...I'm not here to fight you."

"Then why? What do you want and where's Touya?!" He tried to sound frightening, but came out looking scared. Usually Clow would send his guardians to do the dirty work, so to speak.

"One thing at a time, Yue. You wouldn't be able to understand it if I tell you all at once anyway," she mocked him.

Yue did his best to remain calmed.

"Answer me this then. Why is Clow doing this? I don't understand what good could come out of this..."

"See what I mean?" she laughed again. "Slow, slow Yue. Always so blind."

"But what does that...ANYTHING, have to do with Touya?! Why hurt him?!!"

Ruby Moon shook her head disapprovingly.

"Everything has a reason, Yue. Eriol might not be the most ethical person in the world when it comes to fixing a problem, but he means well and would never hurt poor Touya."

"He is hurting Touya!" Yue cried, more confused now than before.

"Oh, Yue..." She again regarded him with a hint of pity. "A human doesn't need magic to survive, that's true. But did you really think you could take that away from him, something he's lived with for his entire life, without hurting him?" Yue's eyes opened as big as saucers. Ruby Moon looked pensive for a moment and cheerfully raised a finger in the air. "If Touya had chosen me, he'd be alright now!"

"I...I never meant...he offered them to me...this," tears started forming in his eyes. "I never meant for this to happen!"

"If you'd done your part, it wouldn't have happened at all. Eriol just thought he'd make things a bit more obvious. I guess Touya wouldn't have ended in a hospital if it weren't for Eriol's intervention. But..."

"But what? What could have happened that'd be worse than this?!" he spat.

"He'd forget," she said simply. Yue shook his head.

"What?" he whispered.

"He'd forget. As simple as that. An ordinary human learns to live in a world without magic. Their feelings develop the way they should, detached from all that. Touya's feelings, about everything and everyone, were deeply attached to his perception of the world. That way of seeing and sensing what was around him, you took that away from him, and now he's starting to forget what it all feels like. He'd have died inside."

The pain in his chest was unbearable, too much for him to remain standing, so he sat on the floor resting his back on the bed. So, it was true, it was all his fault.

"I did this...I should have died..." he smiled sadly, letting out a heavy sigh. "I was ready to, I don't know why I accepted his offer...I..."

Ruby Moon sat beside him.

"Eriol didn't want you to die either," she said softly, "That was not an option. God only knows why, but he cares a lot about you." she placed a hand on his shoulder and Yue stared at her, a step away from freaking out from her kidness..

"Then...tell me. What can I do to help him? There must be something." He didn't know what was stranger, Ruby Moon taking pity of him or him accepting it. The red haired smiled.

"That's easy!" she cheered with her usual perky tone. Or was it Nakuru's? "All you have to do is love him." she said as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Yue shook his head, frustrated.

"I can't do that! I can't fall in love with someone at will! I don't love him!" he cried.

"You don't?" Ruby Moon asked, faking confusion. "Then what have you been doing this past three days, sitting by his side? Why are you in the verge of tears right now? Why did you just said you should have died, instead of him suffering? Are you that caring for people you don't love?"

Hearing her say those words seemed to make something click inside his brain. He stared at the void for a moment, realisation hitting him like a thousand bricks.

"Where's Touya?" he asked softly. From the corner of his eyes he saw her face falling.

"Well..." Yue didn't like her tone one bit, and stared at her intently, their 'moment' disappearing instantly.

"Where- is- he?!"

"As I said, Eriol never meant to hurt Touya, and since you weren't doing anything he thought he should..." she looked worried. Ruby Moon worried could not mean something good.

"What?!"

"He asked me to release him and said he'd take care of everything. He looked sad."

Yue didn't waste any time asking where Clow had taken Touya, he ran out of the room as fast as he could, trying to locate Clow's aura. The hospital seemed bathed in it, and to that he had to sum the countless amount of spirits that inhabited it. He cursed himself for not realising before and cursed the fact that he couldn't locate Touya's aura directly.



He was certain that they hadn't left the hospital, but they weren't anywhere in sight. A thought occurred him, remembering Clow's affection for high places. Yue didn't bother with the stairs; he found the nearest window and flew as fast as he could 'til he reached the roof. Yue took a shaky breath when he saw that Touya was actually there, minus Clow, standing on the edge opposite to him and showing remarkable interest for the abyss before him.

He thought about simply catching him and taking him to safety, but he figured Touya didn't know what he was doing, and might fight him in mid air. As strong as Yue was, he was still the smaller of the two, and didn't feel secure enough to try. For once he was reluctant about leaving the job to Yukito. He wanted to be the one to help Touya, but he figured Touya might trust Yukito better.

From behind Yukito's conscience, he paid particular attention to what was happening, hoping that his panic wasn't affecting Yukito. He couldn't tell though, since Yukito's own panic was more than palpable to him. He watched his alter approaching Touya carefully, determined to step in as soon as Yukito did something wrong.

"To-ya?" the grey haired boy said softly, inches away from his boyfriend. Touya didn't seem to hear him. Yue noticed that his eyes were still vacant. At least Touya wasn't porpously trying to kill himself, he guessed. That was good.

Yue ached to reach out and grasp Touya's hand, and was shocked when Yukito did exactly that. At that very moment, Yue felt something tugging at his powers. Yukito gasped and pulled his hand away. Apparently he'd felt it too. Touya on his part turned around to stare at his hand confusedly, still with his eyes fogged by madness. The taller boy frowned, and stared from the abyss to his hand several times. Yukito hesitantly reached out to touch Touya again, this time a little higher on his arm, and Touya let out a shaky breath, now staring at his elbow where Yuki's hand was.

Yue was beginning to understand and he only hoped Yukito wasn't as slow as he'd been. The tugging at his powers grew stronger as time passed. Yue felt the moment when Yukito put two and two together. Yukito smiled at Touya, never letting go of his arm.

"To-ya, why don't you come with me?" Yukito cooed. Touya seemed startled upon hearing Yuki's voice, but he stepped of the edge, letting Yuki guide him. Touya's eyes seemed to be going back to their usual glow, even if it was just a fraction of it.

Once Touya was safe, Yukito pulled him into his arms. It was Yue's turn to gasp, feeling like his life's energy was being dragged out of him. But the feeling of Touya in his arms was too good to let go of him, and for once he allowed himself to enjoy the sensation. Even with his hair mussed and a hospital robe, Touya looked simply gorgeous, and he was sure it had been him the one to make Yukito start caressing that beautiful dark hair, combing it with his fingers.

Both Yue and Yukito started feeling weaker by the second, and both of them realised they would probably disappear after giving Touya all his powers back. Without the need of his mistress powers, Yue had depended solely on Touya's ever since the transfer, and now there was nothing of Sakura's powers feeding him. Yukito didn't hesitate, willing to die for Touya. Yue did hesitate for a second, but it wasn't long enough to change his mind.

Yue didn't know whose idea it had been, but he didn't complain at all when Yukito gathered all the energy he had left and leaned to kiss Touya with all the passion he could muster. Sure that it was his last chance, Yue let himself go in the kiss. He heard Touya moan softly and inwardly smiled. Touya would know how much he loved him and he'd take the memory of him to the other side.

He didn't have the need for it, but apparently Touya still needed air to survive, and Yue moaned softly when the taller boy pulled away, panting. Touya stared at him curiously, still a bit confused.

"Yue?"

Shocked, Yue felt Yukito shake his head.

"No, it's me...I'm..." Yue almost panics hearing his own voice saying the words. Touya smiled and leaned to kiss him again. Whatever shock he'd felt melted into pleasure when Touya begun caressing him in a way Yue was sure it had to be forbidden by many laws. The dark hands were everywhere, exploring Yue's body. Yue felt clumsy, but tried to return the gesture.

The white angel tried desperately to rid Touya of his garment, not really sure why he needed to feel his skin so desperately. Before he knew what was happening, they were both lying naked on the cool stone floor, a mess of limbs and discarded clothing. Somehow, Yue didn't feel cold, not one bit, and his weakness was long forgotten. He could still feel his powers being dragged out of him, but amazingly enough, he could also feel Touya feeding them back to him, until Yue couldn't tell whose powers he was giving away and whose powers he was receiving. A blue glow started enveloping them, but both were to engrossed with the other to pay attention to it.

As their passion increased, they settled into a slow rhythm, and Yue felt himself malting away. He couldn't tell where he ended and Touya begun. He was giving himself completely to the taller boy without any feelings of regret.

As if it was even possible, Yue's pleasure increased to levels he wasn't sure he was able to endure. Apparently Touya was feeling the same; he started whispering his name over and over again. Later Yue couldn't remember which name he'd been calling. Suddenly Yue went blind, a pressure in his stomach literally bursting out of him.

The last thing he saw was Touya arching his back and yelling his name. He could have sworn he saw a set of cerulean wings spring from Touya's back before exhaustion won over him and he fell into a deep, pleasant sleep.

TBC (yes, it's not over yet.)